explain!Are you a man or a woman!Say loudly!
The drunk father completely lost his mind and asked loudly while beating Liu Haoqiang who was huddling in the corner.
man!I am a man!Stop hitting, I was wrong, I knew I was wrong... Liu Haoqiang held his body with both hands and begged for mercy loudly.
You're a shit man!You slutty!Freak!Broom Star... My father beat him even harder: Don’t cry!Men won’t cry!!
Domestic violence usually lasts for more than ten minutes until the father loses his strength and falls drunk on the sofa and sleeps soundly.
Liu Haoqiang wiped away his tears silently, cleaned up the messy living room, and even helped his father to the bed, then took out the medical box and applied disinfectant to his wounds.
Many times, Liu Haoqiang thought about closing the doors and windows of his home, going to the kitchen to turn on the gas, and going to hell with his father.
But she was both timid and cowardly. She only dared to think about it in her heart and had no courage to take action.
Last night, my father beat Liu Haoqiang because he saw a small red dot on her jeans that she didn't rush to clean, which was a blood stain from her period.
His father did not allow Liu Haoqiang to use sanitary napkins, which seemed dirty and unlucky in his opinion, but Liu Haoqiang had no better way to deal with physiological phenomena, so he could only use toilet paper to solve the problem.
Several times, she made a fool of herself because of this incident and became a laughing stock in the whole class. Her female classmates were alienated from her, her male classmates excluded her, and she had no friends.
The head teacher attached great importance to this matter and specially visited the home to talk to Liu Haoqiang's father about this matter.
My father agreed to it well. As soon as the teacher left, he beat Liu Haoqiang up and called her a shameful thing.
In the end, the physiological problem still fails to be solved, as if everyone pretends that it does not exist, the matter will disappear on its own.
At this moment, Liu Haoqiang got up, walked into the cramped kitchen, opened the refrigerator, took out the cold and hard steamed buns, put them in the rice cooker and steamed them, a little pickled vegetables, and prepared a small bowl of white wine. This is the breakfast prepared for his father.
If she is not ready, she may be beaten again when she comes home from school.
After finishing everything, Liu Haoqiang returned to the room, stood in front of the mirror, took off his shirt, took out a long bandage, and wrapped the well-developed upper circles tightly until there was almost no amplitude visible from the side.
Then, she put on a boy's school uniform, carried a schoolbag, and had short hair, like a pretty boy.
Liu Haoqiang stared at herself in the mirror and began to practice the carefree smile that boys had. She had to make herself look more like a boy so that she could get a little respect from her male classmates and not be bullied.
Just as she was almost practicing, the wound on her collarbone throbbed and sucked.
A clear morning light shone into the room, and a touch of white appeared in the mirror, blurring her face.
Suddenly, an unprecedented boredom, fatigue, and deep disgust rose deep in Liu Haoqiang's heart, a disgust for his father, a disgust for himself, and a disgust for the world.
Ah！！
Liu Haoqiang screamed and smashed the wardrobe mirror with one punch. Blood flowed from her white fingers and joints, and the boy in the mirror was broken.
Liu Haoqiang threw away his schoolbag, took off his clothes, and pulled off the bandage on his chest roughly. She stepped onto the small stool beside her and took a small brown suitcase from the top of the wardrobe, which contained the little red dress her mother wore when she got married.
She put on her skirt and applied the blood from her fingers to her lips, like bright lipstick.
She walked into the kitchen and poured all the breakfast she was still preparing into the trash can.
Then, she walked out of the house with satisfaction and loneliness.
Liu Haoqiang was wearing a retro red dress and barefoot, quickly passing through the corridor of the tube building full of clothes, bed sheets, pickled vegetables and bacon. The early neighbors looked at her with surprise, but did not dare to come forward to talk.
Soon, Liu Haoqiang left this suffocating tube building. She came to the main road. The awakened town was thriving and full of vitality. The warm morning light dyed the wet streets that had rained in the middle of the night.
Liu Haoqiang walked across the sidewalk, and opposite was a group of workers in dark blue work clothes, walking over bustlingly. Liu Haoqiang shuttled among them, like a red dolphin swimming across the sea.
