Chapter 339 Wife's Monologue 7

16days ago Urban Novels 4
The next Sheng Kuo is beautiful Lei’s eyes no longer numb and become emotional and desire--this makes me happy and satisfied. I also take care of his Sheng Kuo and try my best to meet his requirements. We satisfy each other’s desires.

That month may be a life that I can't forget in my life. Apart from working, we are tired of being together. We feel happier than the time of love. After all, we haven't had enough fun at night when we are in love. I enjoy myself like Lei. He is radiant and I have become radiant.

At first we all felt that we had returned to the past, and mistakenly thought that those sad days had gone far away from us, but the good times didn't last long, and the popularity lasted for only one month. For some reason, he seemed to be at a loss. We obviously didn't quarrel, and we usually loved and took care of each other, but why did we gradually feel tired and not passionate and felt that love was far away from us

Life is slowly becoming dull again. Lei is no longer so motivated. I no longer have so much demand. I occasionally have Ye Ziyan's husband's villa and the scenes of that night. But I quickly force myself to forget to stop thinking about it. I still secretly scold myself for being shameless in my heart. But looking at Lei and I, a spark that I finally found was extinguished again. I was unwilling to accept it. I was afraid to go back to the past, back to the feeling of looking at each other, like strangers, and even more afraid of quarrels. Separation. I also saw the struggle in Lei's eyes. For a few days, we were all a little uneasy, and we were silent when we were eating, not talking.

We all seem to have their own ulterior motives and just say it out of the other person's mouth, but I still struggle. Whether it is the education of my parents since childhood or the environment of birth, after all, I know that I am a woman, and I understand what that matter means. I don't want anyone to share Lei, and I don't want other men to touch me except him, even Ye Ziyan's husband, not even if it's Ye Ziyan's husband.

Time passed day by day, and my patience and reason were still firm in my heart, but I found that Lei seemed to be shaken. He was my spiritual pillar. His shaken meant an earthquake that made my heart's persistence begin to shake.

Gradually, we returned to that difficult day, lost our feelings for each other, and began to perfunctory, and sometimes we simply didn't do it. This made me even more afraid that I had experienced that kind of pain once. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't know if it was Lei's wavering, or I also began to accept it. I was no longer so resistant. Occasionally, I would start to try my best to convince myself and tell myself that it was for our love and for our home.

Finally, when I was having fun that night, I saw a choice in his eyes. Although this choice made me very painful and didn't want to accept it, I still felt a little touched in my heart that he made up his mind. After all, this is a kind of relief for me. I don't have to worry about how to make a choice, nor do I have to take on the sinner who spoke first. Maybe this is my selfishness, but I think it's a woman's helplessness.

Lei really spoke, but he asked me what I thought, I had lost my mind, so I threw this question back to him. At that moment, I saw the reluctance in his eyes, which was my reluctance to me. To be honest, I was very moved at that time. After all, this means that he still cares about my feelings and cares about me very much.

I directly said what he thought in his heart, he did not deny it, but he said he wanted me to be happy more. This sentence has made me very happy because all my happiness comes from him, although he was very moved, grateful, but still didn't make up his mind. He seemed to notice my hesitation, did not force it, and did not ask again.

In the next few days, we tried not to mention that thing and avoided the night. I went to bed early. I thought about it a lot that night, but I couldn't retreat. We were forced to stop halfway through. I felt very painful and he was also very distressed. I saw the miss in his eyes and knew that he was thinking of Ye Ziyan. I was like a little fish that was electrocuted, and my nerves suddenly tense up.

Because now he is in my body, how can he think of other women? Besides, the woman I care about the most. I don’t know if I want to regain his attention or want to take revenge on him in anger. Maybe I don’t want to continue dragging like this, so I almost blurted out and agreed.

Lei looked at me in surprise and could read from him to care. He made me think clearly, but I had thought about it countless times. If there was another way, we didn't have to choose this path, but his care still made me feel at ease.

I could no longer hold back my tears and threw myself into his arms and cried. There was pain, joy, helplessness, and accusing him of trying to pull me away, but I didn't want him to see what I am now, because I was crying sadly, and my appearance must be very ugly.

Maybe it was moved, or maybe it was infected by me, he cried, and tears fell on my back, cold and cold as my heart, making me feel heartbroken and blamed myself, and the emotions accumulated in my heart completely exploded. I hugged him and cried, and he also hugged me and cried, and patted my back lightly as if comforting.

That night, I just wanted to indulge in him, and this night, he only belongs to me