Chapter 17

After my mother came in, I swayed and lie back on the bed, looking like I was hopeless and muttered in a low voice: I am already desperate about this world, don't worry about me.

You... Mom gritted her teeth, and she was so angry that she didn't know what to scold her for a moment

Finally, he grabbed my arm, pulled me up, and said angrily: Get up! How are you like? Get up! Hurry up and have dinner for me!

I was dragged out of the bedroom by my mother, and I was like a puppet that was controlled by others. I sat dumbly on the sofa in the living room, watching my mother put breakfast in front of me

I glanced at it, turned my face aside, and whispered: I'm not hungry. As soon as I finished speaking, a gurgle sounded in my belly.

Mom stared at me for a while and sighed: Did you mean it?

I asked back: Didn’t you do it on purpose?

What do you want?

What can I do? You didn’t abide by the agreement first, you clearly said that you didn’t go on a blind date before the college entrance examination. Now you went on a blind date again. What do you mean? Did you mean that you were deliberately annoyed me?

Mom is unhappy: What are you talking about? Why am I going to be angry with you on purpose?

I looked at her: Because you are afraid that one day you will fall in love with your son

Nonsense! Without waiting for me to react, she suddenly stood up and said to me: Ask the school for a leave this morning

What to do?

Take you to see a doctor and you have dinner and change your clothes. Mom anxiously urges you

I said slowly: If I don't go, I don't need to see a psychologist. I know very well now, I understand very well. I know what I am doing and what I want.

I saw my mother open her eyes wide and stare at me, with a hint of resentment in her angry eyes.

I sighed and continued: Mom, do you know? I have had a strange relationship with you since I was a child, a relationship that is different from mother and son. It was not until I grew up that I realized that it was a relationship between men and women, a man’s love for women. At the beginning, I also knew that you are my mother. It is absolutely impossible between us, but an accident happened, which made the impossible become a possible mother. Don’t you realize that this is God’s arrangement?

Mom frowned and looked at me with an incredible look. She was silent for a long time and murmured: You are so crazy

I smiled like a self-deprecatingly: I'm crazy. Isn't it crazy to fall in love with my mother? But you don't have to worry, it's good for me to throw it away.

I'm not good! Mom roared: I can't allow my son to live in such a daze, no one or no ghost

You're over-minded, I'm in my energy now

You Ah... Mom didn't know what to do with me for a moment, so she could only sigh and said helplessly: You eat the meal first

I was really hungry, so I buried my head and ate. My mother saw that I was a little weak and said: I'll ask you for a leave, you can rest for a morning first.

I agree

Mom accompanied me for a while and went to work

I stayed at home alone, thinking about what I did, was it too despicable

Then I comforted myself in my heart, and I dared to make an idea about my mother, so why do I care if I am humble or not?

Following my mother's instructions, I rested at home for a whole morning and went to school in the afternoon

When I came back in the evening, I found that my mother had arrived home. She sat on the sofa with her hands on her forehead, looking worried.

I greeted me quietly and walked towards the bedroom. My mother was born and called me to death.

I walked to her side, looked at her, lowered my head and said nothing, my mother patted the seat beside me, and signaled me to sit down.

After a while of silence, he said to me: Let's talk

Good Ah I was secretly happy. My mother took the initiative to talk to me, which means she had planned to make concessions in her heart.

Tell me, what do you think?

What I thought, you know

Mom said bluntly: It's impossible

I was so amused and crying: You just said something to death, so why are you talking about?

Mom frowned and smiled bitterly: Ling Xiaodong, why is it so difficult to make you study hard? Who are you doing for the college entrance examination? For me?

Actually, I don't care. Even if I don't go to college, I can't starve to death.

I've talked to you so much before, but it's all in vain?

Without Ah, I remember

Remember you still do this?

After I didn't speak and stalemate for a moment, my mother sighed helplessly: OK, even if the college entrance examination is for my mother, please calm down and review carefully, can you do it?

