Chapter 16 Past

At Li Yanhua's home, he was wearing a maroon sweater and black trousers, sitting on the rattan chair opposite me. While holding the quartz watch on his left wrist, he asked in a frank tone: So, what do you want to know?

You have many things hidden from me

I pulled out a cigarette from my cigarette bag and put it in my mouth to light the fire

Didn't swear to Li Yanhua

You are my military advisor. What if we are not honest and honest about it? If so, as long as you can tell the reason why you hide it for good intentions, I will not be angry with you.

Li Yanhua smiled and raised his eyebrows, took off thick thick-framed glasses from his face, and gently wiped the lens with a cloth

While waiting for him to speak, I was smoking while looking at the corner of the ceiling, and my thoughts seemed to pass through the lime wall to the distant past.

This includes the formation of me and the chaos in history

Li Yanhua looked at my face for a while

Although I didn't look at him, I still felt his gaze on my face

He seemed to sigh softly

This sigh made me look at him again, and he slowly put his glasses on

It seems you already know a lot

No more than you

I know you have had close contact with the Zhang family in the past six months

He said

Change into a transactional neutral tone

You met Zhang You at the beginning, we didn’t agree. Don’t you make the Zhang family’s idea for the time being? You broke the agreement between us and kept it hidden from me. If you say honestly, you probably are not qualified to propose it.

I, Ai, have never promised you anything

I smiled a little confused.

Did you remember it wrong or did I remember it wrong? Have I really officially agreed with you? You just warned me not to rush to start, but I didn't listen to your warning. I am not so powerful that I can predict the future. There are many situations that happen naturally and cannot be stopped.

Why bother to confront each other?

Li Yanhua said: I have never betrayed you. Until now, I still sit on the same boat as you. I told you not to start with the Zhang family. Of course, there was a good reason. As a result, you didn't listen to my advice and even saw their master's face. But I have never instigated anything until now, right? You know something from yourself. No problem. You can ask me for confirmation that I want you to know that I have never left our circle from beginning to end.

You knew I wasn't your cousin for a long time. I looked at him. You've lie to me since the beginning.

There are two kinds of lies in the world

Li Yanhua stood up, swung his tall and thin body, and walked to the wardrobe against the wall to make tea.

While concentrating on sprinkling tea leaves onto the teacup with his fingertips, he said: The first one is for his own benefit; the second one is for the benefit of both parties. Think clearly, which one is what I am talking about

I hope it is the second one. I'm faintly saying

Your hope has not failed

Li Yanhua covered the lid of the kettle and came back with a teacup on each hand.

Our plan is to enter the huge commercial market, where you not only rely on your mind, but also on interpersonal relationships, luck, courage and reason. You are a talent that can be made and will become a great person in the future. But you are still young, and many things are beyond your imagination, and you will be captured by you like a huge wave. If I don’t protect you well, you will only have half of your life before entering that world, and the road ahead will be even more difficult to do in the future.

He said that, handed me one of the tea cups

Have tea

I know you're extremely smart

The suffocation in my heart was slightly eliminated, and I sipped the hot tea ceremony: But you shouldn't take everything yourself. You are my military advisor and have the responsibility to analyze the problems for me.

I admit that I was a little inappropriate. Li Yanhua cleared his throat and said: Well, since it has reached this point, I won’t hide anything from you anymore

Who am I? I asked straightforwardly

You are not your surname Li, not your descendant of our Li family. Li Yanhua said: My cousin - Li Guanghua is just your adoptive father

I was not surprised at all after Li Yanhua personally confirmed it, but I just felt that I had nothing to do with the person in front of me. As for my father, I was no longer my father, I had been sure of it long ago.

The next question is a bit difficult for me to talk about my mother? Is she my biological mother?

She is your biological mother Li Yanhua nodded and was on the back of the chair. You were born to Long Zhiling and another man.

My shoulders suddenly relaxed. My mother's name is Long Zhiling. She is my biological mother

Actually, how much do you know? Li Yanhua asked: Let me tell you what you know first

I sorted out my mind and said: Li Guanghua was castrated when the Japanese invaded China, but he was able to marry my mother after the war, and I was born after they got married, so no matter how I said that I would not be his biological son, I know that this is all

Li Yanhua nodded, then groped in his pants bag

I handed him a cigarette and then lit it for him

He took a few sips, gently put his hand holding the cigarette on his forehead, looked at me and said: Do you really want to listen? What I said later may make you unable to bear it.

