I live in a county in central China. Although the place is not big, it is still prosperous. In recent years, GTP has been ranked among the top five in more than X dozen counties in the province.
My mother's name is Su Hui. She is 45 years old. She was 40 years old at that time. She has been working on the education front for 28 years and is now the executive vice principal of the middle school.
In the eyes of most men, mother is not the kind of beauty that makes people shine, but she is very delicate and attractive, and is the kind that becomes more and more delicious as she opens. And as far as I know, mother is an intellectual and graceful woman in the eyes of many men.
My mother is very ordinary 161cm tall, her weight is now 110 kilograms, and her breasts are not proud 81
2cm, slightly sagging, but the feel is good, and there is no obvious outward expansion, so the cleavage is still very obvious; the waist circumference is 56cm, and the hip circumference is very good 88
6cm, not distorted, very strong, very round and smooth
I feel that the most beautiful thing about my mother's body is that her skin is white but not covered, very smooth and delicate. Although she is 45 years old, she is still very moisturizing and elastic.
My name is Jia Yunfan, this year I am 25 years old, that year I was 20 years old.
Although my mother is a teacher, she is very strict with me since childhood and I am very obedient, but maybe I have low IQ and my academic performance has never been very good. After graduating from junior high school, I had enough of my intense study life. After a strong confrontation with my mother, I did not go to high school, but entered the secondary school entrance examination.
I graduated from a technical secondary school at the age of 18. Fortunately, I was helped by my uncle, who was then the deputy secretary of the county party committee, so I joined a good public institution to work.
Of course, my father is also there in my family. He is a good man. At least in terms of career, I still regard him as an idol and a target now.
My father has a strong love for work. My father was the first to be in the project office in our county. When he heard the name, he knew that the county went out to find a relationship and projects. He traveled all over the country all day long. Later, he was promoted to the director of the county's provincial office. The year before yesterday, he was even sent to Beijing as the director of the Beijing office.
It is precisely because he is busy working outside all year round that he fulfills my love and my mother.
Mom is a very graceful woman. She has never been as unrestrained as described in the novel. Even if we have been in a relationship for 5 years now, she is very enthusiastic when we face each other naked. Even if our sex is harmonious now, she will not be too unrestrained, nor will she be like the mothers in the novel. Yes, Ah Ah, full of lewd voices, because no matter what, she always has an identity as a mother.
Of course, as my relationship with my mother deepened, my mother was encouraged by me and was willing to try some fresh and fresh tricks that I like, such as: stockings, blowjobs, in the car, in the wild, and watch the forum with me with me.
According to my experience with my mother, once a woman has had you once and you enter her heart, she will be very accommodating to you and will be willing to give for you. The same is true for mothers.
My mother’s love is different from what is described in the novel and novel. It is not so beautiful and romantic. I feel that my mother’s love is very plain. In addition to being a little restrained and worried at the beginning, it is like a normal couple slowly getting along and developing feelings.
Nowadays, as long as my father is not at home, my mother and I live a life like a couple, with warm snuggles, sweet flirting, quarrels over trivial matters, and a cold war. Of course, passionate exercise in bed is indispensable.
If you also want to fall in love with your mother, please don’t rush to seek your own satisfaction and force your mother to do something that she doesn’t adapt to. What you need to do is take your time and guide her slowly and tactfully instead of forcing her, otherwise I think it will be a kind of harm to your mother.
To be honest, before my mother and I had the first intimate contact due to an accident, I never thought about incest at all, and it was even more unlikely that my mother would have such an idea. Although I had already kept a lot of diaries at that time, they were all daily thoughts.
What really started to record our story was written on the eighth day of our first intimate contact, and I slowly recovered from fear.
So how did my mother and I start, because there is no record, and I want to keep the original diary as much as possible, so I don’t want to rewrite it anymore.
Let me briefly introduce it to you
I remember it very clearly that it was July 5, 2004. My mother got what she wanted. She should have been her position as executive vice president. This made her very happy and excited. She didn't even find that her son was in a low mood because I broke up the day before.
That night she and her colleagues were already drunk when they came back from celebrating, but I was drinking alone. Maybe she was really drunk. Seeing that I was drinking, she didn't nag me, but continued to talk happily about how her colleagues congratulated her. Unconsciously, she became more and more excited and started pouring wine. We started drinking together. In the end, everything was so dark that now that she and I couldn't remember how they got on the bed.
The next day I woke up in a scream
When I opened my eyes, I only saw my mother running out of the bedroom with a towel naked. When I realized what happened, my mind was blank.
I sat blankly on the bed for a long time before I got up, found my clothes in the living room and hurriedly escaped from the house.
Later I found out that day that my mother hid in the bathroom with a towel in her arms and cried for a day.
After that, we had a speechless life of 74 days. Even though we were at home, we would not look at each other, let alone talk. We were consciously avoiding each other as much as possible. The atmosphere at home was only depressing and embarrassing.
This is my first time with my mother. Now I have always felt very sorry, but I can't remember what our first time was like.
As for how my mother and I got together, the process is very complicated. I don’t want to write it deliberately, so I will publish the diary. However, because of the reasons mentioned above, it is incoherent. Please forgive me!
From tomorrow, I will slowly publish the diaries that can be published one after another (updated every two to three days). The diaries are long and short, some are two or three pages, and some are only a few sentences. If they are long, I will publish only one article at a time. If they are short, I will publish two or three articles.
Monday, September 19, 2005 at 23:33
Another thing happened today, Ah, what should I do?
how so?
No wonder my mother asked for leave a few days ago and rested at home for three days. No wonder my mother's face looked even more ugly these days. She didn't wash clothes very much, and she didn't even cook much. No wonder I saw her crying in the bedroom the night before yesterday.
Last night, I continued to have insomnia and had a severe headache in the morning. So I called the unit to ask for sick leave. Director Zhang said strange things again, saying that I always asked for leave for a while. How could he know my pain, Ah, an old bastard.
Get up at around 10 o'clock, and my mother had already gone to work. I took out a piece of bread left from the refrigerator to eat, and threw the plastic bag into the trash can. I subconsciously glanced at the trash can. It was this time that I saw something, I knew it because I bought a box of abortion pills for my ex-girlfriend.
My heart suddenly rose to my throat. I stretched out my trembling hand and picked it up. I wanted to confirm that, yes, this mifepristone tablet. The aluminum-plastic board in the box was empty. In addition to the instructions, there were also pieces of paper. The hospital's diagnosis: 2 months of pregnancy
My mind was spinning rapidly in extreme fear: Dad hasn't come back for 4 months, it can't be Dad's or other man's?
Impossible, I know my mom's character
Two months, that day was July, day Ah, is it mine?
I felt my lips tremble and sat on the ground weakly
I'm really scared and don't know what to do?
God was just teasing me. That time, it was after drinking, and I don’t know how it happened, so I let my mother have it.
I don't know how long I sat on the ground before I returned to my room tumblingly, lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling with my eyes open. My mind was blank for a while, and I was in a mess again. I don't know what to think about
My mother still didn't come back at noon. I knew she was avoiding me and didn't want to face me
In the afternoon, I slowly walked out of panic and began to think about what to do. There were two voices fighting in my mind. One was to continue to act deaf and dumb, pretending that I didn't know anything, and to escape everything that happened; the other was to be brave, face the mistakes I made, and take good care of my mother.
After my mother came back in the afternoon, I secretly looked at her. Her face was still ugly. Although I had never experienced it, I know that we call abortions from women as small confinement periods, which is very harmful to the body. Generally, we have to rest for 2 weeks after abortion. We cannot stick to cold water, we cannot work hard, and we should supplement our nutrition.
Looking at my mother's tired look and pale face, I feel so guilty and feel so distressed
But it's already past 11 o'clock in the evening, and I still can't make up my mind
Am I very cowardly, I have no opinion at all
What should I do?
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 22:54
Compared to yesterday, my mind has become much clearer, and my heart is no longer as blocked as a stone.
Because I finally took a step today, and finally faced myself bravely, faced my mother, and faced the thing that shouldn't have happened.
I still had insomnia last night, and there were two problems in my mind. One was to continue to escape, but to face it bravely
I didn't look at the watch and didn't know what time it was. I made up my mind and fell asleep unconsciously
In the morning, I didn't call the unit and still didn't go to work. After my mother went to work, I turned on the computer and searched the Internet for precautions after abortion and nutritional methods. I began to think about how to take good care of my mother.
I'll clean the house first
It seems that my mother is really weak because she used to be a very neat person, but she has basically not tidy up her home in the past two weeks.
After cleaning the room, I went out to purchase: casserole, eggs, stupid chicken (domestic chicken), wolfberry, red dates, brown sugar, warm water bag, etc. When I got home at noon, I ate instant noodles in a hurry and started stewing chicken soup according to the nutritional recipes online.
Whole chicken, wolfberry, red dates, star anise, pepper, ginger, and cooking wine together, boil it on a high heat, then turn to a low heat and simmer it for 4 hours. I smelled the fragrant smell and the bright red wolfberry and red dates floating on the oily chicken soup, and my heart was warm.
I was still very uneasy in the afternoon because I didn’t know if my mother could forgive me and accept my care. What should I do if she didn’t accept me?
But it has happened and I have to bite the bullet
My mother arrived at home at almost 7 o'clock in the evening, but after she came back, she still returned to the bedroom immediately and kept her door open.
I heated the chicken soup and put it in a bowl, and I suppressed my anxiety and knocked on my mother's door, but my mother didn't respond at all.
I didn't know whether to enter or go, but hesitated for a moment. I tried the door lock and it was not locked. I gritted my teeth and opened the door and walked in
My mother lying on the bed might not have thought that I would open the door and come in without her response. She looked up at me, then turned over and lie down with her back to me.
I took a deep breath, walked to my mother's bed with the chicken soup and said: Mom, I know you are very angry and sad, but you are not in good health now, so you should take care of yourself. I stew some chicken soup for you. Can you drink some?
When my mother heard me, she sat up as if she was frightened. She looked at me incredibly, her face flushed, and her mouth opened a few times and said: How do you know?
I honestly saw the pill box and diagnosis in the trash can
After hearing what I said, my mother turned around and threw herself on the bed and started crying. She cried so sadly, and her whole body was trembling.
I couldn't help but burst into tears, put the chicken soup on the bedside table, and knelt on the ground and said: Mom, I'm sorry, it's all bad for me. I know I did something wrong, but I really didn't mean it, and I don't know what's going on. I don't ask you to forgive me, I just ask you to take good care of your health? I beg you
After hearing my crying, my mother suddenly got up from the bed, cried and threw herself on me, pounding me hard, and pulling my hair. It really hurts, but I didn't move, letting my mother vent her.
Mom cried while beating: Why is this Ah? What did we do? How can we be worthy of your father Ah? Why is this Ah...
In this way, my mother cried and beat me for almost 20 minutes before she stopped. She looked at my messy hair that was pulled by her and the two nail marks on her face. She was stunned for a moment, sobbed and returned to the bed, lying down with her back to me, and her body was still shaking constantly as she sobbed.
Half an hour later, my mother's sobs stopped. She sat up and looked at me who was still kneeling on the ground. She sighed and said: Xiaofan, get up, I know you can't blame you for this, and I blame my mother for not drinking so much wine. Things have happened, so let it pass slowly. I don't want to mention it anymore. If I vent, it's okay. Go and rest.
