Chapter 195 What do you think of me?

He took her hand, went to the garden one after another, and found an uninhabited corner.

Sorry, he tentatively carried her hand, and was about to say that if he was not good, he would control himself in the future, but when he saw the needle hole on the back of her hand, he couldn't continue.

He held the back of her hand to his lips, unable to help but kiss her wound with his lips.

She could instinctively resist his ambiguous approach, and couldn't help but want to retract her hand, but he held it away: You can hit me and scold me, but don't be afraid of me, okay?

Seeing that she didn't move, he tried to hug her into his arms and kiss her cheeks, trying to melt her stiffness with tenderness:

We have forgotten all the past, is it okay to start again?

Chen Qiongying smiled, unable to explain what the meaning is: How to start again? Where to start? Do I have the right to refuse? Are you willing to give up?

After saying that, she took a step back and stood firmly from his arms, seemingly not expecting his answer at all.

He looked at her calm eyebrows and began to panic: I won’t touch you anymore, I promise!He unconsciously hugged her in his arms as he said, as if he was afraid that she would disappear out of thin air.

I am a living person, I have senses, which determines that as long as you live together, as long as you get close to me, touch me, and offend me, I cannot be without feelings.And you always try to confuse my feelings and interfere with my judgment.

She paused: After being discharged from the hospital, I want to move to the store.If you really want to start over, start by respecting my wishes and letting me think independently.

I was in a panic, go to her wrist and don't move! Believe me! Without your permission, I really won't touch you anymore!

She turned around and stood there, looking coldly at the wrist he was caught.Because of his rush, there were light red scratches there.

Realizing that he had just slapped him in the face and breached the contract, he lowered his arm, and silently followed her.

If she moves away, he really won't have any chance.

But she was unprecedentedly wary of him, what else could he do?Even if he now says he wants to return to the origin of the mother-son relationship, she won't believe it anymore.

He seemed to have seen that the good and bad things between them were all gone, and they maintained their superficial politeness from then on, and there was no possibility.

She stopped by the road and touched a cat. He was extremely envious of the cat that could be touched by her without any defense, but the cat ran away without any nostalgia.

That night, Ji Lanting learned his lesson and took the opportunity to have a bed together early.

Chen Yin didn't say anything, lying alone on the sofa, ignoring Ji Lanting's extremely excited voice for existence, as if his whole body was drained away.

Fortunately, I didn't have a fever again this night.

By the time of day, she was already much better. After lunch, she went for a walk in the garden alone and looked for the stray cat with only fate. Today she brought some food for it.

Since there is something to eat, the cat is not as fast as the previous two times.

The autumn sun was just right. She stood up with satisfaction for a while and suddenly shook her, and was held by one hand: Slow down.

When she looked up and saw the ascetic face of Siwen, she was a little surprised: Doctor Ning?

When I stood firm, I realized that this scene seemed familiar.

I thought you left the gimbal.She smiled embarrassedly.

Ning Rui said at the beginning that she would be willing to stay with her cooperation with each other, otherwise she would leave and ask her to find another way out. Later, the two of them encountered a destructive embarrassment just after Cuteya's ambiguous relationship, and she thought he had left.

After all, she had no value to him anymore, and she had basically not paid anything before.Thinking of this, she felt a little embarrassed: Have you recovered from your illness?If it is done, she doesn't have to feel that she owes him anything.

Ning Rui lowered his head and leaned closer to her: I think you deserve to accept it yourself.He was in a good mood, and the dead black and white recently automatically filled with colors when he saw her.

She hurriedly pushed away: Don't do this.

When I first recovered from a serious illness, I was pushing others, but I was staggering myself.

Go to my office and have a seat.Ning Rui held her waist: My plane tonight.

Sitting in the clinic, Chen Qiongying felt like she was a different life. The last time she came here as a patient seemed a long time ago.

Looking closely, there were indeed changes everywhere. The details in the office seemed to be full of elegance and vitality, which was very different from the kind of meticulousness he had when he came before. Even the sofa cushions were messy and disorderly, she thought, this was probably the preference of the doctor who was about to take over this clinic.

Four years are short and parting is about to happen, Chen Qiongying is still full of gratitude to him.

Where are you going?She couldn't help asking.

Ning Rui was sure there was a hint of reluctance in her eyes and smiled happily: America.

Chen Qiongying was silent for a while and knew that he would probably not come back as soon as he left. After all, for his academic research, at least the glantai was nothing attracted to him.

At the time of parting, she suddenly had a heroic impulse. There seemed to be nothing that could be said for those secrets that even her best friend could not tell.

She hid the details and told them all from 16 years ago to the reasons for the hospitalization.

Apart from his surprised and solemn expression, Ning Rui did not react too aggressively.In fact, his heart was in a mess, but he didn't dare to show it.

What should I do if something wrong happens to me with someone who shouldn’t be?It turned out that what she said at that time was like this person and such a thing.

