Chapter 12 (Part 1)

Han Zhao's party was Tuesday, and Li Xingran came to my door that night.

We tore our flesh and blood on Wednesday and showed our heart naked to each other.

We spent the whole day on Thursday to reminisce about the new throbbing, soothe each other's trembling soul, and taste the sweetness of the spirit of the integration.

On Friday, Li Xingran and I stood in the yard, watching the sun rise side by side, and lit a cigarette for each other in the cold wind in the early morning.

Li Xingran also began to like my camel.We smoked silently and bounced the ash into the beer can we left over last night.

The cold morning breeze blows our hot body, and they gradually cool down, and the rhythm of the heartbeat is also returning to accuracy.

A F150 appeared at a distant intersection, and the pleasant buzzing sound of the V8 engine shattered the silence of the morning.

It slowly turned around and stopped at the entrance of the exit corridor of this house, thirty meters away from us.

That's where I came to pick up Li Xingran.The man who belongs to her, the dog who belongs to her.

However, the girl did not rush to leave, but stretched her waist.When her right arm was hanging down, it fell just right on my shoulders and neck.

Her fingers were unconsciously kneading around my neck, as if her attention was still placed on the cigarette in the other hand.

Ten years have passed, Zuo Huan, don’t hold back your anger, okay?Li Xingran said lightly, as if he was talking to himself.

This time I read it wrong, Li Xingran.I pronounced this name with a sense of trance. I was not discouraged, and I felt the space was expanding.

Um?

I seemed to have cut off a part of you, allowing me to become you to watch the world.So the world was expanded and what I could feel was doubled.

I took a deep breath, felt the coolness in my lungs, and exhaled it for a long time.

As I said, the distance between Li Xingran and me will not become closer, but even this sealed ceiling is almost untouched.

When I learned everything about her, her soul seemed to be stationed in a corner of my mind.

I built her dark deep sea in my consciousness, and she floated there and watched me.

I can talk to her who doesn't exist here, construct her response in imagination, and feel what she feels without reservation.

This is the ability I have gained in the mountains, a gift from Tansin, and not anyone can have it.

So, is your Tansin living with you now?

No, she only exists in the wilderness.In the noisy and smelly city, she was silent.But you are different, you...

I said this and came to an abrupt end because there was no need to say those words.

Li Xingran turned his head and looked at me, his eyes filled with tired and deep love.She hummed twice with satisfaction, flipped off the cigarette in her hand, and stuffed the beer can that had been scattered with smoke into my hand.

When will we see you again?she asked.

When you decide to give me a tattoo.

That might be waiting a little longer.

It doesn't matter.We have ten years to squander.

This is a tragic joke, but we are neither sad nor happy about it.

Because that is a fact that we have long accepted.

The existence of each other, the encounter at this time, is better than everything. We know when we should be greedy and when we should be content.

Li Xingran waved to the man standing by the car in the distance, so the man walked over.This time he didn't wear a mask, so I could see his face clearly.

The man's skin is smooth and tender, and the muscles are obviously the product of systematic training.

So he seems very young and I have no way of knowing his true age.

The only thing I can be sure of is that this man should be Chinese who grew up abroad like Li Xingran.

When a man walks, his muscles are loose and his expression is cold. The unrestrainedness and confidence that comes from his bones have a charming charm.Li Xingran is also good at picking people. The basic material of the things she owns will definitely not be bad.

Zuo Huan.He walked to Li Xingran, looked at me, and called my name without any restraint.

I was slightly surprised at how familiar he was when he pronounced this name, as if he had known me long ago.

I don't know your name yet.

The man held Li Xingran's hand: Ning Rong.

I nodded: Have we seen it before?

Only that night, I sat on the ground not far away next to you.

But you seem to be very familiar with me.

Because she hasn't returned since Tuesday night until today.She has never had such high interest, which can tell a lot of things.

Ning Rong spoke slowly, unable to see any emotional fluctuations.

He was unprepared, like chatting with an old friend.

I know that I can't reap any jealousy or out of control from him.

This man is like me and Li Xingran, both from this side of the world.

I lifted the cigarette box to him, but he refused.

Li Xingran hugged his neck and jumped up, and Ning Rong picked her up horizontally.

His beautiful muscle lines flowed in clear layers in the sun, and Li Xingran's weight seemed to not exist in his arms.

I'm going back.The girl said to me in his arms.

I lit a second cigarette for myself: Is it my illusion?You seem to be excited.

You cut such a big hole in my heart, and I always have to find something to fill it in, right?

Li Xingran blinked at me and arched around Ning Rong's neck.I smiled and waved my hand to say goodbye to them.

We built an excellent line of defense for each other yesterday, which made the separation at this time no longer painful.But that's not enough. We now need to stay away from each other and let the torn flesh heal on its own.

I watched their cars disappear at the corner of the intersection and turned back to the house.Another car will come here soon today and pick up another woman from the house.

I put Lou Jiqing out of the room, took her to take a shower, tidy up the utensils, and disinfected the glass compartment. I buried my head in doing exactly the same thing as before, until everything returned to its original position.

When I closed the appliance room again and turned off the lighting, Lou Jiqing, who had finished cleaning up, was already waiting for me at the stairs.

The color in her eyes was different from a few days ago, and I smelled a little change.

But I didn't take the initiative to talk to her because I no longer cared.

Alpha, who is that woman?

We sat on the sofa, waiting for Han Zhao to pick up her car.She was lying there, her butt twisted for a long time, but she couldn't help asking this question.

Go and ask Han Zhao, he will tell you.I said to her lightly, my eyes scattered in the spacious and bright living room.

You seem to have changed.

Um?I was a little confused about her sudden comment.

It seems to be a little scary.

Where is scary?

I can't say it...but when you look at it, it feels chilly.

Her ability to say what she thinks to me means she still trusts me, so I don't need to say anything more to her.

After spending two days and three nights with Li Xingran, I have deviated from my control.

I don’t know what I look like now, but fortunately Lou Jiqing reminded me.

You will feel a chill, maybe because your blood sugar is a little low.I kept joking at her.This sentence greatly alleviated Lou Jiqing's mentality, and she closed her mouth doubtfully.

Li Xingran released a part of my heart, and I didn’t know what changes I had made.

The only thing I can perceive now is that I have lost the original boundary of the contrast in my heart and the emotions can no longer be suppressed and regulated.

I knew that I should have a good chat with Lou Jiqing before she left.About Han Zhao's plans and his concerns, or about how to make Lou Jiqing better play her role.

But as I looked at her, something dark and sticky was slowly oozing out from under the floor.

Those fears that once suppressed me were weakened; the thoughts of using authority were ready to move.

Just one sentence.

I walked to her, held her finger tightly, and asked in her ear: Is Han Zhao really worth it?

Everything that Lou Jiqing is sure of will be shaken in an instant, because the reason why she can be firm is my position.

So she tossed and turned beside the bed of the old man with a rotten smell, thinking about the last words I gave her.

When Han Zhao needed her, Lou Jiqing might turn into a dose of poison and do something completely unexpected to him.

This is authority.

This is not any good for me, but that's just because, by common sense, there is no good.

But there is no common sense to follow those things released by Li Xingran.

The new engine buzzed outside, and the person who picked up Lou Jiqing had arrived.

Lou Jiqing said goodbye to me and walked out.At this moment, I took a big step and pressed her against the wall.

She looked at me in surprise, her soft body against the cold wall, showing a moment of helplessness and panic.

I could say that to her after opening my mouth and trembling my throat.It seemed that Li Xingran's devilish palm was still placed on his back, pushing me to do something irreversible.

In one sentence, it can destroy Han Zhao's efforts for more than ten years and destroy my long-term careful maintaining of his personality image.

So what?They didn't know who I am.

Destroy what Han Zhao has, then look at his anger and despair, accompany him to meet struggle and destruction, and appreciate his expression when he knows the truth, and smile at him when he roars and asks me to explain.

He couldn't understand why I did this, no one could, except Li Xingran.