I'm mentally prepared, I said calmly

I was five years older than Li Guanghua and I have met since I was a child because we were cousins. Li Yanhua took off the ashes on the ashtray.

Although it is related to blood, our qualifications are too different. He has been a person who cannot do anything since childhood. He has poor reading. He is small, has no sports cells, lacks eloquence, has little appearance, is not very conspicuous, and the environment at home is not good. I am a typical intellectual. All things that need to be used to use my brain. It is like taking things out of my pocket. My mother's relatives have some political power. So my childhood was spent in an environment where I can fully utilize my talents. It is not difficult for me to study and write down the most essence of things in the book. I am born to know how to learn and apply them. I will read books in my spare time. I am willing to spend more time than others, and I also have the ambition to break out of the outside world. So don't say that I can compare with my cousin, even if it is outstanding compared to other peers, it is normal.

After graduating from college, I obtained civil service qualifications with excellent grades and was an official in the diplomatic department for ten years. I felt tired of it. At the same time, I also met a wealthy businessman who took a fancy to my talent and hoped that I could serve as his secretary, the so-called second position of the Golden Empire he established in the past. At that time, he had huge power in his forties in that era when the war broke out. So, I naturally resigned from my position and turned to the legendary figure.

At that time, the Japanese army's front line had been extended to the core of mainland China, and also attacked Hong Kong with a strong attitude. However, at that time, there was no great threat to our empire. Mr. - my boss - had business dealings with many overseas figures, and even several left-wing figures in Japan had friendship with him. Therefore, after the Japanese army invaded Hong Kong, we were like a protective net, not harassed by every tree and every tree. In the eyes of the people who were suffering at that time, they were so envious that they were dyingly envious of the people who were suffering at that time.

However, when I was in the protection website of my husband, my cousin was cruelly treated by a Japanese officer who liked to do cruel things in Hong Kong. It was a matter of no benefit. As long as I felt happy, I would do it without hesitation.

My cousin's name is Guanghua. What I told you is that it means "Everbright China". The soldiers somehow knew the meaning of this name - I think it was a Japanese translator who would explain it to the soldiers when he heard my cousin's name - in short, one of the officers laughed and said, "What about Chinese people in this situation? What about Everbright China?" So he took my cousin to the street like a demonstration, took off his pants in front of many passers-by, and then cut off his lower body with a saber.

I smiled and shook my head. The humiliation that man suffered was really great. I think

When Li Yanhua saw my reaction, he shrugged my cousin. It was such a miserable person. How many people in Hong Kong have the meaning of national spirit? But my cousin would suffer because of this. His life was destined to suffer this nightmare. It was not fair or not to calculate it. In short, after I learned the news, I saw that he was pitiful, so I asked the husband to take him in. At that time, his parents died and had no relatives except me. Moreover, I had no responsibility to protect him before. At this time, I could not leave him alone. Although I could not see what my cousin was useful, I also agreed to take him in because of my face. Later, my cousin took care of some chores for the husband, serving his daily life, etc.

After two or three years, I have gained more and more trust from my husband. He has regarded me as a confidant and I am quite satisfied with the treatment I have given me. I have achieved greater success in business than before. All of these are thanks to my husband. Although this is true, I am still very careful around me. I plan every thing carefully so that I can do things carefully, so that all my previous efforts will be over. Mr. is a very arrogant person. He is very strict with all his subordinates. He is ruthless when he wants to punish someone and has a tendency to take off his anger. It is considered as arrogant. Of course, he is different to me, but it does not mean that he will be willing to tolerate me highly.

After the fall of Hong Kong, one time, my husband and I went to Taiwan to do that journey, which made a major change in my life. I was cautious all my life, and I calculated everything, but I also made a big mistake, which made me unable to turn over and get up again.

At this time, Li Yanhua and I both had dried up the teacup

I pushed the cup aside, then put my legs on the coffee table and continued to listen to Li Yanhua's narration

Li Yanhua looked at my posture, smiled gently, and then shook his head again

I asked what's wrong?

