Chapter 12

The waiter brought new chopsticks, and I smiled and respectfully handed them to Aunt Rong. Aunt Rong took the chopsticks and glared at me: I just praised you, are you starting to be poor again?

I smiled awkwardly: I just want to liven up the atmosphere, I'm just praising you

Aunt Rong snorted disdainfully: I am using you as a little kid to praise me?

I didn't dare to answer, so I could only lower my head and continue to eat the hot pot

Aunt Rong seemed to be in a bad mood. After taking a few bites, she put down her chopsticks and said to me: The account has been settled. If you want to eat, just stay here to eat.

After saying that, he got up and prepared to leave. He reached out and picked up the novel, but left the bouquet of roses on the chair.

Somehow, I asked deliberately: I forgot to take your rose

Aunt Rong turned her head and glanced at me, and said coldly: I gave it to you

I stood up, reached out and picked up the rose, put it in front of my nose and sniffed it, and praised: What a fragrant rose

Aunt Rong stared at me viciously, her teeth tightly clenched for no reason, I just wanted to see her embarrassed and angry look

After Aunt Rong left, I stayed there alone and ate hot pot

Although this is the rest of the dinner party for others, let alone, I haven’t eaten so well for a long time. In the end, I feel unsatisfied and ordered a dip at my own expense.

When I got home, it was almost ten o'clock in the evening. My mother sat on the sofa in the living room. When she saw me coming in, she didn't say anything else and asked me to wash my hands and have dinner.

I was stunned, turned my head and looked at the dining table. Seeing that the food was neatly buckled and had never moved, I asked in surprise: Mom, have you not eaten?

While serving the rice, my mother said expressionlessly: I'm waiting for you

I couldn't help but feel moved, and then I felt a little guilty. Why didn't I expect to call and tell my mother that she had already had a meal outside?

It's hard to say now. After all, my mother waited for me to come home for dinner. I couldn't let down this care and waiting. Even if I was so overwhelmed, I had to accompany my mother to have this supper.

I returned to the room silently, changed my clothes, washed my face, and then returned to the dining table, deliberately saying: I'm starving to death! I'm starving to death!

As he said that, he stretched his neck and sniffed, and exclaimed: What a smell, what a smell!

Then the rice porridge handed over by my mother started eating it voraciously

But I was already full of food, and there were not many empty spaces in my stomach. No matter how I wanted to pretend to be hungry, I couldn't fill up much stuff anymore

Just as I barely persevered, my mother suddenly came to me, smelled it, frowned slightly, and asked suspiciously: What does it smell on you?

I was stunned for a moment, lifted my nose and smelled it, and suddenly realized that it was the smell of hot pot, but I couldn't admit it, so I pretended to be confused, smelled it left and right: It didn't taste much

My mother smelled it again and said: No, it smells very much. Is it the smell of a hot pot restaurant? Are you eating outside?

With my mother's IQ, it would be meaningless to hide it any longer. So I simply bowed my head and admitted: Well... On the way back, I met Aunt Rong eating alone, so I ate a little along with me

Mom sighed and asked angrily: Why don’t you say hello to me when you are eating outside? I have been waiting for you for so long

I regret it too. I thought my mother was angry with me. I came back late, so I guess I would have eaten alone. I didn't expect my mother to wait for me to come back to have dinner together.

I...sorry

I lowered my head, apologized to my mother from the bottom of my heart, and immediately said: But I am not full yet, and the food outside is not as delicious as my mother cooks.

After that, I started eating voraciously again

OK, don't force it, eat it again and you'll be full

I felt that my stomach was already overwhelmed, and if I stuffed it in, it was going to explode, so I stopped

Mom started to eat alone

The supper was already a little cold, but she didn't care at all. Looking at my mother, I couldn't help but think of Aunt Rong's words, and I felt more and more self-blame in my heart

After a while of silence, I asked in a low voice: Mom, do you feel that you are particularly unfortunate?

There are more people who are unfortunate than me. My mother's tone is calm, and her expression on her face has not changed at all.

After hesitating for a while, I continued to ask: Then do you... feel that it is particularly unlucky to have a son like me?

Mom looked up at me and ignored me

I don’t know if I didn’t express it clearly, so I quickly added: I have a casual personality, no ambition, and often make you angry, not filial, and don’t look like other people’s children at all...will you be disappointed with me?