Everything has no meaning and is trapped in nothingness just to enjoy the pleasure of madness and depravity for a moment.

Escape, strangled throat, suffocation, nothing, possess everything, possibility, hope, wish, the boundless sea, a single-plank bridge.

At this moment, I suddenly regained my rationality and swallowed the almost uttered advice.

But the body still couldn't cool down from the excitement, and the lower body was erect and could not be weak for a long time.

Lou Jiqing came to her senses from surprise, and with the blush on her cheeks, she held my hard penis with her hands.

Now?Her voice was filled with the sound of warm water.

From the moment she stepped into this room, she was inevitably looking forward to a happy relationship.But I didn't do what she wanted, and it's the same now.

A brief out of control always needs to be made up for.So I kissed her neck lightly, which made her moan.

I should say something more to you, but I haven't been able to catch your gap.Then let it go, get out of here and welcome the gravel road under your feet.When your feet are bleeding and extremely tired, I will see you again, fuck you once, and help you once.

I said this, then took out a pen next to the cabinet at the door and wrote my phone number on the note.

You can only dial this number once.I stuffed the note into Lou Ji Qing's hand, firmly fell down and patiently.If you don't end up making this call, you will win more privileges and everything is up to you.

The girl suppressed the spring love that had been rushing into her chest for a long time, calmed herself down, folded the paper in her palm, and put it in her pocket.

I will try my best to win the privilege.She raised her face and said to me as if she was determined.

No.I shook my head, don't work hard, don't force me.The ending is already certain, you just don't understand it yet.

Lou Jiqing understood what I was talking about, so she nodded, kissed me, and left the house.

I stood in the empty living room, listening to the car disappearing from a distance.The quietness of the morning was restored around me, and I once again faced the world alone.

I sat alone on the sofa in the center of the living room for a long time, without smoking or drinking.It takes time for everyone to return to reality from a dream, and for me this time is two hours.

After several days of indulgence and the warm companionship of Li Xingran, both physically and mentally surpassed ordinary fatigue.I fell asleep again in the silence, and it was almost noon when I woke up.

I made myself a simple meal.Amid the collision of chopping boards, table knifes, frying pans and porcelain dishes, I temporarily forgot yesterday's fireworks.

This nest is like an isolated island far away from the city.It's time to leave here, some places that are ready to move need to be satisfied.

For the part I took away, Li Xingran has someone to fill and deceive himself.But no one can accommodate the part of me liberated by Li Xingran.

I think the desire to drag Han Zhao into the water just now may have another meaning.

Do I want to use this method to let Li Xingran see what I would do without her?

Then she will change her mind and expand her decade and take on the responsibility of being with me?

When I saw this clearly, I felt my control coming back.

What I am afraid of is the unreasonable part of my heart. If that Zuo Huan can be predicted and understood, then I can still dominate my choice now.

But, I don't know how much time I have.That huge indulgence was tempting me, and Li Xingran's voice was still whispering in his ears, making me the real self.

I found a cell phone that was thrown on the cabinet at the door and had not touched for several days.I had to charge it.

The small gap connecting the outside world was opened again.

I saw more than a dozen missed calls and nearly a hundred messages of various types.

This moment made me feel disgusted, especially after enjoying Li Xingran's pure wildness, this symbol of domestication by the signal uncontrollably aroused my disgust.

Perhaps this is the pain of returning to the truth that belongs to me. I can't help but laugh at myself in my heart, so the disgust disappeared.

On WeChat, as always, Yin Yin's unilateral report has been made by him for several days.

I slid the screen mechanically.

It's not good to have a dream, but it's not a nightmare

bath

Have eaten coconut bread

Class has begun

Lunch

Nap

Self-study

Running in the playground in the evening

My hand was cut by something

This message comes with a photo.Yin Yin patted his right hand, and a thin wound two centimeters long stayed on the back of his hand.

Compared with the report a week ago, the words and sentences that Yin Yin has sent over the past few days have changed clearly.I saw the details that were added accidentally, the subtle emotions, and some desire in her message.

The broken hand...that was not a message from my request, out of habit, but a self-active attempt to establish a connection.

Subconsciously, she wanted me to know what happened to her, even a small thing that could be covered by a band-aid.

Is it because of Li Xingran?I can't help but think like this.Li Xingran is like a huge star, and no star body that passes by her can escape her influence.

No, maybe not, at least not exactly.

Yin Yin's open defense to me when she met last time and our tacit understanding at the chat meeting were enough to change something.

The impact brought by Li Xingran is still lurking under the waves that have not yet been set off.

I should go find her.Because today is Friday, the next two days are our routine training routine.

But after savoring the fusion of Li Xingran, how should Yin Yin, whom she just posted, satisfy my desire?The follow-up training plan carefully set up not long ago now looks like it is chewy.

If you taste the same as wax, you don’t have to chew it anymore.Yin Yin has been fermenting for several days after the talks, hoping that her transformation can be more drastically than what these messages show.

I continued to operate my phone and scanned the phone but didn't answer.

Liu Hao, Yao Xiuwen and Han Zhao each have a record, but there is no news about them on WeChat.

This means that those phone calls are just chatting for the chat meeting.

A few days have passed and there is no need to reply.

The remaining dozen missed calls were almost all from Ling Yue.

Ling Yue...

My consciousness, which I wandered in the room, suddenly landed when I came into contact with this name.I actually found that Ling Yue had a completely different weight to me.

I did it right, I chose her.

At the first moment when Li Xingran released me, Ling Yue's existence gave me a reason to suppress myself.

The smooth, simple little characters turned into the last rivet that pulled me to the ground.

I still want to have her.So even if I just treat her as a work that makes my own hands, I cannot let myself present myself in front of her in a bloody and vague image.

If I am faithful to my desires, I have to suppress the throbbing on the other side of my scale, which is fair.

Ling Yue sent me a long message, and I glanced at it briefly, saying, "Why do you treat our feelings in this way?"

I can imagine most of the contents of this message of hundreds of words, so there is no need to read it again.

But another application also showed a red mark prompt, which was the mobile software of the dynamic sensing camera installed at the door of the apartment.

Since I am the only one on the top floor, anyone who comes up from the elevator will be recorded by it.

It was Thursday night.

Ling Yue appeared on the screen. She came to my door and knocked for a long time without a response.

She stayed in the elevator, walking uneasy, trying to knock on the door again from time to time.

There is no suspense, the door will certainly not be opened.

Ling Yue wandered there for a long time, and finally sat down tiredly at midnight and rested against the wall.She stopped moving, so the camera turned off.

The second video started at dawn. Ling Yue slept in front of my door all night, but she didn't wait for my return.

The girl's expression was already depressed and embarrassed. She stood up, kicked my door three times hard, and then sweared fiercely at the camera.

You don't have to hide!!I'm going to look for you again, I'm just a fool!Zuo Huan, you a bad guy!!

She roared with gritted teeth, tears kept flowing down her face.She wiped her face hard with the back of her hand, pressed the elevator button angrily, and rushed into the elevator the next moment she opened the door.

The surging confusion and anger all come from my inexplicable harsh words.

How could Ling Yue understand?

The tenderness and sweetness that had just happened to collapse and disappear in an instant.

So she was unwilling to give up, she needed the answer, just like everyone else.

But I'm missing, like I've never existed.

I don’t know what Ling Yue will look like now.

According to my understanding of her, perhaps she will break up with me cleanly after a series of struggles.

I told myself that if she could do it, it would be over.

This is not a pity or a gift, but just a handing over the initiative to her.

In a sense, this is my compensation and repayment for her, although most people cannot understand it.

I called a number I never used before, because it existed on the missed call.

Hello?A female voice mixed with uneasy.

Hello, Song Yazhu.I chose the gentlest tone, worried that I would scare the girl across the phone.

Song Yazhu is Ling Yue's roommate, and the intersection between us is limited to the meal we had afterwards when we helped Ling Yue move together.

This is an introverted girl. As a friend, she doesn't really match Ling Yue's temper, so the two of them don't play together often.

