Chapter 389

After a night of hard work, I finally transferred my father to a private hospital under our company and used the best medical resources. All I could do was wait for a long time, and Xiaoying had been silently accompanying me. She suddenly became taciturn and rarely spoke. She spent most of her time in a daze, and she had become much haggard these two days.

Maybe she had the same idea as me in her heart. Will my father commit suicide intentionally? This is very likely. It was beyond my father's own expectations. He did not fall to death, but instead fell to paralyzed.

Xiaoying may also be worried, will I take my anger on her father's affairs? After all, if my father did it on purpose, then Xiaoying and I will be blamed.

After waiting in the hospital for three days, after several surgeries and consultations with doctors, and even invited specialized doctors from abroad, we finally came to the conclusion: the hope that my father could stand up was zero, his lumbar spine was broken, and the spinal cord in his waist was also damaged by irreparable damage. It is impossible to recover in this life.

He lost all his consciousness from below his waist, and had no control over his incontinence. He could only lie on the bed for the second half of his life, and had to go out in a wheelchair.

The moment I heard the news, I closed my eyes. I had seen the strong winds and waves, and I had already made this mental preparation. Now I just confirmed the situation. After hearing the news, Xiaoying shook her body and almost fell down. Fortunately, she was supported by my assistant. She didn't say anything but covered her face with her hands and started crying.

My father had woken up at this time, but we hadn't gone in to visit him yet. It was all medical staff who were taking care of him.

I stood outside the ward and looked at my father lying on the bed through the window of the ward. He just opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling of the ward without saying a word. At this time, he was getting drip and various testing instruments on his body. He still needed to be hospitalized for a long time.

I want to go in and visit him

But what should I say after seeing him?

Even if I were asked to stand in front of my father's bed, I didn't know how to speak, and all this was attributed to me who pushed the plan

Seeing my father now, thinking about his wounded lower body, and thinking about the torture of sexual addiction that Xiaoying suffered, perhaps this is God's punishment for our family, and the retribution for greed for evil.

You go in and see your father...

After I stood for a long time, I said to Xiaoying behind me, and I still couldn't get through the hurdle in my heart in the end.

Then you... OK...

After hearing my words, Xiaoying had no reaction. Meeting was inevitable, but she didn't expect that I wouldn't go in. She wanted to ask why?

But after seeing the assistants and entourage around her, she finally didn't say anything.

Xiaoying opened the door and walked in. I could only see her back behind her. She walked towards her father's hospital bed. Her steps were slow and heavy. Her back was full of sadness. As she said, after all, she had that kind of relationship with her father, and her sexual relationship was even more harmonious than me. She also gave her father too many firsts. She was complicated with her father's feelings. Although she said it sincerely that day, who knows whether it was her most real feeling?

After all, she couldn't explain her feelings about her father.

I can understand Xiaoying's sadness. After all, her and her father's sexual life is like a couple, and that level is something I cannot compare and replace. I have to accept reality.

After Xiaoying walked to her father's hospital bed, she sat there and cried, her shoulders trembling. Her father seemed to feel Xiaoying's arrival. After all, the smell of perfume on Xiaoying has never changed. My father is very familiar with the smell of Xiaoying. If you smell the fragrance and recognize women, your father can do this.

My father turned his head and looked at Xiaoying with difficulty. A smile appeared on his old face, but he was very weak and could not speak. He seemed to comfort Xiaoying with a smile.

I haven't met my father for a while, but he seems to have grown a lot older. My father now looks even older than the average 70-year-old. Perhaps the life on the construction site during this period, coupled with various surgeries, greatly shortened his vitality.

According to the doctor, paralyzed patients are most afraid of being depressed. If they can think openly and have a cheerful personality, they can live normally. If they are depressed and have a depressed whole day, even if they don’t have any diseases in their bodies, they won’t live long.

I asked Xiaoying to see her father. This is the reason. I hope Xiaoying can cheer up her father.

After Xiaoying went in, I looked outside the window for a while and then left. First, I didn't want to see the situation of the two of them. Maybe their every frown and smile would affect my mood. Second, I didn't want my father to see me.

I went to the hospital's director's office

I regard this place as a temporary office location. There are many things in the company now, and some things that the company's agents cannot handle. I started to borrow this office and computer to work, and I could also give myself some rest.

Two days later, I had to face my father. After all, as a son, I didn't go to see my father because he suffered such a serious injury. Moreover, the people around me, including the hospital leaders, were surprised that I, the biological son of the patient, had never been to see him once, and anyone would feel abnormal.

I walked to the door of my father's ward and felt very complicated. According to Xiaoying, my father was able to speak now, but he couldn't eat yet. As for what she said to her father, Xiaoying didn't take the initiative to tell me, and I didn't ask her either.

Taking a deep breath, I pushed open the door and walked in, while Xiaoying stood outside the door without going in with me

My father's eyes were still staring at the ceiling. He didn't smell Xiaoying's body scent. Maybe he thought it was a medical staff coming in. He kept looking at the ceiling, and his eyes and head did not turn any movement.

Alas...whether you should face it or face it, Jincheng, do you hate me?

When I walked to my father's hospital bed, my father actually spoke on his own initiative. You know, my father kept looking at the ceiling.

He shouldn't be able to tell who was coming in at this angle. Can he smell my body?

How do you know that it was me who came in?

I walked to the bed, sat down, and directly transferred my father's question. Maybe I was unwilling to talk about this topic. I didn't expect my father to speak on his own initiative, and asked this sensitive question directly.

As a father, you can feel your breath and footsteps. After all... Can you answer me the question just now? I want to hear the truth...

My father still turned the topic back and asked me this question directly: I hated before...

I can only answer my father this way, and it is true that I hated my father before, but now my father has an accident, and when I think of his future situation, I can no longer hate him. The price my father paid was too high and very miserable. If it were me, I really didn't have the hope and courage to live. I can't imagine what would happen to the second half of my life if I was paralyzed.

You may want to know why I dare to ask this sentence on my own initiative and why I dare to face this question directly?

The situation has changed now. My father took the initiative to talk, but I was taciturn. My father's attitude surprised me. I thought my father would be very disappointed and dare not face me.

I didn't answer, silence is the default

Over such a long time, I have figured out a lot, especially in this accident. When facing life and death, what other things do I dare not face? Jincheng, you are my son, I am your father. This is something that cannot be changed. I don’t expect you to forgive me. It will be useless for me to apologize to you. I already know my current physical condition. You don’t have to feel strange. I know my own body. I have also asked Xiaoying. I am very grateful to her. She did not lie to me. I confirmed my guess that my current situation is worthy of sin. It is considered as God’s punishment for me. I wanted to die and give you and Xiaoying a large amount of compensation. It is the only compensation I can do. At the same time, I have also fulfilled my sinful life. But... God may think that the punishment for me is not enough. Maybe he thinks that death is a gift for me. It actually makes me live in such a way. This is the biggest punishment for me...

My father looked at the ceiling when he said this

Hearing my father's words also confirmed my guess. My father did it on purpose...