Chapter 138 Cruel

At this moment, I was just impulsive and forgot that I was in the public area of ​​the company at this moment, not in my own independent office

I couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed. A few colleagues who were good at me couldn't help but follow me into my office and asked me with concern what was wrong with me.

I just found some excuses to make excuses. My colleagues knew at any time that I was arguing with my wife, but there was no way, it was difficult for a clean official to make a decision on family matters.

More than ten minutes after hanging up Xiaoying's phone, my phone rang again. I saw that it was Xiaoying's phone. At this moment, I was still angry, so I didn't answer the answer, letting the phone ring until it automatically hangs off.

But after the phone was hung up, Xiaoying continued to call again, and she seemed to be happy

I was doing a recommendation book on the computer. I don’t know what happened today. I seemed to be very hard-working. I just didn’t answer if Xiaoying calls me.

It was just that the ringing of the phone made me more and more annoyed. After Xiaoying made almost ten calls, my patience finally reached its limit. I turned off my phone.

Since I am an executive of the company, my phone cannot be turned off normally. In order to facilitate the company's contact, I called my assistant Xiao Liu and told them to find my phone number at the front desk, and would help me connect to the office intranet.

The phone is off, and the office is finally quiet

I was quiet at this moment, supporting my head with both hands and rubbing my temples by myself

My brain is very messy at this moment. You know, Xiaoying and I have known each other for so long, and we have basically never blushed. We have always respected each other. It is the first time we scolded her like today.

Why did you suddenly lose control?

Maybe my heart is too unbalanced. I hate Xiaoying why she chose me to have sex with her father when she was at home and left my husband alone in the bedroom. If Xiaoying was originally having sex with her father, then this time last night, when she was at home, this was a naked betrayal. I don’t believe that her sex and love can be separated.

Everything I heard last night really hurt me

I was also angry. Why is my father willing to have sex with Xiaoying at home? Is my son next door? He also has this idea?

I hate them both, I think both of them betray me

At this moment, maybe my whole mind was occupied by my own emotions, maybe my thoughts were not the most rational moment, maybe my thoughts are a bit extreme now, maybe they have something to hide, but I don’t seem to listen to anything now

I don't have the heart to continue working. Since I am an executive of the company and my office computer has an external network, I can't help but start browsing posts online.

I don't know how to click, but I entered the website psychological counseling Q&A website

My experience is very special and it is impossible to talk to someone I know. Maybe like Xiaoying, I can only talk online. Maybe this is the only way I can vent now.

While no one in the company has disturbed me now, I briefly wrote my experience into a short and concise post and posted it on the Q&A website

But I didn't expect that a psychologist would reply to me just a few minutes after the release, and we started chatting one by one.

Since I can't let go of it online, I still haven't told you about some private matters.

On the Internet, the psychologist said that I have a sexual wife mentality, but it is not too serious at the moment. He also told me that I still have a slight self-abuse mentality. Perhaps because of my childhood family experience, my growth environment was too much Kanko, and the current work and family pressure is too great.

At this time, I carefully recalled everything the psychologist said, and there was indeed some truth.

I have a sexual wife mentality, I admit it. I am cuckolded. And every time I see Xiaoying having sex with her father in the early stage, I am very excited. This is a typical sexual wife mentality.

There is indeed a bit of self-abuse mentality. Every time I see my father having sex with Xiaoying, I feel a little pain while feeling a little pain. It is just that a little sadness and pain that makes me feel a strange stimulation. Sometimes, when I see Xiaoying and my father being together, the more I feel the more heartbreaking I feel, I will feel an alternative satisfaction.

And I have a self-abuse mentality, which can be seen from some of my daily life habits.

For example, I rarely use a razor to shave. The coffee table in my living room is low and there is always a mirror and tweezers. When I'm fine, I will use tweezers to pull out my beard while watching TV.

You know, it hurts to pull out your hair, but I don’t dislike the pain. Instead, every time I pull out my beard, it feels like I’m addicted. It’s very uncomfortable not to pull out my beard when I’m idle at home

For this reason, Xiaoying and his father complained a lot about me, saying that I would get folliculitis when I always pull my beard.

Sometimes, I will use my hands to pull my leg hair, etc. When I am stressed and upset, perhaps only the pain can make me feel more comfortable.

I asked about the reasons for these psychological reasons, which were related to my ups and downs. I suffered the blow of losing my mother early. My father owed a lot of debts to me when I went to school and saw a doctor. After graduating from college, he saved money with my father and paid off his debts. I have always been under tremendous mental pressure, but I have never realized the impact of pressure and growth experience on my personality and psychology.

According to the doctor, my abnormal performance today is a manifestation of too much pressure, including work pressure, and the psychological pressure caused by Xiaoying having sex with her father. He told me to treat and adjust quickly, otherwise it would cause me to be emotionally abnormal and lose control, and the most serious situation may lead to depression.

I chatted with the doctor for more than an hour. Did I really get my emotions out of control?

Do you really have mental illness?

I can't imagine it's real

After I had a simple conversation with the doctor, I lay on the table and rested, calming my brain down

At this moment, it was already very close to noon, and the knock on the door in my office sounded

After getting my permission, my assistant Xiao Tang came in

Leader, my sister-in-law is here, and I am going to see you outside... After Xiao Tang came in, I saw that I was still not in good mood. I bent down next to me and said gently in my ear.