Ling Yue told me that Song Yazhu had said something bad about Yang Huiyi earlier.

Ling Yue had a straight temper at that time and hated others' gossip behind his back the most, and he didn't like Song Yazhu.

Unexpectedly, people's hearts were seen over time, and when things got bigger, I realized that Song Yazhu was really thinking about her.

Two girls who are already sincere have gone through the years and have no misunderstandings and are now one of their best friends.

When I helped them move, I also added her phone number.

Hello, Brother Zuo Huan.Song Yazhu was a little nervous and her throat was pressing down.

You called me before, is there anything wrong?

Of course I know what will happen, but at this moment I still have to pretend to be confused first.

Me, I have nothing else, but Yueyue had muttered before that you wouldn't answer the phone, so I'd try it.You...have you quarreled?

She didn't tell you?I asked.

Well, she said nothing, and I was not allowed to ask.But I heard her crying secretly in the room.You guys are breaking up, are you?

After hearing this, I probably have a lot of knowledge.Ling Yue is strong-willed and doesn't want others to see her make a fool of herself. I'm afraid that this matter will be held in her for a long time before she will have the courage to talk to others.

This is exactly what I want, at least it saves some troubles in communicating with Song Yazhu.

I can't get rid of my body for a while, and I'm afraid that Ling Yue will have any accidents. I want to ask you to take care of her. Is it OK?

Ah, yes!She may not be awake yet, so will I go to the inner room to ask her to answer the phone?Song Yazhu's voice became louder.

No, we need time, and if outsiders get involved, they will probably become more and more messy.After this period of time, I will communicate with her well. If there is anything abnormal, can you notify me?

No problem, Brother Zuo Huan.But you remember to answer the phone...

Yes.Don't tell her I'm calling you, okay?If she knew that I would not look for her, she would be even more angry and would inevitably think about it more messy.

A girl with a temperament like Song Yazhu is most afraid of being misunderstood. This sentence can pinch her to tell Ling Yue about her desire.

OK OK...

After a few more words of advice, I hung up the phone.Ling Yue needs time to make a decision, and I don’t want any accidents to interfere with her during this period. This is why I contacted Song Yazhu.

I have not forgotten Cao Zibin's existence.If there is a chance, people like him will never stand idly by.Ling Yue is my painting, and I have to decide how to apply this painting.

In order to ensure control of the situation, I called Yao Xiuwen.

Ling Yue and Cao Zibin graduated from C University, and Yao Xiuwen was able to find Yin Yin from C University, which shows that he has good resources and connections there.They are all young masters, so maybe they can get together.

Happy!Oh, I really miss me so much. I was in a hurry to tell you something the day before yesterday, but I couldn’t find anyone!

As soon as the phone answered, Yao Xiuwen said a lot of words in a car.

To put it nicely, he actually had no urgent matters. He just showed off his friends and talked about his experiences and bragged me about it.

Han Zhao's comic talks were all big players. Young people like Yao Xiuwen could get in when they see the opportunity. Three points were based on Sun Tianming's relationship and seven points were for his father's face.

But he had struggled in the circle, and he could understand the glory of Yin Yin and I at that time.

I interrupted his random talk: Xiuwen, I'll ask you for someone.

When Yao Xiuwen heard that I had something to do, he was very excited: You said, you said.

Cao Zibin, Bin is Wenwu Bin. Have you heard of it?

Yao Xiuwen recited the name twice in his mouth and thought about it for a while.

Hiss... Mr. Huan, wait for me for three minutes.

Yao Xiuwen hung up the phone very quickly, probably because he had asked his friend for inquiries. He seemed to have a little impression on him.

His phone call came back faster than expected.

Asked?I answered the phone.

Hi, guess what?I had two games with that kid, and I just said how the name sounds familiar.He was brought by one of my buddies, a small sack in the same motorcycle club.

Small scattered?

He just barely got in with his teeth and rode a broken Kawasaki Z series, and was reluctant to spend money.I heard that I was hanging in my mother's company and earning 20,000 or 30,000 a month. I am not a person at all, so I can't play together.In the previous two games, I also came from my own pole, and I didn’t say three sentences in total.

Although Yao Xiuwen is a playboy, he has been working hard in the shopping mall for two years with his father. He has less than seven-digit business dealings, so he naturally looks down on a small family like Cao Zibin who is sitting at home.

After probably grasping the situation, the thoughts that were wandering in my mind fell.

Mr. Huan, what are you doing?

He has been staring at me, a girl. I have been unable to get rid of this recently, and he may be interested in the opportunity.

Um.Listening to Yao Xiuwen's voice, it seemed that he had already guessed a rough idea and gave it to me.The day after tomorrow, I will bring someone to teach him the class.

His words were so light but murderous that he made me laugh: I'm not for this.

Haha, can you have a new way to use it?

My girl is not from our side. She has brought it to Liu Hao as a girlfriend.I explained, I want you to get familiar with Cao Zibin, condom his words, see what he has to think, and let me have a number.

Acting in "Infernal Affairs" Ah, it's interesting, it's covered me!Yao Xiuwen was also idle and responded enthusiastically.

Don't touch my girl's mind.I said again.

Look at what you said!You said, didn’t Yin Yin give you all, and don’t you believe me?

I believe you, otherwise I won’t look for you.Remember to be more polite.

Just play a stupid little slap, you can rest assured.

There is Song Yazhu in the open and Yao Xiuwen in the secret. Ling Yue's affairs are temporarily stable.I hung up the phone, sat quietly on the sofa for ten minutes, and then got up and set off.

Han Zhao gave me a business card at the end of the chat, and today is the day when he asked me to start contact.

I was driving for a long time, not sure if I should get involved in something new.

I feel very noisy now, as if I am tired of all familiar plots.

But I compromised a few minutes later because I was a little curious about Han Zhao's mysterious reasons.

Hello?A short man's voice rang on the other side of the phone.

Is it Mr. Hillhouse Gao?

Yes.Who are you?

I am Zuo Huan.

Mr. Zuo, the phone call is very timely.The man responded slowly.

But I still don't know why I made this call.

Because we have something to ask you for help.

He said, we.As I thought, this consultant named Hillhouse is just a middleman, just like Han Zhao.

Meet and talk?

That would be better.Mr. Zuo said it would be great if I went to find you.

I thought about it and reported the hotel where I arranged for Yin Yin to stay.The other party gave a positive answer quickly and concisely, and we decided to meet in an hour and ended the call immediately.

Perhaps it was due to poor traffic, or perhaps the negative emotions caused by the separation from Li Xingran were still not eliminated. I was driving the car and felt that my limbs, who had been indulging in excessive amounts for a few days, were getting more and more aching, and my heart became more and more irritable.

Then I remembered the girl named Lin Sheng who I met at Liu Hao’s club, so I called the club.

The manager of the club is surnamed Fan, and he is one of the few staff members who know me.After a few words, he said that Lin Sheng would come to the hotel to find me.After talking with Hillhouse, I happened to ask her to give me a massage.

Thinking of Lin Sheng's technique of combining hardness and softness, his restless mood slightly relieved.I parked the car in the hotel, found a coffee house on the side of the lobby on the first floor, and waited for Hillhouse to appear.

While waiting, my stomach signaled to starvation again.

It seems that the things I eat as brunch are not enough to smooth out the body's demand for calories, so I called the waiter and ordered three different styles of cakes.

Unfortunately, I just tried it and a man in a gray corduroy jacket appeared at the door.

On Friday, at 1:00 noon, there was no one in the whole lobby, and he quickly turned his eyes on me and walked over.

He was wearing a dark blue baseball cap, not tall, about 1.75 meters tall, and had a well-proportioned figure.

I got up and shook hands with him.I deliberately didn't say hello, and neither did he.

This person was very calm, I thought to myself.

We sat face to face, three small and delicate cakes separated by the middle.This scene is somewhat ridiculous. It would be more appropriate if the person sitting on both sides changed to a leisurely rich wife.

Why are you interested in me?I had no mood to greet him at all and asked questions straightforwardly.