I knelt stubbornly and said: Mom, I'm sorry for you. Now you are weak and need to take good care of yourself. I don't ask you to forgive me. I just want to let me take good care of you during this period, okay?
My mother heard me say that her body was weak and her face turned red again. She stared at me for a while and didn't say anything. She got up and sat by the bed, picked up the bowl of chicken soup, drank it slowly, and then said: Go and rest. She lay on the bed with her back to me and covered her head with a quilt to sleep.
I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I stood up with the bowl and walked out.
Although my mother has not forgiven me or herself, she did vent some of the pain that has been around for so long when she hit me just now. Although she did not promise me to take care of her in person, after all, after drinking the chicken soup I made, I think it must have been acquiesced. There was also a stranger who had been 77 days, and my mother finally spoke to me.
My heavy mood has improved a little, but my scalp, face and body still hurts a lot.
Take good care of your mother, and letting her body recover as soon as possible is more important than anything else
Sunny at 20:31 Sunday, September 25, 2005
After these days, the nourishing chicken, pork ribs, pork trotters and millet porridge I stewed, my mother's face has improved, but I still rarely talk to her. However, my mother no longer asks her for leave and rest at home like I do. She is locked in the bedroom all day and will go to the balcony to breathe a few times. When facing me, she will occasionally look at me.
These have already satisfied me a lot. God bless you, I hope my mother can get better soon, and I hope we can all forget that thing as soon as possible. I want to go back to the past, even if I listen to my mother's nagging every day
Something happened today that scared me for a long time
On the morning of the 21st, I forced my mother not to go to work, and then called her unit and said that my mother was sick and wanted to rest at home and asked for two weeks off.
Today, the leadership team of their school came to visit
During this period, Principal Liu asked his mother what disease he had. His mother was stunned for a moment and did not answer. I hurriedly said that his mother had acute gastritis. The doctor said that his mother should rest more when she was weak.
Fortunately, they didn't ask more questions, just said some polite words
It's so dangerous, it's all my fault that I didn't expect it in advance, and I still lack social experience. I must pay attention to it in the future
But after I answered, I saw my mother look at me, her eyes less cold, and it seemed to be a bit approving. I'm also considered to be a meritorious person.
I have washed my clothes again today. I have washed my clothes twice these days and then I realized that washing clothes is not just a simple thing to throw them into the washing machine. It is still very hard. My wrists are rubbed red. When I encountered the washing powder, it hurt. I really didn't know how to understand my mother before, so I would change it in the future.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005 23:06
My mother's face was getting better and better. She got up this morning to clean the room, but she still had nothing to say to me. During lunch, I didn't bring the food into her bedroom, but placed it on the dining table. When I asked her to have dinner, she said she wasn't hungry. She waited until I finished eating by myself before she went to the restaurant to have dinner. It seemed that my mother still felt that she could not face me. I don't know when this kind of life would end.
In distress...
Saturday, October 1, 2005 at 23:11
It's holiday today, but I didn't sleep in like before. I got up very early, cleaned the room, and made breakfast
When I went to wash my mother's clothes, she didn't stop her like the previous times, but she still didn't see her underwear. I think my mother is still very taboo. Forget it, if I really asked me to wash it, I would really feel embarrassed.
My mother didn't continue to stay in the bedroom in the morning. She went to the living room to watch TV for the whole morning. When I poured her hot water, she caught it with her hand and said thank you, unlike before that I put it on the table.
At noon, my father called back and I answered it first. He said he wanted to accompany a leader of a ministry to go to Xinjiang to play, and he would not come after holidays. He asked his family whether it was okay, but I didn't know how to answer, so I could only say perfunctorily that nothing was wrong. Later, my father asked my mother to answer the phone, and my heart was in my throat. Fortunately, my mother didn't say anything, but I could hear that my mother's tone was a little unstable.
When my mother put down the phone and turned around and saw me nervously beside her, she didn't say anything, just sighed and left, and my palms were already covered in sweat.
It seems that my mother has decided to hide that matter. Should I be happy or sad?
Wednesday, October 5, 2005 21:23
The weather is good today. In the afternoon, I saw my mother change her clothes and was about to go out. I asked her what she was doing, and she said she would go out for some breath
I want to be with her, she said she wanted to walk alone, nothing would happen
But I still followed her out the door. She walked in front and I followed her three or four meters away from behind. She didn't say anything else.
I met an acquaintance on the way, and I saw my mother's long-lost smile, but I thought it was pretending. They exchanged a few simple greetings, and then my mother asked me to go together, so that others would think what was going on when they saw it.
We walked speechlessly. Every time I crossed the road, I would walk a few steps and wave my hand to block the car. My mother saw it, but she didn't say anything.
In the pharmacy, I saw my mother bought a few bottles of blood and qi-enhancing medicines. Oh, I was still careless. I only knew how to supplement her with nutrition but didn’t expect to buy some tonics. It’s so stupid!
In the future, you must take good care of your mother and make up for your mistakes
Sunny at 21:50 on Friday, October 7, 2005
I went out with my mother again in the afternoon. This time I didn't keep a distance from my mother, and she didn't say anything. I still blocked the car for her when crossing the road, and told her to be careful when going up the stairs.
When I passed by a vegetable market, I saw my mother go to a fish stall and ask the price. My mother used to love fish very much. I thought my mother wanted to eat fish. I said: Mom, you can't eat fish now. My mother was stunned, her face turned red and looked at me and left.
Later, my mother moved to the park and was sitting on the lawn on a small slope. I also sat next to me only one meter away.
Mom sat with her face in her eyes for a long time, not sure what she was thinking
Later, the wind blew, and I reminded her that it was windy, so I went home, but my mother ignored me and sat for another half an hour. My mother suddenly said: Let's go, go back. This is the first time my mother has spoken to me in such a long time. I was excited for a while, and my mother seemed to see my excitement, and her eyes seemed to be much softer, but she still said nothing
It was already 6 o'clock when I got home. I started making dinner, millet porridge, fried eggs with tomatoes, green vegetables and tofu that my mother likes. The braised pork ribs I bought at noon were hot and it didn't eat.
This time when I asked my mother to have dinner, my mother finally had dinner with me. I was so happy.
During the meal, my mother suddenly said: Don’t use your hands to pick scabies on your face, as they will leave scars. After hearing my mother’s words, my heart was so warm that I almost cried when my eyes were astringent.
Mom looked at me and said: OK, let’s have a loss to eat, it’s all over, don’t think about it, although mom still had no expression when talking, I was so moved and so happy
After dinner, my mother did not go back to the bedroom immediately, but sat in the living room watching TV. I washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen and dining room and returned to the bedroom. My mother called me, and I went opposite my mother. My mother said: Let's talk. I became nervous again and sat very reserved.
Mom said: I have been thinking for a long time. I can't tell who is wrong. If we want to say it wrong, we are all wrong. Now, it's useless to pursue anything. Since it has happened, let it go. After all, we are still a family and cannot always be suppressed by that matter. No one should mention that matter again in the future, let alone mention it to anyone else. Just treat it as a nightmare. Don't feel too guilty. The holiday will end tomorrow. You should work hard. You have taken too many leave during this period. Don't cause bad effects at work. I'm fine. Don't worry, but from now on, you won't be allowed to drink again.
After hearing what my mother said, I felt relieved and said: Mom, thank you for forgiveing me. I will definitely not tell anyone. I will not drink anymore. I will go to work well. But let me take care of you. After all, it’s not a month before, and your body is still weak. I must at least take responsibility for what I do. I want to continue talking.
When my mother heard me take responsibility, she blushed and said fiercely: What responsibility do you bear? Should you bear it?
I immediately realized that I had said the wrong thing and quickly explained it, but when I was nervous, I became even more incoherent. I said hesitantly: No...I don't mean that...I just said I want to share some homework for you...
Mom laughed at me when she saw me stuttering, but then she returned to her original state.
I actually saw my mother laughing, and my nervous mood suddenly relaxed. I continued: I only know how hard you worked in the past. My father was not at home and you did housework every day, so I didn't help you. I just want to share the burden for you in the future and not let you work so hard anymore.
Mom looked at me for a while and said: I have no objection to you being willing to do housework. You are so old and it’s time to exercise. But don’t think so much anymore. I’m already thinking about it. Go, go to bed early, go to work tomorrow.
I nodded and got up and went back to the bedroom. My mother went into the bathroom. I heard that she was taking a shower.
Is mom really happy?
Can we really go back to what we used to be?
Everything is still unknown!
Sunny at 21:50 on Saturday, October 8, 2005
Although today is Saturday, I still have to go to work because I have been on a 7-day National Day holiday. I will make up for it on this Saturday and Sunday.
My mother went to work without listening to my dissuasion in the morning. Although my mother has improved a lot, her face has become less pale and more bloody, I am still quite worried.
That disgusting Director Zhang called me to make a review as soon as he went to work, saying that I would ask for leave casually if I had something to do. In the future, I had to hand over the leave note to him to make a review.
This old bastard has always disliked me and never gave my uncle and dad a face. I'm so angry that I'm so angry
In the afternoon, my buddy called me to go out for a party in the evening, but I refused, so I went home early and stewed the chicken I bought yesterday. Although I was at work, I still have to ensure that my mother can drink a bowl of chicken soup or bone soup every night. In my opinion, there is nothing more important than to get my mother's body to recover as soon as possible.
When my mother was drinking the soup in the evening, she praised me and said that I didn't expect that I could stew the soup and cook, but it didn't taste very good
Haha, I was very happy to hear it
Hope everything gets better
Monday, October 17, 2005 at 22:36
Today my father came back and said he was coming back to get a project demonstration plan and wanted to report to the State Planning Commission. He only had supper at home and rushed to the provincial airport. My father seemed to be very nervous every time he came back.
My father's return really made me nervous for a while. Although my mother said she would never mention that matter to anyone, I was still worried about what my father could see. Fortunately, my father came in a hurry and left in a hurry, so I kept calm as much as possible. My mother seemed to start to feel a little nervous, everything was fine, very calm, and I thought that my father would come back as usual, cooking, asking, nagging, and being dissatisfied.
Today I finally saw my former mother, but she is to her father
Although we all said we wouldn't think about that anymore, it happened after all. We wouldn't be able to forget it so quickly. I think maybe we will never really forget it in our lifetime.
Although my mother and I already have something to say, she will do housework with me, but after all, she is not as close as before. Alas, when will I go back to the past state of my life with my mother?
Sunny on Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Today I went out for dinner with my buddies. I didn’t drink any alcohol. I promised my mother that I must do it. They kept urging me to drink, saying that I was not brother enough, and also said why I suddenly changed my sex life, how could I call you a man if I don’t drink.
These are really nothing to do with each other. They are all good brothers who have been together since childhood, but I just can't drink them. When it comes to the sky, I still have two words. Don't drink them.
Not only did I promised my mother, but I also swore that I would never drink any wine in the future
Give them a lot
I just came back, my mother watched TV in the living room. I watched me come back and observed me intentionally for a while, and must be watching whether I had drunk alcohol. In order to prove myself, I deliberately watched TV on the sofa next to her. My mother saw that I didn't drink, and didn't say anything. After watching TV for a while, she went back to the room.
Overall, my relationship with my mother has eased again. After this month of recuperation, my mother's body has recovered almost. At least her face is no longer pale. My heart has finally let go a lot, but I still go home to do housework every day. My mother no longer thinks that she used to avoid me, and she will do housework with me. But every time I wash clothes, I rush to wash them. After all, it's better not to let her stick to cold water for just one month.