He said nothing

In addition to my husband and I, there were several other employees in the company. Li Guanghua, who followed him to serve, also had a colleague in Taiwan to handle a lot of business. After we were preparing to return to Hong Kong, the group suddenly said that he would stay for a while, and the others went back first. I asked if there were a few people to stay by his side? He shook his head, leaving only Li Guanghua who had been serving him, and the rest were called back by him and told me to take charge of the overall situation in Hong Kong for the time being.

As a result, the night before my husband stayed in Taiwan that time, he called me and was very excited. I asked what happened? He asked me if I knew where Li Guanghua was now? I found it strange and asked him, wasn’t Li Guanghua staying in Taiwan with you? After hearing this, the husband stopped saying anything, just angrily.

At that time, I knew something must have happened, but I couldn't guess what happened. I didn't contact me for several months. I just called me to report my safety and gave up. At that time, I often grabbed me and asked me about my whereabouts. But I didn't know anything. To be honest, I'm not worried about the emperor. Without him, many things will stagnate. I can only rely on me to barely maintain it. I know that if my husband disappears, the empire will be completely disintegrated.

The next day, he didn't go home, but rushed to my house to question me where Li Guanghua was. I said I really don't know what happened? The gentleman was very angry and said that Li Guanghua stole his woman. I burst into laughter after hearing this. Isn't that ridiculous? An inconspicuous and castrated failed man was able to snatch the woman from his husband? But the gentleman was not kidding, he was serious and said that Li Guanghua's and did snatch his woman away, and he didn't know where to hide.

I asked Mr. calm down and explain to me what happened first. Mr. said that he met a girl in Taiwan and was deeply attracted by her. Soon they got better. At that time, he asked us to go back to Hong Kong first, to stay with the girl for the next few months. They stayed in Taiwan with warmth. Mr. also planned to take her to Hong Kong to take her as a concubine. But the girl didn't know from beginning to end that Mr. had a wife and children in Hong Kong. He thought he was single. When the teacher asked to go back to Hong Kong with her, the girl strongly refused. , and said that she would not want to be his concubine. The girl was only sixteen years old, but her husband was forty-three at that time. It can be said that they fell in love with people who were completely different from their own views on love. Later, they quarreled over this matter. The husband kept explaining that he loved her, but what was wrong with how many wives a man had? It would be fine if he could afford it! The girl became more and more afraid. It seemed that the gentleman would force her to take her to Hong Kong in that era. What else could he do if he had money? So, one day she suddenly parted without saying goodbye, and at the same time, Li Guanghua didn't know where to go.

Of course, when Li Guanghua stayed by his side, he had seen the girl countless times, and he already knew each other. After he knew that they disappeared at the same time, he immediately thought that Li Guanghua took the girl away and asked me again and again whether she was hiding Li Guanghua? I laughed helplessly and said, "Why do I hide him?" His husband said that Li Guanghua was my cousin. He was in such a situation now. There was no reason not to ask me for help. I asserted that I had never seen him or that girl, and from now on, I will try my best to help the husband find them out. After hearing this, the teacher sneered and said that it was not only Li Guanghua and the girl who betrayed him, but also me. I knew that he was very angry now, so he took the responsibility for this matter to me. In fact, if it was Li Guanghua who really took the girl away, I was the one who was most reasonable to be held accountable because Li Guanghua was my cousin and I brought him in.

Just as I was thinking about how to solve the problem, my husband told me that he would no longer work for him and asked me to disappear from his empire forever. I patiently analyzed the whole thing to him and said that it was useless to drive me away, and doing so would make him lose the important clue to find Li Guanghua. Mr. didn't listen to anything. The girl had already made him lose all his rationality. He said that Li Guanghua would go to find him by himself, so I had no value for use. I just told me to get out like this. I don't believe these things. The words come from the words of Mr. He has always been a big emotional winner. He has married three wives at home and has no woman he can't get. He will lose his mind for a 16-year-old girl? He drove his always-off assistant out of his empire? But at that time, I looked at Mr. He knew that things had no turnaround. He really wanted me to be a scapegoat because of my relationship, which made him lose his beloved woman; because my cousin I brought in, he stole his beloved woman.

In the future, the gentleman not only drove me out like a dog, but also completely blocked my path to reentering the business world. I was demoted to a civilian by the gentleman, and all the money and power disappeared without a trace. I naturally resented my husband to me like this in my heart, but I hated Li Guanghua's actions even more. Because of his relationship, I went from being the second place in the business empire to being worthless now.

