Chapter 195 Don’t love cats, don’t love her

Everything is silent

Alpha's voice is cold and his tone is soft, slowly being sent into Chi Zhaoying's ears

Chi Zhaoying's heartbeat for a while, she turned her head, her expression still maintained that gloomy. She nodded and said: You said

Yu Li took her down

The crystal ball in the hand is churning, as if stars are embedded in it, stretching out a beautiful galaxy

When I was a child, they were still very close. Yu Li said softly that Mommy had a white cat. When I was born, it was already in Xiaohei, a white cat named Xiaohei.

When talking about the cat's name, Yu Li chuckled

When I understood the difference between black and white, I asked Mommy the origin of the name. Mommy just smiled and said that Xiao Hei is a little guy with his own ideas. He didn't respond to the word Xiao Bai, so he was happy to call him Xiao Hei.

As you think, I have always liked the cat Xiao Hei has been with me for a long time. Even now, when I think back to my childhood, there will always be Xiao Hei in my memory.

Chi Zhaoying's fingertips shrink

Yu Li continued: But people have birth, old age, sickness and death, and cats are the same. When I was six years old, Xiao Hei went to Cat Star. Of course, I know what that means and I know that I should accept it calmly, but I can't do it. I couldn't accept that Xiao Hei left at that time, and I couldn't accept that there was no white cat named Xiao Hei in my life.

It likes to stay in my arms and let me touch the soft fur on its belly. It also likes to hide behind the curtains and suddenly jump out to tease me. It likes to play with me and likes to tease me with its tail. It is so cute and smart.

...It loves me so much

After the words fell, Yu Li's lower lip was trembling

During that time... she had nightmares all night long, dreaming that the day when Xiao Hei left, she was reluctant to speak all day long, just like... As Xiao Hei left, her soul was also pulled away

Mommy, mother, grandma, and servants at home are worried that they are bad

She didn't want others to worry, but she couldn't do it, as if nothing had happened, how could she do it...

At that time, my mother even found a cat that was almost the same as Xiao Hei, but she couldn't accept it and said she was unwilling to raise the cat.

Those days...

It's so dark, there are only pillows that are wet in tears, and the empty room full of cat supplies. I can always hear Xiao Hei's screams, and I always feel that the white cat will rush over from some corner to hug her legs.

She couldn't even recall whether there was moonlight on the night then

I was very sad at that time. Yu Li said lightly, and his tone was still soft. She continued: In order to let me get out, Mommy gave me this crystal ball.

Mommy said that in this life, people will always experience separation, their belongings are damaged, or they will go out to study, or their relatives will die, and separation is always rushing to come, and hiding and crying cannot be avoided.

Mommy taught me that I had to learn to accept Xiao Hei's departure, just like accepting that it would be dark during the day and the lantern would go out. I couldn't stay in that state all the time

Of course, a six-year-old child couldn't understand this. I took the crystal ball at that time, but remembered that Mommy said that this crystal ball would be with me instead of Xiao Hei, look...

Speaking of this, Yu Li stopped. She picked up the decorative ornaments in her hand and turned them to Chi Zhaoying to see. The gold foil in the shape of cat ears inside was Xiao Black.

Mommy said Xiao Hei would accompany me in this way, so I believed it, so this crystal ball has been with me for many years until now

I grew up and gradually understood the principles that my mom taught me. Achi... can you understand too?

Understand the meaning of parting

Chi Zhaoying naturally understood Yu Li's words. She wanted to say that she didn't understand. She wanted to mess around and told Yu Li that she just didn't understand, but when she met those peach blossom eyes, she couldn't speak anymore when she saw the tenderness in Yu Li's eyes.

She could only nod in Yu Li's gaze

Of course I understand

It is inevitable to know that separation is always there, and they also know that they must face separation calmly

She nodded, but she didn't want to be persuaded by Yu Li. She caught Yu Li's gaze. She made a mistake and was stubborn and steadfast. The night will end, the sky will be bright, and the lights will go out can be repaired. Xiao Hei has been accompanying you in another way, and I... don't want to leave you.

Yuli, I don’t want to be separated from you, I don’t want to get divorced, I want to go with you, keep going

Chi Zhaoying stared at Yu Li. Her expression was very serious and her eyes were too bright, as if it could illuminate the bright light that ignites the cold river in the dark night.

Yu Li seemed to have expected her response, but just sat quietly in place, opposite the punch, with a soft eyes, looking at Chi Zhaoying with a tolerant and doting attitude.

A Chi Yu Li closed his eyelashes, and the eyes in his eyes swayed slightly in the blink of an eye, which was so beautiful that it was shocking

She raised her hand and placed the crystal ball in her hand on one side, her movements were gentle and full of care, and turned to her side again, continuing what she wanted to say, do you know? Later... In the years since I grew up, I met many well-behaved or naughty people, and even saw white cats exactly like Xiao Hei. Some people asked me if I wanted to raise another one, but I refused.