My mother won't always be stuck in the house at night. Sometimes she watches TV with me, and sometimes she goes to the community square to dance and take a walk like before. But I follow her every time, she has never objected.
When eating the meals I cook, I will praise my progress in craftsmanship. When I see me washing clothes, I will care about letting me rest for a while before doing it. The smile on my face gradually increases.
So, today they called and said they were gathered together, but I didn't refuse. After all, they had already made an appointment with me many times. I used to shirk off every time. If I don't go, I really can't be a brother.
Wednesday, November 2, 2005 23:34
The weather suddenly became cold today. I was so cold when I went out to buy breakfast in the morning. When I was eating, I told my mother to wear more clothes. Some interesting things happened.
When I was having breakfast, I thought the weather was getting colder, so I looked up and said to my mother: Mom, today it is cold and I wear more clothes.
Just as I opened my mouth and said, "It's cold today, wear more clothes."
The two of them talked at the same time, and they mean the same thing, so we all laughed as soon as they said it.
Today, when I think of this scene, I want to laugh. It’s not that I think it’s ridiculous, but that I laugh from the bottom of my heart. While I care about my mother, my mother also began to recover from caring for me. I’m so happy!
Sunny at 22:50 Tuesday, December 20, 2005
The sky was very gloomy this morning, and it started to snow heavily at around 10 am. In the afternoon, the snow had not stopped. The snow on the ground was already enough. I thought that my mother didn't bring an umbrella when she went out in the morning, so she went home early and took the umbrella to pick her up at their school. On the way, she saw the small shop on the street that looked very beautiful, so she picked a pair of them for her to give to her.
When they arrived at my mother's school, they happened to be over, but my mother was still in a meeting. I waited at the door of her office for a long time, and it was so cold that I was so cold.
After the meeting, my mother came back with her colleagues. She saw me waiting for her at the door with a folded umbrella. When she saw my nose was red, she started nagging and saying that it was so cold and why would I run back and forth... Haha, I was annoyed when I heard my mother nagging, but now somehow, I don’t feel bored at all when I hear her nagging. She is better than ignoring me every day, and it’s like a stranger. I’m really fed up with that feeling.
Her colleague next to me helped me make up the scene and joked: Look at how sensible Xiaofan is, I am not happy to come to send you an umbrella to pick you up. If I had such a good son, I would be content.
After leaving the school gate with my mother, I gave her the gloves I bought. She took them and looked surprised.
I walked silently with my mother. I saw that my mother seemed to be thinking about something, and suddenly said: Xiaofan is really sensible, your father has never taken me before
The snow was thick and smooth all the way. There were several times when my mother almost fell, but I was really lying on the ground.
When I was about to get home, there was a slope. The children were skating on the sidewalk, which was not very wide. Everyone passing by was walking tremblingly. I subconsciously held my mother's arm. My mother was a little stunned and said nothing to let me help me walk slowly.
After getting off the ramp, my mother said: OK, it's okay, I can walk. As she said that, she slapped her body and put my mother's arm wisely
Alas, if it were before, my mother would like to support her. She had said before that when looking at other people's children, they always go out with their parents and their arms. Who is like you, never want to go out with us.
But now, it seems that that incident still has a shadow on my mother.
Indeed, how could it be that there is no?
But I am already very content. My mother and I have basically returned to the state we were before that. She no longer intentionally avoided me, started caring for me, nagging me, criticizing me, and starting to joke with me again.
The snow is very strong and beautiful!
On Saturday, January 28, 2006, 00:20
The New Year bell has just been ringing, and the party is over. My father and I set off a whip together, went back to our room, sorted out our thoughts, and recalled what happened this year
Everything was normal in the first half of the year, and there was nothing worth remembering about. The second half of the year was different. Two things made me unforgettable
One thing is that I was in love. Although it was not my first love, I really like her. She didn't even say why when she broke up, but the second thing happened before I was in pain, which also minimized the impact of the broken heart on me.
The second thing is that my mother and I actually did something unreasonable after drinking, and that time it actually made my mother pregnant. It was a fantasy to think about it, but it really happened to me.
I have been in panic and guilty for the past six months. Although my mother said she would forgive me and said that she had forgotten this, I knew very well that no one of us could forget it.
But maybe time can really dilute together. As time goes by, my relationship with my mother is slowly recovering from the freezing point.
And I feel that I have matured a lot because of this experience. I can already deeply understand my mother's hard work and difficulties over the years, and begin to understand her loneliness and loneliness over the years. I know how to understand her mother, help her, and take care of her mother.
I am no longer a bastard who only knows how to eat, drink and have fun with friends all day, go home with computers and TVs, I understand what responsibility is and what understanding is.
The new year is here, keep working hard, take good care of my mother, work well, let my mother and I go back to the past as soon as possible, and minimize the impact of that incident on me and my mother and I
come on!
Sunny at Lantern Festival on Sunday, February 12, 2006
Today is the annual Lantern Festival, and other people's families are reunited, but my dad makes my mother unhappy again
On the fourth day of the Spring Festival, my father left again, saying that he would go to the home of a related leader to pay New Year's greetings with us on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, but he called at noon and said that he would not come back and celebrate the Lantern Festival with us.
My mother had a fight with him on the phone and was unhappy
To be honest, my mother didn't do this before. Over the years, my father rarely went out all day and went home. Gradually, the officials became bigger and bigger, and I had less time to go home. But my mother rarely got angry, and at most she was nagging. But since that incident happened, I felt that my mother seemed to have changed. I really hoped that my father was at home. Every time my father broke his promise, my mother would be very angry, quarrel with her father, and cry
During dinner, I talked to my mother with nothing to say, wanting her to relax, but my mother didn't seem to appreciate it. She replied without saying a word, and then went back to the bedroom to rest after dinner.
well!
Seeing my mother's bored look, I was in a very depressed mood. This Lantern Festival was very unhappy.
Friday, February 24, 2006 21:05
This morning, my mother praised me for my improvement in craftsmanship during dinner, so I was in a good mood today, but when I got home at night, I saw my father at home as soon as I opened the door. My father and mother were sitting on the sofa. My father frowned, and my mother was crying. When I saw me back, my mother got up and went back to the bedroom.
My heart suddenly rose to my throat. Could it be that my father knew about that?
What should I do? Is it useful if I explain it on purpose?
I was stunned at the door with a drum in my heart
Dad looked at me and said: What's wrong with Xiaofan? Why don't you come in?
After hearing what my father asked, the stone in my heart fell to the ground. It seems that my father doesn’t know yet. Thank God, but why did my mother cry?
I thought to myself and said perfunctorily: Dad, when are you back?
Dad said: I got off the plane in the provincial capital last night, I just came back in the morning, and I also entered the bedroom after saying that. I sat in the living room and listened with my ears.
After a while, I heard my mother crying and saying, "Dad, no matter how many times I don't come back a year, I always leave in less than a day when I come back. I said that my father doesn't have her in his heart, so it's better to divorce." Later, my father closed the door and vaguely heard my mother crying. Some of the specific things I said were not clear, but then I heard my father say that he would definitely come back on their wedding anniversary next month.
After a while, my father came out of the room and went to the kitchen to cook. After that, he told me that he would arrive at the provincial capital in the evening and would fly back to Beijing tomorrow morning, so that I could be obedient at home and work well, and don’t always know how to play, help my mother do something, and then asked me briefly about my work situation.
Then he entered his mother's bedroom again. Mom seemed to stop crying. I heard from my father that he was really leaving, and the driver was waiting downstairs.
Mom ignored him, but when Dad left, mom didn't come out to send him off
After a while after my father left, I went to my mother's bedroom to ask her to have dinner. When my mother saw me coming in, she turned around and wiped her tears, tidied up her hair before she came out to have dinner.
During the meal, I advised my mother that my father was really busy with work. I heard at my unit that there were three projects in this county waiting for approval by the State Planning Commission, so I told my mother not to blame her father.
After hearing my words, my mother glared at me and said nothing. She ate some food and went back to the bedroom.
I didn't dare to say anything anymore, I came to write a diary after washing the dishes
Dad is the same. No matter how busy he is, he finally came back once, and at least he stayed at home for two days, making mom so sad, alas!
Wednesday, March 8, 2006 21:05
Today is Women's Day. In the afternoon, I, the big man who hates shopping the most, made an exception and walked around the street for an afternoon. It was incredible to think about it.
Actually, my purpose of shopping is very simple. I want to buy a gift for my mother because today is her holiday.
After repeated measurement and selection, I finally bought a gauze scarf for my mother. Because there is a lot of wind and sand here in spring, many women like to wear a silk scarf.
The pattern of the scarf is very simple, with black dots on the white bottom. I think my mother often wears more professional clothes. Such patterns must be generous rather than elegant.
When my mother came back in the evening, I had already prepared the meal. During the meal, I gave my mother the scarf. Although my mother didn't say anything when she received the gift, I could see that she was very happy. She held it in her hand and looked at it, touched it and said: My son is different when he grows up. It's much better than your father. I have never given me a gift in my life.
I asked my mother to check it out. My mother thought about it and tied a beautiful knot around her neck skillfully. It was really suitable. My mother also praised me for having a good attitude and my heart was filled with joy.
Mom is my greatest hope
Work hard!
Friday, March 31, 2006 23:17
The 25th is the wedding anniversary of my father and mother, but my father did not keep his promise. My mother was very depressed when she woke up in the morning. My father called back in the morning. My mother seemed very angry and kept making noise on the phone. She even said divorced. In the end, my mother said loudly: You'd better never come back and then throw the phone down.
I cooked the meal at noon and went to the bedroom to ask my mother for dinner, but my mother didn't open the door for me. I heard laughter crying in the room. I felt so distressed, and I couldn't help but blame my father for not keeping his promise and not knowing that I felt sorry for my mother.
I was in no mood to eat the food, and I was cooking in the living room and watching TV, waiting for my mother to get better. I didn't know that after I changed all the channels N times, my mother finally opened the door. I hurriedly started to advise my mother not to be angry. After all, my father was busy with work and asked her to have some food first, but my mother said she was fine and didn't have to worry about it, so she changed her shoes and wanted to go out. I quickly followed her out.
My mother soon arrived at the park where she sat in the last time. She was still on the lawn on the slope, and she was still in the same position. She sat still, thinking about it.
And I was still sitting with her one meter away
After a long time, my mother asked me: Xiaofan, if my father and I divorce, who would you go with? I was so surprised after hearing my mother's words, and I didn't know how to answer for a while.
Seeing that I didn't answer, my mother said: Humph, I knew that you and your dad were in the same group. You go, I don't need you to accompany you.
I thought about it and said: Mom, I don’t want you to divorce Dad, but no matter what, I will always stand with Mom. After listening to my words, my mother didn’t say anything. She stared at me for a while, then turned her head and was silent.
The weather here was still very cold in March. After sitting for so long, I felt my hands and feet become cold. Seeing that my mother was only wearing a half-large windbreaker, I advised her to go home, but my mother shook her head and refused. I couldn't say that I would give her the clothes to go home and asked her to wait for me, so I hurriedly ran home, but when I got the clothes back, my mother disappeared.
