Chapter 34 Desire for Love

The wind passes by, but you can't feel the coolness; the sound surrounds you, but you can't feel the noise

It seems to have come to another time and space, and looking at the surroundings in front of you, it seems to have nothing to do with me

Turning around and looking in the direction where my father and wife were, I wanted to run over, but my legs didn't move

The sun is still vicious, the summer breeze is still warm, the green trees are still swaying, the cicadas are still noisy, the traffic is still high, and people are still coming and going, can everything be fine?

Can my life be safe?

The world without change has different moments. Everything imagined happened, everything happened like this, there are signs, premeditations, silent pushes, and psychologically prepared torture, but not ready to be so tormented

My body is safe, my heart is safe, and my life needs to be safe.

If your situation is messed up, everything will deviate from the track

Let yourself return to this time and space, hear the noise and feel the heat

Although a smile is sometimes unnatural, let a smile on your face and tell yourself to be safe

Take a taxi, go home, and wait for the return of your loved ones

Suddenly I remembered my original idea. When I arrived at the flower shop, I asked the driver to stop and went in to buy a bouquet of white lilies, which symbolized holiness and nobility.

After getting on the car with the bouquet, the driver said: Brother, I know very much about romance?

I said: Haha, today is a special day for my wife and I, I want to make her happy!

The master said: You white-collar workers understand life!

I said: Master, you can do it too. A bouquet of flowers or even a branch of flowers will make your wife happy and your life will be better.

The master said: Well, it makes sense. The main reason we are renting is that we are too tired and don’t have the energy.

I'm not saying much, the living environment is different, but it's a little different

But I think there are differences in enjoying life, but they all need to work hard and create. Maybe this is why I can think of what is happening now.

When I got home, I put the flowers in the bathroom in the living room and prepared lunch. Although I still thought about what happened in the morning, it might still happen now.

But after all, it happened, and I couldn't control it anymore, so I could only let myself not think about it.

However, thoughts always make the plot of last night come to mind, allowing myself to associate the current situation

Lying on the sofa, turning on the TV, choosing a random station, and then watching, although I don’t know what I’m acting, I’m staring at the TV

I don't know how long it took to realize that I was asleep

When I opened my eyes, it was already 4 pm. The continuous height of tension made my body relaxed and I fell asleep.

Suddenly I remembered, don’t you know that my wife is back? I ran up quickly and called Li Li!

No one answered

Run to the bedroom and look at it, and go to other houses and look at it, but nothing happened

Pick up your phone, no news about Li Li

I turned on the computer and went to QQ. Li Li was not online, and my father was not online either.

Is something happening? Is it still there...? I feel uneasy in my heart

Thinking of my father's diary, I opened it and it was updated.

But just a few words: The wind comes, disturbs, beauty, experience, taboos, sin. In just a few words, tell me, my father's current mood, and even more, it tells me that it really happened.

Since my father wrote his diary, Li Li no longer has her father's place. As I thought, my father would definitely not come back. After all, he had a sexual taboo relationship with his son's woman, so how could he face it directly!

Looking at the update time, it is 3:00 pm

Pick up my phone and sent Li Li a WeChat message first. Wife, I'm going home. Are you and Dad back?

My wife didn't go back

After waiting for a while, I still didn't reply. The uneasy mood made me a little anxious

Picking up the phone and dialing Li Li's cell phone. The phone was connected. I quickly thought about how to talk to Li Li, but I didn't have the chance, and Li Li didn't answer.

What should I do? I called again quickly, but no one answered

Thinking of Li Li not going to her house?

So, I called my father-in-law's house and my mother-in-law answered the phone. Mom, where is Li Li?

My mother-in-law said: It's in the bedroom

I asked again, "Oh, she didn't answer the phone so much?"

My mother-in-law said: Maybe you are sleeping? The child is playing outside! She closed the door and you are back from the workplace? Come and have a meal!