I feel quite regretful because I did not participate in Han Zhao's chat.It was the boss who took a fancy to you.Hillhouse put his hands in his jacket pocket, and the brim of the hat was pressed very low.

So, you don't know what he likes me.

Well... He shook his head without comment, and he could guess some of it after seeing you.You don't care much about outsiders, you have a calmness that can get out of your body anytime, anywhere.

I frowned. The experience of being defined by someone in this way is not good, and even worse is that he is right.

You call your master, boss, so what business do you do?

Do everything, but it has nothing to do with you.We look for you, so of course we want you to be what you are best at and train women.

What woman?

Now isn't the time to talk about this.

Hillhouse is very steady in dominating the rhythm of the topic, while I seem very passive.

For such a power that is unknown, I tend to play myself as being led by others.

My passivity gives them a sense of security, and when they relax, I can see more.

When is the time?

When will Mr. Zuo be available?If you are interested in talking about business, you can go to see the boss with me in the next two days.

I thought for a moment.

I found something interesting.I told him, the business card your boss gave Han Zhao is yours, and you didn't say anything special after you came to see me... So I wondered why your boss didn't let me see him directly?

Because you need me to be a driver.And the boss wants you to bring your girl over there too.If you disagree, I can persuade you in person, so that everyone will not be unable to get out of Taiwan.

Do they have any ideas about Yin Yin?This surprised me a little.

She hasn't trained yet.

Um.Know.Not to steal your stuff.Hillhouse should be very neat.

It's not impossible to take it over.But what I'm curious about is, what's the benefit for me?

It depends on what you want.Han Zhao should have hinted that money is not a problem for us.

From this sentence, I vaguely inferred that Han Zhao was banned by them in advance.It’s not that he doesn’t want to tell me the other party’s background, but that the other party doesn’t want him to talk too much.

Being able to make Han Zhao shut up obediently is not the energy that a business boss can have.This means that behind them is the person on the side I hate the most.

But I'm not short of money.Isn’t Sun Tianming a professional?You can buy his services with money.I told Hillhouse.

The boss is interested in you.And I just said that you can make a request.

I thought you were confident that there was something I would want... I smiled and shook my head.

I'm not sure we have what you want, but I'm sure we have what you don't want.It’s always good to have one more friend, right?Hillhouse shrank in his seat and said affectionate words.

He was very sensible and did not say the word corresponding to his friend, but this was a threat that I could understand very well.

They don't like others to say no, nor will they allow others to say no.After understanding this, I smiled at him happily.

Then it’s better to obey your orders than respect, it’s OK after noon tomorrow.

good.Mr. Zuo is a person who comes to the stage.I'll come here to pick you up after lunch.

Hillhouse is in your word "There is accentuation" and it seems irrefutable.I watched him leave, and looked at the pastries on the table in front of me, and my appetite was completely gone.

It is replaced by another thought called the urge to take risks.

Hillhouse is accustomed to issuing orders and is good at bent down other people's will, which means that the people behind him have enough influence for him to use.

Rejecting them is expensive, so I increasingly want to see what happens next.

I trust Han Zhao, at least we both have good things, so he will drag me into this matter with a stern face.

He made a choice for me in advance because he knew me, although it was just this skin I showed to him.

Just when I was in a daze, I suddenly saw Lin Sheng leaning out at the entrance of the cafe.It seemed that she had been there for a while, but she didn't dare to come in when she saw me talking.

I waved my hand and Lin Sheng ran over with a embarrassed bag.She wore a light yellow long-sleeved T-shirt and a pair of gray velvet pants, which looked a little loose.

Didn't you delay your work?I raised my head and motioned her to sit down.

Nothing!There is no opening for those who are now in the afternoon.Lin Sheng sat in the seat where Hillhouse had just sat, smiling at me with a raised face, Brother, what can we do?

As she spoke, her eyes couldn't help but floated to the three plates on the table.

Didn't have lunch?I laughed.

Mr. Fan asked us to use a brush to shave the bathtub, but we haven't eaten the rice yet.Lin Sheng whispered.

That's just right.I raised my hand and signaled the waiter to get an extra fork and push the plate in front of her.

Very expensive, isn't it?Brother, I won't eat it.Lin Sheng shrank back and waved his hands repeatedly.

Have you done farm work, Lin Sheng?

Well, I've been following my mother-in-law before entering the city.

Farming is not easy.If you don't eat it, these things will be wasted in the trash can.

Lin Sheng thought for a while, then picked up the fork.She took a bite and showed a happy expression between her eyebrows and eyes.

tasty.

Then eat them all.I leaned there, watching her deliver food to her mouth.The girl was filled with satisfaction and was coaxed by several plates of small pastries.

These things are not expensive, just over thirty yuan, but for her it is impossible for her to try out the luxury goods.

She would rather save the 30 yuan as a long-distance bus fare home than to turn it into a piece of cake and eat it into her stomach.

I noticed that Lin Sheng seemed to be working hard to speak Mandarin.

But her original Nongruan accent mixed with stiff words sounded even more awkward.

I remember when I first met her, she didn't deliberately change her accent.

Has anyone told you?You speak your hometown dialect very well.I asked.

Lin Sheng was stunned, his cheeks turned slightly red: No.

Why try to change?

My sisters in the club told me that if I don’t know how to speak Mandarin, I won’t make much money even when I’m on the stage.That's why I want to practice Mandarin well.

Do you want to go to the stage?

I was not surprised by this result at all, but Lin Sheng shook his head repeatedly.

Nothing, I won't do that.I used to press and touch my legs for the guests, and when I first got up, I was scared to tears.It’s still Mr. Liu who is better than me, he didn’t scold me.Later, there were some people who were stupid, and I closed my eyes as if I didn’t know.I can't stand the things that my sisters do.

I smiled at her casually, without commenting.

A beauty like Lin Sheng will sooner or later be taken by guests, and Liu Hao has done more than once or twice to get into the water.

The reason why he protected Lin Sheng was probably because Lin Sheng’s massage skills were so good.

There are so many beautiful ladies, and there are not many massage girls who are beautiful and skilled.

If you earn RMB by the stage, there is no reason to go back and have a massage.

But it all depends on Lin Sheng’s own wishes.There are many people who force good men to become prostitutes, and there is no one in the world who force good men to become prostitutes.As long as Lin Sheng nodded himself, Liu Hao couldn't stop him even if he wanted to.

It's nothing wrong with doing that.Money comes quickly.Save money and turn around and leave. Who knows what you have done?I said to Lin Sheng tentatively.

These principles should be read in her mind sooner or later, and the sooner she faces the answer, the better she is.

I know that I made a lot of money in that industry, but I can’t save money if I really do it.Lin Sheng's answer was a bit surprising. When the sisters made money, they went out to spend it and bought bags and shoes.It’s so tiring to do that, but I can’t help but feel relieved. If you are unhappy, you spend money on your own and can’t save any money.I just did a massage and I have saved a lot.

I thought you just didn't want to sleep with a man you didn't know.

I don't want to.Sisters are not afraid, I feel so embarrassed.

Very simple little girl, and my curiosity about her ended here.

A rural child can see the right clothes at a glance, and her fate depends entirely on her luck in this life.

It's like a grass. When the tree around it is big, it covers the sun and dies silently; a small branch falls on it and falls on it, and it will be gone forever.

Or if you meet a soft-hearted rich second-generation who is not in a thousand, you will fall in love with her and give her more than 100,000 or 200,000 with a wave of your hand.

That was money she had never seen in her life. She would be ecstatic and devote herself to that man.

The money exceeded the margins that her intelligence could control. As long as she tasted their value, the things represented by Lin Sheng's symbol would be easily distorted by them.

Then she was no longer her, she became something she could not recognize herself.

Unable to bear bad things, nor good things, this is a grass.

I have no interest in changing the fate of a grass, either in good or bad ways.

Finished?Go up?I said to the girl in front of me.

Go to your room?Lin Sheng asked timidly.

What's wrong?

It’s just the two of us. If you want to have sex with me, I can’t do anything about it. Can you tell me in advance now?