I searched all over the park but couldn't find her. It was already dark, so I had to go home and wait
My mother came back at 9 o'clock, and her lips were already blue with cold. I quickly served her a bowl of hot soup, but my mother didn't drink it, so she went to bed as soon as she returned to the bedroom door.
The next morning, my mother hadn't gotten up yet. I called her a few times and she didn't answer. I pushed open the door and called a few more times but my mother didn't respond. I felt something was wrong. When I approached, I saw that my mother was still asleep, but her face was very red. I touched his forehead with my hand and it was so hot. I started calling again. My mother opened her eyes hard and whispered to me. I quickly called 120.
When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor said that my mother suffered a cold, which caused a lung infection.
The fever-reducing injection, infusion, ice compress, it was not until the afternoon when my mother's high fever subsided, and my heart, which was hanging in my throat, slowly fell to the ground.
The day before yesterday and yesterday, I kept waiting by my mother's bed, bringing tea and water, rubbing her hands and face with a hot towel in the morning, and washing her feet at night. When I was eating, I always feed her spoonful by spoonful. At first, she was embarrassed to see other patients in the ward, but she couldn't resist me, so she had to let me take care of her carefully.
The patients and their families all told their mother that she had such a good son and were really lucky. At first, my mother was humble and perfunctory when she heard it. Later, when my mother talked about it, she did not refuse, but would look at me with a smile, making my face warm.
My mother is much better today. She went to the hospital yard for a while in the morning. In the afternoon, she said she was not used to the smell of the hospital and the noisy people coming and going in the ward. She strongly asked to be discharged from the hospital and come home to rest. I really had no choice but to agree.
In the evening, I prepared the meal in the kitchen. When I was about to put it on the dining table, I turned around and saw my mother leaning against the kitchen door and looking at me.
I was stunned with the food in my hands, my mother was stunned for a moment, her face turned slightly red, and she didn't say anything and walked over to take the food from me and put it on the table.
During the meal, my mother said: Xiaofan, thank you for taking care of me these few days. Mom is very moved. You are really grown up now. Mom is very happy. Mom is fine. You are also very tired these days. Don’t worry about me. Have breakfast and rest after a while. If you are tired and sick, your mother will really have no support.
After listening to my mother's words, my heart was warm. My mother actually regarded me as a supporter. She was so happy!
I said: Mom, I'm not tired. The most important thing now is to make your health better. Don't worry, I'm so young, this is not enough to tiring me. Dad is not here. He said that I'll take good care of you or Dad will deal with me when he comes back
I want to use this as relaxed as possible to resolve the gap between my mother and mother, but my mother doesn't seem to appreciate it at all. When I heard my father talk about it, my face darkened and said: Don't talk to him. I haven't known it after so many years? When did he have this home except for work, you, me, eat.
Seeing that the good atmosphere was disrupted by my words, I couldn't say anything else
Alas, I felt guilty about that incident a while ago and worried about my mother. Now I have finally gotten better, and I have to worry about my relationship with my father and mother. It's really a big deal.
Thursday, April 20, 2006 21:53
Dad left in the afternoon, this time Dad came back and stayed at home for 3 days
During these three days, I could see that my father was trying to please my mother as much as possible. When he came back, he bought a very beautiful top for his mother from Beijing and a set of brand-name cosmetics. He kept saying good things in front of his mother. He changed his style to cook for his mother every day, and I always reconciled it from time to time.
But my mother didn't seem to appreciate it. She was not as happy as when my father came back before. She just did her own thing silently. Even the tone of talking to her father seemed as plain as an ordinary friend. My father also saw the changes in her mother, but she had no choice but to say that she had told the county that she could stay at home more after she had to work back.
Today my father is leaving, but my mother did not show reluctance, nor was she as angry as before, and she didn't even have the nagging before.
Dad seemed to know what was wrong, but he just sighed and told me that I was too young to be obedient at home, help my mother more, and leave.
This time my father came back, my mother's changes surprised me a little. It was because my father didn't come back on the wedding anniversary and was not like he was angry with my father, because no matter how angry my mother and father were in the past, as long as my father teased and coaxed me, it would be fine soon.
But this time my mother couldn't see any angry look, nor did she look any happy
He was very enthusiastic when talking to me. When my father left in the afternoon, his mother cooked with me in the evening. He asked me to go out for her to dance.
Alas, what happened, what should I do?
Saturday, April 29, 2006 23:02
Today is Saturday. I helped my mother wash her clothes in the morning. After lunch, I hang my clothes on the balcony. My mother saw that there were water droplets on my hair. My mother wiped it with a towel and said with a heartache: Xiaofan has really grown up to be a baby. It’s much easier for my mother to have you.
I felt so warm after listening to my mother's words, but I still said: That's right, I'm already twenty-one, and my father always says he wants me to take good care of you every time he leaves.
But my mother said: He asked you to take care of me, so what did he do? I won’t talk about him anymore, I took a break and went out for a walk with me on the street. I was bored again, so I had to shut up
My mother seemed to be in a good mood today. She kept talking about this and that along the way. She was shopping next to each store, and she also bought 5 big bags of clothes, small decorations, daily necessities, cosmetics, etc., which made my legs hard, my soles of my feet hurt, and my hands were sore from the bag.
I said: Mom, let’s go straight to the target if we buy anything. Don’t go shopping in one store? My legs hurt
Mom laughed and said: Idiot, do you think women are shopping like you guys, just to buy things. We go shopping for enjoyment and relaxation. If you are tired, find a place to rest and wait for me. I will come back to find you later.
But how could I let my mother go alone? I had to continue walking with her. My mother saw me following me and said with a smile: This is almost the same, it can stand the test. If you really sit and wait, I will not care about others like your father. My son is much better than him. I will buy you a piece of clothing later and praise you.
Oh, I just asked me to rest and wait for her, it turned out to be a trap. Alas, my mother is hard to understand.
Later, my mother really spent more than 800 to buy me a T-shirt, and she even praised me for being stylish on the bed.
My mother and I didn't go home for dinner at night, so I ate a hot pot in the restaurant. Of course, it was my hot pot that my mother liked to eat. Looking at the way my mother said while eating, I was so happy. The impact of that incident on my mother has dropped to a very low point. My mother seems to have returned to her previous appearance. It seems that my efforts for more than half a year have not been in vain.
When I got home for dinner, I was quite far from home and said I was taking a taxi, but my mother insisted on taking a walk, and said that I have been gaining weight during this period and I have to exercise to reduce weight loss. I saw that my mother was very interested, so I had to follow her big bag and small bag.
Tired Ah!
Very tired, but happy, everything is getting better and better
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 at 21:17
After a week of hard work, I finally helped my friend get the matter done. Although he spent some money, the matter was finally resolved smoothly. However, I owe a lot of favors at the company. In order to thank me, my friend gave me two sets of full tickets for a scenic resort in a neighboring city. He said that it was tickets and all the entertainment items included, including accommodation and catering. He said that I asked my girlfriend to play. He didn't know that my girlfriend and I had already said goodbye.
Alas, I don’t know if it’s because of the guilt or justification?
hehe
I told my mother about this in the evening and asked her if she was interested in relaxing. She said she thought about it. After dinner, she said that the scenic spot was pretty good. If no one went with me, she could accompany me to see it.
After discussion, I decided to take one day off this Friday and take a bus back on Sunday afternoon.
Lao Gan is quite interesting. Although he is a friend of his friends and has few common opportunities to meet, I really care about his affairs this time. These two sets of tickets are not considered bribery, right?
hehe
Sunday, May 21, 2006 21:17 Light Rain
Things in the world are really changing with each other. I thought that as my relationship with my mother recovered, we could slowly get rid of that thing, but who knew that this time I went out, my relationship with my mother had undergone a qualitative change. This change surprised me and panic.
The day before yesterday, my mother and I went to the scenic resort as planned. I borrowed a car from my friend. Although I didn't drive much and the road was still a little nervous, as the car drove on the mountain road, the surrounding green mountains and waters were indeed refreshing. Along the way, my mother seemed very happy, and kept talking about the scenery along the way like a child, and handed me water from time to time and wiped my sweat.
My mood was influenced by my mother and the scenery and felt very relaxed and comfortable.
It was very smooth all the way, we arrived at the resort after more than three hours
The resort surrounded by mountains is very unique. It is full of strange carnations and woods. The places you live in are small wooden villas. The inside is clean and tidy, and the decoration is warm and elegant.
But there is a problem, because it is a package ticket, the resort only provides one room, and there are two 1.5 meters beds in the room. I remembered that something was not appropriate, and I wanted to ask the waiter to think about whether I could open another one. Even if I added more money, my mother didn't seem to care. She said that she couldn't live there for free and wasted money. She insisted on not checking in again. There was no way, so I had to live with my mother.
After lunch, we started to play in the scenic area. The scenery was really good. The bamboo forest was green, the waterfall was majestic, and the gurgling stream was clear and clear. All of this made my mother extremely excited. It was like returning to her youth. She took off her shoes and caught fish in the stream. She bought a local water gun made of bamboo and made water fight with me.
When my timid mother used to play rafting, she was not afraid. She shouted excitedly when she rushed down from a high place. The picturesque scenery and relaxed and happy atmosphere made my mother and I completely forget all our worries and had a great time playing.
Of course, every time my mother takes a shower and changes clothes at night, I consciously go out early to avoid my mother from misunderstanding or thinking about that, so everything is fine
Yesterday afternoon, my mother and I went to climb the highest mountain in the scenic area. The weather was already a little hot in May. When we were about to reach the top of the mountain, my mother's physical strength was obviously a bit exhausted. I advised my mother to go back, but my mother said that how could that work? I finally climbed more than half of it and couldn't give up halfway.
We drank some water, rested for a while and prepared to continue climbing, but I walked a few steps and saw that my mother had not yet gotten up. I was about to ask her but heard her speak first: Xiaofan, my mother is almost exhausted and can't even stand up, so you won't pull her mother for a moment.
The resentful tone made me stunned, but my mother stared at me and stretched out her hand. I had to walk back and reach out to pull my mother's hand and pull her up. Seeing that my mother got up, I wanted to let go, but my mother didn't seem to want to let go, and she didn't look at me. She held my hand and walked upwards.
I had to continue to pull her up. There were very few people on the mountain road, and the mountains were very quiet. There were only a few birds singing and occasional rustling sounds of wind blowing through the woods and bamboo forests. My mother and I didn't say anything, holding hands and burying our heads towards the top of the mountain
When I reached the top of the mountain, I don’t know if it was hot or tired, my mother and I were already sweating.
My mother's slender fingers and delicate skin made my heart pound. I felt something was wrong. I quickly let go of my mother's hand and sat under a tree and kept drinking water. My mother looked at me silently for a while, and found a stone to sit down. Her eyes looked at the foot of the mountain and became stunned.
There was a little cool breeze on the top of the mountain, and I remembered what happened just now and the feeling of holding my mother's hand, and sweat was still coming out on my head.
My mother and I sat under the tree and the other on the stone. No one spoke. After a while, more than a dozen people on the top of the mountain went down the mountain one after another, leaving only me and my mother. My mother walked to the observation deck on the top of the mountain and held the guardrail and watched for a while, and told me to go over as well.
Mom said: Have you seen the Titanic?
After seeing Ah, what's wrong?
