Chapter 109

I had countless thoughts in my heart, and I was even worried that the whole thing would be a situation my husband set to test my nature, which is the so-called fishing. I hesitate, I struggle, I am confused, I am confused, I am confused.

Two fighters appeared in my heart. One said that I should listen to my husband and completely let go of myself to pursue happiness. My husband would not dislike me because of this, but would only love me more. That would be like opening the door to paradise that leads to paradise

But the other one says that you are walking on the edge of a cliff. Once you fall, you will fall into hell. You will live in regret and pain for the rest of your life.

What is my choice?

I chose to close my eyes and cover my ears. I chose to deceive myself and follow my feelings step by step. The first step in front of me is undoubtedly to walk out with the help of my husband.

When my husband went downstairs to pick up the man, I was like a trapped beast walking aimlessly in a small room. I could walk out of this room, but I couldn't get out of my own drawings as a prison. I couldn't face my husband's hopeful eyes, and I couldn't refuse the beautiful prospects that my husband promised for this.

I held my phone tightly. I wanted to call my husband countless times to tell him that I was backing off. I don’t want this kind of life. I know he will be disappointed, but when I was disappointed, I will definitely smile and respect and accept my choice, because he loves me, but after we go back, we will face the increasingly dead marriage life, which is actually even more scared.

I am like a shopping maniac who has difficulty choosing. I am irritable and anxious, biting my heart like countless ants, making me feel in pain.

Time passes by minute by minute. I hope time passes slowly so that I can have more time to weigh the pros and cons and make a choice I think is wise. I also hope time passes faster so that I can end this painful torment as soon as possible

Finally, the final judgment came, and the door sounded like swiping the door card. They came, and all my psychological activities came to the final result.

The boy named Xiaobai is as famous as his name. He is fair and fair-looking, and his tall and thin body looks very energetic. Surprise and ecstasy were revealed in his eyes when he looked at me. Obviously I made him very satisfied.

I took out my own clothes like a walking corpse and walked to the bathroom to take a bath step by step. I knew those steps must be very bad. My brain was almost in a state of downtime. I don’t remember the whole process of taking off my clothes, taking a shower, and then getting dressed and walking out of the bathroom.

My husband saw my strangeness, and he seemed to know that I couldn't do what he wanted in front of him. He was so disgusting that he actually chose to leave, so he gave the room to me and the big boy he had just met.

My mood suddenly changed from confusion to fear. My husband actually pushed me to a strange man. I sat down beside the bed and closed my eyes, hoping that this was just a dream. After I woke up and settled, I would find that I was still lying on the warm big bed at home, next to me was my husband who was sleeping like a pig and was still screaming.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw Xiaobai standing in front of me with a bath towel. He was also very nervous, rubbing his hands nervously and kept rubbing his hands.

Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, I... can I sit next to you?

Yes, I answered in a light voice

He slowly sat down beside me, as if he felt a little far away, and moved to me again. I was nervous when a strange man approached his body. I unconsciously moved to the other side as well.

Sister-in-law, I actually...

Do you have a girlfriend? I asked my question before Xiaobai finished speaking

This is the second sentence I said to Xiaobai after entering the house. The previous sentence is Hello

I...have, now I'm single

I nodded slightly, but didn't know what to say next, and the room fell into silence again

Sister-in-law After a moment, Xiaobai spoke as if he had to muster up his courage. Can I hug you?

I slowly turned to look at him

He was a little furious when I saw him, uh~~~ I'm not...

Yes, I actually squeezed out this sentence

Xiaobai slowly approached my body again, and I could almost feel his burning breath on my cheeks. He slowly stretched out his arms and wrapped around my shoulders from the side. This may be the strangest time I was hugged in my life. This feeling made me want to laugh, and my nervous mood was relieved to a certain extent.

Xiaobai wrapped his shoulders around my shoulders, but he didn't dare to press the weight of his body over. It looked a little awkward. The tip of his nose almost touched my neck. The itchy feeling made my heart beat faster.

Sister-in-law, you smell so good, I... can I touch you? Xiaobai asked softly

I had already anticipated what would happen tonight, and the feeling of accepting my fate gradually became heavier, and the torture gradually faded. My hard shell was broken bit by bit by bit by myself

Yes, my voice sounded a little bit more than just now

Maybe seeing that I was easier to talk to, Xiaobai's courage gradually became stronger. He stretched out one hand and slowly touched my thighs. First, he touched it through the bathrobe. Seeing that I didn't resist, he slowly reached into the bathrobe. The moment his palm attached to my thighs, I got goose bumps. The temperature of my palm was hot, and the heat even felt a little comfortable through my slightly cool skin. I couldn't help but close my eyes and took a breath.

My reaction seemed to inspire Xiaobai. His palms began to slowly rub my skin. The feeling of comfort became stronger and stronger. I could even feel a crack in my inner cage, and countless colorful butterflies swarmed out from it. My body, which was originally slightly hunched, gradually stretched out because of my nervousness. My hands were supported on the bed to maintain the balance of my stretched body.

Xiaobai's movements gradually became unrestrained. He began to knead my thighs, and then slowly touched upwards to the base of my legs. His fingers occasionally swept across my underwear. I bit my lips and tried not to make any sound, but in the end he hummed out of my nose.