Later, for the sake of making a living, I found a teaching profession. The war was over and Hong Kong returned to peace. At this moment, Li Guanghua finally appeared in front of me and brought a pregnant girl.

At the first glance of seeing that girl, I knew why Mr. lost his intimacy so much. She is the most beautiful, attractive and dazzling woman I have ever seen. I have always been very concerned about the appearance of the opposite sex. I treat the beauty like dirt. But even I can't help but sigh for this girl. If she was born in ancient times, she would be a beauty that is fascinating to the whole country. Even if she was born in modern times, it would be enough to make all successful men say "Beauty is a disaster."

Of course, even if she is beautiful, it doesn't matter to me. I just looked at her for a while and then stared at Li Guanghua again. He lowered his head in shame and introduced her wife to me. Long Zhiling, I asked them lightly if they were married? Li Guanghua nodded and asked Long Zhiling if she knew that her husband was a castrated man? Long Zhiling didn't say anything, of course she knew, how could she have no idea. She actually married a man without a bird because the man she loved deeply had a wife? No matter how I said, I didn't understand, and asked them if their children were from the husband? They all nodded and I didn't know what to say. Even if I took them to the husband now, the husband would not take me again. They were married, and everything was a foregone conclusion.

Li Guanghua sincerely apologized to me and said that Long Zhiling wanted to avoid the applause of his husband, so he took her away. I believe that Li Guanghua was also confused by Long Zhiling's beauty. He knew that he could not be in love with her. He also took this burden for her. Li Guanghua also said that he had no intention of marrying her, but when he fled back to Hong Kong, he found out that she was pregnant and the child could not have a father. So he -

Li Yanhua stopped talking and looked at my bare face.

You know now that the child Long Zhiling was pregnant with at that time was you. Li Yanhua said

I quietly lit a cigarette, looked into the distance, and my thoughts flew to the distance.

I don't know what their husband and wife life is like, but I probably guessed that they are just two people who depend on each other in life. Long Zhiling is a country girl who grew up in Taiwan, and her thoughts are naturally very simple; and Li Guanghua is also like a boy who has never grown up. She will not be outstanding in her previous life and the next life, but they can help and comfort each other in this relationship, and they don't even have to love each other. Of course, Long Zhiling will not fall in love with Li Guanghua, but she will definitely be grateful to him how good Li Guanghua treats her. I can guess it without asking.

But I am not a kind person. I just care about my future. They love each other or not. I have no interest in it. But I have nothing to do. I just told them not to appear in front of me and ask them for their blessings. I slid from high places to the ground, and of course I did not have extra sympathy to care about their future lives.

Although my husband and Li Guanghua and his wife did not meet again, I accidentally got their news. In April of the following year after the war, you were born and knew that Li Guanghua named you Li Guan Ai, that poor man really treated you as his biological son. He had no ability to have children, so he treated others as his own.

During these years, I have been hiding in a small middle school and living a teaching career. I just hope to return to the business world after things cool down. But my husband has been spared no effort to stop me and block all opportunities so tightly. On the other hand, I also know that my husband's career is becoming more and more stable. The empire has not been affected by the loss of me - there may be a little, but how can outsiders see it - in this way, I can only secretly raise people and conspire to make a comeback

In recent years, I have grown old, and of course my husband is older than me, too. The outside world has been speculating which son he will inherit. Mr. Empire has four sons. Except for Mo Zi, who is still studying, the rest are all managing business for his father. At this moment, I remembered you.

I nodded, and I knew very well what Li Yanhua was thinking about

You are his biological son and born with his beloved woman. He will definitely recognize you. If I can start from you, it is not impossible for me to return to that empire. Maybe you will think I am using you, but you think clearly. Don’t you want to go back to your original home? You grew up in the migration area all your life, and the feeling of poverty is very good, right? You were originally a prince, but because your mother couldn’t think about it for a while, I was demoted to the poor. If you want to go back to that empire, I am the only person who can help you. I am familiar with the system inside. I know how to help you inherit the empire. The most important thing is that you have this ambition. You are unwilling to be ordinary and naturally smart. If we cooperate, no one except the teacher will be our opponent.

I bent down, covered my lower half of my face with both hands, and remained silent

What are you thinking? Li Yanhua asked

I'm excited

I slowly put down my hand, and a wicked and weird smile appeared on my face.

