Chapter 12

Xiao Xu is from Nanjing City, she entered the agency one year later than Zhang Chu.

There is her dormitory in the agency, but she rarely lives in it and usually goes home after get off work.

On Friday and Saturday night, I always stay in a single dormitory

These two nights, single men and single women often get together, bragging, rumor, flirting, and fake.

When Zhang Chu lived in a single dormitory, if he didn't go to Shiyun's place at night, he would mostly go to the female single dormitory, and he would be in a mess with his female colleagues.

Because he and Xiao Xu are in the same place, when they meet Xiao Xu, they often tied in Xiao Xu's dormitory and asked for some fun with Xiao Xu.

After a long time, Xiao Xu was really moved by Zhang Chu and became more meticulous to Zhang Chu.

Later she found that Zhang Chu was just a person with a temperament, with the shadows of the tree, the lotus butterfly, but she was just having fun on the strings of the pipa, but she felt rain in her heart, a roll of clouds, and a bright sun and blue sky were all on the head of his girlfriend Shi Yun. From then on, she gave up this thought and became close friends with Zhang Chu. When they were together, they talked about everything.

Once in Xiao Xu's dormitory, Xiao Xu wanted to examine how Zhang Chu was, so he deliberately said that Zhang Chu must admire noble things very much.

Then Zhang Chu told Xiao Xu very directly after hearing this, saying that he had never admired noble things since he was a child.

He told Xiao Xu that when he was six years old and first grade, he wrote many big names on a piece of paper, then put the paper on the ground and pissed at it

Xiao Xu retorted that those big names do not represent nobleness

Zhang Chu said that when I was six years old, those characters not only represent the noble, but also represent the greatness.

Xiao Xu was a little silent when she heard this. Seeing Zhang Chu confessed so much, she took the opportunity to incite Zhang Chu to tell him the most despicable thing he had ever done.

Zhang Chu said without any hesitation that this is hard to say, because everyone has some differences in their understanding of despicableness.

When I was in high school, once, the mother of a girl in our village brought her daughter's clothes at night and asked me to bring them to school tomorrow.

Tonight, I want to see what clothes are in my bag, so I open them.

The result was three unusual clothes, a bra, a pair of shorts and a top lingerie

You should think that these three pieces of clothing are difficult for me to fall asleep on my bedside

In the middle of the night, I put them in my arms, touched them, smelled them, and picked up the bra and put them on myself

I don't have sisters, and my mother never uses a bra.

Before that, I've never touched my bra

So, that bra that night made me excited, and the pair of shorts had a special taste, which made me feel excited all the time.

Later, I stuffed them all between my legs, clamped them to sleep, and my mind was full of sexual fantasies, which left me in high excitement all night.

But when I was having sex, I felt bad because that girl was not beautiful

I think she must have wanted to seduce me, make me degenerate, and pull my grades down

I was a little angry when I thought about this, and I thought I should punish her

I got up, walked to the yard, held the clothes in my hand, urinated at them, then threw them under the bed, and went to bed

The next day, I arrived at school and handed these clothes to the girl.

When Xiao Xu heard this, he refuted Zhang Chu that this was not the most despicable thing, because boys would do similar things when they saw these clothes.

Zhang Chu said, the problem is that not all boys will pee at it, especially after I brought those few pissed clothes to the girl, I didn't feel any shame. On the contrary, I was in a very strong excitement for several days in a row.

When I think of her wearing the clothes I've pissed, I feel very excited.

When Xiao Xu heard this, she admired Zhang Chu for being able to confess himself like this.

After that, Zhang Chu went to Xiao Xu's dormitory. If they were the only two of them, Xiao Xu would often close the door and turn off the lights. The two of them leaned back against the wall and sat on the bed together, talking about their own grey things in the dark.

Sometimes, after sitting for a long time, Xiao Xu tilted his body and spoke with his head on Zhang Chu's shoulder.

Zhang Chu quietly held one of Xiao Xu's hand, not disturbing her posture, and talked about some very distant and unrealistic things, some elements that felt painful in her heart.

Occasionally, the two of them would make some jokes

Once, Xiao Xu said to Zhang Chu, if your girlfriend comes at this time, I will definitely not be able to bear it, and you will not be able to escape.

Zhang Chu heard this and said, if my girlfriend doesn't want me, I want you

After hearing this, Xiao Xu sighed in his heart and said, "Are you afraid that I will design to separate you and your girlfriend?"

Zhang Chu smiled and said, I am just urging you, I am afraid you have the will to do it but not the courage.

Xiao Xu took the conversation and said, "Do you think you are so fragrant, who would miss you?"