Mom looked at me calmly and said slowly: Xiaodong, Mom has never thought of turning you into someone else's child

I lowered my head and said with a guilty expression: But sometimes I always feel that I am sorry for your expectations, and sometimes I even feel that I am not worthy of your excellent mother

Mom sighed and said to me earnestly: Xiaodong, you and Beibei are both pregnant for ten months. The biggest expectation of mothers who have worked hard to give birth to you is that you can grow up healthy and healthy. Apart from that, there is no other requirement.

However, my academic performance... I am really afraid that I will fail the college entrance examination and will not be able to achieve your expectations.

Xiaodong, do you feel that I have been forcing you to study for my own sake? Do you feel that learning is for me?

Not...I want to study hard, but the pressure is really great. I know you are doing it for my own good, but I am... I frowned, not knowing how to explain this feeling

After a moment of silence, my mother suddenly got up and walked into the bedroom. I didn't know what she was going to do, so I was stunned in my seat for a moment

After a while, my mother walked back with a box in her hands, put it on the dining table, carefully opened the box, took out a test paper from it, and said softly: Do you still remember this paper? In the third grade of elementary school, you got the full mark in mathematics for the first time, and excitedly held the paper to show off to me that you said to me, mathematics is really interesting, you especially like mathematics.

I looked at my name on the test paper and the 100 points written in a red ballpoint pen, and felt a little surprised. This was indeed my math test paper in the third grade of elementary school. My mother has been keeping it intact until now.

Mom took out a pen from the box and said to me: When you were in the fourth grade of elementary school, you participated in the district's mathematics competition and won the second place. The prize was a pen and an exquisite notebook. You gave the pen to your dad and gave me the notebook. That day, our whole family was very happy and fantasized that maybe you would become a mathematician in the future and be famous all over the world.

As he said that, my mother took out another notebook, which was the souvenir of the Mathematical Olympiad competition that year, and said to me softly: Xiaodong, this is the best gift my mother has received in her life. Until now, I can't bear to write a word on it.

I looked at the notebook. The cover was clean and not damaged at all. After so many years, it was still like new. You can imagine how much my mother cherished it and how well it was preserved.

While I was moved, I remembered the days when I was studying mathematics hard in elementary school. Other children played electronic games. I took mathematics as my fun. Other classmates' idols were movie stars. My idol was Hua Luogeng. I really like mathematics. I got endless fun from arithmetic problems.

But I don't know when this interest has gradually been forgotten by me

Until I read the tomb robbery novel and fell in love with archaeology, but that was just for a simple interest.

Seeing me bowing my head and whispered: Xiaodong, mom can feel that when I was young, you were able to get happiness and satisfaction from learning. You must understand that learning knowledge is not just to deal with exams, but to allow you to see a broader world and make you more free in your mind.

I lowered my head and listened silently

Mom paused for a while and continued: Of course, these are all great principles. You may not like to study or even hate to study. However, in order to have a good meal in the future, you must complete your studies. This world is cruel. If you want to survive better, you must be better than others.

I understand I nodded vigorously

Mom looked at me and sighed again: Xiaodong, Mom knows that you are under great psychological pressure because of your body. It’s not that Mom doesn’t want to help you, but the doctor also said that your disease is caused by psychological reasons. If you want to cure the disease, the best way is to reduce the psychological burden. The best way is to face the college entrance examination with all your might and divert your attention. As time goes by, maybe your disease will be cured without treatment.

Yes, I understand

My mother and I didn't continue talking, we both thought about our thoughts.

A few days ago, my mother was a little indulging in me because of her guilt, but now, the strict mother is back

It's like having a beautiful dream. Those beautiful fantasies are just my own inappropriate thoughts. After all, my mother and I are still impossible.

After a long silence, my mother asked: It’s your birthday soon, what gift do you want?

My mother can't give me the gift I want

I just want my mother to have a dinner with me

Mom looked at me and asked: That's that simple?

It's that simple

From this day on, I decided to follow my mother's advice, temporarily forget about my illness, and devote all my energy to my studies

I hurt my mother again and again, and I can no longer let my mother feel disappointed for me

In addition, I have to re-examine my past and future.

I tried hard to find my mother's original image in my mind. At the same time, I hope to find happiness from learning like I did when I was a child.

But after all, I am no longer that innocent boy. I feel very tired after repeating the questions endlessly.

But I also reminded myself in my heart that learning and hard work are boring things in themselves. Only by enduring this loneliness can you bear the fruit of success, and this fruit belongs to only a few people.