I said: OK, I'll be in the community soon

I didn't think too much, because Li Li didn't reply or went home, not because she was sleeping, but more importantly because she couldn't face me directly, so I left home firmly and went to my mother-in-law's house.

I ran to my mother-in-law's house and saw the child playing. I went over and kissed him, and then said, "Did Li Li wake up?"

Pushing the door and Li Li lying on her side

Walking over gently, Li Li closed her eyes

The chest was undulating and the eyes were closed, I knew she was not asleep

I squatted beside the bed, picked up Li Li's hand, and looked into Li Li's eyes

Just as I was about to speak, I found tears on Li Li's face. I felt sorry for me. My lover, I have paid so much for me.

Put down Li Li's hand, took off her shoes, lay behind Li Li, hugged Li Li, hugged her tightly, kissed Li Li's hair gently, and said softly: Thank you, wife

Li Li sobbed softly and didn't say much. She made Li Li sobb for a while, sat up, and pulled Li Li into her arms.

Li Li looks like a child who did something wrong, lowering her head and not daring to open her eyes

Use your hands to gently caress Li Li's eyes and wipe away the tears

Li Li suddenly picked up my hand, put it in her mouth, and bit it hard

Although it hurts and frowned, I didn't pull out my hand or make a sound

I don't know if I'm tired or afraid that I will hurt, so I won't bite

I helped Li Li up and looked at Li Li's eyes. Li Li seemed to avoid my eyes. I held Li Li's head and prevented her from avoiding it. Then I said: I love you, thank you, wife

Li Li still didn't say anything, her eyes revealed a good point

I hugged Li Li again. I don’t know how long it took, but I said to Li Li: Wife, everything is fine, I will love you more!

Li Li said: Let's wash it out, let time testify

I said: Yes, time will tell

Then, we walked out together, Li Li went to the bathroom to wash her face, and I went to play with the child

Although Li Li still seemed much quieter than usual, her mother-in-law thought she was tired, so she didn't say much

After dinner, Li Li and I played with the child for a while, and then prepared to go home

Li Li hesitated, I knew she still couldn't face me alone

But, after all, it was very late, the child had to go to bed early, Li Li was there, and the child was looking for his mother again

When I walked out of the room, I held Li Li's hand. Although I haven't been so intimate for a long time, what I said today is that I should be more intimate, regardless of whether it will make Li Li feel even more different.

The car was not driven, and the two of them walked hand in hand in the community, without saying too much, just walking. Li Li lowered her head, I looked up at the starry sky, looked at Li Li, and smiled and said: Wife, I have become so shy, just like the first time we held hands, you are so shy

Li Li's face was blushing and smiling

I soon arrived at home, and Li Li hesitated to walk into the house. Maybe her feeling had changed, but the reality was not changed, and she was still the warm home.

Leading Li Li to the room, then Li Li stood foolishly at the door, not knowing what to do

I came to the bathroom, held the prepared white lily to Li Li, and said: Dear, you are as beautiful as flowers, and as pure as white. For our love, your efforts are so holy

Li Li looked up at me, burst into laughter, and then said: You are so smearing!

I said: Wife, you finally laughed!

Then, she hugged Li Li and was about to kiss her, but she avoided it, hugged the flowers, ran to me, and closed the door.

I chased after Li Li, put the flowers on the bay window, and then looked outside. I stood behind Li Li, hugged her, and looked into the distance together.

Then I said: Wife, I want to know

Li Li said: But, I don't want you to know

I said: It has happened, I want to share it with you!

Li Li Do you want to share the burden or do you want to spoil your wife?

Li Li said the word "My wife" and my body and her body trembled and stopped breathing. I don't know if Li Li was angry or disappointed. If she was angry, I was not afraid, but she was afraid that she would be disappointed with my behavior.