No one will want you except your girlfriend

Zhang Chu squeezed against Xiao Xu and asked Xiao Xu if he wanted it?

Xiao Xu gave in to Zhang Chu and said, "Are you good to be serious?"

Zhang Chu kept pushing against Xiao Xu and asked Xiao Xu if he wanted it.

Xiao Xu was squeezed and reached out and grabbed Zhang Chu's ear, saying, "You have the courage to not leave tonight, don't pretend to be fake."

Zhang Chu immediately sat down and said with a smile, "Oh my God, I've been thinking about this good thing for a hundred years. I'll sleep on this bed tonight."

Later, Zhang Chu got married

Shortly after getting married, the unit gave him a big house, two stops away from the unit, where is Beijing West Road.

The original single dormitory was taken back by the unit

Zhang Chu and Xiao Xu often say something in the office and often joke about each other.

Sometimes after get off work, the two of them are still sitting in the office for a while

Colleagues have some discussions, and they don't take them seriously

The office work is very busy, and the two of them often go on business together.

When Zhang Chu got off, Xiao Xu had already sat in the car and sat in the back row

When Zhang Chu saw this, he opened the car door and asked Xiao Xu to go down and go to the front cab to chat with Master Wang, and asked him to sit in the back.

After hearing this, Xiao Xu immediately rejected Zhang Chu and said, "I can't talk to Master Wang, you guys talk, I'll listen."

Zhang Chu said, Master Wang has any interest in talking to me, and only then can he be interested in talking to the lady.

Xiao Xu shouted to Zhang Chu, please don’t have any greasy words

The driver was a veteran educated youth who went back to the city with his surname Wang, who was in his fifties and had little talkative words

He has been driving a car in the unit for more than ten years, and he never publicizes anything in front of others.

Whenever everyone goes on business, they like him to drive

When he saw that Zhang Chu was not getting in the car, he said to Zhang Chu, "Why don't you sit behind and accompany Miss Xu, too."

Zhang Chu smiled and joked at Xiao Xu, saying, "Where can you accompany a lady? If you accompany her, you will make a mistake. I'll sit in front and feel more at ease."

As he said that, he stepped in and sat in front

When Xiao Xu heard Zhang Chu say this, he reached out and knocked Zhang Chu's head twice.

Shortly after the car left Nanjing, it boarded the Shanghai-Nanjing Expressway, then drove onto the national highway, towards Changzhou.

This section of Changzhou is a bit special

On the side of the road, there are three steps and one greenhouse, five steps and one small house. There are traffic police inside, and they are closely monitoring from the window whether the passing vehicles are pressing on the yellow line in the middle of the road.

Once you find that a car is pressing the line, you can catch up with it by riding a motorcycle and stop it and pay a fine

Most drivers in this province know that there are ambushes on this section of the road. They are very careful when going up, and they never dare to press the wheels on the middle line of the road.

But drivers from other places don't know that if they get on this road, they will be stopped and fined.

Some drivers were fined five or six times after walking this section of the road

Xiao Xu sat alone in the back, unable to bear the loneliness, and said, "I'll count it today to see how many cars have been stopped and fined."

After Xiao Xu counted a few cars, he thought came out of nowhere, asking Master Wang to press the line to see if the traffic police would stop their cars.

Master Wang said, there is no way to stop him, why bother yourself

Xiao Xu still insisted on Master Wang pressing the line and said he wanted to see how bright the traffic police's eyes were.

Master Wang couldn't resist Xiao Xu. He saw that there was no car coming from a straw shed in front of him. The steering wheel was crooked and the wheels pressed on the yellow line in the middle of the road.

Then quickly turn the steering wheel, leave the yellow line, and drive in your driveway

Xiao Xu saw that the car was pressed on the yellow line, and he was a little excited like a good child doing something bad. He sat in the back and giggled.

Xiao Xu just laughed twice, and Master Wang said to Xiao Xu, stop laughing, the policeman in front came out

Xiao Xu Ah said, the car had already driven in front of the police

The police signaled to stop, Xiao Xu sat behind and rolled in with a smile

The police first showed their inspection certificate and asked Master Wang to get off the car

Master Wang took out his ID, the police looked at it, waved his hand and let him go.

Xiao Xu said, it's so fun

Zhang Chu said, it seems that you didn't do enough to steal bad things when you were a child

Master Wang said that fines are all trivial matters, so don't happen

At around 10 o'clock in the morning, the car drove to Zhangjiagang

Zhangjiagang was originally just a small town, and it only took a few years to become more developed. Many large foreign companies have settled their households there.

In southern Jiangsu, this town has a typical development of extraordinary style.