Liu Haoqiang's steps became lighter and more and more freely, and she felt unprecedented happiness. She hummed a song, spinning and jumping from time to time, trying to enjoy the sunshine, the fragrance of flowers and the morning dew, just like the innocent princesses in the fairy tale who had just escaped from the castle.
More than ten minutes later, she came to a small river, walked up the stone arch bridge, and stood in the middle of the bridge.
The brief happiness and freedom built on madness have been overdrawn, and then there is a deeper despair and confusion.
She climbed onto the guardrail of the stone bridge, faced the morning breeze, and looked at the river beneath her feet.
This small river is up to ten meters wide and two meters deep, and the water flow is not fast, but it is enough for a girl who can't swim and is determined to die.
Liu Haoqiang took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and imagined himself as a bird that was shot and was about to carry it down.
Aren't you, you die in such a stinky ditch?
A girl's voice came from behind, with a clear and beautiful voice, but with a little slutty smell.
Liu Haoqiang was shocked and almost fell down. She waved her arms to maintain her balance and slowly looked back sideways.
A girl wearing a high school uniform was standing on a bicycle. She held the front of the bike with her hands crossed and smiled with a cool and joking smile on her face.
She is very beautiful, with big and bright eyes, a high nose bridge, and a pointed chin. She looks energetic and cute, but also has a bit of ostentatiousness and unruly.
You, who are you?Liu Haoqiang asked.
Don't bother me, aren't you going to jump into the river?The girl still smiled, don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to persuade you, I was just surprised. Some people really want to die in this kind of stinky ditch, this is too bad.
It doesn't matter.Liu Haoqiang smiled self-deprecatingly: It's death anyway...
It's Ah!The girl slapped her thighs excitedly: Anyway, why not find a better place?This river used to be OK, but now, residents' daily water and excrement are discharged into it. Tsk, it's so dirty, it's all bacteria...
Liu Haoqiang subconsciously thought it through and felt disgusted.
And there are water snakes, eels, insects and the like in this river. Think about it, after you die, they all drill into your mouth, lay eggs in your body, and then give birth to a large number of small water snakes...
Uh... The girl hugged herself exaggeratedly: Just thinking about it, I got goosebumps all over.
Liu Haoqiang's face was pale and he had goosebumps on his body.
By the way, have you seen the sea?The girl thought freely and asked enthusiastically.
Liu Haoqiang shook his head.
I have never seen it before. I am saving money. The goal is to take a cruise and take a look at the sea after graduating from high school.The girl said, how about it, do you want to be together?
Ah?Liu Haoqiang thought he had heard it wrong.
You can jump into the sea at that time. Isn’t this better than jumping into a stinky ditch?The girl said sincerely.
Liu Haoqiang tried to think about it, but he was moved: It's Ah, but he's going to die anyway, why don't you choose a better place, the sea, how beautiful it is.
Then let's say it.The girl blinked her left eye and said, "Oh, don't stand on it, you look so stupid."
Liu Hao, who was standing on the stone guardrail, had a red and white face, and he slowly squatted down.
It was time to say that the girl pushed the bicycle and stepped forward with a big step, grabbed Liu Haoqiang's hand, and pulled it into the bridge with force.
Liu Haoqiang plunged into the girl's arms, and the two fell on the bridge together.
The girl hugged Liu Haoqiang with both hands, making her hug her so much that she couldn't breathe, for fear that she would run away.
The girl shouted excitedly: Why are you so young that you can’t think of Ah!Are you worthy of the parents who gave birth to you and raised you?You're too selfish...
When Liu Haoqiang heard this, the grievances that had been suppressed for more than ten years suddenly surged into his heart, like a volcano erupting.
What do you know?My mom died long ago!My dad hates me. He beats me every time he gets drunk and uses a belt to slap me... his classmates hate me, exclude me, and no one is friends with me... I am selfish when I live, I am better when I die, and I am good to everyone...
The girl was stunned: This... is too miserable, right?
Wow Ah... Liu Haoqiang burst into tears.
Hey, hey hey?
The girl was still lying on the ground, and was at a loss for a moment. She kept patting Liu Haoqiang's back: Actually, this person should be selfish. You, don't care too much about other people's eyes, you should live for yourself... Classmate, don't cry, can you get up first? My legs are numbed by you...