With the arrival of the end of the year, birthdays are getting closer and closer

After school that afternoon, as soon as I walked out of the school gate, I saw Annuo standing across the street, smiling at me.

Look at her school uniform and her schoolbag cross-body, she should have just finished school

I hesitated for a moment and walked over

She waved at me from afar and screamed sweetly: Brother

I walked up to her and looked at her carefully. Seeing that her face was rosy, her eyes were curved, and her smile was apart from the pretty little girl who was lying on the hospital bed a few days ago, she was completely different from the pity girl who was lying on the hospital bed a few days ago.

Your illness is cured? I asked

Annuo nodded and said with a smile: Thank you brother, your illness has been cured

I laughed and said: What does it have to do with me?

As soon as you see me, my illness will be cured

I corrected: You have been blessed by the doctor, I am not a doctor.

Annuo said with a smile: The doctor can only cure my physical illness, but cannot cure my heart disease.

I glanced at her and said bluntly: Then you should go to a psychiatrist

After saying that, he turned around and left

Although I have some sympathy for her life experience, it does not mean that I have forgiven her, nor does it mean that I can accept her

Annuo was like Bambi, chasing me happily and said: Brother, we are about to have a birthday, do you have any plans?

I kept replying: What is our birthday? You celebrate your birthday, I celebrate my birthday

Aren't our birthdays the same day?

So what?

Annuo chased me and said: We can celebrate our birthday together

I smiled bitterly and said: No! Last year's birthday party was exciting enough. If you want to make trouble for me this year, I probably will explode on the spot.

Annuo followed me, walked for a while, and suddenly said: This is what my dad meant

I stopped and looked back at her Annuo knew that I was waiting for her explanation, so I said to myself: Dad wants us to have our birthday together

I thought about it and understood my dad’s intention. It must have taken advantage of Annuo and I to get the two families together to ease their relationship with each other by taking advantage of the same birthday opportunity.

Then why didn't my dad tell me?

Annuo said with a smile: Dad knows what he said to you personally, you will definitely refuse, so I asked you Dad, saying I am your nemesis

I smiled bitterly: You are the nemesis of our whole family

Then do you agree?

disagree

Annuo smiled slightly, didn't say anything anymore, I glanced at her, turned around and continued to walk forward, unexpectedly, she didn't catch up with me, which surprised me a little.

I didn't tell my mother about this, and I know she won't agree, either

But the next day I actually received a call from my dad. What I said was exactly the same as Annuo said, and I wanted to let the two of us have a birthday party together.

I felt a little puzzled. This was Paiano, and it was not done, so did he take action himself?

Hesitated for a moment, but I refused

After hanging up the phone, the more I thought about it, the more I felt something was wrong. After thinking about it carefully, I suddenly realized that I had fallen into the trap of the little witch again.

She knew what my father was thinking and was afraid that I would agree, so she came to me first, leaving me with a preconceived impression, and deliberately ruined the matter.

Needless to say, I must be afraid that my dad and mom will ease the relationship because of this, which will threaten her mother's status.

Hey Wave!

Little girl, it’s really hard to be guarded against!

No, you have to find a way to get the place back

You can't be led by her for the rest of your life

I still didn't tell my mother about this. I don't know if it was because of Annuo. Perhaps, there was also a little thought hidden deep in my heart.

……

Every day, I run back and forth between tutoring classes and home. Apart from eating, sleeping and going to the bathroom, I only have to do some questions.

My birthday came in the blink of an eye. I was both excited and confused.

Mom still remembers our agreement and asked me for leave from the tutoring class teacher early

When I got off school in the afternoon, my mother was waiting outside the school gate. She tied her long black hair behind her head, black toad glasses on her nose, black suit skirt, ultra-thin flesh-colored stockings on her legs, and a pair of black shiny leather high heels. She probably came to pick me up after the company got off work.

As usual, my mother held her hands in front of her chest and leaned against the front of the car. There was no expression on her face, and her body exuded aura of being kept from others thousands of miles away.

But my mother was so dazzling. She just stood there motionlessly, which attracted countless pedestrians to turn around.

I walked over, called hello, my mother said nothing, signaled me to get in the car, and then took me back home, changed into clothes.