OK, I can satisfy my mother's request... I paused for a moment, looked at my mother, and said: I really don't have much confidence now, I want my mother to give me some motivation

What motivation do you want? Mom looked at me alertly

I want to be a couple with my mother for a day. I stretched out my finger, compared one, and quickly added: Just one day

My mother didn't react much, her expression was cold, and she didn't seem to be surprised that she neither agreed nor opposed immediately, but just looked at me without saying a word

I was mentally prepared for this situation, and I knew that my mother would definitely not agree easily, so I said: Mom, this is my lifelong wish. As long as you can satisfy me, it will be worth it for one day, and I will be worth it for the rest of my life.

Mom still said nothing, staring at me expressionlessly

I saw that my mother still didn't nod and couldn't even see if she was struggling in her heart.

This is the most critical quest, and in desperation, I had to use my trump card: Mom, do you think this is good? If I can get into Tsinghua University, can you satisfy my wish?

My mother was stunned when she heard this and looked at me in confusion: Do you want to take the Tsinghua University exam?

I lowered my head and pretended to be helpless: I know the hope is slim, so I gave me some things to you, okay? OK, Ah?

I didn't leave time for my mother to think, and kept asking her for a while, asking: Have you been admitted to Tsinghua University?

Well, you also know that it is actually impossible for me to get into Tsinghua University. I just want to give myself some hope. I keep repeating this sentence and instilling this awareness in my mother.

Mom was silent for a moment, and after I kept asking questions, I finally nodded

I happily stretched out my little finger, forcing my mother to hook her finger, and said: I have agreed! I will hang it on the hook for a hundred years and will not change.

My mother was still a little worried and quickly confirmed again: I was admitted to Tsinghua University, the Tsinghua University in Beijing, right?

Yes Yes Yes, that's Tsinghua University

I made an agreement with my mother, and I only need to be admitted to Tsinghua University next time

But it is obvious that with my strength, this is almost impossible to complete. It is precisely because of this that my mother would agree to this reward condition

I had thought of this a long time ago, so I started to review it hard, which was even more crazy than before. I only slept for about three hours a day. In addition, I spent almost all my time reading books and doing questions.

It's okay to persist for a day or two, but after a long time, the iron-killed person can't stand it.

My mother saw it and advised me to rest several times, but I refused. I was like I was injected with chicken blood and was extremely excited.

Sure enough, a week later, I fell ill as I wished, and fainted in class, and then I was sent to the hospital

After receiving the notice, my mother hurried to see me. After listening to the head teacher explaining the situation, she felt both distressed and angry.

Before leaving, the head teacher told my mother several times that I must let me combine work and rest, and not stay up late to review. If I fail, it will be more costly.

I've told you a long time ago that you can grasp the measure. If you fall ill before the college entrance examination, all your efforts will be wasted. Mom sat beside the bed and said to me.

I don't have much time left, I have to work harder to do so. This is the only opportunity in my life. I must not give up easily. I gritted my teeth and said, "I'm just trying to be determined."

Why are you so aware? Even if the college entrance examination is important, you can't be destined to be dead. Mom said angrily.

I have no choice. If I can't get into Tsinghua University, it will be meaningless.

After all, is it that you took the college entrance examination for this? Haven’t you planned for your future?

I gritted my teeth and said firmly: This is the only goal in my life now. Apart from this, it doesn't mean anything to me

Seeing that I was still persisting, my mother turned cold and said in a commanding tone: Don’t stay up late in the future. You have to eat and sleep on time. You should take care of your body first and then talk about the college entrance examination.

No, there is only so much time, if you don't hurry up, it will be too late

Why are you... so disobedient! Mom is anxious

Don't worry, I'm a good deal

Mom looked at me and sighed helplessly

After leaving the hospital, I still maintained a sleepless momentum, almost frantically flirting with books and doing questions.

Seeing that my spirit was getting worse day by day, my mother finally couldn't help it. She changed her stern attitude and advised softly: Take a rest, you really can't do this.