Um?It doesn't seem to matter if you think.I looked at her with interest.Her white and tender arms looked very warm, and her eyes were seductively translucent.

It's so-called!Lin Sheng suddenly raised his voice twice, and then he quickly suppressed his throat, but you are the big boss, I am nothing.I came out to find a job, and I dare not offend you.A sister told someone to hurt and cried, and the man even beat her face blue.I saw it when she came back.

When I first met, I promised you that I would only massage and not do that.

That's OK.Lin Sheng quickly gave me a smile.

I couldn't help laughing again: Even if I tell you in advance now, what can you do?

I secretly called Mr. Liu and asked him to tell him about his love.

Very smart.

hey-hey.

I took Lin Sheng to the elevator and came to the hotel room I rented for Yin Yin for a long time.

Because it is for permanent residence, I booked a suite.The house was cleaned up very neatly. Apart from the few books stacked on the table in the outside room and used water cups, there were almost no traces of life.

I walked into the bedroom, and the quilt and clothes were folded neatly, and a few clothes were arranged neatly in the closet.

I saw the dress specially selected for Yin Yin when attending the party. Yin Yin packed it very well and carefully placed it in the corner of the wardrobe with the shoes.

An unusually cold mood permeated the room, and I could feel Yin Yin living in this room in a dry and mechanical way.

In just five minutes, she could pack everything up and move it away from here, leaving only her faint fragrance.

Yes, the smell on her body is the only trace of vitality that can be felt here.

Brother, do you live here?Lin Sheng asked.She instinctively felt strange about the state in the room.

Instead of answering her, I started to take off my clothes.The increasingly clearer pain between muscles and joints made me lose interest in chatting with her: Can you press it on this bed, right?

Yes, I used to give my mother-in-law this way, so where can I have a massage table?

So I walked and turned the neat, ascetic white sheet into a mess by the bed, with a feeling of deliberately disturbing it.Then I lay down and crossed the bed naked.

Brother, are you cold?

You don't have to worry about anything else.

I'll cover you with a towel?

No, come on.

Lin Sheng saw too many bare-butt guests, and she couldn't even see them.The towel covering the private parts was just a comfort for covering the shame.

I don't need this.

Lin Sheng took out the things in his bag and put them open, prepared hot water and towels, and wiped me the massage oil.

She rode behind me again like the first time, but this time she lacked a bath towel.

I took off my pants and rubbed them uncomfortable.I put my face in the pillow and said to Lin Sheng.

Lin Sheng seemed to hesitate for a while, and then compromised.After a while of rustling, I felt her smooth thighs pressing against the outside of my legs.

I couldn't see her expression, but I could feel her body temperature.

Hot, full, and full of beat.

And her hands, who skillfully grasped the long tendons on her back, crushing the little bit of thoughts that appeared in my heart into the gaps in my muscles.

There is no need to make any idea about her.

You can indeed hear the pleasant sound of breaking this small and cute cup.But after this, what should I drink?

Lin Sheng moved silently on my back, and the soreness and numbness were intertwined, making my mind spread a little bit by bit, and slowly fell asleep without realizing it.

In the hazy state, Lin Sheng helped me turn over and I didn't want to wake up.

She still covered my lower body with a towel and started massage my forehead, chest muscles and abdomen.

I continued to fall asleep in the haze, and the fatigue in my body was squeezed out by her little by little.

Everything returned to silence until I woke up again after a long time.

I squinted my eyes and could hardly tell whether the dim sunlight outside the window belonged to dawn or evening.

The body stretched, and the mood became clear, and the delusion that was separated from Li Xingran was also shrunk to a corner where he could not keep his eyes on.

I exhaled a deep breath and sat up from the bed.

Brother, are you awake?Lin Sheng quickly stood up from the chair next to him.

Why didn't you leave?I felt a little uncomfortable when I realized that she had been watching me sleeping.

If something is lost in the house, I can't explain it while you are sleeping.Brother, check it out.

I really can't understand the caution that Lin Sheng must bear. She tried to avoid any trouble that might arise and had to think about things that I would never consider in my life.

Well, there is nothing to lose here.You don't have to be afraid.

I said, looking around, wanting to find a glass of water to drink.At this moment, Lin Sheng was already very skillful in holding me a cup full of clear water.

I drank the glass of water in big mouthfuls and woke up.I lifted the towel, jumped out of bed, grabbed my underwear and put it on my body.Lin Sheng quickly lowered his head and turned toward the bedroom door.

Lin Sheng, he did a good job.I took out the only 200 yuan of cash from the card holder and put it in front of Lin Sheng.

Thank you brother.Lin Sheng took the money and happily put it in his shoulder bag.That was more than she thought. She only spent a whole day working in the club for about one hundred yuan.

Bring me a cigarette.I leaned lazily on the bed and raised my hand to the outside.Lin Sheng did what he said.

I put a cigarette on my lips, hesitated for a moment, and finally didn't lit it.The smell here is soft and I don't want to mess with that spicy look.

Lin Sheng, who are there in the family?I put the cigarette in front of my nose and sniffed it casually.

There is a mother and a mother-in-law.Dad died when I was six years old.

How did he die?

It’s too much to smash the stones, and it’s too much to suck the stones and foam and suck the lungs.She said it was very calm and there was no emotional turmoil.

Your mother is in the countryside?

Working in the factory here too!You can earn 4,500 a month!When my mother and I earned enough money, we took my mother-in-law to the town to live together.Lin Sheng said to me happily.

You don't seem to like the city.

Lin Sheng smiled and shook his head slightly.

My mother-in-law and I were so comfortable staying in the countryside.It was my mother-in-law who drove me out to work.My mother-in-law said that I would not let my young woman stay in the countryside, and there were no males at home, and I was afraid that those uncles in the temple would be disgusting to me.

Are you afraid?

I'm not too scared.But there will be a little here...

Lin Sheng is like a little hare.

In the mountains and fields she was used to, even if there were beasts hunting her everywhere, she could still make a hole to hide it. She knew how to survive there.

But in this forest of steel and concrete, she had nowhere to hide, and the beasts here had another kind of cruelty that she could not understand.

She brought me a good mood with her hands, so I felt a little bit of emotion in my heart.

Lin Sheng, if one day decides to do that job, tell me.I can give you better resources.

Lin Sheng was stunned for a moment, then nodded to me seriously.She said stubbornly that I definitely won't do it, which made me feel a little relieved.

I continued: If someone asks you to do something you don’t want to do, you will also look for me.Many times I am better at finding me than Liu Hao.

Brother, thank you.Lin Sheng said gratefully.

I'm not trying to make you grateful, but to enjoy your craft.So, don't waste it.

She wrote down my phone and used an old Nokia-style phone.She told me that when working in the bathing department, the phone will easily break when it is wet, and she is reluctant to use it.

Just then, the sound of the key opening the door came from outside.Yin Yin is back.

She seemed to notice someone in the room, so there was no sound of footsteps after the door was closed.So I walked out and saw Yin Yin holding the door handle with one hand, looking carefully inside.

A thin white cashmere jacket with a gray long skirt and warm pantyhose underneath, her outfit was just ordinary.

However, I still saw the one I made with my own hands when I was tying her waist with my clothes.

Yin Yin seemed to breathe a sigh of relief when she saw me, and her eyes lit up.Then she saw Lin Sheng following me again and was stunned.

I only wore a pair of underwear, and there was a woman next to me. Anyone would think about the wrong place.

Go back.I raised my chin to Lin Sheng.

Well, brother, I'm leaving!She said goodbye to me with her bag in her arms, and while she was passing by Yin Yin, she called me politely.

Yin Yin nodded politely to her, sent her out, and closed the door carefully.She turned around and looked at me.

You and her are in my bed?Yin Yin asked in a low voice, should I ask the room service to change the bed sheets?

Well, ask them to change it.I'll go take a shower.The massage oil applied to the body is already dry and no longer comfortable.

Yin Yin stood at the door of the bedroom for a while, then turned her head to look at me: She doesn't seem to be in that line.