When my mother came out of the bedroom, she changed into a black dress and wore a round and shiny pearl necklace around her slender neck, which made her already shiny skin look whiter and more delicate

Coupled with the faint perfume, it looks dignified and noble, mature and sexy

Seeing me stunned, my mother urged me: Go change your clothes quickly

I agreed and returned to the house, my mind was filled with the noble and mature figure of my mother.

I kept reminding myself not to have any unreasonable thoughts anymore. She is my mother, and it is impossible for her son and mother to be together.

Mom has booked the restaurant in advance, with a quiet and elegant environment, and a violin band playing on stage

The waiter took us to the seat, and I took the lead, imitating the gentlemanly, and helped pull out the chair.

Because I have made up my mind that after today, I will completely cut off my thoughts and can no longer sink into the air. But when I face my mother, I was speechless for a moment and didn't know what to say

After serving, my mother first broke the silence and asked: How is her recent study situation?

fine

After pausing, my mother asked again: Isn’t it impossible to understand?

I lowered my head and whispered: Mom, I figured it out, you don’t have to worry about me anymore

After all, what mom can help you is limited, and the future path depends on you.

I understand that I lowered my head to eat, and after a moment, I looked up and said: Mom, I have something I want to discuss with you

Mom looked up at me: What's going on?

I calmed down recently and thought about it carefully. I felt that taking Tsinghua University was a bit overestimating my ability

I thought my mother would scold me for being useless, but I didn't expect that my mother sighed: With your mind, if there are a few years, it is possible to get into Tsinghua University.

Then, without waiting for me to speak, he asked: Where is your current goal?

I thought about it carefully. With my grades last year, I will work hard for another year and it should be okay to get into the provincial university.

Mom nodded in praise and said: As long as you have a goal in your heart, it's fine

Maybe it's because I'm a little bit more normal, my mother is much happier than before, so she can occasionally joke with me.

After my birthday dinner, I didn't want to go home yet, so I insisted that my mother want to go to a movie

When I arrived at the theater, my mother and I discussed which movie to watch. I originally planned to watch a domestic romance film, but my mother insisted on watching Disney cartoons.

I asked with a smile: You don’t realize that it’s a bit funny to see the cartoons together?

My mother gave me a blank look and said indifferently: When you were a child, I didn’t often take you to cartoons. What’s so funny?

But after all, I was a child. Now I will take me to watch cartoons... In the screening room, parents are taking my children with them. If you take my oldest child in, others think I have cerebral palsy and mental retardation.

It’s weird if I watch love movies with you. There are couples all over the place. Have you ever seen a mother and son watch love movies?

I thought so, but I couldn't argue, so I followed my mother's opinion and ordered two cartoon movie tickets.

Just as I was picking up the ticket, I accidentally ran into Annuo

I looked at her in surprise, stayed up for a moment, and then asked: Are you following me?

Annuo seemed a little puzzled and asked back: Why am I following you?

I was stunned for a moment, reacted, looked around and asked: Did Dad bring you here?

Annuo said while picking up the ticket: It's Ah, what's wrong? Then he smiled and said: Brother, are you here to watch the movie too? What a coincidence

It was a coincidence. As soon as I finished speaking, I saw my dad and Aunt Liu. I thought it was a bad idea. If I bumped into my mother, it would be embarrassing.

Did you come to see it with your mom?

I was thinking randomly in my mind. When I heard Annuo’s question, I didn’t react for a moment and said casually: No, I came here alone

That happens, which game are you watching together?

As he said that, Annuo was coming to get the movie ticket in my hand. I quickly stuffed it into my pocket and glanced at her: I'll just look at my own.

There is still some time left in the movie. In order to prevent my mother from meeting them, I dragged her to the mall for a walk.

I waited until the time was over before I returned

But by chance, when we entered the venue and sat down, we unexpectedly discovered that my father and Annuo’s mother and son were sitting in front of us

Meeting in this situation is indeed a bit embarrassing, especially when they see their family of three, they are happy

However, my mother's reaction was quite calm. My father greeted her in embarrassment, and she also replied as usual, just like an old friend I haven't seen for many years.

After the movie started, I didn't want to watch it, and kept looking at my mother secretly. I saw that her face was as usual and she was watching the movie screen attentively, as if she was completely attracted by the plot, but I could still find subtle emotional changes in her eyes.

I thought my mother would be feeling like she was sitting on pins and needles at this moment, so she whispered: Mom, why don’t you stop watching, let’s go first

Mom turned her head and looked at me and asked: Why leave first?