I thought about it for a while and then said: This feeling is very complicated, and I can't make it clear. My heart is as hard as you, now I can't calm down. Looking at the car where you and dad left, my heart has nowhere to rest. I couldn't calm down for a whole morning. I went to my father's house, I walked there for a long time, and I even arrived at the door, but I didn't go in, and I don't know what to do.

Looking at my dad, my heart is about to jump out

But that's how it happened

All of this is my suggestion. For me and for my father's happiness in his later years, the one who gives the most is my lover, you

Just as I said at first, I don’t have the desire to be a slut, but when I think of, think of those, think of a certain moment, that moment, you are being entered by a man, at that moment, my heart beats, my body’s reaction, tell me

I was excited and I could imagine what you gave, what your body and mind had endured

So, I decided that if I experience it with you, it would be a share of the burden

Li Li thought for a while, and then said: Just like what I said at the beginning, there will be no change when it happens.

Whether you dislike me or as you said, love me from home, our lives will change

But, I like everything is fine

I also know that you won't treat me badly now. Since I have done it, I know that there are consequences I need to bear.

Also, I really love you, I love you very much

I know you'll want to know, so I wrote it out, you can take a look, I'll go take a shower in my email address

Listening to Li Li's narration, I knew how much Li Li knew me and how much she understood me. Now she didn't think about the exciting scene, she just slowly became happy.

I pressed my determination again, love this woman in my arms

Li Li was going to take a shower, but I didn't let her go, but continued to hug her

Li Li smiled and said: Are you close and you are very anxious to see it? Then go

Don't pretend! Haha, although I said it happily, it's a bit sour

I said with a smile: I will see Ah sooner or later. Now I feel that I am so happy. There are those who love me so much, those who understand me, those who understand me, and those who support me, those who support me

Li Li said: You are so slick, then don’t look at me and delete it!

I quickly said: Don't Ah! I want to see Hehe and let Li Li take a shower

Watching Li Li enter the bathroom, looking at the bathroom door, she looks like a thief, turning on the computer while looking at the direction of the bathroom

Listening to the sound of water in the bathroom, I felt ridiculous. It was Li Li who asked her to see it, but she was so guilty.

Sit down and open the email address, but entered the password wrong several times, not because I forgot, but because my hands were trembling again unconsciously

I saw an email in my inbox, and the title is, I hope everything is well

Move the mouse to where the question is, hesitated many times, but still clicked it

Li Li actually wrote so much. It seems that she had written for a long time in the afternoon. She probably left her father's place very early.

Below is the process written by Li Li

Although it was only a few weeks, it seemed like a different life; although it was not the pain of separation from life and death, it was a passion taboo to consider the desire of the body and mind.

I didn't expect my life to change like this, I didn't expect him to make such a proposal, I didn't expect I would agree, I didn't expect I would make that kind of thing

I didn't expect that it was so easy, and my body was touched and kissed by another man until... the moment I took off my pajamas last night, I decided to hand over myself, but when I was in love, I always felt someone was watching. I knew it was behind the camera, and my husband's eyes were watching everything.

When a woman's lips are opened by another man, whether it is a woman taking the initiative or a man taking the initiative, the woman's resistance is useless

Tell me not to treat this man as my father-in-law and my husband's father, but even if I think so, I am still having an intimacy with another man, only my husband and I

When you asked me to complete the first moment as soon as possible, I knew that you had decided. I was still fantasizing about how you could stop. Do you still remember those four of them?

But you didn't, I could only do it

I took a shower, took another shower, took a shower twice in one morning, put on my newly bought underwear, sprinkled perfume, and didn't know why I was so careful and dressed up

How to hesitate and procrastinate, but when you took out the bag, I knew again that your determination

OK, I can only stop looking back

Take dad out of the door, I know you are watching, I want you to call me back, but you don't

I want you to call me, but you don't

I feel that you will definitely watch me leave, and know that you will always think about everything that happened

But everything happened

Along the way, my dad and I didn't say anything. My dad seemed to know what was going to happen. Through the rearview mirror, I could feel that he was also uneasy.