The drunk father completely lost his mind and asked loudly while beating Liu Haoqiang who was huddling in the corner.
man!I am a man!Stop hitting, I was wrong, I knew I was wrong... Liu Haoqiang held his body with both hands and begged for mercy loudly.
You're a shit man!You slutty!Freak!Broom Star... My father beat him even harder: Don’t cry!Men won’t cry!!
Domestic violence usually lasts for more than ten minutes until the father loses his strength and falls drunk on the sofa and sleeps soundly.
Liu Haoqiang wiped away his tears silently, cleaned up the messy living room, and even helped his father to the bed, then took out the medical box and applied disinfectant to his wounds.
Many times, Liu Haoqiang thought about closing the doors and windows of his home, going to the kitchen to turn on the gas, and going to hell with his father.
But she was both timid and cowardly. She only dared to think about it in her heart and had no courage to take action.
Last night, my father beat Liu Haoqiang because he saw a small red dot on her jeans that she didn't rush to clean, which was a blood stain from her period.
His father did not allow Liu Haoqiang to use sanitary napkins, which seemed dirty and unlucky in his opinion, but Liu Haoqiang had no better way to deal with physiological phenomena, so he could only use toilet paper to solve the problem.
Several times, she made a fool of herself because of this incident and became a laughing stock in the whole class. Her female classmates were alienated from her, her male classmates excluded her, and she had no friends.
The head teacher attached great importance to this matter and specially visited the home to talk to Liu Haoqiang's father about this matter.
My father agreed to it well. As soon as the teacher left, he beat Liu Haoqiang up and called her a shameful thing.
In the end, the physiological problem still fails to be solved, as if everyone pretends that it does not exist, the matter will disappear on its own.
At this moment, Liu Haoqiang got up, walked into the cramped kitchen, opened the refrigerator, took out the cold and hard steamed buns, put them in the rice cooker and steamed them, a little pickled vegetables, and prepared a small bowl of white wine. This is the breakfast prepared for his father.
If she is not ready, she may be beaten again when she comes home from school.
After finishing everything, Liu Haoqiang returned to the room, stood in front of the mirror, took off his shirt, took out a long bandage, and wrapped the well-developed upper circles tightly until there was almost no amplitude visible from the side.
Then, she put on a boy's school uniform, carried a schoolbag, and had short hair, like a pretty boy.
Liu Haoqiang stared at herself in the mirror and began to practice the carefree smile that boys had. She had to make herself look more like a boy so that she could get a little respect from her male classmates and not be bullied.
Just as she was almost practicing, the wound on her collarbone throbbed and sucked.
A clear morning light shone into the room, and a touch of white appeared in the mirror, blurring her face.
Suddenly, an unprecedented boredom, fatigue, and deep disgust rose deep in Liu Haoqiang's heart, a disgust for his father, a disgust for himself, and a disgust for the world.
Ah！！
Liu Haoqiang screamed and smashed the wardrobe mirror with one punch. Blood flowed from her white fingers and joints, and the boy in the mirror was broken.
Liu Haoqiang threw away his schoolbag, took off his clothes, and pulled off the bandage on his chest roughly. She stepped onto the small stool beside her and took a small brown suitcase from the top of the wardrobe, which contained the little red dress her mother wore when she got married.
She put on her skirt and applied the blood from her fingers to her lips, like bright lipstick.
She walked into the kitchen and poured all the breakfast she was still preparing into the trash can.
Then, she walked out of the house with satisfaction and loneliness.
Liu Haoqiang was wearing a retro red dress and barefoot, quickly passing through the corridor of the tube building full of clothes, bed sheets, pickled vegetables and bacon. The early neighbors looked at her with surprise, but did not dare to come forward to talk.
Soon, Liu Haoqiang left this suffocating tube building. She came to the main road. The awakened town was thriving and full of vitality. The warm morning light dyed the wet streets that had rained in the middle of the night.
Liu Haoqiang walked across the sidewalk, and opposite was a group of workers in dark blue work clothes, walking over bustlingly. Liu Haoqiang shuttled among them, like a red dolphin swimming across the sea.
