Chapter 65

Yisheng let go of Xiaotong's hand and slightly adjusted the sitting postures between the two parties, making the atmosphere of the conversation comfortable and relaxed. At this moment, Yisheng really looks like a professional psychological counselor.

OK? I want to ask? Yisheng saw that Xiaotong had already sat down and asked with a smile

Yes, you ask

OK! The first question is, why did you look for me these days?

This... Xiaotong smiled bitterly, the first question is so sharp...

Haha! Just like what I said just now, just answer the question and tell me your true thoughts

Because...because...

Xiaotong, don't be afraid. Yisheng held Xiaotong's hand again. I'm the only one here, you can say with peace of mind

Because I have no one to look for me, Xiaotong said sadly, "You said, who can I tell you what happened this time except you in the world?"

Is this really the only one? Yisheng said

This... OK! It's actually Dongmei... Xiaotong was stuttering. Before she went abroad, she told me that if she really couldn't hold on and wanted to find someone to accompany or talk to her, then...

So that's it. No wonder Dongmei called me the night before yesterday and asked me to have a good chat with you

Ah? Yisheng's words made Xiaotong cover her mouth with her hands in surprise. How could Dongmei...? Could it be that she...

Well, she seems to know what happened to you and that man

But...how could she know? Xiaotong hasn't calmed down from her surprise yet

I don't know either, but she hopes you can face yourself honestly. You and Yisheng have been married for so many years. She said that she hopes you can live a happy life no matter what.

Xiaotong lowered her head and said quietly: I understand.

Then, she began to tell Yisheng all the stories about her and Ah Xu. From the time they had admired each other ten years ago, she was raped by Ah Xu and had sex regularly. Ah Xu invaded the house and fucked her at home while I was on a business trip until she promised Ah Xu to have sex for the last 5 times, but she did not tell what happened in Ah De's workplace that night.

However, after Xiaotong mentioned the altar, she felt an indescribable gap between her and me. Until recently, she was peaceful and privately alienated, and this dull atmosphere almost broke down, so she had this trip

Actually, I am not surprised. Women are all delicate. She will certainly notice any changes in the couple for so many years.

Do you hate him? The doctor named Xu Yisheng only asked this after hearing this

I hated him at first

Then what happened? Why did you keep agreeing to his invitation? Are you just afraid of the videos in his hand? You said that he was very nice to you later and did not have any perverted requests.

I don't know either, but I don't know when it starts. If I haven't been to his place for a long time, I... would have thought involuntarily...

So have you fallen in love with him?

No! Absolutely not! Xiaotong said firmly, I love Junkai! I only love him in this life!

Since that's the case, why do you keep meeting him? You obey his request? Yisheng paused. In the past few days, you have been taking the initiative to follow me...

Actually, I don’t know when I started, but I found that doing...that kind of thing seems to make me forget the things that are upset for the time being. Sometimes I feel like I’m taking drugs... Xiaotong looked up at Yisheng, Yisheng, have I become a bad woman? I think I’m so cheap

Xiaotong, don't think of yourself like this. Maybe you just suppressed your own needs. Dr. Xu just tore off the seal by chance.

Yisheng paused and continued, let’s put aside moral issues first, think about it carefully, when did your psychology start to change?

Xiaotong was silent for a while before slowly answering: It seems that it was when Junkai was on a business trip.

Did you mean that Dr. Xu ran to your house every day?

Well, Xiaotong replied in a soft voice, after the incident, I really hated him, hated him for doing such things to me, hated him for making me live nervously every day, but I hate myself even more...

I don’t know when it started, my body actually responded to his behavior... It’s really! It’s just the body! I don’t know why! I really don’t want it in my heart!

I understand, it's okay, you keep talking

During that time, I lived in horror every day. I was really afraid of one day... Junkai would find out about me and him, and even... I didn't even know if I was forced or not

Xiaotong started to choke when she said this

Later, when Junkai was on a business trip, he came to my house and forced me to do that, I was really angry! But later...

later?

I don't know...I don't know if it was because Junkai was on a business trip, my subconscious mind felt...I think Junkai wouldn't know what happened these days... Xiaotong's voice was so weak that it could hardly be heard.

Then you found that you actually enjoyed this feeling, right? Yisheng helped her take it

It seems...it's just a sudden feeling of relaxation

Xiaotong said, although I still resisted, I don’t know why. Every time I go with him, I feel like I’m released. I don’t know what happened to me.

So when you haven't met him for a while, you will involuntarily think of him, right?

I used to think I was thinking of him. Xiaotong paused, but after coming out with you these days, I realized that I was not thinking about him, but... She lowered her head a little shyly

You just want to find someone you don’t hate to accompany you to relieve your stress, right?