I wrote at my desk and refused firmly without raising my head, saying: No, there is not much time, I must hurry up

Obedient, if you continue like this after listening to your mother, you will have to ruin your body

It's okay, I can still stick

Are you crazy?

Mom was so angry that she wanted to raise her hand and slap me

Maybe seeing my eyes sinking, my face pale, and I lowered my head and kept writing like a robot. My mother felt a little distressed and sighed: You have a rest, don’t write anymore, let’s not take the Tsinghua University exam, okay?

No! I must be admitted to Tsinghua University. Only in this way can I realize my wish

You are really crazy! Are we not taking the Tsinghua University exam? Are we taking the Beijing Business School exam? Haven’t you always wanted to go to your mother’s alma mater?

When I heard that my mother finally let go, I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief in my heart.

With willpower, I gritted my teeth and persevered for so long, just to win my mother's sympathy

I paused for a while, turned my head to look at her, and asked: But if I don’t take the Tsinghua University exam, our agreement won’t count Ah

Why do we have to... make that agreement? Wouldn't it be better for us to change another agreement?

My mother said to me in a negotiating tone: For example, if you get admitted to Beijing Business School, will we go to Europe to play?

not good!

I refused firmly: I only have one wish, only that agreement can give me motivation, please stop persuading me, I know what to do, I must aim for Tsinghua University, even if I fail, I will accept my fate. At least I will not regret it in my future life.

You...you're so angry that my mother turned around and left the room

This was beyond my expectations. I thought my mother would compromise, but I didn't expect her to leave like that.

Since we have reached this point, let's continue to work hard. I can see if I can withstand it or my mother's heart is strong enough

After two more days of enduring like this, I felt like I was about to run out of oil and the lamp was gone, and I was just hanging all over in one breath

I could feel that my mother felt very distressed, but she was also persisting, and she was waiting for me to admit defeat automatically

However, in the end, my mother couldn't hold on anymore. She pushed open the door, packed up all the books on my desk, and said to me: Don't write anymore, go to bed right away!

I was already confused in my mind. I squinted my eyes and said dizzyly: Why do you have to do this? Just let me do this, I will definitely get into Tsinghua University.

OK OK OK OK OK OK OK OK I'm convinced you? My mother frowned and said angrily and distressedly: Don't take the Tsinghua University exam. As long as you can get into Beijing Business School, my mother will agree to your request. OK?

You're serious, I opened my eyes wide instantly

Really! Mom nodded repeatedly: You can relax a little this time, right?

I finally breathed a sigh of relief and lay on the bed

Mom shook her head helplessly, picked up the book and smashed it hard on my head like anger. Then she walked out of the room

Although my head hurts a little, my heart is still quite beautiful. After so many days of persistence, it has not been in vain.

Thinking of his plan, I couldn't help but feel proud

It seems that the only man in this world who can make my mother helpless is the only son.

After getting the desired result, I can finally devote myself to the college entrance examination sprint

In the next period of time, my mother and I temporarily returned to normal relationships. If other college entrance examination families are like those of the college entrance examination, they will do their best to do their best.

After a while of peace and tension, the college entrance examination finally came

I was still a little nervous because after planning for so long, victory or defeat was here. If I failed the exam, everything I did would be useless.

Fortunately, the more than one year of concentration has not been in vain, and the results have improved significantly. What we need to do now is to calm our minds and avoid making mistakes in the on-the-spot performance.

On the eve of the college entrance examination, the atmosphere at home was a bit solemn. When I was having dinner, my mother asked with concern: How do you feel? Are you nervous?

It's OK, I've already taken the exam once last year, so it's no big deal

Mom said earnestly: Recently, Mom has thought about it carefully, and you shouldn't force you to be so tight. As long as you use all your strength, it's fine.

I smiled: Actually, you are also doing my best for my own good. With my free and casual personality, if you weren't whipping from behind, I would have been wild and out of place. I would still say sorry to you. With a son like me, I will have a headache.