They first went to the hotel to rest, and then called the municipal government to call the city government

Someone came from the agency and picked up Xiao Xu and Zhang Chu, while Master Wang stayed in the hotel and waited for lunch.

After Xiao Xu and Zhang Chu arrived at the agency, the leaders started to discuss work and then had a meal.

After dinner, Xiao Xu, Zhang Chu and Master Wang returned to the hotel to rest

After work in the afternoon, Xiao Xu and Zhang Chu went to the office again and then talked about work for a while.

By four o'clock, everything is over

Because there is still some time before getting off work, Xiao Xu and Zhang Chu will go back to the hotel first and wait for dinner tonight

The hotel they stayed at was on the edge of the city, surrounded by farmland, very quiet

Zhang Chu felt that there was no place to go, so he told Xiao Xu that it would be better to go to the field and have some fresh air when he went back to the hotel.

Xiao Xu said so

The two walked into the field together

At this time, the rice in the south had grown very tall, some early rice had ears, and the fields were green and green

After walking for a while, they boarded a road with Bizhi Metasequoia on both sides of the road, and they could not see it at first sight.

There is also a small pavilion not far ahead, with red columns and green tiles, flying horns and painted beams, which are ancient and quaint.

Around the pavilion are endless rice fields

Under the sun, water vapor in the rice fields simmers upwards, like a painting covered with fog

They walked over and sat down, looking at the rice fields in front of them, and their mood seemed to be opened suddenly, looking very vast

After sitting for a while, Xiao Xu saw that Zhang Chu didn't speak, so he asked Zhang Chu what he was thinking.

At this time, Zhang Chufeng thought of a secret in his heart as if he was impulsive.

He turned his head and asked Xiao Xu, do you want to hear it?

Xiao Xu said, yes, I want to listen

Zhang Chu said, I said, don't be scared

Then he paused and said, I'm thinking about how to rape you

Xiao Xu thought Zhang Chu was joking after hearing this, so she smiled but didn't answer Zhang Chu.

Zhang Chu continued, I don’t know how to explain some things, such as soil, yellow sand, and stones. When we hold these three things in our hands, we will think about some problems such as gravel turning into yellow sand, soil turning into yellow sand, and yellow sand turning into soil.

But it is actually useless when we think about these problems, because the stones turn yellow sand, the soil turns yellow sand, and the yellow sand turns yellow sand turns yellow sand, and the yellow sand turns into soil cannot be transformed in one day. They have evolved a long time ago by following some rules.

When I am meditating, I always feel that my heart was made of something else a long time ago, and then it became what I am now

But at some point, it will change back, like it is implicated by memory

You are sitting next to me at this moment, and there is no one around me. I almost thought to myself as soon as I sit down, I raped you

This thought came up very strangely, and it also tempted me to go through the whole process in my mind.

You look forward, look forward along my hand

There is a small path ahead of us, which stretches through the middle of the rice fields and leads far away

But we can't see this road in the distance, and it's covered by the rice

I want to rape you. I will hold your hand and run forward along the ridge path, running all the way to a place we can't see. It's in the mist in front, on the ridge, I pressed you to the ground

The rice is rolling around us with green waves, the sun is very strong

You tried to resist, but couldn't push me away, and later gave up on resisting

Zhang Chu said this and turned around and looked at Xiao Xu.

Xiao Xu was lying there and laughing

Zhang Chu told Xiao Xu not to laugh, saying it was true, not to tease you

Xiao Xu still laughs

Zhang Chu said, seeing you laughing, I didn't tease you

Xiao Xu stopped laughing and said, Even if it is true, then how do you know that I will not resist?

You fantasize about raping everyone, and no one else will resist?

Zhang Chu said, I have had this kind of rape consciousness since early on, and I often want to jump out of it when I hide it in my heart.

Sometimes I guess that every man may have this awareness. Some people have taken action, and some people have not taken action in their entire lives and are suppressed in their hearts.

If we look at it seriously, I think rape is not a person's impulse, it is actually the original instinct that has not completely degenerated.

However, then again, since men have this kind of rape awareness, girls should also be raped.

When they are sexually mature, they often fantasize about being raped, and subconsciously wait for one day to be raped.

If a woman is raped by someone she likes, she is actually very lucky. Otherwise, they will have such fantasy all their lives. The existence of such fantasy and being held in their hearts will make them feel uncomfortable.

I once saw this passage in a medical anatomy book, a woman's body structure is an attacked structure

This structure is very consistent with their fantasy of being raped

Since you are raped, of course you are not completely obedient

When women fantasize about sexual fantasies, they always resisted forcefully at first, and then imagined that the person had great strength and finally completely conquered her, so she stopped resisting.