The conversation calmly and indifferently without any embarrassment, and the communication between Yin Yin and I seemed to have become soft and comfortable.

Why do you feel so?

There was no such smell in the room…and she didn’t wear it like that either.

If Lin Sheng’s loose trousers and T-shirts were sold, not many people would pay for it.

Very accurate.It was a massager in Liu Hao’s club, and I called for a private service.

Yin Yin nodded, as if she had already left Lin Sheng's existence behind her.She leaned forward and tied her loose hair up: I'll wash it for you.

You are very proactive today.I waved my hand at her.

I thought you wouldn't show up again this week.After hearing this, Yin Yin stopped outside the bathroom.

Miss me?I teased her.

Somewhat unexpected to me, Yin Yin actually replied softly: Yes.

I was about to step into the bathtub, but after hearing this, I couldn't help but look back at Yin Yin's eyes.The girl stood at the door, her body straight, and she looked at me, quiet and peaceful.

I tried to draw something from her that would allow me to find out my emotions, but I didn't succeed.So I gave up, stepped back into the bathtub, and turned on the shower.

Yin Yin closed the door for me.A few minutes later, the room service was called by her and the bedroom was cleaned.By the time I walked out of the bathroom, the messy beds had been restored to tidy.

Dry my hair.I sat on the chair and said to Yin Yin.

The girl walked behind me and wrapped most of my head in a towel.

She rubbed it gently, folded it in half and turned it over after soaking the towel, and continued to rub it until my hair was dry again.

It is a kind of self-test to make people put their hands on their heads.

The beastly instinct that remains in our bodies will resist those we do not trust.

I want to know how much trust I trust Yin Yin deep in my heart.

The back of my neck was not numb or itchy, and the girl's movements made me feel comfortable instead of nervous.So I was even more confused because this experiment did not give me the answer I wanted.

Yin Yin, I don’t want you very much.I said to her.

The girl's movements stumbled.She paused for about ten seconds and then continued to wipe the water stains at the base of my neck.She put the towel in the bathroom and then stood back in front of me.

Do you want to break your promise?Yin Yin asked me calmly.

I was still naked, and my body was still slightly tide after taking a shower.In the past, she didn't wear any clothes when I looked like this.But today is an exception.

I'm thinking about giving you 200,000 directly.You go do what you want to do, and your relationship with me will end here.

Are you telling it seriously?Yin Yin couldn't hear any feelings in her tone.

right.You nod your head now, I'll send you money, and our journey is over.

When I said these words, I no longer looked at her.

I looked out of the window at a distance and looked like water.

It’s not because I lost interest in her, but because my patience has been destroyed by Li Xingran.

Why?Yin Yin asked.

You are about to get what you want, why doesn't matter to you.

I know she is shaking, and this shaking is in line with my judgment of her.

If she leaves with the money happily, it means I really don't have to spend more energy on her.

But she was not eager to escape from this dark world like she did half a month ago and look for the light she had in her delusion.

Yin Yin walked away from me, took off her coat, then took out the book from her carry-on bag and placed it neatly back on the desk.

She was thinking, thinking for herself from an angle that was no longer dominated by me.

She didn't think for too long because she was as smart as I thought.

You have Li Xingran, so you no longer need me?The girl said while packing her things.

No, she can't be owned by me.

Is that right... Yin Yin said without comment, why does she attract you more interest than me?Because she can see through you?Or is it because she has the best tattoo skills?

That's all very minor.

What is important?

Don’t you want 200,000?I tried to interrupt her question.

Ah, if I don’t play with you, you will come to bully your girl. It’s so bad.Li Xingran in the deep sea suddenly spoke.

But I couldn’t talk to her in front of others, which would only be considered schizophrenia.

I want it.Yin Yin replied, but not now.I want you to continue teaching me.

It's not about teaching you, it's about teaching you.

Well...train me... Yin Yin read this word obscurely, and she looked at me with courage. You have let me see too many things, and I have been changed by you.Just like a fish that has just climbed ashore, it has not grown into lungs.If you give up on me now, I will be suffocated by myself.

The moment she said these words, I didn't want to throw her away.She has proven herself to me about her growth.

I nodded to her, then got up and sat on the sofa, and signaled her to come over as well.

So Yin Yin sat half of my arm, and looked shoulder to shoulder with me, looking at the unlit TV screen.This distance is like a teacher and a student, and also like a father and a daughter.

You just asked, what is important.

yes.

The answer is not that complicated.The most important thing for us is survival, both men and women.I have it, Li Xingran has it, but most people in this world don’t have it.

You can make money through training, she can make money through tattoos, you can all survive well in this world, is that right?Yin Yin spoke her superficial understanding and longed for my correction.

Have you ever seen the elderly people in the park who pick up cardboard boxes and wine bottles?Most of the time, they only have a dozen dollars in their pockets, and they are still alive.Businessmen with huge enterprises and workers who work hard to wash dishes in restaurants have their own lives, but this is not a survival ability.People in the modern world have never faced the problem of survival most of the time.When a wealthy person with assets worth tens of millions fails in his business, guess what they are doing?They jumped down from the upper floor.

Do you mean survival in the wilderness like a TV show?Yin Yin vaguely sensed the direction I was drawing.

The wilderness and the city are the same thing for us.Survival is the ability to survive from nothing.Money, house, clothes, shoes, dreams, dignity, hope... everything, only when you are thrown naked on the street and don’t have a penny in the bank account, you can talk about survival.

I couldn't help but pick up the cigarette case, but still didn't take it out.I put it in my palm and turned it, waiting for Yin Yin to follow my pace.

Yin Yin stared blankly at the empty air in the room, and suddenly she realized something: Are you talking about me?

I laughed: Yes.I like you because you have abandoned everything.You stick your butt out, lying in the bathroom, being fucked by a man, without shame and self-esteem, being penniless, betrayed the person you love and the one you love.But you are still alive, so you are beautiful at that moment.You want to survive, but you don't have that ability yet.So I want to give you this ability so that you can become a companion who can survive with me.

Yin Yin was silent for a long time, her eyes trembled and her breathing was no longer stable.I had revealed to her what I asked for, and at this time she was qualified to understand the string sound.

I sighed: But I still couldn't give you anything.Because you have nothing, the only thing you want to do is to get the lost back.You think 200,000 is enough, but the truth is that you still don’t know how to survive.Looking at you standing still, I was tired of it.

But I've chosen the right choice now.Yin Yin said.

Yes.So I'm willing to continue spending some time with you.

Li Xingran...is the kind of person you are talking about?

Um.She experienced what you are now when she was sixteen.No one helped her, she got up from nothing with her own strength.From this point of view, she is better than me.

Someone has helped you, just like you help me now, right?Is it when you were in the Sequoia Community?

That's right.

What have you experienced in the Sequoia Community?

They are all dead.

Can you tell me the story there?

I told Li Xingran.And you... I turned my head and looked at her. You are not suitable for listening to that story now.

Why?

Because it will only exchange for your sorrow and pity, that is the last thing you need to get from that story.

Where did you learn to survive?

I didn't answer her: Haha... do you owe a lot of money?Have you been gang-raped by a man?Have you blasphemed love?Do you have a bad father?What is this?A person can survive as long as there is sunshine and water.This is what I learned to survive.

However, being able to survive is different from wanting to survive.Don’t we need a reason to survive?

Does a wild beast need a reason to survive?

We are not beasts.

Of course we are, but we have a few more things than the beast.However, if you ignore your animal nature, the extra things are to use lies that are good, or to avoid animal nature after committing a sin.

... Yin Yin didn't say anything, but she was indeed moved by me.

So why reasons survive, this is not a question that should be asked at all.We must live without a refutation.This is the base, the feet, the root, the earth...

But... it will be very painful... the pain really exists!

Then solve the pain, work hard, find ways, struggle, and find a way.Only seeking death is the most inseparable pain.

There is no pain when you die.

The most painful thing after death.Your time will solidify at the most painful moment, forever and never end again.