Mom smiled and said: It's okay, I'm used to it. I paused and said to me: Don't read books tonight, have a good rest and accumulate energy.

For some reason, a sudden apologies surged in my heart and said from the bottom of my heart: Mom, I mean it, it has caused you trouble for so long.

Mom lowered her head and didn't say anything

The next day, I went to the exam room alone

Although I was a little nervous beforehand, I became extremely calm after entering the examination room

Overall, the performance is quite normal

Maybe it's because of motivation, my mind is much clearer than usual

After the exam, my mother and I became speechless again. She didn't ask me about the exam.

During the days when I was waiting for the results, I really realized what it means to live like the torture of the year.

My mother is the same, even more nervous than me. She comforted me several times, it would be nothing if I couldn't get well in the exam, and life is more than this one exam

On the day the results came out, I breathed a sigh of relief, 623, pass the test safely

I was trembling all over excitedly, and I wanted to tell my mother the news immediately, but after thinking about it for a while, I still held it back

When my mother came back from get off work, I deliberately pretended to be dejected and was worse than death.

Seeing my appearance, my mother thought I had failed the exam, so she didn't ask me about my score. Instead, she said she bought some ribs on the road and asked with a smile that I wanted to eat braised or steamed.

I lowered my head and said nothing. My mother asked several times, but she didn't respond. She scolded: Big boy, don't be listless if you suffer a little setback, it's just an exam.

I muttered: Then why are you pushing me so tightly?

I just want you to do your best and not leave any regrets in the future

Mom, I want to die

Mom was startled: What did you say?

Mom, I feel that it's no longer interesting to live

Mom looked extremely nervous: Don’t scare mom just because she didn’t do well in the Ah college entrance examination, why are you going to die?

You know, the only motivation that supports me to survive now is... I have no hope now, what else does it mean to be alive when I am alive?

I grabbed my head hard and pretended to be indulgent.

Mom quickly persuaded: How could there be no hope? As long as you are alive, anything is possible.

I turned around and asked: Then what do you mean is, do I still have hope?

Although I didn't say it clearly, my mother knew what I was referring to. Maybe she was afraid that I would be unable to think about it for a while, so she didn't dare to stimulate me and did not directly refuse.

I didn't give her the opportunity to pass vaguely, and blinked her eyes and asked with anticipation: Mom, do you think I still have hope?

After pondering for a while, my mother said: Didn’t I say it? As long as you are alive, there is hope.

That is to say, we still have the opportunity to be a couple for one day?

I was so fucked that I had no choice. Mom turned her face to the side and nodded gently

I smiled happily and said: OK, then I'm not dead

After a while, my mother turned her head back and asked: How many points did you get?

I said this: 623

623, there were so many Ah. Mom muttered in a low voice and then realized: 623? Didn’t that cross the line?

I grinned: It's crossing the line

Mom frowned and asked: Then do you think you didn’t do well in the exam?

I'm just kidding you!

joke?

My mother was so angry that she gritted her teeth, reached out to hold my neck, slapped my head twice, and scolded her: Just kidding! Just kidding! Is there anyone who joked like this? She is very brave and dares to tease your mother!

It is probably the college entrance examination that ended, and I am not afraid that my head will get beaten. My mother is so cruel that I feel so painful that I screamed. I want to hide but I am pressed on my head. I can only beg for mercy.

Even though I was angry, but I did a good job in the exam, my mother was still very happy

But the cheerful atmosphere did not last long, and my mother and I fell into embarrassment again

I crossed the score line as promised, which means that my mother wants to fulfill the agreement and be my wife for the day

It was a promise that was helpless. When it was time to face it, my mother would be in trouble.

She must know what it means to be a wife this day. This kind of thing is still a bit too difficult for mothers after all.

I've been holding it in for a long time, it's impossible not to worry

Intentionally or unintentionally reminded her that her mother always vaguely dodges

This won't work. If she doesn't strike while the iron is hot, she might be betrayed by her.