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Chapter 294 Losing the Heart

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The black stains on the walls are the meaning of this room

The windows with iron railings do not consider the comfortable and beautiful concrete floors at all

This alone is enough to make the people locked up feel despair and anxious

What's worse is this dirty wall that deliberately neglected to clean up

The stains on it are all bloody no matter how you look at it

What happened here and what else will happen in the future?

Nightmare is expanding. For the arrested prisoner, as long as he sees this wall, he will have the idea of ​​confessing all his crimes, even if it is not a crime he committed, even if it is a false fault.

But, if the crime is true!

Just like the scarred, weak and pale boy here

He closed his eyes and sat alone in this small dark room

There is no expression on the childish face, and the eyes are extremely distracted

Although he was not forced to be shackled, his hands and feet remained motionless

In the dimly lit room, he, Shumu Zhuque, just stared at the stained wall, chasing the lost memories

The first place where Suzaku, who was detained by the military police of Shigen Island, was taken to was the headquarters of Shigen Island.

Looking back, when I came to the island with Euphemia and others, I was immediately attacked by ZERO and the Black Knights.

Therefore, this is his first time entering the headquarters

The base commander sent Al to let Suzaku listen to the communication record

The moment Suzaku lost his memory, the headquarters recorded a communication conversation between Lancelot on the scene.

The arrested ZERO was pressed into the cockpit of Lancelot

On top is a trial-making Knightmare Gao Wen, which is ready for firing inside the floating aviation ship Avalon.

However, Lancelot suddenly activated and escaped from the attack range of the Hadron Cannon at an unprecedented speed.

What are you doing, Major Shumu! Order...

Shut up! Who cares about that kind of thing! I have to... survive!

You guy...

At this time, the communication was interrupted and the recording stopped

Zhuque stood there in a daze, violating the order and his own code, and tearing a huge wound to open again.

Lieutenant Colonel Paiel said to him with a serious expression

Although I don't know how I came out of Lancelot and escaped to such an island, Major Shumu, I'm sorry, because I care about my life, you wasted a great opportunity to solve ZERO, you have nothing to say, right?

As a formal soldier in Bunitania and a commander of Shigen Island, Paiel has always been very angry that Suzaku actually dared to roar and violate his orders

If he had the chance, he would naturally not let this lucky EEVEN go

I want to give him some color

I...really...

Suzaku asked softly

Paiel showed a disdainful sneer on his face and announced coldly

This is the most serious act of defiance of orders

If he solved the problem with the EEVEN knight Shumu Suzaku who brought shame to Bunitania, he would definitely enter the eyes of those big names.

Paiel thought so

!

Next, the two of them didn't say a word

Zhuque was trembling all over, and he didn't even have the strength to stand firm. He knelt on both knees on the spot

Of course, Zhuque didn't know anything and remembered nothing

Why did you take such action and ignore the regulations?

Live!

That was the absolute command that Zhuque heard, the distorted power that could change his personality and the world, and it was Lelouch's Geass

As he said, the cruelest punishment was given to Shumu Zhuque

Especially for people with persistence in their minds, if they go against the direction they insist on, they betray their own life.

Suddenly, the surroundings of the Suzaku sitting in the small black room light up, and the fluorescent lights began to flash

With the crisp metal friction, the lock of the small black room opened

The iron door made a heavy sound and opened. The person who came in through the crack of the door was a man wearing frameless glasses. He had a frivolous smile on his face.

Really...I'm sorry

The man walking into the room was Major Royd, who belonged to the special dispatch guide, who announced the release of Suzaku in a strange tone as usual.

However, it was him who came to announce the order, which made people wonder

Didn't go to heaven again! Suzaku, so, you were released

Zhuque did not look back, but continued to stare at the wall

Finally, he slowly stood up and asked Royd in a very empty voice.

Is this... an order?

At this time, Royd's already small eyes narrowed even smaller

It can also be thought that His Highness Sulzell is basically a gentle person, and now is an extraordinary period. He said that he could not pursue the crime of violating the order. He originally ordered Euphemia's knights to die, but this order itself was suspected of overreaching power. What's more, that attack also involved His Highness Euphemia's entry into this order, which is also a little compensation from Sulzell to you and Euphemia!

Yeah……

Zhuque closed his eyes, patted the dust on his military uniform, and reorganized the crooked tie in front of the mirror.

Then, Suzaku walked to Royd who was standing at the door.

After being released, do I have to return to the mission immediately?

It's Ah, I want to ask you for something

Before that, can I be allowed to go to a place first?

The musty air suddenly solidified

no problem

Thanks

Zhuque walked towards the door and stretched his waist

But Royd didn't go out first, but made way for him

The moment the boy's side face appeared in front of him, Royd asked in a slow tone as usual

Are you not planning to be the knight of His Highness Euphemia?

Suzaku stopped

However, I didn't plan to say anything about this, but that adult would not blame you for that kind of thing. If you obeyed the order and died with ZERO, it would make that adult angry

This is not a guess, but a fact

But even though I know this... no, it is precisely because I know this that Suzaku lowered his head

On the island of Shenyuan, the cruel things that happened to his Lord Euphemia, during the two days and two nights that were captured by ZERO and Karen, once again appeared before him.