Do you still remember the classic posture of the male and female protagonists on the bow of the boat? I always thought that one day I could stand on the bow of the boat and learn, but unfortunately I didn’t have the opportunity to take the boat. Do you think this place looks like the bow of the boat? It’s all about bamboo seas below, how beautiful Ah, can you help your mother fulfill this wish? As I said that, I felt that my mother’s face was a little red and looked at me, then stood by the guardrail and stretched out her arms
After hearing my mother's words, my heart began to pound again. I was thinking about my mother's words. What does mother mean?
Did you just ask me to help her fulfill her wish to imitate the movie?
Just as I was thinking nervously, my mother turned her head and said: What's wrong, Xiaofan, don't you want to help me?
I quickly calmed down and said: No Ah
Then come Ah, stand behind me and hold my waist
I remember that I was very nervous at that time, and my hands were trembling a little, but I finally held my mother's waist. The soft feeling made me almost impulsive, but I didn't dare to think too much, and the sweat on my head kept flowing down.
Mom stood for a while and said: Close your eyes and listen to the sound of the wind in your ears
I subconsciously pressed my mother's words and closed my eyes, but I only felt the heat from my mother's body coming from my hands. I couldn't hear any wind, which made my hands tremble even more violently
Just as I tried my best to suppress my feelings, my mother said again: How beautiful, if there is a camera to take it down now, it can be saved forever. I really want to be like this forever
My mother's words made my mind feel like a flash of lightning. What does my mother's words mean? This is definitely not a simple sigh caused by the beautiful scenery. The meaning of this words...
Just as I was thinking in panic, my mother turned her head and looked at me, smiled and said: What are you thinking, little fool, let's go down the mountain
I quickly regained my senses, forced a smile and said Ah, let go of the hand holding my mother's waist. My mother smiled and said nothing, and walked down the mountain. I quickly chased and followed her and followed her
My mother's name is Su Hui. She is 45 years old. She was 40 years old at that time. She has been working on the education front for 28 years and is now the executive vice principal of the middle school.
In the eyes of most men, mother is not the kind of beauty that makes people shine, but she is very delicate and attractive, and is the kind that becomes more and more delicious as she opens. And as far as I know, mother is an intellectual and graceful woman in the eyes of many men.
My mother is very ordinary 161cm tall, her weight is now 110 kilograms, and her breasts are not proud 81
2cm, slightly sagging, but the feel is good, and there is no obvious outward expansion, so the cleavage is still very obvious; the waist circumference is 56cm, and the hip circumference is very good 88
6cm, not distorted, very strong, very round and smooth
I feel that the most beautiful thing about my mother's body is that her skin is white but not covered, very smooth and delicate. Although she is 45 years old, she is still very moisturizing and elastic.
My name is Jia Yunfan, this year I am 25 years old, that year I was 20 years old.
Although my mother is a teacher, she is very strict with me since childhood and I am very obedient, but maybe I have low IQ and my academic performance has never been very good. After graduating from junior high school, I had enough of my intense study life. After a strong confrontation with my mother, I did not go to high school, but entered the secondary school entrance examination.
I graduated from a technical secondary school at the age of 18. Fortunately, I was helped by my uncle, who was then the deputy secretary of the county party committee, so I joined a good public institution to work.
Of course, my father is also there in my family. He is a good man. At least in terms of career, I still regard him as an idol and a target now.
My father has a strong love for work. My father was the first to be in the project office in our county. When he heard the name, he knew that the county went out to find a relationship and projects. He traveled all over the country all day long. Later, he was promoted to the director of the county's provincial office. The year before yesterday, he was even sent to Beijing as the director of the Beijing office.
It is precisely because he is busy working outside all year round that he fulfills my love and my mother.
Mom is a very graceful woman. She has never been as unrestrained as described in the novel. Even if we have been in a relationship for 5 years now, she is very enthusiastic when we face each other naked. Even if our sex is harmonious now, she will not be too unrestrained, nor will she be like the mothers in the novel. Yes, Ah Ah, full of lewd voices, because no matter what, she always has an identity as a mother.
Of course, as my relationship with my mother deepened, my mother was encouraged by me and was willing to try some fresh and fresh tricks that I like, such as: stockings, blowjobs, in the car, in the wild, and watch the forum with me with me.
According to my experience with my mother, once a woman has had you once and you enter her heart, she will be very accommodating to you and will be willing to give for you. The same is true for mothers.
My mother’s love is different from what is described in the novel and novel. It is not so beautiful and romantic. I feel that my mother’s love is very plain. In addition to being a little restrained and worried at the beginning, it is like a normal couple slowly getting along and developing feelings.
Nowadays, as long as my father is not at home, my mother and I live a life like a couple, with warm snuggles, sweet flirting, quarrels over trivial matters, and a cold war. Of course, passionate exercise in bed is indispensable.
If you also want to fall in love with your mother, please don’t rush to seek your own satisfaction and force your mother to do something that she doesn’t adapt to. What you need to do is take your time and guide her slowly and tactfully instead of forcing her, otherwise I think it will be a kind of harm to your mother.
To be honest, before my mother and I had the first intimate contact due to an accident, I never thought about incest at all, and it was even more unlikely that my mother would have such an idea. Although I had already kept a lot of diaries at that time, they were all daily thoughts.
What really started to record our story was written on the eighth day of our first intimate contact, and I slowly recovered from fear.
So how did my mother and I start, because there is no record, and I want to keep the original diary as much as possible, so I don’t want to rewrite it anymore.
Let me briefly introduce it to you
I remember it very clearly that it was July 5, 2004. My mother got what she wanted. She should have been her position as executive vice president. This made her very happy and excited. She didn't even find that her son was in a low mood because I broke up the day before.
That night she and her colleagues were already drunk when they came back from celebrating, but I was drinking alone. Maybe she was really drunk. Seeing that I was drinking, she didn't nag me, but continued to talk happily about how her colleagues congratulated her. Unconsciously, she became more and more excited and started pouring wine. We started drinking together. In the end, everything was so dark that now that she and I couldn't remember how they got on the bed.
The next day I woke up in a scream
When I opened my eyes, I only saw my mother running out of the bedroom with a towel naked. When I realized what happened, my mind was blank.
I sat blankly on the bed for a long time before I got up, found my clothes in the living room and hurriedly escaped from the house.
Later I found out that day that my mother hid in the bathroom with a towel in her arms and cried for a day.
After that, we had a speechless life of 74 days. Even though we were at home, we would not look at each other, let alone talk. We were consciously avoiding each other as much as possible. The atmosphere at home was only depressing and embarrassing.
This is my first time with my mother. Now I have always felt very sorry, but I can't remember what our first time was like.
As for how my mother and I got together, the process is very complicated. I don’t want to write it deliberately, so I will publish the diary. However, because of the reasons mentioned above, it is incoherent. Please forgive me!
From tomorrow, I will slowly publish the diaries that can be published one after another (updated every two to three days). The diaries are long and short, some are two or three pages, and some are only a few sentences. If they are long, I will publish only one article at a time. If they are short, I will publish two or three articles.
Monday, September 19, 2005 at 23:33
Another thing happened today, Ah, what should I do?
how so?
No wonder my mother asked for leave a few days ago and rested at home for three days. No wonder my mother's face looked even more ugly these days. She didn't wash clothes very much, and she didn't even cook much. No wonder I saw her crying in the bedroom the night before yesterday.
Last night, I continued to have insomnia and had a severe headache in the morning. So I called the unit to ask for sick leave. Director Zhang said strange things again, saying that I always asked for leave for a while. How could he know my pain, Ah, an old bastard.
Get up at around 10 o'clock, and my mother had already gone to work. I took out a piece of bread left from the refrigerator to eat, and threw the plastic bag into the trash can. I subconsciously glanced at the trash can. It was this time that I saw something, I knew it because I bought a box of abortion pills for my ex-girlfriend.
My heart suddenly rose to my throat. I stretched out my trembling hand and picked it up. I wanted to confirm that, yes, this mifepristone tablet. The aluminum-plastic board in the box was empty. In addition to the instructions, there were also pieces of paper. The hospital's diagnosis: 2 months of pregnancy
My mind was spinning rapidly in extreme fear: Dad hasn't come back for 4 months, it can't be Dad's or other man's?
Impossible, I know my mom's character
Two months, that day was July, day Ah, is it mine?
I felt my lips tremble and sat on the ground weakly
I'm really scared and don't know what to do?
God was just teasing me. That time, it was after drinking, and I don’t know how it happened, so I let my mother have it.
I don't know how long I sat on the ground before I returned to my room tumblingly, lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling with my eyes open. My mind was blank for a while, and I was in a mess again. I don't know what to think about
My mother still didn't come back at noon. I knew she was avoiding me and didn't want to face me
In the afternoon, I slowly walked out of panic and began to think about what to do. There were two voices fighting in my mind. One was to continue to act deaf and dumb, pretending that I didn't know anything, and to escape everything that happened; the other was to be brave, face the mistakes I made, and take good care of my mother.
After my mother came back in the afternoon, I secretly looked at her. Her face was still ugly. Although I had never experienced it, I know that we call abortions from women as small confinement periods, which is very harmful to the body. Generally, we have to rest for 2 weeks after abortion. We cannot stick to cold water, we cannot work hard, and we should supplement our nutrition.
Looking at my mother's tired look and pale face, I feel so guilty and feel so distressed
But it's already past 11 o'clock in the evening, and I still can't make up my mind
Am I very cowardly, I have no opinion at all
What should I do?
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 22:54
Compared to yesterday, my mind has become much clearer, and my heart is no longer as blocked as a stone.
Because I finally took a step today, and finally faced myself bravely, faced my mother, and faced the thing that shouldn't have happened.
I still had insomnia last night, and there were two problems in my mind. One was to continue to escape, but to face it bravely
I didn't look at the watch and didn't know what time it was. I made up my mind and fell asleep unconsciously
In the morning, I didn't call the unit and still didn't go to work. After my mother went to work, I turned on the computer and searched the Internet for precautions after abortion and nutritional methods. I began to think about how to take good care of my mother.
I'll clean the house first
It seems that my mother is really weak because she used to be a very neat person, but she has basically not tidy up her home in the past two weeks.
After cleaning the room, I went out to purchase: casserole, eggs, stupid chicken (domestic chicken), wolfberry, red dates, brown sugar, warm water bag, etc. When I got home at noon, I ate instant noodles in a hurry and started stewing chicken soup according to the nutritional recipes online.
Whole chicken, wolfberry, red dates, star anise, pepper, ginger, and cooking wine together, boil it on a high heat, then turn to a low heat and simmer it for 4 hours. I smelled the fragrant smell and the bright red wolfberry and red dates floating on the oily chicken soup, and my heart was warm.
I was still very uneasy in the afternoon because I didn’t know if my mother could forgive me and accept my care. What should I do if she didn’t accept me?
But it has happened and I have to bite the bullet
My mother arrived at home at almost 7 o'clock in the evening, but after she came back, she still returned to the bedroom immediately and kept her door open.
I heated the chicken soup and put it in a bowl, and I suppressed my anxiety and knocked on my mother's door, but my mother didn't respond at all.
I didn't know whether to enter or go, but hesitated for a moment. I tried the door lock and it was not locked. I gritted my teeth and opened the door and walked in
My mother lying on the bed might not have thought that I would open the door and come in without her response. She looked up at me, then turned over and lie down with her back to me.
I took a deep breath, walked to my mother's bed with the chicken soup and said: Mom, I know you are very angry and sad, but you are not in good health now, so you should take care of yourself. I stew some chicken soup for you. Can you drink some?