Yin Yin trembled: You have never died, how did you know that this would be the case after death!?

You have never died, so how do you know that this is not the case after death?Do you want to bet?With endless torture, bet on the pain of liberation in this little bit of pain in the world?

Yin Yin's eyes were filled with fear, and her imagination was quickly dominating her.

I reached out and put my hand on her shoulder.Yin Yin pressed against me tightly, greedily absorbing my brief comfort.

Close your eyes and imagine how insignificant the pains of humanity are now in millions of years.When you take something seriously, you will become insignificant.That's wrong, we must be the biggest one in ourselves.Then we look for companions, regardless of each other, expand this maximum double... We don't need to pursue death, because death will never be absent.People die twice, once the stop of their heartbeat, and once the last person who remembers you disappears from the world.What determines the first way of death is whether we can reconcile with ourselves; what determines the second way of death depends on what you can leave in people's memory.Can't die with pain... Can't...

I ended my noisy alone and the room became quiet.The night outside the window had spread out, and the flashing neon lights and lights outside dispelled the darkness in the room.

I... Yin Yin spoke softly, waiting for your call since leaving your house, but your contact never came again.At the beginning I was a little grateful that Cute had the fantasy of you disappearing from my world.Then I dreamed that you were really gone, and there was no one in the world who could accept me.

But you said, that's not a nightmare.

Because that dream broke my fantasy.If I still want to let the world accept it, I have to learn to lie.It is too ugly to deceive those who want to love me with pure and innocent faces...

There is no need to ask for courtship at all, it is actually...

Before I really said this, Li Xingran spoke again.

Of course, women need to love others.When you men talk about love, they are both arrogant and stupid, as if they are dying alone on the hills.You said, are you stupid?

Perhaps, it is indeed a bit stupid.

So I chose to remain silent, gently pressed Yin Yin's head with my hands, feeling her breathing.

She went from trembling and violent resistance to tense and fearful obedience; from ignorant and timid approach to firm and enlightened confession.Now, we have come to the decisive threshold.

Everything before was just to be able to start now.Are you ready?I said in her ear.

I understand.I'm ready.

You are still scared.I felt the uneasiness inside her.

Of course I'll be afraid...

What are you afraid of?

Afraid of pain and humiliation.

If you are afraid of, face whatever you want.I got up, walked to my clothes, and took out the knife I carried with me.

Yin Yin saw me coming with a knife, and her body instinctively shrank.But I didn't hurt her, but put the knife in her hand.

Hold it.

She held the knife at a loss and her body was stiff.

I placed my palm on the tip of the knife and slowly pressed down.The tip of the knife pierced the skin, and bright red blood beads oozed out. It penetrated little by little, activated more and more painful nerves.

Yin Yin quickly pulled the knife in her hand back.

Don't you feel pain!?She dropped the knife and ran to the cabinet to find a band-aid.The girl grabbed my hand and carefully attached the bandage to the wound.

Of course it hurts.But physical pain is just a tool used by animal nature to control you.Under the pain, you felt a violent mood.The anger of a man, the fear of a woman, the heartbeat begins to accelerate, and reason is suppressed.These things blind your thinking and make you forget why you have to endure these pains.The first step to learning to survive is to control the body, rather than being enslaved by the body.

How can this be done?

I can do it, and Li Xingran can do it too, there is no reason why you can't do it.Human imagination adds too much meaning to pain, especially fear.It will force you to advance the pain of the future and magnify it exponentially.And when you isolate these things and glimpse at the end of pain with rationality, you will find that the pain is not so intolerable.

...How do I learn it?Is it up to you to constantly exert pain on me?

That will only numb you to the pain and wither your mind; or you will fall in love with the dopamine brought by the pain while you cannot resist and develop a masochistic habit.But for us, a living soul is very important, and we must make it more vivid.So what you need is instant awareness.

I don't know how to...

I'll look for opportunities and all you have to do is grab it.

Yin Yin nodded gently: What if I fail?

The number of failures a person can bear is limited, and you have to step over before the opportunity is exhausted.

I can't see myself clearly...

You'll see it very soon.Maybe tomorrow.

So what about today?

We don't need to do anything today.have a good rest.

Will you be here?

Um.

Yin Yin and I went downstairs to the hotel for dinner.

The dishes in the 4-star hotel buffet restaurant are a bit simple, but there is no problem using them to fill your stomach.

Perhaps because I said too much today, I didn’t have any conversation with her while eating, and only the simple sound of tableware and chewing were left on the dining table.

Then we went back to the room.I gave her no instructions as if she didn't exist.Seeing this, Yin Yin sat next to the book and started studying under the desk lamp.

With a little joy, I found a book called "Blue Whale" from Yin Yin's lots of teaching books.So I was able to sit down and give the rest of the evening to Melville.

Under the pale light, the silent room was filled with only the rustling strokes of the brushstrokes and the sound of flipping books.

Time passed quickly when I was focused. I looked up again. The clock was already pointing at eleven o'clock. I got up and washed up, then walked to the bedroom alone and occupied half of the bed.

Ten minutes later, Yin Yin turned off the desk lamp and walked into the bathroom.When she came out, I had already faintly entered a drowsy haze.

I felt her turn off the lights gently, go to bed, and get in from the other side of the quilt.The bed is not small, and the quilt is enough for two people, but she still curled up beside the bed, barely letting the quilt cover her body

I ignored her and fell asleep quickly.

This night I was awakened by the girl who was tossing and turning several times. Her smooth and soft calves occasionally touched me and immediately retracted; her distant and close breathing was inadvertently stagnant, like a nightingale convulsing in a dream.

I slept well that night. After being indulged in for several days, I regained my original energy in my sleep and opened my eyes at half past six in the morning.

But Yin Yin seemed to be really asleep when she was approaching the early morning.

She and I kept a clear distance, and never came to me sideways from beginning to end.

I need her to stay awake today.So after I woke up, I didn't move, leaned on the bed and continued to close my eyes and rest.After nearly two hours like this, the girl finally turned over.

She lay on the pillow, her eyes blurred, and secretly glanced at me.Because she was a little cold, she rubbed against the center of the bed and wrapped the quilt tightly around her body.

I pretended that I didn't know at all, so I fiddled with my phone and sent a message to Zhao Feng.Some things need to be delivered to him so that they will not be used in the afternoon.If you want to have control, you need to be prepared to face various possibilities.

Yin Yin's cold feet touched my legs while curled up. I tilted my legs over and pressed them on her instep before she changed her posture.

So she didn't move anymore and obediently stuffed her feet under my legs to warm them.

Like a pair of partners with a firm relationship, she seeks warmth as if she acts coquettishly, and I am used to giving her what she needs.This false warmth can easily deceive any of us.

You didn't sleep well last night, so take a little longer.I said casually.

But you slept soundly, Yin Yin's cheeks were stuck in the pillow and said to me in a low voice, and she snored for a while.

I almost didn't snore before, which shows that I was really tired of being tossed by Li Xingran.Of course, Li Xingran is the same, otherwise Ning Rong would not have taken her away.

I didn't expect you to fall asleep.The girl continued, I was a little worried that you would wake up suddenly, so I couldn't fall asleep...

Afraid that I will pounce on you?I laughed.

I'm no longer afraid of you.I just thought you would come and ask me for it.

Do you want it?I teased her in a frivolous tone, even if I knew what she meant.

Yin Yin became as embarrassed as I imagined, and her eyes drifted aside: No.

The girl is now wearing only a pair of cotton underwear. As long as I reach out and grab her, she will obediently accept my invasion.

But today I don't want to do that because my current relationship with her lacks meaning beyond releasing sexual desire.

I think so.As I said this, I used my hands to sort out her scattered hair. If I didn't want to continue sleeping, I would get up and take care of it.Today you will accompany me to meet the client.

Yin Yin said yes and sat up from the bed.She grabbed the quilt and covered her chest, her smooth and white spine occupied my vision in the morning light.

Her body is beautiful enough, and she is not from a poor family in terms of conversation or clothing taste.

