Chapter 8 Hug me!

His voice trembled a little, yes... sorry...

He was silent for a long time before he seemed to digest the news. He worked hard for a long time, not thinking about the bad traumatic facts she had downplayed, and once again shifted the topic to himself.

But he raised his head, forcing himself to calm down and try to make his accusations justify, but I am...I am innocent too... right?

You could have an abortion...no one can choose his birth.

Since you have not fallen into me, you should love me!That's right!

That's it!

He was convinced by himself that she should love him innately!

But in the past sixteen years, you have never loved me, and there is no... He hugged his head in pain and curled up on the sofa. My mother has never touched my head like other people's mothers, praise me, and hugged me when I did what I did.Mom, why are you so indifferent to me?When other boys are upset and complain that they have grown up and their parents like to touch their hair, when other children complain that they are always caught by their parents, their kiss is so disgusting, do you know how much he envies this kind of intimacy?

Chen Qiongying's voice softened, I'm sorry too...

But... she revealed the cruel facts. I didn't take the initiative to give birth to you. At that time, I ran away from home and was almost penniless, had no money to have an abortion, and it was a blessing that I had no place to live. You... were forced to give birth. She approached Chen Yin and sat down, do you know how I gave birth to you? I don’t have money to go to the hospital and have no medical insurance. I gave birth to you in a rental house and cut off your umbilical cord, just like a backward ancient man. Her voice was calm and even without ups and downs. I should be glad that there was no heavy bleeding and no postpartum infection at that time.

I wanted to abort you so much at the beginning. Her eyes were confused when they fell into memories. I was still doing physical work when I was seven months pregnant. Do you know how much I hope you will lose it naturally?Even if it will cause me to be physically injured or have lifelong infertility...

But you are too tenacious and persist until you are born.At that time, she lived a trembling life every day, and was in a daze between dying with him.

The hidden and cold eyes closed, and a large amount of tears overflowed.

If it weren't for the long-term cold violence that had allowed him to develop a cold and powerful self-protection shell, he should have just cut himself off for this fact.

These words are so heartbreaking.

If this is the case, then Chen Qiongying did not abandon him or strangle him to death, and he was indeed the most righteous.

So I even call it "invisible". Do you hope I don't have a sense of existence?I am dispensable, yes, it is best to be "non" and it is best not to have existed, right?He grabbed his hair in pain.

Chen Qiongying was not indifferent to his tears, but she couldn't do more. I'm sorry for my son. People are rational and emotional. Reason tells me that I should treat you well and not take off my anger, but emotional drives me to do this. After saying that, she turned around and was about to leave.

Chen Yin grabbed the corner of her clothes, don’t leave... Can you... hug me? His eyes were full of hope. He despised his flesh and blood, but he had to admit that even after so many years, he had learned to arm himself with coldness and perverseness, but he still longed for his mother's love deep in his bones. Just hug him once, okay?

Chen Qiongying closed her eyes and hugged him. This was the first time in 16 years. She had done something unfamiliar. She stretched out her hand to stop him from traumatizing her hair. Her expression was still faint, but she unconsciously shed tears in her eyes. Yes... I'm sorry... I can't say that I have expected your arrival and existence, nor can I say I love you without any grudges. Maybe there is no mother-son fate between us. When you become an adult at the age of 18, I will provide you with a fee for completing college, and then we will not meet again.

Chen Yin buried his head in his mother's arms in despair, just like the posture of a baby in his uterus, closest to the place where his mother breastfeeded, but he heard her say the cruelest words in the world.

His heart was as desolate as a piece of hell.

From today on, he has no mother anymore.

Maybe it was because the doubts that I had not dared to touch for many years had come true, or maybe it was the resentment and indifference that turned into despair of self-destruction. At 2 a.m., I was in my sleep and started to burn, curled up in a ball of helplessness:

Mom, don't leave,

You hug me, hug me...

Don't want me...