When my mother heard me, she sat up as if she was frightened. She looked at me incredibly, her face flushed, and her mouth opened a few times and said: How do you know?
I honestly saw the pill box and diagnosis in the trash can
After hearing what I said, my mother turned around and threw herself on the bed and started crying. She cried so sadly, and her whole body was trembling.
I couldn't help but burst into tears, put the chicken soup on the bedside table, and knelt on the ground and said: Mom, I'm sorry, it's all bad for me. I know I did something wrong, but I really didn't mean it, and I don't know what's going on. I don't ask you to forgive me, I just ask you to take good care of your health? I beg you
After hearing my crying, my mother suddenly got up from the bed, cried and threw herself on me, pounding me hard, and pulling my hair. It really hurts, but I didn't move, letting my mother vent her.
Mom cried while beating: Why is this Ah? What did we do? How can we be worthy of your father Ah? Why is this Ah...
In this way, my mother cried and beat me for almost 20 minutes before she stopped. She looked at my messy hair that was pulled by her and the two nail marks on her face. She was stunned for a moment, sobbed and returned to the bed, lying down with her back to me, and her body was still shaking constantly as she sobbed.
Half an hour later, my mother's sobs stopped. She sat up and looked at me who was still kneeling on the ground. She sighed and said: Xiaofan, get up, I know you can't blame you for this, and I blame my mother for not drinking so much wine. Things have happened, so let it pass slowly. I don't want to mention it anymore. If I vent, it's okay. Go and rest.
I knelt stubbornly and said: Mom, I'm sorry for you. Now you are weak and need to take good care of yourself. I don't ask you to forgive me. I just want to let me take good care of you during this period, okay?
My mother heard me say that her body was weak and her face turned red again. She stared at me for a while and didn't say anything. She got up and sat by the bed, picked up the bowl of chicken soup, drank it slowly, and then said: Go and rest. She lay on the bed with her back to me and covered her head with a quilt to sleep.
I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I stood up with the bowl and walked out.
Although my mother has not forgiven me or herself, she did vent some of the pain that has been around for so long when she hit me just now. Although she did not promise me to take care of her in person, after all, after drinking the chicken soup I made, I think it must have been acquiesced. There was also a stranger who had been 77 days, and my mother finally spoke to me.
My heavy mood has improved a little, but my scalp, face and body still hurts a lot.
Take good care of your mother, and letting her body recover as soon as possible is more important than anything else
Sunny at 20:31 Sunday, September 25, 2005
After these days, the nourishing chicken, pork ribs, pork trotters and millet porridge I stewed, my mother's face has improved, but I still rarely talk to her. However, my mother no longer asks her for leave and rest at home like I do. She is locked in the bedroom all day and will go to the balcony to breathe a few times. When facing me, she will occasionally look at me.
These have already satisfied me a lot. God bless you, I hope my mother can get better soon, and I hope we can all forget that thing as soon as possible. I want to go back to the past, even if I listen to my mother's nagging every day
Something happened today that scared me for a long time
On the morning of the 21st, I forced my mother not to go to work, and then called her unit and said that my mother was sick and wanted to rest at home and asked for two weeks off.
Today, the leadership team of their school came to visit
During this period, Principal Liu asked his mother what disease he had. His mother was stunned for a moment and did not answer. I hurriedly said that his mother had acute gastritis. The doctor said that his mother should rest more when she was weak.
Fortunately, they didn't ask more questions, just said some polite words
It's so dangerous, it's all my fault that I didn't expect it in advance, and I still lack social experience. I must pay attention to it in the future
But after I answered, I saw my mother look at me, her eyes less cold, and it seemed to be a bit approving. I'm also considered to be a meritorious person.
I have washed my clothes again today. I have washed my clothes twice these days and then I realized that washing clothes is not just a simple thing to throw them into the washing machine. It is still very hard. My wrists are rubbed red. When I encountered the washing powder, it hurt. I really didn't know how to understand my mother before, so I would change it in the future.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005 23:06
My mother's face was getting better and better. She got up this morning to clean the room, but she still had nothing to say to me. During lunch, I didn't bring the food into her bedroom, but placed it on the dining table. When I asked her to have dinner, she said she wasn't hungry. She waited until I finished eating by myself before she went to the restaurant to have dinner. It seemed that my mother still felt that she could not face me. I don't know when this kind of life would end.
In distress...
Saturday, October 1, 2005 at 23:11
It's holiday today, but I didn't sleep in like before. I got up very early, cleaned the room, and made breakfast
When I went to wash my mother's clothes, she didn't stop her like the previous times, but she still didn't see her underwear. I think my mother is still very taboo. Forget it, if I really asked me to wash it, I would really feel embarrassed.
My mother didn't continue to stay in the bedroom in the morning. She went to the living room to watch TV for the whole morning. When I poured her hot water, she caught it with her hand and said thank you, unlike before that I put it on the table.
At noon, my father called back and I answered it first. He said he wanted to accompany a leader of a ministry to go to Xinjiang to play, and he would not come after holidays. He asked his family whether it was okay, but I didn't know how to answer, so I could only say perfunctorily that nothing was wrong. Later, my father asked my mother to answer the phone, and my heart was in my throat. Fortunately, my mother didn't say anything, but I could hear that my mother's tone was a little unstable.
When my mother put down the phone and turned around and saw me nervously beside her, she didn't say anything, just sighed and left, and my palms were already covered in sweat.
It seems that my mother has decided to hide that matter. Should I be happy or sad?
Wednesday, October 5, 2005 21:23
The weather is good today. In the afternoon, I saw my mother change her clothes and was about to go out. I asked her what she was doing, and she said she would go out for some breath
I want to be with her, she said she wanted to walk alone, nothing would happen
But I still followed her out the door. She walked in front and I followed her three or four meters away from behind. She didn't say anything else.
I met an acquaintance on the way, and I saw my mother's long-lost smile, but I thought it was pretending. They exchanged a few simple greetings, and then my mother asked me to go together, so that others would think what was going on when they saw it.
We walked speechlessly. Every time I crossed the road, I would walk a few steps and wave my hand to block the car. My mother saw it, but she didn't say anything.
In the pharmacy, I saw my mother bought a few bottles of blood and qi-enhancing medicines. Oh, I was still careless. I only knew how to supplement her with nutrition but didn’t expect to buy some tonics. It’s so stupid!
In the future, you must take good care of your mother and make up for your mistakes
Sunny at 21:50 on Friday, October 7, 2005
I went out with my mother again in the afternoon. This time I didn't keep a distance from my mother, and she didn't say anything. I still blocked the car for her when crossing the road, and told her to be careful when going up the stairs.
When I passed by a vegetable market, I saw my mother go to a fish stall and ask the price. My mother used to love fish very much. I thought my mother wanted to eat fish. I said: Mom, you can't eat fish now. My mother was stunned, her face turned red and looked at me and left.
Later, my mother moved to the park and was sitting on the lawn on a small slope. I also sat next to me only one meter away.
Mom sat with her face in her eyes for a long time, not sure what she was thinking
Later, the wind blew, and I reminded her that it was windy, so I went home, but my mother ignored me and sat for another half an hour. My mother suddenly said: Let's go, go back. This is the first time my mother has spoken to me in such a long time. I was excited for a while, and my mother seemed to see my excitement, and her eyes seemed to be much softer, but she still said nothing
It was already 6 o'clock when I got home. I started making dinner, millet porridge, fried eggs with tomatoes, green vegetables and tofu that my mother likes. The braised pork ribs I bought at noon were hot and it didn't eat.
This time when I asked my mother to have dinner, my mother finally had dinner with me. I was so happy.
During the meal, my mother suddenly said: Don’t use your hands to pick scabies on your face, as they will leave scars. After hearing my mother’s words, my heart was so warm that I almost cried when my eyes were astringent.
Mom looked at me and said: OK, let’s have a loss to eat, it’s all over, don’t think about it, although mom still had no expression when talking, I was so moved and so happy
After dinner, my mother did not go back to the bedroom immediately, but sat in the living room watching TV. I washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen and dining room and returned to the bedroom. My mother called me, and I went opposite my mother. My mother said: Let's talk. I became nervous again and sat very reserved.
Mom said: I have been thinking for a long time. I can't tell who is wrong. If we want to say it wrong, we are all wrong. Now, it's useless to pursue anything. Since it has happened, let it go. After all, we are still a family and cannot always be suppressed by that matter. No one should mention that matter again in the future, let alone mention it to anyone else. Just treat it as a nightmare. Don't feel too guilty. The holiday will end tomorrow. You should work hard. You have taken too many leave during this period. Don't cause bad effects at work. I'm fine. Don't worry, but from now on, you won't be allowed to drink again.
After hearing what my mother said, I felt relieved and said: Mom, thank you for forgiveing me. I will definitely not tell anyone. I will not drink anymore. I will go to work well. But let me take care of you. After all, it’s not a month before, and your body is still weak. I must at least take responsibility for what I do. I want to continue talking.
When my mother heard me take responsibility, she blushed and said fiercely: What responsibility do you bear? Should you bear it?
I immediately realized that I had said the wrong thing and quickly explained it, but when I was nervous, I became even more incoherent. I said hesitantly: No...I don't mean that...I just said I want to share some homework for you...
Mom laughed at me when she saw me stuttering, but then she returned to her original state.
I actually saw my mother laughing, and my nervous mood suddenly relaxed. I continued: I only know how hard you worked in the past. My father was not at home and you did housework every day, so I didn't help you. I just want to share the burden for you in the future and not let you work so hard anymore.
Mom looked at me for a while and said: I have no objection to you being willing to do housework. You are so old and it’s time to exercise. But don’t think so much anymore. I’m already thinking about it. Go, go to bed early, go to work tomorrow.
I nodded and got up and went back to the bedroom. My mother went into the bathroom. I heard that she was taking a shower.
Is mom really happy?
Can we really go back to what we used to be?
Everything is still unknown!
Sunny at 21:50 on Saturday, October 8, 2005
Although today is Saturday, I still have to go to work because I have been on a 7-day National Day holiday. I will make up for it on this Saturday and Sunday.
My mother went to work without listening to my dissuasion in the morning. Although my mother has improved a lot, her face has become less pale and more bloody, I am still quite worried.
That disgusting Director Zhang called me to make a review as soon as he went to work, saying that I would ask for leave casually if I had something to do. In the future, I had to hand over the leave note to him to make a review.
This old bastard has always disliked me and never gave my uncle and dad a face. I'm so angry that I'm so angry
In the afternoon, my buddy called me to go out for a party in the evening, but I refused, so I went home early and stewed the chicken I bought yesterday. Although I was at work, I still have to ensure that my mother can drink a bowl of chicken soup or bone soup every night. In my opinion, there is nothing more important than to get my mother's body to recover as soon as possible.
When my mother was drinking the soup in the evening, she praised me and said that I didn't expect that I could stew the soup and cook, but it didn't taste very good
Haha, I was very happy to hear it
Hope everything gets better
Monday, October 17, 2005 at 22:36
Today my father came back and said he was coming back to get a project demonstration plan and wanted to report to the State Planning Commission. He only had supper at home and rushed to the provincial airport. My father seemed to be very nervous every time he came back.