I never let go, nor am I moved, I refuse to raise another cat

Chi Zhaoying's eyes twitched

Because... I don't want to go back to my sixth year. I have experienced the time that I dare not recall again. I don't want to, nor dare to raise a cat, and then experience the pain of losing it again.

The same is the same now

Yu Li chose to tell her these pasts, and Chi Zhaoying naturally understood the meaning.

She didn't want to hurt again, so she chose not to raise a cat

To avoid injury, she chose to end

A Chi, I will be afraid. Yu Li finally told her that no matter what you think, I will be afraid when I am with you.

I'll hurt

I still remember the pain

Yu Li said slowly, she didn't look over, as if she didn't want to expose the pain of struggle in front of Chi Zhaoying. Chi Zhaoying could only see her trembling red lips, so don't want it, A Chi, let's not continue

We should be separated and I don’t want to recall the pain in the past, nor do I want to be frightened and scared anymore. I am like this... Can Achi understand?

Can Achi... say goodbye?

Yu Li said softly, and could hear that she tried her best to maintain the calmness of her tone, but she failed.

Chi Zhaoying could hear from her ups and downs and slightly choked tone. How uncomfortable it was for her to confess.

She made Yu Li feel so painful...

But it is obviously different, and it is different from before. She will no longer hurt Yu Li, nor will she avoid her love again. How can she be the same as before... and make Yu Li so painful again?

Chi Zhaoying opened her mouth, wanting to make Yu Li not afraid, she just needs to accept her love calmly. She once said that this time, let her take the initiative and let her love.

Yu Li didn't even need to respond, he just needed to wait in place to accept her love, so he didn't need to be afraid anymore...

She was about to speak when she saw tears falling from the corners of her eyes

Crystal clear, roll into a line

Chi Zhaoying froze in place, and all the words she wanted to convince Yu Li were smashed back by this tears.

She made Yu Li so sad and so scared

Yuli

She was about to speak, but was interrupted by Yu Li again

A Chi, look... in my current state, how can I continue?

I was worried, afraid, confused, and always worried about Chi Zhaoying leaving, and always afraid of being injured. How can I be together well in such a messy state

Don’t say anything, just stand there and wait for you to love me, I can’t do it, A Chi, that would be unfair to you, it would be too painful...

It is precisely because she has experienced it that she doesn't want to feel that pain.

Every sentence, Chi Zhaoying could understand very clearly

She had no way to argue, and could no longer say those words that could convince Yu Li if she thought she was reasonable and well-founded.

Chi Zhaoying's eyes shifted, looking at the crystal ball on the cabinet on one side. The gold foil inside had slowly deposited and returned to a quiet appearance.

The stars in the sky fall into the darkness

She sat in front of Yu Li, watching Yu Li cry, watching her struggle and resist, as if she saw the little rose falling, as if she saw the moment when the little rose fell

The stems of the flower are straight, and the moment the thorns grow, Chi Zhaoying suddenly felt the dust settled, and something made her sure

In her subconscious, she has always known it

Yu Li, who was determined to leave at that time, even after a year of getting along, how could he change his mind easily even if he had been together for a year.

The seemingly soft lady is actually more determined than everyone else

During those years, her dedication and show of kindness were ignored, and her feelings were also trampled into the mud, but Yu Li still expressed his love firmly

When she decided to leave and stop continuing, how could she easily turn back?

Chi Zhaoying closed her eyes and her breathing gradually slowed down. She looked at Yu Li, as if she was grabbing the last straw. Her voice was quiet and she asked: But have you raised bean bags?

Yu Li's eyebrows moved, his eyelashes were still soaked in wet tears. She shook her head gently, that's different

The bean bun is different. When I raised it, I was in a special situation and didn’t do my best. You saw it. Aunt Yuan took care of it more than me.

Chi Zhaoying refuted in her heart

Yu Li, who was holding the ragdoll cat with his eyebrows and eyes, who could whisper to Dou Bao with his mother to refer to him, and Yu Li, who made Dou Bao stick to love like that... What else is there to be troublesome?

But Yu Li thought that this was the case and thought that he would not care about bean bags, so he let it go and raise it

She was ready for parting, thinking that she would not care about it anymore and did not dare to give more, so she was willing to raise another cat

But in fact... whether it is a lover or a cat, how can you accurately control the relationship?

Chi Zhaoying was very clear. She pressed the corners of her lips and continued to speak.

So, let me ask the lady again, do you still love me for the last time?

Yu Li probably didn't expect that when he said this, Chi Zhaoying still wanted the answer to this question. She was stunned by this sudden question.

She tilted her head, and the hair on her neck slipped a few strands of Yuli's hair grew a lot in a year. At this time, she fell loose on her shoulders, showing her softness.

Make her look gentle

After a long time, Chi Zhaoying heard Yu leave her mouth

No, she said, I don't love it anymore

I don't like bean bags, I don't love you either

So, Chi Zhaoying, Yu Li's words are sure, let it go

It's as good as it was back then