It doesn't feel interesting, it's not very good. I didn't pay attention to the plot of the movie at all, and I don't know if it's good or not

I think it's pretty good. Mom adjusted her posture and continued to watch the movie

The fool can tell that the mother is insisting on her toughness, just like fighting with her dad.

For some reason, the more my mother is like this, the more sour I feel in my heart. I would rather she get up and leave.

However, my mother didn't leave. When the movie was halfway through, my dad stood up and walked out. It seemed that he had gone to the bathroom, but he didn't come back until the end of the movie.

After the show ended, Annuo looked back at me and said nothing. He accompanied her mother out and sat in her seat. He waited for a while until the subtitles were played before he got up and left.

I was afraid to meet my dad and the others outside the cinema, but fortunately this didn't happen

On the way back, my mother didn't say a word, and walked forward silently, her high heels stepped on the ground, making a crisp "dial" sound

I don't know what my mother is feeling at this time, but she will definitely not be very good. After all, seeing the couple in love and the family reunion, but I am alone, the family is broken, no matter how strong my heart is, I can't balance it.

I followed my mother, wanting to say something and comfort her, but then hesitated and thought for a while, and could only talk about him: The movie is pretty good

Um

My mother's response was lukewarm, which made me not know what to say

Just at this moment, I passed by the park square, accompanied by Han Baoyi's love for ten thousand years, a group of middle-aged and elderly people were dancing ballroom dance

I suddenly stopped and asked: Do you want to dance?

My mother was stunned and turned her head to look at me: What did you remember again?

I smiled and said: Come on the Wave! Don’t you often dance with Aunt Zhou?

Don't be embarrassed

My mother turned around and wanted to leave, but I grabbed it and dragged it into the square. In the end, I couldn't persuade me, so I let me put my hand on her back and led her to the dance floor together, mixed in with the crowd, dancing to the rhythm of the music

After dancing for a while, my mother praised: Have you practiced it secretly in private?

Well, I admit it truthfully, and said with a smile: It's just to be a dance partner for my mother at critical moments

Mom snorted and teased: Your skills are less than half as good as your father. When she said that, the expression on her face changed slightly.

I looked into my mother's eyes and smelled the faint perfume on her body. I was obsessed with the fact that my mother's fair and beautiful face had no expression. It was as quiet as water, but I still couldn't hide the fatigue in my eyes.

Perhaps as Aunt Rong said, my mother should find a support, after all, my dad has remarried, but in my heart, I can't accept that this kind of thing happened.

So, why can't I become a mother's support? Just because I am her son?

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, my mother asked: What are you thinking?

I was wondering, what should an excellent man look like?

Funny, knowledgeable, mature, steady, responsible

Do you think I am mature?

Compulsory courses for growth history, maturity is an elective course, Xiaodong, you are already a strong man in body, but you are still a big boy in spirit

How can we become mature?

When you learn to control your desires and have a clear life goal; when you can endure pain, learn to endure, and give people around you a sense of security, you are a mature man

Then do you think I will become a mature and excellent man?

Mom didn't hesitate at all, looked at me and said softly: You will definitely become an excellent man, you don't have to doubt yourself

What about dad?

After pondering for a moment, my mother whispered: He is also an excellent man

But my dad is not funny at all

It's Ah, neither funny nor humorous, and even a bit old-fashioned, but I like him like this

Because can he bring you a sense of security?

Mom didn't answer, but I got a clear answer from her eyes. At this time, the dance music changed and the rhythm accelerated. I hugged my mother and danced tango.

Mom, do you think I am too slick and smooth?

Sometimes you're a little bit slutty

Then do you hate me?

Upon hearing this, my mother smiled slightly, and her bright eyes were staring at me: Xiaodong, you have been my mother's pistachio since you were a child, and my mother has never hated you

But I hurt you

Mom looked at me, was silent for a moment, and slowly said: You are my child

My heart was surging, and tears almost flowed out

I understand what my mother means, because I am her child, so I did anything wrong, even if I hurt her, she will forgive me.

I took a deep breath, held back my tears, and said from the bottom of my heart: Mom, I will never hurt you again

Mom smiled, smiling beautifully, and said lightly: Xiaodong, Happy birthday to you

Can I say my birthday wish?