Xiaobai is far more provocative than he looks. His other hand gently unbuttoned my belt, and one hand was about to reach into the bathrobe and touch my chest. The door was opened.

I sat upright as guilty as a woman who was caught in an affair, with my hands tightly pulling my eyes at the two robes that were about to be opened, but the belt was too late to tie it. I don’t know if my husband saw it, but it doesn’t matter. Isn’t it that he likes to let go of my heart from the body?

Everything that happened next was like a dream. I abandoned all the defense lines in front of my husband to a strange man. I was surprised by the speed of my despair. I once thought that I might be a lewd woman at heart. It would excite me to reveal everything in front of a man, even if that man was just a stranger I had just met.

I really put down the burden of chastity as my husband said and tried to integrate into the lewd atmosphere. I went from being passive to being half-pushed to being proactive. I broke my bottom line step by step. Perhaps those bottom lines did not exist at all.

Xiaobai became the first man in my life who had nothing but had nothing to do with it. It was a big deal. In just two hours, I couldn't count how many orgasms I had experienced. I only knew that the two men had ejaculated on me four times. The refreshing pleasure was beyond my imagination. I began to doubt whether my previous resistance was disturbed by me.

After taking a shower, I was still immersed in the afterglow of orgasm. I had never smoked cigarettes or poisoned, but I believe that the pleasure that kind of thing gives people is nothing more than that.

But I still suppressed my pleasure in front of my husband. I was ashamed to show the happiness other men gave me in front of him, but from that moment on, I knew that I had accepted it from the bottom of my heart.

Xiaobai asked to stay in our room for one night, although it was raining heavily outside, but I also knew that this rainy night was destined to be unsatisfied.

I was actually very resistant when I was woken up by him in the middle of the night. I was so sleepy. Besides, having sex with other men with my sleeping husband is completely different from the previous ups and downs. This is a kind of concealment and betrayal

But when this little man whispered in my ear that he wanted to go to the bathroom, the burning breath that blows in his ears and the pleasure of having sex actually wiped out my sleepiness.

I lay in front of the large mirror in the bathroom, and one leg was raised by him. He entered and exited my body from behind in an ambiguous position that my husband had never used. I looked at myself in the mirror. He had messy hair and sleepiness. He couldn't say that he looked very good. At least I didn't want to stare at this face for a long time.

But the most attractive thing about this face besides the burnout is a sick flush. I tried my best to focus my eyes on the face in the mirror, but the itchy pleasure made me lose myself little by little. The face in the mirror gradually blurred in my eyes, and in the end I surrendered. I lowered my head and stopped looking at myself. I found that I suddenly didn't dare to look at the naked woman in the mirror.

I didn't invest too much in the little man behind me. I was surprised that I just treated him as a big sex toy, so I only focused on the pleasure from my body throughout the process, and it was not like having emotional communication when having sex with my husband.

But I found that such sex without having to invest in emotions is so relaxed and comfortable, just like watching a sports game that doesn't take any stance, don't care about winning or losing, just focus on enjoying it

Xiaobai is not a qualified sex toy, at least that's what I thought at the time, he actually used a childish trick to cum inside me

He took away my first time except my husband after marriage, and now he has completed the first time being cummed by another man. I was very annoyed by this. At that moment, I made up my mind to let my husband break off contact with him, otherwise I was worried that it would endanger our marriage. Yes, I was so rational and calm at that time. Although he forced me to have a soft and hard job when I was taking a shower, he forced me to have a blowjob for him, but it only made me feel so disgusted for a few seconds.

My husband may have slept very hard because of driving, afternoon meetings, and night hard work. He probably didn't notice what I did on his back in the middle of the night. This made me feel a little bit of gratitude and a little guilty, so I just hesitated for a while and confessed everything to him at breakfast the next day. My husband was very generous about this, or he wanted to care. Just when I thought the trip to Ningbo would end with me putting down my chastity burden, the next man broke in.

He is the old man who pestered me yesterday. I found out that his name is Zhou Wangfa. Yesterday, he borrowed my phone and saved my number, and stuffed a business card in my bag. It turned out that he was a township entrepreneur who sold feed.

Until my husband left the hotel, my head was still blank. Why did I become a lady waiting for a client to come? I was still a senior lady who charged 50,000 yuan for two hours.

Just like last night, I was walking back and forth in the room, but strangely, my mood was different from last night. I had less anxiety and struggle. What I was worried about was just whether I could accept that old and ugly man psychologically. Will he have any bad habits to hurt my body? I blamed my husband in my heart for being so bold that he dared to leave his wife alone to face a strange old man, and let him ask for it.

Apart from this, there is no guilt about whether this behavior is about betrayal of love, I am changing

When I opened the door for Zhou Wangfa, my hands were trembling and nervous, but more of them were excited and exciting. As soon as I met, I was thrown into the bed like a rape by this old man who spent a high price. Before I could even say the first sentence, my underwear was stripped off. As soon as I shouted the first sentence, my underwear was already stuffed, and I had no condom. I slapped myself in the heart. Why did I be so mean to this extent?

I thought Zhou Wangfa would come and go quickly, but this old man seemed to be a master of playing with women. He changed several positions one after another, making me die before ejaculated on me in time. Finally, he was not ejaculated again. I comforted myself with great mockery.

After this refreshing process, I actually felt less disgusted with him and more favorable. Maybe the woman who was pleased with her body was so easy to satisfy.