If I guess correctly, Yin Yin's original family background should be wealthy enough even if it is not luxurious.

However, as the head of the family, her father embarked on the path of being addicted to gambling, which was impossible to turn back.

So she fell into my hands, not knowing whether it should be considered lucky or unfortunate, the answer to this question will be revealed soon.

Yin Yin and I had brunch at 11 o'clock, and met Zhao Feng in the hotel lobby again, and began to wait for Hillhouse to appear again.

He didn't let me wait for a long time.At a glance, Hillhouse slowly walked into the lobby with a string of car keys in his palm.When he caught a glimpse of Yin Yin and I sitting on the sofa, he looked very satisfied.

I like people who are on time.He came over and said to me.

Me too.I responded lightly.

bring it on.He tilted his head and signaled me to go out with him.

There was a black Land Rover parked outside, and Yin Yin and I sat side by side in the back row.Hillhouse did not bring anyone else, he acted as our driver himself.

No one spoke along the way.

We seem to be playing a game in which whoever speaks first will lose.

However, this is not a joke. I can feel that Hillhouse seems to be just trying to examine whether I can calm down.

Facing unknown customers and unknown destinations, normal people will inevitably have many problems.But unfortunately, I can't be considered a normal person. I like to keep the answers as a surprise that stimulates myself.

The car drove out of the city an hour later and drilled into the large green area on the map from the ramp of the highway.Yin Yinyao looked out the window for a short time, and she was a little uneasy after looking at me for a long time.

I patted her legs and sootheed her emotions.Hillhouse looked at us from time to time from the rearview mirror, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

After the car left the expressway, it took another ten minutes, with only green hills left on both sides.The roads here are paved very flat, completely different from the dusty and simple way of rural dirt roads.

After turning a hill, an iron fence appeared at the end of the road.

In the middle of the yard is a classic European-style three-story villa, and there are several townhouse-like buildings on both sides.

Although the decoration is very exquisite, this combination looks inconsistent and exudes an aesthetic contradiction.

A pair of large iron gates blocked the way, but before the car drove there, the electronically driven door was slowly opened.

I saw the security guard with a sign horizontally behind the iron door, and there was a tall man standing there; through the glass window of the security guard, I could see two other seats inside.

These men are wearing black suits and sunglasses, and have headsets hanging on their ears, looking very professional.

This is not a place to stay at home, and no one will set up a security guard in their own yard.

Moreover, this villa is extremely large, seven or eight times larger than the one I had in the western suburbs. It is a waste to simply use it to live in.

Vacation B&B?I asked.

no.Hillhouse drove the car all the way into the yard.The yard is very large, and the parking area is at least one or two hundred meters away from the central villa. Four or five other cars were parked beside the town buildings on both sides.

I jumped out of the car and moved my sitting body for a while.Yin Yin shook his arms and legs like me, and then took a few breaths of refreshing country air.

The wind is a little cold.I felt the little bit of sweat coming out of my neck getting cold.

But it smells good.It smells better than in the car.Yin Yin said.

Hillhouse went around from the driver's seat, moving slowly and without any rush.He took out a metal cigarette clip and took out two to share with me.

He and I leaned against the car door and smoked. The huge courtyard of the empty yard was rolling with the fallen leaves left in autumn, making a rustling sound.

Don't you have to go in and see your boss?

Hillhouse shook Jaeger-LeCoultre on his wrist: He is still busy, and he is sitting and waiting for him when he goes in.

What are the bosses who are so big?I deliberately made the clichés I wanted.

His little personal hobbies.

Can you reveal your identity now?

We don’t have any identity, we run a business.The master’s surname is Jiang, just call him Director Jiang.

A single surname is equivalent to no clue to me, because I was unable to make any reliable associations.

So what about you, Mr. Gao?What position are you in your company?

The business card was written.

Consultant, obviously just a false title that occupies place.I smiled without objection and didn't buy it.

Hillhouse also laughed, and that smiling face looked like an animal in some shadow.Yin Yin next to him shivered when she saw him smiling.

Are you not satisfied with my reply?He said.

If you need me to be satisfied, I can be satisfied.I tactfully gave in.

Actually, there is nothing to hide. I am Mr. Jiang’s younger brother.

Swedish brother?

The Jiang family's wild breeder is a brother who follows the mother's surname.

The sudden rude words are sharp and sharp.But Hillhouse was very calm and was just talking about the fact that he was so accustomed to.

I suspect he wanted to observe my reaction, but I was too lazy to act at this time.

This identity is very convenient to do business.I bounced the ashes at his feet, and I wouldn't worry about you snatching the position, and the outside world would also take into account your background.

Yes?Hillhouse raised his head to me and made a serious expression. Things like bloodline always have one or another use, and they can't be shaken off.

Hillhouse suddenly made a high-profile appearance, which made me read the inconsistency.

He said this as if he was talking about himself, but I always felt a sense of pointing out.

This sudden intuition of Cute is often accurate, at least for me.

The time is almost over, let's go in.He threw away the cigarette and turned back to his original cold appearance in the blink of an eye.He took us around and walked towards the small door on the back of the villa.

Why not walk through the main entrance?I asked.

It would be bad if the boss is unhappy.Go back insurance.Hillhouse said without looking back.

Although it is a bit inexplicable, now is not the time to ask too much.I followed Hillhouse closely, while Yin Yin ran to me in a small step and held my hand.

I was curious, and she was scared.

Hillhouse just pushed open the side door and all kinds of noisy noises came from inside.When I walked in, the first thing I saw was the long glass wall on my left hand, like a shopping mall and gym.

The room behind the glass wall is very large, with a pool table in the center, as well as a long bar and wine cabinet.

The room was filled with restless metal music, and two men were playing with equipment; a huge piece of LCD was hung on the wall, and two others on the sofa were holding handles, playing shooting games that could not be called; a table in the corner was surrounded by three card-playing players, and smoke was shrouded in smoke.

The most noticeable ones are the three naked girls in the corner of the room.

One of them was being grabbed by someone's hair and had a blowjob, while the other two were slumped on the bed beside the wall and moaned, allowing the man on his body to go in and out of the body.

Between a layer of glass and the distance is far away, I can't see clearly what those girls look like, but at least I can see that their figures are all top-notch.

This is nothing unexpected, but just throwing them into the horse-boy room and playing with them casually is still not in line with my aesthetic sense.

I passed through the corridor outside and looked inside, feeling like I was looking at the zoo.

Yin Yin became even more nervous when she saw this scene. She grabbed my hand and used a little force.

They are all responsible for the security work here, and they are in three shifts, so they are too idle to be worried that they will make trouble.If you provide services on your lower body, you will be much more at ease.Hillhouse didn't look into the room at all. He speeded up and took us through the corridor to the second floor.

The decoration on the second floor is more formal than office, but it still reveals a vulgar style similar to the bath center.

We walked into a fully open room in the writing room, which was lined with four rows and three rows, a total of twelve lattices. Each lattice sat a woman in a white shirt and hip skirt.

They were typing on the computer, wearing headsets on their heads, talking to the person on the other side of the phone in a straight voice.

A screen was hung on the entire wall, with dense numbers on it, and a high-definition projector was also installed at the other end of the room.

The projection is played by football programs from foreign satellite channels.I don't watch football and can't tell what team it is.

There was a huge desk directly opposite the projection, where a man in his forties sat, resting his feet on the desk and watching the game with all his attention.

The man had a fashionable hairstyle that was younger than himself. The bangs in front of his forehead were wet with sweat at this time, and they were tilted to the side face.

He had a clean shaved beard, his cheeks were angular, and he was wearing a gray vest and expensive handmade custom shirt.

Regardless of his wealth, this man is a hot commodity that cannot be piled up by women even by his appearance.

The man lit a cigarette in his hand and accumulated long ashes.He pointed to the ball game played on the projection and yelled and slapped his fist on the table after one side lost the ball.

Hillhouse did not walk over, and he signaled us to sit down on the sofa in the lounge area next to us and stand quietly aside.

Wait until the game is over.He only said one sentence.