The sad sob that resounded throughout the night sky was like a heavy hammer hitting his already broken heart

It has changed, everything, in those two days and two nights, in the unbearable time when the noble goddess was defiled and insulted by some demon, everything was different

Zhuque's heart twitched violently, and he said in an extremely low and self-blame tone.

I'm not suitable to be her knight

It's not up to you

Royd still answered him in a relaxed tone

However, what he said was an irrefutable fact

Whether it is suitable or not is determined by the people around you, and even His Highness Euphemia cannot have any opinions on this evaluation... It's really difficult to be a human being

Royd smiled helplessly, but Suzaku standing in front of him did not smile

This time, no reason

That's right, Royd nodded and replied

I know, you've lost something fundamental

Although I don't know whether it was intentional or unintentional

Lost things

Zhuque, wearing a military uniform, clenched his fist tightly, his hands trembled continuously, and his head lowered deeper

Although I shouldn't say it, I know that this is a serious betrayal and what's more serious is that I have lost the most basic qualifications as a knight! I have failed to protect my lord, and I am still...

She also encountered such cruel things. In order to relieve her pain, she took the initiative to flatter the evil person and use her noble body to please the other person.

This is an unforgivable sin!

……

But I think it would be great if she was a cold person, she was a person who treated me as a machine or tool...

If that's the case, you'll be relaxed

At least, I can continue to serve as the Knight of Euphemia without hesitation and complete my mission

Tools will not act according to their will

Machines won't betray orders

Tools will not be afraid of being destroyed, and will not be afraid of death

And the machine... won't work hard for itself, either

How wonderful it would be if the sharp blade was pulled into your heart without asking whether it was right or wrong, or if you had no heart at all.

Things that don't have will not be hurt or suffer

Indeed, that would be easier

Royd said, although he didn't know what happened to Suzaku or Euphemia during those two days, but facing the extremely weak Suzaku and his escape, Royd made a mocking voice.

After all, that can put the blame on someone other than you

No sense of autonomy, just simply obeying orders

Suzaku did not deny it

So, I'm not suitable to be her knight

Her, Euphemia I. Bunitania, the girl's request to Suzaku is not that kind of thing

A person who only obeys orders is not the knight she needs. After feeling this, he accepted her will and became a knight

However, she not only did such betrayal, but also gave up all her expectations.

It was still at that time that she encountered the most cruel thing for a girl

Zhuque finally understood this, no, maybe I can't understand it, it's just that Zhuque never thought about it before

It's just that I hide my sincerity and don't want to face it

This is the darkest part of my heart and the least willing to see

Since the day seven years ago, I was no longer a human being because I mistakenly pulled out the knife

As long as you are still human, you cannot bear your own blade

Then, it would be great if it was like a machine

Not a human, just a tool

At least, I can be freed from the guilt of father-killing, from betrayal and responsibility

You can turn a blind eye to sin, see nothing, hear nothing, just as a tool for that person

Because machines will not have human hearts because that thing has long been lost

But she treated me as a human being and clearly didn't have that qualification... If I were a human being, I would have been punished and died long ago

Royd kept looking at Suzaku's side face and said nothing

As a result... I can't even take tools, so I have to remember what my value is as a person!

Ignoring orders for Zhuque, the problem is not only that simple

The biggest problem is that I ignore the order to save my life

For a long time, he blamed himself

However, when he was caught by Karen, he watched his lord be insulted by the enemy in front of him and possessed by cruelly

This negligence of ignoring the order seems to have become so insignificant again

For a woman, a noble princess, the purity and dignity that was taken away was one million times more important than his humble self-criticism

Royd just saw the fact that Suzaku violated his orders and violated his own code of conduct

But I didn't see how cruel physical and mental torture the Lord and the Knight had encountered during the two days when they disappeared.

From that moment on, Zhuque's heart was dead

He is no longer a human, but a Shura, an extremely murderous evil spirit, a walking corpse

But he did not give up his right to life, because his life already belonged to the woman who comforted himself, a useless knight even when he was suffering from cruel treatment.

You just said that you have something to ask me, did you? Mr. Royd

Suzaku turned his head and looked at Royd seriously

Is it a combat plan? What about

Royd remained silent, and after a while he touched his hair and said

Well, please ask Cecil for details. During your imprisonment, there was another riot.

The situation is so urgent that Lancelot must be dispatched?

Although I don’t want to be called around like a grown-up worker... However, only Lancelot can create opportunities for victory here!

I see

Suzaku smiled and nodded Royd knew that this was a human smile.

After meeting His Highness Euphemia, I will go back to the special mission immediately

……

I'm afraid, Suzaku thought

This is my last time driving Lancelot

No matter whether it is successful or failed, I will never come back

Then, before that, I must explain everything to the girl

This is the obligation to the gentle girl named Euphemia I. Bunitania who admits herself

And what he hopes is that the girl despises herself, blames herself, insults herself, and punishes herself.

If he could use himself as a tool, he would definitely do what she wished

Even if he is an enemy of the world and even if he distorts his own principles, he will never hesitate

I just hope that she forgot those two hellish days, I just hope that she will move forward bravely on her own path