My father's return really made me nervous for a while. Although my mother said she would never mention that matter to anyone, I was still worried about what my father could see. Fortunately, my father came in a hurry and left in a hurry, so I kept calm as much as possible. My mother seemed to start to feel a little nervous, everything was fine, very calm, and I thought that my father would come back as usual, cooking, asking, nagging, and being dissatisfied.
Today I finally saw my former mother, but she is to her father
Although we all said we wouldn't think about that anymore, it happened after all. We wouldn't be able to forget it so quickly. I think maybe we will never really forget it in our lifetime.
Although my mother and I already have something to say, she will do housework with me, but after all, she is not as close as before. Alas, when will I go back to the past state of my life with my mother?
Sunny on Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Today I went out for dinner with my buddies. I didn’t drink any alcohol. I promised my mother that I must do it. They kept urging me to drink, saying that I was not brother enough, and also said why I suddenly changed my sex life, how could I call you a man if I don’t drink.
These are really nothing to do with each other. They are all good brothers who have been together since childhood, but I just can't drink them. When it comes to the sky, I still have two words. Don't drink them.
Not only did I promised my mother, but I also swore that I would never drink any wine in the future
Give them a lot
I just came back, my mother watched TV in the living room. I watched me come back and observed me intentionally for a while, and must be watching whether I had drunk alcohol. In order to prove myself, I deliberately watched TV on the sofa next to her. My mother saw that I didn't drink, and didn't say anything. After watching TV for a while, she went back to the room.
Overall, my relationship with my mother has eased again. After this month of recuperation, my mother's body has recovered almost. At least her face is no longer pale. My heart has finally let go a lot, but I still go home to do housework every day. My mother no longer thinks that she used to avoid me, and she will do housework with me. But every time I wash clothes, I rush to wash them. After all, it's better not to let her stick to cold water for just one month.
My mother won't always be stuck in the house at night. Sometimes she watches TV with me, and sometimes she goes to the community square to dance and take a walk like before. But I follow her every time, she has never objected.
When eating the meals I cook, I will praise my progress in craftsmanship. When I see me washing clothes, I will care about letting me rest for a while before doing it. The smile on my face gradually increases.
So, today they called and said they were gathered together, but I didn't refuse. After all, they had already made an appointment with me many times. I used to shirk off every time. If I don't go, I really can't be a brother.
Wednesday, November 2, 2005 23:34
The weather suddenly became cold today. I was so cold when I went out to buy breakfast in the morning. When I was eating, I told my mother to wear more clothes. Some interesting things happened.
When I was having breakfast, I thought the weather was getting colder, so I looked up and said to my mother: Mom, today it is cold and I wear more clothes.
Just as I opened my mouth and said, "It's cold today, wear more clothes."
The two of them talked at the same time, and they mean the same thing, so we all laughed as soon as they said it.
Today, when I think of this scene, I want to laugh. It’s not that I think it’s ridiculous, but that I laugh from the bottom of my heart. While I care about my mother, my mother also began to recover from caring for me. I’m so happy!
Sunny at 22:50 Tuesday, December 20, 2005
The sky was very gloomy this morning, and it started to snow heavily at around 10 am. In the afternoon, the snow had not stopped. The snow on the ground was already enough. I thought that my mother didn't bring an umbrella when she went out in the morning, so she went home early and took the umbrella to pick her up at their school. On the way, she saw the small shop on the street that looked very beautiful, so she picked a pair of them for her to give to her.
When they arrived at my mother's school, they happened to be over, but my mother was still in a meeting. I waited at the door of her office for a long time, and it was so cold that I was so cold.
After the meeting, my mother came back with her colleagues. She saw me waiting for her at the door with a folded umbrella. When she saw my nose was red, she started nagging and saying that it was so cold and why would I run back and forth... Haha, I was annoyed when I heard my mother nagging, but now somehow, I don’t feel bored at all when I hear her nagging. She is better than ignoring me every day, and it’s like a stranger. I’m really fed up with that feeling.
Her colleague next to me helped me make up the scene and joked: Look at how sensible Xiaofan is, I am not happy to come to send you an umbrella to pick you up. If I had such a good son, I would be content.
After leaving the school gate with my mother, I gave her the gloves I bought. She took them and looked surprised.
I walked silently with my mother. I saw that my mother seemed to be thinking about something, and suddenly said: Xiaofan is really sensible, your father has never taken me before
The snow was thick and smooth all the way. There were several times when my mother almost fell, but I was really lying on the ground.
When I was about to get home, there was a slope. The children were skating on the sidewalk, which was not very wide. Everyone passing by was walking tremblingly. I subconsciously held my mother's arm. My mother was a little stunned and said nothing to let me help me walk slowly.
After getting off the ramp, my mother said: OK, it's okay, I can walk. As she said that, she slapped her body and put my mother's arm wisely
Alas, if it were before, my mother would like to support her. She had said before that when looking at other people's children, they always go out with their parents and their arms. Who is like you, never want to go out with us.
But now, it seems that that incident still has a shadow on my mother.
Indeed, how could it be that there is no?
But I am already very content. My mother and I have basically returned to the state we were before that. She no longer intentionally avoided me, started caring for me, nagging me, criticizing me, and starting to joke with me again.
The snow is very strong and beautiful!
On Saturday, January 28, 2006, 00:20
The New Year bell has just been ringing, and the party is over. My father and I set off a whip together, went back to our room, sorted out our thoughts, and recalled what happened this year
Everything was normal in the first half of the year, and there was nothing worth remembering about. The second half of the year was different. Two things made me unforgettable
One thing is that I was in love. Although it was not my first love, I really like her. She didn't even say why when she broke up, but the second thing happened before I was in pain, which also minimized the impact of the broken heart on me.
The second thing is that my mother and I actually did something unreasonable after drinking, and that time it actually made my mother pregnant. It was a fantasy to think about it, but it really happened to me.
I have been in panic and guilty for the past six months. Although my mother said she would forgive me and said that she had forgotten this, I knew very well that no one of us could forget it.
But maybe time can really dilute together. As time goes by, my relationship with my mother is slowly recovering from the freezing point.
And I feel that I have matured a lot because of this experience. I can already deeply understand my mother's hard work and difficulties over the years, and begin to understand her loneliness and loneliness over the years. I know how to understand her mother, help her, and take care of her mother.
I am no longer a bastard who only knows how to eat, drink and have fun with friends all day, go home with computers and TVs, I understand what responsibility is and what understanding is.
The new year is here, keep working hard, take good care of my mother, work well, let my mother and I go back to the past as soon as possible, and minimize the impact of that incident on me and my mother and I
come on!
Sunny at Lantern Festival on Sunday, February 12, 2006
Today is the annual Lantern Festival, and other people's families are reunited, but my dad makes my mother unhappy again
On the fourth day of the Spring Festival, my father left again, saying that he would go to the home of a related leader to pay New Year's greetings with us on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, but he called at noon and said that he would not come back and celebrate the Lantern Festival with us.
My mother had a fight with him on the phone and was unhappy
To be honest, my mother didn't do this before. Over the years, my father rarely went out all day and went home. Gradually, the officials became bigger and bigger, and I had less time to go home. But my mother rarely got angry, and at most she was nagging. But since that incident happened, I felt that my mother seemed to have changed. I really hoped that my father was at home. Every time my father broke his promise, my mother would be very angry, quarrel with her father, and cry
During dinner, I talked to my mother with nothing to say, wanting her to relax, but my mother didn't seem to appreciate it. She replied without saying a word, and then went back to the bedroom to rest after dinner.
well!
Seeing my mother's bored look, I was in a very depressed mood. This Lantern Festival was very unhappy.
Friday, February 24, 2006 21:05
This morning, my mother praised me for my improvement in craftsmanship during dinner, so I was in a good mood today, but when I got home at night, I saw my father at home as soon as I opened the door. My father and mother were sitting on the sofa. My father frowned, and my mother was crying. When I saw me back, my mother got up and went back to the bedroom.
My heart suddenly rose to my throat. Could it be that my father knew about that?
What should I do? Is it useful if I explain it on purpose?
I was stunned at the door with a drum in my heart
Dad looked at me and said: What's wrong with Xiaofan? Why don't you come in?
After hearing what my father asked, the stone in my heart fell to the ground. It seems that my father doesn’t know yet. Thank God, but why did my mother cry?
I thought to myself and said perfunctorily: Dad, when are you back?
Dad said: I got off the plane in the provincial capital last night, I just came back in the morning, and I also entered the bedroom after saying that. I sat in the living room and listened with my ears.
After a while, I heard my mother crying and saying, "Dad, no matter how many times I don't come back a year, I always leave in less than a day when I come back. I said that my father doesn't have her in his heart, so it's better to divorce." Later, my father closed the door and vaguely heard my mother crying. Some of the specific things I said were not clear, but then I heard my father say that he would definitely come back on their wedding anniversary next month.
After a while, my father came out of the room and went to the kitchen to cook. After that, he told me that he would arrive at the provincial capital in the evening and would fly back to Beijing tomorrow morning, so that I could be obedient at home and work well, and don’t always know how to play, help my mother do something, and then asked me briefly about my work situation.
Then he entered his mother's bedroom again. Mom seemed to stop crying. I heard from my father that he was really leaving, and the driver was waiting downstairs.
Mom ignored him, but when Dad left, mom didn't come out to send him off
After a while after my father left, I went to my mother's bedroom to ask her to have dinner. When my mother saw me coming in, she turned around and wiped her tears, tidied up her hair before she came out to have dinner.
During the meal, I advised my mother that my father was really busy with work. I heard at my unit that there were three projects in this county waiting for approval by the State Planning Commission, so I told my mother not to blame her father.
After hearing my words, my mother glared at me and said nothing. She ate some food and went back to the bedroom.
I didn't dare to say anything anymore, I came to write a diary after washing the dishes
Dad is the same. No matter how busy he is, he finally came back once, and at least he stayed at home for two days, making mom so sad, alas!
Wednesday, March 8, 2006 21:05
Today is Women's Day. In the afternoon, I, the big man who hates shopping the most, made an exception and walked around the street for an afternoon. It was incredible to think about it.
Actually, my purpose of shopping is very simple. I want to buy a gift for my mother because today is her holiday.
After repeated measurement and selection, I finally bought a gauze scarf for my mother. Because there is a lot of wind and sand here in spring, many women like to wear a silk scarf.
The pattern of the scarf is very simple, with black dots on the white bottom. I think my mother often wears more professional clothes. Such patterns must be generous rather than elegant.
When my mother came back in the evening, I had already prepared the meal. During the meal, I gave my mother the scarf. Although my mother didn't say anything when she received the gift, I could see that she was very happy. She held it in her hand and looked at it, touched it and said: My son is different when he grows up. It's much better than your father. I have never given me a gift in my life.
I asked my mother to check it out. My mother thought about it and tied a beautiful knot around her neck skillfully. It was really suitable. My mother also praised me for having a good attitude and my heart was filled with joy.
Mom is my greatest hope
Work hard!
Friday, March 31, 2006 23:17
The 25th is the wedding anniversary of my father and mother, but my father did not keep his promise. My mother was very depressed when she woke up in the morning. My father called back in the morning. My mother seemed very angry and kept making noise on the phone. She even said divorced. In the end, my mother said loudly: You'd better never come back and then throw the phone down.
I cooked the meal at noon and went to the bedroom to ask my mother for dinner, but my mother didn't open the door for me. I heard laughter crying in the room. I felt so distressed, and I couldn't help but blame my father for not keeping his promise and not knowing that I felt sorry for my mother.