If a man rapes a woman according to this pattern, he will succeed

But in reality, due to the influence of social factors, most women will continue to resist

Xiao Xu was completely fascinated by Zhang Chu's words

Seeing that Zhang Chu didn't say anything further, she asked Zhang Chu carefully, do you know what I was thinking along the way I came just now?

Zhang Chu didn't turn his head, looked at the field in front of him, and said, "On the way you came just now, I was fantasizing when I would suddenly hug you and rape you."

Xiao Xu immediately argued, you are talking nonsense

But Xiao Xu's voice seemed a little weak when he said this

Zhang Chu felt a little proud when he heard this, and said exaggeratedly, "You fantasize that I will take you on this small road on the ridge, just like you usually take a walk."

On the way, I told you a very charming story

This road leads very far, we walked on it for a long time

My story has not been finished yet, we have already walked to a place where we can't see anyone around us

Suddenly, I turned around, forced myself to hug you and kiss you

You pushed me away and slapped me in the face

But this slap is not because you want to resist me, but because you are telling me that you are a very pure and serious woman

Your body is clean

I continued to pounce on you and pressed you down on the ridge of the field. The green rice waves rolled beside you. The sunlight lifted all your clothes under the wind.

You only struggled under me for a few moments and stopped resisting

When Zhang Chu said this, Xiao Xu suddenly stood up, picked up a magazine in his hand, hit Zhang Chu's head with a snap, then turned around and walked back

Zhang Chu quickly stood up, smiled, followed Xiao Xu, and went back to the hotel together.

In the evening, a few more people came to Zhangjiagang to have dinner with Zhang Chu and the others.

After dinner, everyone stayed and played cards with Zhang Chuxiaoxu and the others for a while.

Because playing cards was played in Zhang Chu's room. Before playing cards, Zhang Chu wanted to call Shiyun and Shiming each, so he went to Xiao Xu's room, pushed Xiao Xu out, closed the door, and called Shiyun and Shiming.

Before the call was finished, Xiao Xu called out outside, saying that everyone was waiting for you to play cards, and asked Zhang Chu to come out quickly

Zhang Chu had to hurry to say the last two nice words to Shi Ming, and then hung up the phone and opened the door to Xiao Xu.

After Xiao Xu came in, he asked Zhang Chu what phone number it took for so long

Zhang Chu said he was beaten for his lover

Xiao Xu said, I love you all the time and have to fight for so long. Oh, there will be no lover, right?

After hearing this, Zhang Chu quickly said, you are the first to know

Xiao Xu immediately said, come and you're still lying to me like this

Zhang Chu said, why did I lie to you?

It's the truth

Xiao Xu said, come on

As he said that, he picked up a book on the table, hit Zhang Chu's chest with a bang, saying, "Go to play cards, I won't lie to you."

The cards were played until twelve o'clock

After the people in the agency said goodbye, they went back to their rooms to wash and prepare to go to bed.

After washing, it was almost one o'clock in the morning

Before going to bed, Zhang Chulin was a little hesitant, but he still walked to Xiao Xu's room and said to Xiao Xu, "When the lights are turned off in Master Wang's room, I'll come and sit with you for a while. I haven't sat by your side for a long time."

Xiao Xu also felt a little attached when he heard Zhang Chu say this

Just say, take away the keys yourself, no one will open the door for you

After Zhang Chu returned to the room, he immediately turned off the lights and lay down to rest

After he lay down, Chen Nvshi walked into his heart

In the darkness, Chen Ms. Chen is like before his eyes

Busy tits, sexy thighs, and the wonderful feelings when you caress him

When he thought of this, his heart felt an impulse like a rose, and he wanted to be hugged by Chen Nushi, touched him, and violated him

He thought that after he went back, he would sing a joy in Chen Nusi's arms.

Zhang Chu just thought in a daze

After a long time, he thought that he would go to Xiao Xu's room to accompany Xiao Xu, so he quickly got up

After getting up, I looked at the time. It was already past two o'clock

He opened the door gently and went out, closed the door, then opened the door of Xiao Xu's room, went in, and closed the door again

With the faint light outside the window, he walked gently to the bed and sat down.

After he sat down, he looked at Xiao Xu. Xiao Xu's face turned toward the bed and was already asleep

Zhang Chu just sat there quietly, thinking about nothing and doing nothing

After sitting for more than half an hour, when she saw that Xiao Xu had not woken up, she stood up silently, then put the key next to Xiao Xu's pillow, gently opened the door and closed it back to her room

When he lay on the bed again, he was no longer sleepy

He just opened his eyes and looked at the roof in the darkness blankly until dawn...