It turns out that my real father is such a person. I am not a poor person. I am the prince. I am Ai Guan. I suddenly hate my life for sixteen years. My mother... It was too much. She actually pushed me into such a harsh environment. But I don't mind. I want to get back everything now. From today on, I want to enter that empire.

I did not read the wrong person, Li Yanhua smiled a little relievedly

My blood is boiling

When I knew that Li Guanghua was not my father, I was already glad that I had nothing to do with him. Now, I am actually a pride of heaven who will soon inherit Pang Jiabao's family.

I've long said I'm different

I've long said I'm different!

What I was bleeding from nobles, not a laborious person

I gently bit my fist

No one can stop me anymore

What are we waiting for? My eyes were glowing strangely and I asked Li Yanhua. I already know everything now. Let’s go back to that empire!

There are several things to be solved. Li Yanhua stopped for a moment and said this

What is it?

First of all, you have to break away from the father-son relationship with Li Guanghua. Li Yanhua carefully analyzed it for me

Although you are the son of a gentleman, with his personality, he will definitely mind the current relationship between you and Li Guanghua. You can't call Li Guanghua the father anymore

What's the difficulty? I said without hesitation: I have long since recognized him!

But he still exists

I lit a cigarette with a lighter and threw the lighter onto the coffee table.

Just kill him, my father just wants to prove that I am loyal to him, right? Kill Li Guanghua and eradicate him from the world.

Can you do it? Li Yanhua looked at me and asked

Why can't it? If it weren't for him, my mother would have married my father long ago. I could have been born in that family. Li Guanghua, a coward, wants to be my father? Is he worthy?

Since you already have this determination, there is only one problem left

Li Yanhua stretched out his hand and put it on my shoulder and said to me: Leaving Zhang Hanyun If you want to enter that empire, you must leave Zhang Hanyun

My eyes suddenly became confused. Why?

Your real name is - Zhang Guanai Li Yanhua looked at my eyes and said clearly: Your father is Zhang You, and Zhang Hanyun is your sister

I was stunned for a few seconds, and then my stomach suddenly felt tumbling, my thoughts were crazy, as if I had fallen into the bottomless abyss

I remembered the fragments of the past one by one - Lefeng and I sneaked into the Zhang family villa for the first time. Old Mrs. Zhang smiled and greeted me for cookies. Driver Ahua introduced me to the shy Hanyun, and had sex with Hanyun in the park. In the theater, Hanyun pushed away my hand that reached into her skirt...

I remembered again that I once made a prank to direct an incest drama for the Gao family and his son.

But I didn't know at that time, it turned out that I had tried incest a long time ago

I'm incest with my sister

So when I knew that you and Zhang Hanyun were lovers, I immediately asked you to stay away from the Zhang family for the first time.

Li Yanhua said: Do you know the reason now? I know you must have been incest with your sister for a long time, so you must stop in time and not destroy the entire plan. Zhang, especially what I mentioned, Mr. Zhang, half a year after you were born, his daughter was also born. She is the only child younger than you in the Zhang family.

My face was bloodless and I looked at Li Yanhua

Forget it! Although unfortunately, it cannot be saved. What you want to think about now is how to cut off all relationships with Zhang Hanyun. You cannot let the people of the Zhang family know that you have done otherwise - I don’t have much confidence to get you into the Zhang family.

absurd!

I waved and shouted: Hanyun is my sister - so what? I'm not afraid! She can't stop me, can't stop me! I am Zhang You's son! It should be my inheritance of everything... Hanyun, Hanyun, I don't know this person... She has nothing to do with me!

Li Yanhua looked at me calmly

I stood up suddenly and said to him: I understand everything and follow the plan. Don't worry, I will have your place in my world in the future. As I said that, I took the door and left without staying for a long time.

It was already late at night when I got home. My body seemed empty, but my mind was extremely excited. I walked into the room and saw Li Guanghua sitting in front of the folding platform, holding a wine glass in his hand.

Are you back? He asked when he saw me

I stared blankly around the small living room where is my mother?

Sleeping. Li Guanghua seemed a little strange to me, but he just responded like this.

I nodded, walked to him and sat down. You drink until so night.