Xiaotong lowered her head and pointed gently. I don’t know how I became like this...

So when you are in a bad mood, you want to do that kind of thing? Yisheng asked

No, that's not the case!

Xiaotong quickly denied that I should say that I just wanted to leave the normal living environment and go to a place without any restraints, do...do that is just an additional one.

Is there anything wrong with you and Junkai? He is not good to you?

No, he is very nice to me. Xiaotong raised her head and looked at Yisheng seriously and said, but the problem is that he treats me too well and loves me too much!

Ah? Yisheng and I called out at the same time

Junkai is very nice to me, so good that he can be said to be spoiled... I know he loves me, but to be honest, it is precisely because he is such a good husband that I put a lot of pressure on me. Xiaotong said quietly

In your eyes, I am an independent strong woman, right? But in fact, I am not so strong, nor as excellent as you think, after getting married and having children, I try my best to play the role of a wife and mother. In fact, I often feel very tired...

Wouldn't Junkai be with you?

meeting

Xiaotong paused, but when I wanted to rest, I saw Junkai taking the initiative to do housework and take care of the children, and I felt that I shouldn't have been thrown to him... Or maybe I dare not throw it to him like this

You may not know? Junkai is very good, but in fact he has high requirements. Although he doesn't blame me, it's because I do things as if it's a holiday. Sometimes I really want to rest at home, but seeing how he is planning to travel, I can't bear to refuse. Although I'm tired, I still go out because I love him

However, psychological pressure and fatigue cannot deceive people. Xiaotong lowered her head again

You are all in the technology industry. When you don’t have a case, you can go online or chat with colleagues. Because of work, you can often go on business trips for several days.

But since I got married, except for going out for dinner occasionally, I had almost no contact with my sisters. Usually I was the only one in the office, no one could speak or help me. In addition to making application materials, I also had to answer patients' consultations, and even the meal was not good. When I got home from get off work, I had to work and be busy with children and housework. Junkai sometimes went on a business trip for ten or half a month, and I could only rely on myself in those days...

Yisheng, sometimes I feel so tired! But when I think of Junkai’s expectations for me, I am so tired! I love him! But I am really so tired! I feel like I’m almost unable to hold on! Wuwuwu~~~ Xiaotong was already crying when she said this, and hugged Yisheng and started crying loudly

Cry... I cry so hard that I can cry out all your pressure. Yisheng gently patted Xiaotong's back and comforted her

I was already crying on the sofa in the living room at this time, covering my face and crying in a low voice

Over the years, I have always claimed to be a new good man, my perfect husband, Xiaotong lives a happy life under my care, and my beautiful wife is also a good woman chosen by everyone, beautiful, confident, independent, and even more rare is that she and I are so compatible. Although life is ordinary, our relationship is as beautiful as a fairy couple.

And all of this is because she loves me... because she loves me deeply!

It's Ah!

I am tired and annoyed at work, so I can go online and take a break, but she can't do it. I go on a business trip outside, and I can walk around freely in my spare time without being entangled by children or housework. I must honestly admit that my mind can indeed get rest when I go on a business trip.

But Xiaotong didn't. She had never really rested except to sleep (especially she couldn't sleep well). If it were me, I might have exploded, but Xiaotong was just enduring all this alone, just for me

When I praised her, I didn't find her smile tired; when I was proud of myself in front of others, I didn't find that this would only bring more pressure to her, so that she could only return an embarrassing but polite smile.

Today I realized that the perfect fit of all this is because Xiaotong follows me and cooperates with me; her image of a perfect wife is also her efforts to achieve my expectations, even if she is very tired.

How selfish I am! I didn't realize that I was oppressing my wife invisibly, and I was complacent and thought I was a perfect husband!

Xiaotong and I were crying on both ends of the phone. She cried because her emotions were finally released; while I cried because of guilt.

Woo... Woo... As Yisheng kept patting, Xiaotong's crying finally gradually calmed down

Xiaotong, is it much better?

Well...Woo...Yisheng, thank you

Well, it's all right I'm glad you can tell your true thoughts

Yisheng... Xiaotong leaned on his shoulder, I felt good and bad, I was a bad woman

Why?

I...I'm sorry Junkai

Xiaotong, listen to me, Yisheng held Xiaotong's shoulder and asked her to leave her arms. You are not bad, on the contrary, you are a good woman

But I...but I cheated!

You were forced, right?

But I later...

I know that you later found out that you actually felt relieved of stress from it, so you kept going to the appointment, right?