Liu Haoqiang's steps became lighter and more and more freely, and she felt unprecedented happiness. She hummed a song, spinning and jumping from time to time, trying to enjoy the sunshine, the fragrance of flowers and the morning dew, just like the innocent princesses in the fairy tale who had just escaped from the castle.
More than ten minutes later, she came to a small river, walked up the stone arch bridge, and stood in the middle of the bridge.
The brief happiness and freedom built on madness have been overdrawn, and then there is a deeper despair and confusion.
She climbed onto the guardrail of the stone bridge, faced the morning breeze, and looked at the river beneath her feet.
This small river is up to ten meters wide and two meters deep, and the water flow is not fast, but it is enough for a girl who can't swim and is determined to die.
Liu Haoqiang took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and imagined himself as a bird that was shot and was about to carry it down.
Aren't you, you die in such a stinky ditch?
A girl's voice came from behind, with a clear and beautiful voice, but with a little slutty smell.
Liu Haoqiang was shocked and almost fell down. She waved her arms to maintain her balance and slowly looked back sideways.
A girl wearing a high school uniform was standing on a bicycle. She held the front of the bike with her hands crossed and smiled with a cool and joking smile on her face.
She is very beautiful, with big and bright eyes, a high nose bridge, and a pointed chin. She looks energetic and cute, but also has a bit of ostentatiousness and unruly.
You, who are you?Liu Haoqiang asked.
Don't bother me, aren't you going to jump into the river?The girl still smiled, don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to persuade you, I was just surprised. Some people really want to die in this kind of stinky ditch, this is too bad.
It doesn't matter.Liu Haoqiang smiled self-deprecatingly: It's death anyway...
It's Ah!The girl slapped her thighs excitedly: Anyway, why not find a better place?This river used to be OK, but now, residents' daily water and excrement are discharged into it. Tsk, it's so dirty, it's all bacteria...
Liu Haoqiang subconsciously thought it through and felt disgusted.
And there are water snakes, eels, insects and the like in this river. Think about it, after you die, they all drill into your mouth, lay eggs in your body, and then give birth to a large number of small water snakes...
Uh... The girl hugged herself exaggeratedly: Just thinking about it, I got goosebumps all over.
Liu Haoqiang's face was pale and he had goosebumps on his body.
By the way, have you seen the sea?The girl thought freely and asked enthusiastically.
Liu Haoqiang shook his head.
I have never seen it before. I am saving money. The goal is to take a cruise and take a look at the sea after graduating from high school.The girl said, how about it, do you want to be together?
Ah?Liu Haoqiang thought he had heard it wrong.
You can jump into the sea at that time. Isn’t this better than jumping into a stinky ditch?The girl said sincerely.
Liu Haoqiang tried to think about it, but he was moved: It's Ah, but he's going to die anyway, why don't you choose a better place, the sea, how beautiful it is.
Then let's say it.The girl blinked her left eye and said, "Oh, don't stand on it, you look so stupid."
Liu Hao, who was standing on the stone guardrail, had a red and white face, and he slowly squatted down.
It was time to say that the girl pushed the bicycle and stepped forward with a big step, grabbed Liu Haoqiang's hand, and pulled it into the bridge with force.
Liu Haoqiang plunged into the girl's arms, and the two fell on the bridge together.
The girl hugged Liu Haoqiang with both hands, making her hug her so much that she couldn't breathe, for fear that she would run away.
The girl shouted excitedly: Why are you so young that you can’t think of Ah!Are you worthy of the parents who gave birth to you and raised you?You're too selfish...
When Liu Haoqiang heard this, the grievances that had been suppressed for more than ten years suddenly surged into his heart, like a volcano erupting.
What do you know?My mom died long ago!My dad hates me. He beats me every time he gets drunk and uses a belt to slap me... his classmates hate me, exclude me, and no one is friends with me... I am selfish when I live, I am better when I die, and I am good to everyone...
The girl was stunned: This... is too miserable, right?
Wow Ah... Liu Haoqiang burst into tears.
Hey, hey hey?
The girl was still lying on the ground, and was at a loss for a moment. She kept patting Liu Haoqiang's back: Actually, this person should be selfish. You, don't care too much about other people's eyes, you should live for yourself... Classmate, don't cry, can you get up first? My legs are numbed by you...
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