Xiao Tang is the new assistant to me and my secretary. The little girl who just graduated from college is full of energy and spirituality. She originally needed to be in the same office with me, but in order to avoid rumors and other scandals, I arranged her outside the company and built an office desk at the door, just like the door god who helped me to keep the door.

Although it is not good to throw the little girl out of the office, I am better be careful for the sake of my reputation and the girl. I care too much about my reputation. After all, in today's society, people are afraid of their words.

Sister-in-law, which sister-in-law? I'm still crazy now and haven't reacted for a while

It's your sister-in-law Ah, your lover, she came to the company and was outside the office... Xiao Tang said to me carefully, observing my reaction, just quarreled with Xiaoying on the phone, and the company should have spread. Good things don't go out, bad things spread thousands of miles away, people's mouths are so mixed

You told her that I am very busy now, and find a reason to help me get over it. I don’t want to see anyone now. I was stunned for a moment. I didn’t expect Xiaoying to find the company directly after my phone turned off, but I really don’t want to see her now. I even want to go out to drink, chat and relax with my friends tonight.

Is this really going to happen? Leader, it’s not good, otherwise you...you should meet her... Xiao Tang is a woman, of course she will think about problems from the perspective of a woman, and will also be directed at the woman. She still didn’t give up and persuaded me carefully

Oh, I will disappear if I say I don’t see you. Help me block her. This is the job I gave you... I am a little bored at this moment. After I explained it for a while, I continued to lie down and rest...

Since I showed the attitude of the leader and told her that this is work, I couldn't say anything anymore. I sighed and went out.

My heart hurts very much at this moment. Is this really good for Xiaoying?

Is Xiaoying angry or sad now?

She came to my company, did she want to argue with me or apologize to me?

Xiaoying has always been a relatively strong woman. When it comes to the issue of principle, she will never give in or compromise. Today, she came to our company to question me and me. After all, I scolded her like that on the phone. This is the first time I can't figure out what Xiaoying would react. Perhaps this is also the reason why I didn't see her. If we quarrel in the company, it would be embarrassing to throw it to my grandma's house.

After more than ten minutes, the knock on the door sounded again. Xiao Tang walked in, holding a cup of coffee in his hand. Leader, sister-in-law kept checking and waiting for you outside. She said she had been waiting for you to finish her work... Xiao Ying put the coffee on the table for me, and then said to me carefully that she had done her duty as an assistant secretary.

OK I replied simply, I didn't expect Xiaoying to continue waiting outside. Does she not have to go to work today?

Leader, there is a saying that I may not say, but I really can't stand my sister-in-law's sad look. Although she is wearing sunglasses, I can see that her eyes are red and swollen, and even makeup is worn. Others can't see it. As a woman, I can still see it. She must have cried for a long time. Although I am not married, I know there is no overnight revenge between the couple. What's wrong with talking about? Xiao Tang continued to persuade me. These words of her really entered my heart. Xiaoying cried, which made me feel unexpected. It was just a quarrel on the phone. Xiaoying, who has always been strong, would not cry.

It's almost time to get off work at noon. You can leave directly after get off work. Don't say hello to me, let... let your sister-in-law come in. Xiaobian has been waiting outside the door, it's not a solution. Waiting all the time, wouldn't it be a joke for the people in the company to see a joke? Let's talk to her.

Xiao Tang went out. I didn't know how to face Xiaoying at this time. What attitude should I face her. I could only pretend to continue working on the computer and focus all my attention on the computer.

The door opened, and I saw the familiar figure walking into the office with my eyes, and then closed the door and left the time alone for the couple.

Everyone in the company should have seen Xiaoying come and knows that we couple have something to talk about. There will definitely be no one coming to the office to disturb us in the short term.

After Xiaoying entered the office, she took off her sunglasses. Her eyes, which were no longer covered with eyeshadow, were red and swollen. It seemed that she must have cried.

At this time, my heart suddenly hurts. After all, every time Xiao Lai cries, I would gently coax her. Xiaoying crying is the thing that makes me feel most distressed.

I haven't decided what attitude to face her yet, so I kept looking at the computer with concentration, and I ignored Xiaoying

After seeing my reaction, Xiaoying knew my attitude. She said nothing, wearing work clothes, walked towards me step by step with gentle steps. Then she slowly walked around my desk, slowly walked to me, and stood beside my chair.

She just stood beside me, looking at me without saying a word, but her eyes were filled with tears, as if it would flow out at any time

I made up my mind and didn't turn to look at her, and continued to do the work in front of me.

After looking at me for a while, Xiaoying slowly lowered her body. Finally, in my surprised gaze, she slowly knelt down to me, knelt down beside me, and then lay her upper body on my legs, holding my thighs with both hands, burying her face on my thighs.

I just lay on my body and started crying, and my hands kept holding my pants tightly and loosening my pants. Although I couldn't feel Xiaoying's heart, I heard her crying sound and felt her constantly holding her loose hands tightly and understanding Xiaoying's behavior, but I still knew that Xiaoying was sad and sad at this moment...