Well... Actually, I didn't give him a good look every time, and I regret it after the end... But... But... Xiaotong was a little reluctant to speak but stopped

But what?

Alas... Whenever the pressure accumulates to a certain level, if I don't find an outlet, I will feel very tired and depressed... I feel that I can't hold on... Xiaotong said sadly, but I also know that this kind of thing can't last forever, and later I promised him...

Promise him 5 more times, Yisheng took it

Um…

But how many more times did you give him?

It's Ah... because I...

Because you're a little reluctant to end

When Xiaotong heard Yisheng say this, she raised her head in surprise, but did not defend herself, but just nodded gently.

Yisheng, don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I can’t bear to leave him, but...

I know, you are reluctant to leave that "environment", right? Xiaotong nodded

At this moment, I can completely understand Xiaotong's thoughts. Isn't Xiaomo the same? Isn't my way of seeking emotional expression the same as Xiaotong? I have no position to blame her at all?

Then is your recent condition caused by the altar incident? Alas! Actually, I have a responsibility... Yisheng said sorry

That thing...it's fake to say it's not sad, but after all the things with him, I...I don't seem to be as serious as I used to see... Xiaotong's expression turned dark. At that time, I told myself that I just fulfilled my promise and finally could face him calmly, but after that incident, I fell into psychological struggle and found that I was swallowed up by guilt...

Why? Yisheng asked

Although I was forced that time, my body... I don't know why I felt that way. I wasn't like this before! I was really panicked, and I felt so mean and lewd... Xiaotong's eyes turned red. Later, I rejected him a few times, but after a long time, I began to uncontrollably want to find him...

I'm really bad, right? Xiaotong smiled sadly

The matter at the altar was an accident, and you were controlled by the drug at that time, so don't blame yourself anymore

Yisheng comforted, As for whether you have become bad, we will discuss it later, there is something I want to figure out first... Yisheng crossed his fingers and leaned his head on his arm to look at Xiaotong

What's the matter? Xiaotong asked in confusion

You seem a little crazy these days...

I... Xiaotong knew what he was talking about, and her face showed a shy expression reflexively

Since you have made up your mind, you should feel relaxed, but I think you are very anxious, and even anxious to not want to go home. Why is that?

Because... because I think Junkai...

? Yisheng saw Xiaotong suddenly hesitate and looked at her with confusion

Xiaotong took a deep breath and said softly: I think Junkai seems to know

Why do you think so?

I don't know, it's just a feeling... Xiaotong said, and it's not just Junkai, I think even the girl in my office knows it.

Any clues?

And... And I think Junkai and that girl have known each other for a long time... In short, I think it seems that everyone knows, but I don't know anything. Every time they look at me, I feel that they are laughing at me Yisheng. I am really scared. What should he do if he really knows? Will he divorce me? Ah! I... I also asked you out. If even Xiaoqian knows it, would she... Xiaotong actually tremble as she said that. It seems that she is really scared. Even when she was tied up by Ade, Xiaotong never showed such a look.

Xiaotong! You calm down! Calm down! It's okay! It's okay! Yisheng hugged Xiaotong tightly and comforted him, don't worry, Xiaoqian would never know, even if he knew, it's okay

Ah?Why?

Because... Yisheng hugged her and began to tell the story about himself, Sister Liu and Xiaoyu. Xiaotong was stunned when he heard it, covering her mouth and couldn't believe that such a thing was happening. Of course, I was too

Haha! That's it! Xiaotong, do you think we are bad? Yisheng asked slyly. After temporarily disagreeing with the topic, the whole atmosphere became much more relaxed, and Xiaotong also stopped trembling

I...I really didn't expect...you guys would...and Xiaoqian also accepted it? Xiaotong still couldn't believe it

It’s Ah! After these things, we have all gained a new understanding of life. As long as we don’t hurt anyone, we can make life happier when everyone agrees. What’s wrong?

Yisheng said in a natural tone

Putting aside moral factors, don’t you become happier when your pressure is expressed? Every time you go back from Dr. Xu, isn’t the atmosphere at home happier? Has your relationship with Junkai been affected?

This...but if Junkai knows what I do, it will be...

How do you know Junkai can't accept it? Yisheng interrupted her

What did you say?

I said, how do you know that Junkai can't accept it? Yisheng repeated it again seriously

This...how could he accept me... cheating...

That's not necessarily the case. Yisheng smiled mysteriously. Think about it, has Junkai's attitude towards you changed since the incident happened?

Xiaotong tilted her head and thought for a while and said: It seems that there is no

So, is there anything emotionally unstable or suspicious about him?

It seems that there is no...

Well, then next, it's your problem