His brain was comparable to an actuarial instrument. Combined with her unusual appearance after appearing in the clinic on the rainy day, and her repeated tendency to subconsciously maintain chastity, he immediately stringed the entire timeline.

What made him even more difficult to accept was that as a psychologist, he clearly interpreted from her micro-expression: she was troubled, painful, and entangled but did not hate her, which obviously did not conform to the victim's psychology.

You should know that a person who hates incest is forced to incest, and a person who is mentally ill due to being raped is raped again, which is a serious evil deed of trampling on the mine.

But even though she was admitted to the hospital due to atrocities, she was still so calm, which was the most abnormal thing.

This made him feel sour.Before, when she faced He Bi, she was always plain; later when she faced Ji Lanting, she was like an ordinary couple.This is also the reason why he is calm and does not hurry or slow down.

Now that she talks about her indifference, she is very complicated and difficult to tell. Only then did she realize that her intuition is correct, there is someone else who has made her feel a sense of crisis.

No one understands better than him that the beginning of a deep-rooted relationship is often a tangle of love and hate.Incest itself is not scary, what is scary is that her mind is being snatched.

Whether it is from the heart of a doctor who healed her or from the selfishness of her suitors who sought her, he had to do something to guide her out of it.

She suddenly stopped and couldn't raise her head: Do you think I'm disgusting?

In fact, a psychologist will guide you many times in his life, and it is not an isolated case. Ning Rui organized a language: It just happened to you, which surprised me a little.

He had speculated about the matter between the siblings, but she didn't realize that she had shown unusual tolerance for incest and had incredible patience towards the parties involved.

So he needs to downplay the impact of incest on her while strengthening her subsequent sense of shame.

It seems contradictory, but in fact it only needs to make a fool of itself and use her self-esteem.

So he listened and quickly organized the speech in his mind.

I felt that he was mentally ill, and she scratched her hair with some distress: But I don’t know how to get him to receive treatment. He was very stubborn and didn’t listen to me at all.

Ning Rui's eyes became dark, maybe she didn't realize that she had a look of annoyance and gentleness when she complained about her indifference.

I don’t know what to do. It’s difficult to start over by myself. I took root in Yuntai for sixteen years and didn’t have the courage to leave everything behind and start over again.

Her eyes were full of confusion, and she was not a person who loved adventure and change by nature. Her passion seemed to have been exhausted when she was sixteen years old.

Sometimes, I even felt that I was disturbed by him and she fell into self-doubt. The inability to distinguish the boundaries of love and desire made her expression vague and ambiguous.

Ning Rui felt for the first time that it was not a good thing to have too strong insight, and he felt particularly uncomfortable at this time.

Whether he is sick depends on his growth environment. If there is no intense trauma, it is difficult to change a person whose three views have become formed. If this person is precocious, it will be even more difficult for him to treat him for four years, not to let her return to the starting point.

To put aside the jealousy and displeasure in his heart, he did not feel that incest itself was unforgivable, let alone that the cause was not her.

Therefore, he felt her tendency to collapse again and be disorderly, and tried his best to block the subjective and resolve it as peacefully as possible: if it were just about incest, it was actually not that serious abroad, and it was even legal in some places.

Excluding biological significance, it is also ordinary, not worthy of being despised or stimulated by it.

Even if Chen Qiongying was forced to feel that she was extremely guilty, it was the first time she heard someone’s comfort, and most of her anxiety was eliminated for a moment.

In fact, you are the leader.

You exercise your mother's protection, but you are inevitably cold violence, and it is easy for the protected and unsatisfied party to take the initiative to plunder.

As the protected person grows up, the original mother has become weak and weak, and the mother has become strong and weak, and the plunder becomes deterioration and deterioration becomes reality.

He analyzed one by one: The root cause lies in you. If you refuse with an absolutely strong attitude, the other will rise and fall.

It’s like falling in love under the suspension bridge effect, so it’s not strange that having sex will make you feel love.

So you should think clearly whether what you are bothering about incest itself, or the horror impression of incest on your part, or the impact of incest.

Now?

past?

future?

When did your confusion come from?

Love or desire?

Where exactly is your confusion coming from?

If it comes from the latter, you don’t have to blame yourself.

Because it's not your fault, and you can cut it in time.

Only by cutting erotics can you avoid becoming a slave to desire. Are you ready to toughen yourself?

I was stunned by his repeated questions, and my mind was confused for a moment and I had no time to think clearly.

Not only did he lose his patience, he asked further: Or did you want to greet but refuse, and indulge in lust, but you are not planning to reject him?

Chen Qiongying almost bounced off the sofa as if she was stabbed by a needle: I don’t!

She hurriedly explained quickly: I have decided to move out of my home!I have refused strongly!I really don't!I'm not that kind of person!I can't accept this.

That's right.

He interrupted her explanation that was so obvious, without any exploration: Actually, I think you can try to date others and return to a normal, age-to-experience-matched relationship. You need adults to help you consolidate yourself, rather than an undetermined minor. He looked at her and was extremely sincere: What do you think of me?