Li Guanghua held his lips and smiled, looked at me and said: Why are you so strange today? You talk too much

I haven't spoken much to you. I took the wine glass above his hand and put it on the stage to pour wine for him. I want to tell you more today

OK, Li Guanghua smiled happily

I'll push the glass in front of him

Li Guanghua smiled and drank all my head in one sip. Nodded and said lightly: Yes, good wine

How about you having a drink? Li Guanghua tried to ask

I shook my head I still have something to say when I'm drunk I'm afraid I'll forget it

What do you want to say? Come on, tell me to my father. Li Guanghua asked enthusiastically, turning his body to me

Zhang You wants to kill you. I raised my head and looked into his eyes. Do you know?

Li Guanghua's body suddenly shook and she smiled and said: What were you talking about?

You stole his woman, you are going to kill you. I frowned slightly, and my tone was serious. Not only that, you stole his son, but he also wanted you to die a little.

Li Guanghua moved his gaze to the stage, his lips trembled. When he faced me again, he could no longer say clearly. You...have you seen him?

I scratched my head and said in thought: No, I haven't seen him before, but I know nothing. Do you think you can just take my mother to hide in the migration area? Zhang You's villa is nearby; he has already set his sights on you, you can't escape no matter how you escape, you know who Boss Lei is, right? You know how powerful he is? Such a fierce person is also manipulated by a big business like Zhang You. If Zhang You wants to take your life, it's as simple as strangling a cockroach with broken feet to death

Why did you know? How did you know that Zhang You wanted to kill me? Don’t say that you are my son and you can’t say such things to your father.

You're still saying I'm your son

I smiled and said: Maybe even you think it's a pity. This is not a fact. You should wake up. Do you still remember that your bird was cut off twenty years ago? You are not someone's father or someone's husband. You are just a poor worm who is ignorant of the current affairs and offends people everywhere.

Li Guanghua stopped when he heard my words, and after a while, he said: Yes, I am indeed like this, sometimes I want to forget my past, but I can't - I love your mother deeply, but I can't bring her happiness. I don't even have sexual desire. How can I make her happy? Yes, I have been doing nothing since I was a child. My father regarded me as a harmful bacteria. My mother ran away early in the morning. I have a cousin. He is very amazing. He always takes the first place in the exam. After graduating from college, he became an official. Later, he was even more capable of Master Zhang's right-hand man, but I hurt him badly.

I have caused trouble everywhere in my life, and no one likes anyone. No wonder the Japanese officer chose me to castrate him.

The luckiest thing in my life is meeting your mother

At that time, I followed Mr. Zhang and saw a fairy floating out from behind.

She appeared in front of me in white rubber slippers and a long nightgown.

At that time, I heard Mr. Zhang call her like this-Zhi Ling

This is the most beautiful name I've ever heard

She is a fairy in the sky, I am a slave who digs a well underground, I never thought I could know her

But when I saw her on the third day, she called my name in Mandarin

Guanghua, Brother You asked you to go--I don't remember what she said next

My soul flew away when she called me like this

If someone told me at that time that this girl would be my wife in a few months, I believe I would be angry, and it was the most annoying time in my life, and would chase that person and beat him.

This is too much

I can't accept that someone would make fun of me like this

However, things that even everyone doesn't believe really happened to me

One day she came to me, she looked furious and even the buttons on her top were wrongly buttoned.

She said to me: Guanghua, can you take me away? Please, can you take me away? Don't let Brother You know

I'm stupid and don't know how to deal with it

I don't know how long, my legs ran wildly as if they were not controlled, and I was still holding Zhiling's hand.

That was my first physical contact with her, and I will never forget it

I took Zhiling to hide in the mulberry fields late at night

She said her family wanted to force her to marry Mr. Zhang, but she didn't want to be someone else's concubine, so she had to run away

She said she must have her man love her deeply

I can't understand

But it doesn't matter

I just need to know that I will take her away

At dawn, I called to check the ships smuggled back to Hong Kong

She and I hid in the cabin

At that time, I was so scared that I was surrounded by people who had fled without knowing what had happened.

Some speak Mandarin, some speak Minnan, and some speak Chaozhou

I'm afraid they will suddenly attack on the boat and bully Zhiling who is like a fairy descending to earth

It's been a week since I returned to Hong Kong

We hide again as soon as we get to the point

Because I know Mr. Zhang is looking for us, my cousin is looking for us too.

At this moment, Zhiling found out that she was pregnant

She didn't know what to do, so she told me that this child was Mr. Zhang's.