His anxiety made me feel a little relaxed. It was very fun, but I couldn't always put myself out of it.

When I arrived at my dad's house, I didn't say anything. Although I felt that I was walking very slowly, I still walked into the house.

I didn't say anything, so I went to the kitchen to boil water, watched the water, and slowly boiled. I don't know what you are doing at this time, what are you doing, what are you doing, what are you doing again

The whistle of the kettle brought me back to my senses

Pour someone into two cups, then walk out of the kitchen, watching dad fiddling with flowers on the balcony

I watched it for a long time and hoped that everything would not happen, but I knew that it would happen sooner or later. But, shouldn’t men take the initiative?

Is it because I am not charming enough?

Why can't dad take the initiative?

I got a little angry and called out Dad!

Turning around, it seemed like I was shocked

I said angrily: Dad, you know how to water the flowers

Dad said: I haven't done it for several days, I'm almost fucking to death

Dad didn't even hear me angry, it was really funny

I could only put my temper away and continued: Dad, come here, I boil water and make tea for you!

Then look for tea and think about how to develop it?

Thinking about the novels I have read, all these days, I feel that I am really degenerate, and I am thinking about how to make my father-in-law pounce on me

After searching for a while, my dad said he couldn't find it. Dad told me that he was in the cabinet. I said that he couldn't find it. Actually, I knew it was there.

Then as I heard my dad come over, I bent down and raised my buttocks high. I don’t know why I was like this

Dad suddenly stopped walking, I knew he was looking at me, looking at my buttocks, and my clothes and posture exposed, would be my whole hips. Although my private parts were not exposed, how could black lace underwear cover my buttocks

I felt my father coming over, so I quickly got up. I was afraid that he would touch me, but suddenly I realized that I just wanted him to touch me.

But I've gotten up, I have no choice but to get up, and now I've walked over

As soon as I turned around, I met Dad and we hugged each other again

This time, my dad didn't push me away, I didn't move anymore

On my father's chest, I felt my father's breathing was uneven, and my father's heartbeat also accelerated.

I looked up slightly and looked at my father. My father also looked down at me. When my eyes were facing each other, my father lowered his head and I closed my eyes.

Kissed together, and kissed each other again. I didn't think that this man was my father-in-law. What I thought was that I liked this man very much, and kiss was sweet.

When I felt that my father's hand was not honest on my back, I gently left my father's lips and said: Dad, help me unzip my zipper

I don't know why I could say this so smoothly. I didn't expect that I could say this so quickly

Maybe it was because I had been preparing for too long, maybe it was because my recent desire made me dizzy

When my father heard me, he was stunned at first, and then he slowly found my zipper and slowly pulled it open.

When he was about to go down and take off my clothes, I realized that we were now in the restaurant and could see it outside.

I said again: Wait, let's go to the bedroom

Dad seemed to realize something, and pulled my clothes on again, then turned around and wanted to leave. I grabbed my dad's hand, followed him and came to my dad's bedroom.

After entering the bedroom, I said to my dad: Dad, go and pull the curtains

Dad didn't look back, walked over to pull the curtains, and looked at the moment when the curtains were pulled up, I suddenly regretted it very much, even though my body was touched and kissed by this man.

However, the curtains were pulled up, and what was going to happen below was my body, which was occupied by another man.

My body was shaking, I didn't say anything, and then ran into the bathroom

Looking at yourself in the mirror, where should you go and can you still regret it?

Can you still return it?

Listening to the outside of the door, my father didn't say anything or he was not moving

I hope that my father will open them now, rush in, possess me, even if I resist again, as long as he possesses me with all his might, even if it seems like he was raped

I like if there is a time machine, everything comes back, everything doesn't happen, that rainy day I wasn't almost naked, or Ruiyang you didn't tell me this proposal

But nothing happened, only I looked at myself in the mirror