It won't work if it says it

Um……

I silently made a wish in my heart, hoping that my mother would be happy forever

……

At night, I lay on the bed, tossing and turning, and couldn't sleep

Thinking back to the little things I have had with my mother since I was a child, I remembered what I did over the past year

Finally, I remembered the conversation between me and my mother tonight

As I thought about it, I felt a little anxious to pee. I got up and went out to walk towards the bathroom. I accidentally found that the light in the bathroom was on.

I walked over and saw my mother holding her hands beside the sink, lowering her head, hanging her long hair, completely covering her face.

I walked lightly, without any sound, my mother didn't notice me

I shouted softly, my mother was stunned and turned her head to look over. She saw that her eyes were red and her face had tears. Although she had taken off her makeup, her skin was still white and tender, and she looked very haggard.

Mom hurriedly washed her face with water, her expression returned to normal, and asked: Why don’t you sleep yet?

My mother in the bathroom, what's wrong with you?

I had no nightmare, I woke up in fear, and came to wash my face. After my mother wiped her face, she reminded me: Go to bed quickly, I will lose energy when I go to school tomorrow

After my mother returned to the house, I stood in front of the bathroom, silently

My mother's haggard face just now deeply impacted my heart. No matter how strong my mother is in front of outsiders, she is still a woman after all, and there is a soft part in her heart.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I have never hated myself like now.

I have never dared to face my heart. I have been escaping, but I can't control my desires, and hurt my mother again and again

Ling Xiaodong, what exactly do you want? What exactly are your life goals?

At this moment, I seemed to have found the answer

I don't want the next life, I want this life

I want to spend time with my mother, and I want my mother to fall in love with me like a couple!

Aunt Rong is right, mother can't be alone all her life, she needs a man to take care of her

This man must be me!

Because of this idea, I no longer feel sleepy and lay on the bed toss and think about how to make my mother accept me

The biggest obstacle between me and my mother is this mother-son relationship. In theory, any man in the world can become a couple with his mother, except me

At the same time, my biggest advantage is this mother-son relationship. No matter how excessive I do, she will forgive me.

Even if she was drugged and raped or raped violently, she would only be disappointed with me. Apart from that, she would not do anything to me.

But this will undoubtedly hurt my mother deeply

Mom is noble and beautiful, and there must be many people who have a crush on her, otherwise my dad would not be as suspicious as a result of her heart.

What tricks have you seen before?

Based on my understanding of my mother, such as asking about her well-being, sending flowers, and cooking, the behavior of pretending to be warm and warm will not make my mother's heart ripple.

After all, my dad had played this trick twenty years ago, and my mom was already immune

If I want to do this again, my mother will at most praise me, "Good boy, I'm so sensible." Apart from that, she will not treat me as a man she can rely on.

The most important thing now is to break the mother's self-protection shell first

Zhang Ailing said that the way to a woman's heart passes through the vagina

Judging from the current situation, it is a dream to let my mother treat me as the opposite sex and fall in love with me.

The most likely way to conquer my mother's heart is to have sex with her again, and it must be done in her awake state.

Although this is difficult, it is not impossible.

After all, my mother and I had a relationship between men and women in essence because of the last accident. This is a seed, planted in my mother's heart, and she can't forget it no matter how she is.

If you treat your mother as a big boss, you will have thick blood and prevent high blood. There is also a hard shell on the outside to protect it, keeping people from thousands of miles away

The frontal attack is definitely not possible. Only when she is unaware of the situation, she grinds blood bit by bit, and when cracks appear in the protective shell, she takes advantage of the situation and defeats it in one fell swoop.

I am familiar with this trick because I took Lu Yiyi back then

What are the weapons I have now? My baby son’s identity, college entrance examination, and my hidden illness

My illness has more or less something to do with my mother. I can be sure that my mother feels a little guilty about it, otherwise she would not have used welfare treatment to help me treat my illness

But because of my recklessness and rush, my mother woke up instead

My mother is already alert to me. It is extremely difficult to attack again at this time.

The first thing to do is to let my mother relax her vigilance. To achieve this goal, she must think that I have completely given up hope and keeping a distance actively is the best way.

After thinking about it, I didn't sleep all night, but the next morning I was not sleepy, but I was very excited

I resumed my morning jog that was interrupted for many days. After all, a useless man can't give his mother happiness.

I need to recover as soon as possible

After I came back, I cooked breakfast and waited for my mother to get up. I had dinner with her. My mother probably didn't sleep much last night. She was a little tired and had a faint dark circle.

After careful consideration, I announced to my mother that I would move back to the rental cottage next to the school.