I said, why not escape, I will take you back to find Mr. Zhang, then the child will have a father

But she doesn't want to

She said that it doesn't matter if she is a concubine for her children, but she doesn't want her children to grow up in Mr. Zhang's house.

She wants to teach her children well and not let them learn from their father's appearance: love money, love rights, and then harm women

I don't agree

In my heart, Mr. Zhang is really a very amazing person. Even my cousin will work hard for him.

But I listened to her everything. She said she should not look for Mr. Zhang, so she should not look for Mr. Zhang. She asked me again, would she be the father of this child? I couldn't understand that she said that if I were the father of this child, the child would definitely be a decent person. At that time, I seemed to face the most terrifying thing in my life. Compared to the officer who used a knife to cut in front of my scrotum, I was afraid that this was just a nightmare that God gave me again. I was afraid that this beautiful woman would say no, it was still not good-- I was afraid that everything that would happen would be like this. We quietly invited a matchmaker to come back to worship the world. At that moment, I became Long Zhiling's husband and the unborn Li Guanai's father.

Li Guanghua said this and was smiling at me again.

Later, when I found a job at the dock, I was so moved that I shed tears. Although it was a hard and low job, I could become the head of the family because of this job. I had been a child and decided that I would not be able to organize a home in the future. But I was wrong. It turned out that I could also move to the migration area at that time. All the neighbors were very kind to us, and lived in the Lin family next door. At that time, Mrs. Lin was pregnant with a child, and the due date was three months later than Zhiling. I was so happy at that time. That was the happiest time in my life. After the child was born, I gave the name to the child according to the recipe of my family. This is how Li Guanai was born. I once asked, is the child's surname Zhang? But Zhiling smiled and said that I am the father of the child, of course his surname is Li. Since she said that, I also accepted Guanai was very smart since childhood, and he learned what he taught him immediately. But sometimes when I look at him, I feel guilty - he is a foreign child. He looks like a mixed-race child - no, he is just a mixed-race child.

Half of the blood on his body belongs to Mr. Zhang, and Mr. Zhang is a neighbor of a mixed-race Chinese and British race, and he also told me this. I had to say far-fetchedly that I didn't know why, but I happened to be so handsome. Well, Guan Ai looks half like Mr. Zhang, and his other half is like Zhiling, which is so beautiful. So I don't dare to look at him for too long, nor dare to be looked at by him for too long. I'm afraid he will suddenly shout. Daddy looks different from me. Time flies, and sixteen years have passed, and my life has also passed forty-five years. Sometimes I wonder what happened to these forty-five years? What do I have to stay in the world? My wife is not a real wife; my children are not mine; the only person who is related to blood is left is my cousin, but he thinks I no longer exists. I think what I can stay is a kind of kindness that I thanked God thousands of times. God has let me live with Zhiling for more than ten years, which is the greatest gain in my life.

Li Guanghua's face burst into tears, but his expression was quite satisfied

I felt very disgusted when I looked at it

This man is so disgusting that he can't believe it

It's a rotten and smelly existence

You finished speaking? Very good, just now, I thought about when you will stop. Now I want to say that I am not interested in your so-called life. I just ask you to disappear automatically. No matter what, please bury a hole and drill it yourself. It is good to swim to the mainland. It is good to find a mountain to pick coal for the rest of your life. It is good to disappear. In short, I will disappear. If you don’t disappear, I will let you disappear. I have the ability to make you disappear. You have occupied me for sixteen years. It is time to let go. Also, it is best to be quiet when you leave. Don’t disturb my mother. If you take my mother to wherever you go, I will kill you immediately.

Li Guanghua lowered his head and wiped his tears

I was very impatient and bent my neck to confirm to him: Do you hear it? Do you understand? If you understand, I will stop talking to you? You can do it yourself.

After saying that, I left the house, leaving Li Guanghua alone sobbing

When I came back the next morning, my mother, who had just woken up, knelt on the bed blankly, looking at Li Guanghua lying on the bed

I walked behind my mother

After a long time, my mother turned around and said softly to me: Your father has passed away

I looked at Li Guanghua's face quietly. He died calmly, as if he had done something in this world. He just returned to the starting point.

After being sent to the hospital, I concluded that I had committed suicide by taking poison. After I left the house, I drank the poison in the wine, and then went to bed, and died of poisoning in my sleep.

In this way, Li Guanghua died at the age of 45