I was in no mood to eat the food, and I was cooking in the living room and watching TV, waiting for my mother to get better. I didn't know that after I changed all the channels N times, my mother finally opened the door. I hurriedly started to advise my mother not to be angry. After all, my father was busy with work and asked her to have some food first, but my mother said she was fine and didn't have to worry about it, so she changed her shoes and wanted to go out. I quickly followed her out.
My mother soon arrived at the park where she sat in the last time. She was still on the lawn on the slope, and she was still in the same position. She sat still, thinking about it.
And I was still sitting with her one meter away
After a long time, my mother asked me: Xiaofan, if my father and I divorce, who would you go with? I was so surprised after hearing my mother's words, and I didn't know how to answer for a while.
Seeing that I didn't answer, my mother said: Humph, I knew that you and your dad were in the same group. You go, I don't need you to accompany you.
I thought about it and said: Mom, I don’t want you to divorce Dad, but no matter what, I will always stand with Mom. After listening to my words, my mother didn’t say anything. She stared at me for a while, then turned her head and was silent.
The weather here was still very cold in March. After sitting for so long, I felt my hands and feet become cold. Seeing that my mother was only wearing a half-large windbreaker, I advised her to go home, but my mother shook her head and refused. I couldn't say that I would give her the clothes to go home and asked her to wait for me, so I hurriedly ran home, but when I got the clothes back, my mother disappeared.
I searched all over the park but couldn't find her. It was already dark, so I had to go home and wait
My mother came back at 9 o'clock, and her lips were already blue with cold. I quickly served her a bowl of hot soup, but my mother didn't drink it, so she went to bed as soon as she returned to the bedroom door.
The next morning, my mother hadn't gotten up yet. I called her a few times and she didn't answer. I pushed open the door and called a few more times but my mother didn't respond. I felt something was wrong. When I approached, I saw that my mother was still asleep, but her face was very red. I touched his forehead with my hand and it was so hot. I started calling again. My mother opened her eyes hard and whispered to me. I quickly called 120.
When I arrived at the hospital, the doctor said that my mother suffered a cold, which caused a lung infection.
The fever-reducing injection, infusion, ice compress, it was not until the afternoon when my mother's high fever subsided, and my heart, which was hanging in my throat, slowly fell to the ground.
The day before yesterday and yesterday, I kept waiting by my mother's bed, bringing tea and water, rubbing her hands and face with a hot towel in the morning, and washing her feet at night. When I was eating, I always feed her spoonful by spoonful. At first, she was embarrassed to see other patients in the ward, but she couldn't resist me, so she had to let me take care of her carefully.
The patients and their families all told their mother that she had such a good son and were really lucky. At first, my mother was humble and perfunctory when she heard it. Later, when my mother talked about it, she did not refuse, but would look at me with a smile, making my face warm.
My mother is much better today. She went to the hospital yard for a while in the morning. In the afternoon, she said she was not used to the smell of the hospital and the noisy people coming and going in the ward. She strongly asked to be discharged from the hospital and come home to rest. I really had no choice but to agree.
In the evening, I prepared the meal in the kitchen. When I was about to put it on the dining table, I turned around and saw my mother leaning against the kitchen door and looking at me.
I was stunned with the food in my hands, my mother was stunned for a moment, her face turned slightly red, and she didn't say anything and walked over to take the food from me and put it on the table.
During the meal, my mother said: Xiaofan, thank you for taking care of me these few days. Mom is very moved. You are really grown up now. Mom is very happy. Mom is fine. You are also very tired these days. Don’t worry about me. Have breakfast and rest after a while. If you are tired and sick, your mother will really have no support.
After listening to my mother's words, my heart was warm. My mother actually regarded me as a supporter. She was so happy!
I said: Mom, I'm not tired. The most important thing now is to make your health better. Don't worry, I'm so young, this is not enough to tiring me. Dad is not here. He said that I'll take good care of you or Dad will deal with me when he comes back
I want to use this as relaxed as possible to resolve the gap between my mother and mother, but my mother doesn't seem to appreciate it at all. When I heard my father talk about it, my face darkened and said: Don't talk to him. I haven't known it after so many years? When did he have this home except for work, you, me, eat.
Seeing that the good atmosphere was disrupted by my words, I couldn't say anything else
Alas, I felt guilty about that incident a while ago and worried about my mother. Now I have finally gotten better, and I have to worry about my relationship with my father and mother. It's really a big deal.
Thursday, April 20, 2006 21:53
Dad left in the afternoon, this time Dad came back and stayed at home for 3 days
During these three days, I could see that my father was trying to please my mother as much as possible. When he came back, he bought a very beautiful top for his mother from Beijing and a set of brand-name cosmetics. He kept saying good things in front of his mother. He changed his style to cook for his mother every day, and I always reconciled it from time to time.
But my mother didn't seem to appreciate it. She was not as happy as when my father came back before. She just did her own thing silently. Even the tone of talking to her father seemed as plain as an ordinary friend. My father also saw the changes in her mother, but she had no choice but to say that she had told the county that she could stay at home more after she had to work back.
Today my father is leaving, but my mother did not show reluctance, nor was she as angry as before, and she didn't even have the nagging before.
Dad seemed to know what was wrong, but he just sighed and told me that I was too young to be obedient at home, help my mother more, and leave.
This time my father came back, my mother's changes surprised me a little. It was because my father didn't come back on the wedding anniversary and was not like he was angry with my father, because no matter how angry my mother and father were in the past, as long as my father teased and coaxed me, it would be fine soon.
But this time my mother couldn't see any angry look, nor did she look any happy
He was very enthusiastic when talking to me. When my father left in the afternoon, his mother cooked with me in the evening. He asked me to go out for her to dance.
Alas, what happened, what should I do?
Saturday, April 29, 2006 23:02
Today is Saturday. I helped my mother wash her clothes in the morning. After lunch, I hang my clothes on the balcony. My mother saw that there were water droplets on my hair. My mother wiped it with a towel and said with a heartache: Xiaofan has really grown up to be a baby. It’s much easier for my mother to have you.
I felt so warm after listening to my mother's words, but I still said: That's right, I'm already twenty-one, and my father always says he wants me to take good care of you every time he leaves.
But my mother said: He asked you to take care of me, so what did he do? I won’t talk about him anymore, I took a break and went out for a walk with me on the street. I was bored again, so I had to shut up
My mother seemed to be in a good mood today. She kept talking about this and that along the way. She was shopping next to each store, and she also bought 5 big bags of clothes, small decorations, daily necessities, cosmetics, etc., which made my legs hard, my soles of my feet hurt, and my hands were sore from the bag.
I said: Mom, let’s go straight to the target if we buy anything. Don’t go shopping in one store? My legs hurt
Mom laughed and said: Idiot, do you think women are shopping like you guys, just to buy things. We go shopping for enjoyment and relaxation. If you are tired, find a place to rest and wait for me. I will come back to find you later.
But how could I let my mother go alone? I had to continue walking with her. My mother saw me following me and said with a smile: This is almost the same, it can stand the test. If you really sit and wait, I will not care about others like your father. My son is much better than him. I will buy you a piece of clothing later and praise you.
Oh, I just asked me to rest and wait for her, it turned out to be a trap. Alas, my mother is hard to understand.
Later, my mother really spent more than 800 to buy me a T-shirt, and she even praised me for being stylish on the bed.
My mother and I didn't go home for dinner at night, so I ate a hot pot in the restaurant. Of course, it was my hot pot that my mother liked to eat. Looking at the way my mother said while eating, I was so happy. The impact of that incident on my mother has dropped to a very low point. My mother seems to have returned to her previous appearance. It seems that my efforts for more than half a year have not been in vain.
When I got home for dinner, I was quite far from home and said I was taking a taxi, but my mother insisted on taking a walk, and said that I have been gaining weight during this period and I have to exercise to reduce weight loss. I saw that my mother was very interested, so I had to follow her big bag and small bag.
Tired Ah!
Very tired, but happy, everything is getting better and better
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 at 21:17
After a week of hard work, I finally helped my friend get the matter done. Although he spent some money, the matter was finally resolved smoothly. However, I owe a lot of favors at the company. In order to thank me, my friend gave me two sets of full tickets for a scenic resort in a neighboring city. He said that it was tickets and all the entertainment items included, including accommodation and catering. He said that I asked my girlfriend to play. He didn't know that my girlfriend and I had already said goodbye.
Alas, I don’t know if it’s because of the guilt or justification?
hehe
I told my mother about this in the evening and asked her if she was interested in relaxing. She said she thought about it. After dinner, she said that the scenic spot was pretty good. If no one went with me, she could accompany me to see it.
After discussion, I decided to take one day off this Friday and take a bus back on Sunday afternoon.
Lao Gan is quite interesting. Although he is a friend of his friends and has few common opportunities to meet, I really care about his affairs this time. These two sets of tickets are not considered bribery, right?
hehe
Sunday, May 21, 2006 21:17 Light Rain
Things in the world are really changing with each other. I thought that as my relationship with my mother recovered, we could slowly get rid of that thing, but who knew that this time I went out, my relationship with my mother had undergone a qualitative change. This change surprised me and panic.
The day before yesterday, my mother and I went to the scenic resort as planned. I borrowed a car from my friend. Although I didn't drive much and the road was still a little nervous, as the car drove on the mountain road, the surrounding green mountains and waters were indeed refreshing. Along the way, my mother seemed very happy, and kept talking about the scenery along the way like a child, and handed me water from time to time and wiped my sweat.
My mood was influenced by my mother and the scenery and felt very relaxed and comfortable.
It was very smooth all the way, we arrived at the resort after more than three hours
The resort surrounded by mountains is very unique. It is full of strange carnations and woods. The places you live in are small wooden villas. The inside is clean and tidy, and the decoration is warm and elegant.
But there is a problem, because it is a package ticket, the resort only provides one room, and there are two 1.5 meters beds in the room. I remembered that something was not appropriate, and I wanted to ask the waiter to think about whether I could open another one. Even if I added more money, my mother didn't seem to care. She said that she couldn't live there for free and wasted money. She insisted on not checking in again. There was no way, so I had to live with my mother.
After lunch, we started to play in the scenic area. The scenery was really good. The bamboo forest was green, the waterfall was majestic, and the gurgling stream was clear and clear. All of this made my mother extremely excited. It was like returning to her youth. She took off her shoes and caught fish in the stream. She bought a local water gun made of bamboo and made water fight with me.
When my timid mother used to play rafting, she was not afraid. She shouted excitedly when she rushed down from a high place. The picturesque scenery and relaxed and happy atmosphere made my mother and I completely forget all our worries and had a great time playing.
Of course, every time my mother takes a shower and changes clothes at night, I consciously go out early to avoid my mother from misunderstanding or thinking about that, so everything is fine
Yesterday afternoon, my mother and I went to climb the highest mountain in the scenic area. The weather was already a little hot in May. When we were about to reach the top of the mountain, my mother's physical strength was obviously a bit exhausted. I advised my mother to go back, but my mother said that how could that work? I finally climbed more than half of it and couldn't give up halfway.
We drank some water, rested for a while and prepared to continue climbing, but I walked a few steps and saw that my mother had not yet gotten up. I was about to ask her but heard her speak first: Xiaofan, my mother is almost exhausted and can't even stand up, so you won't pull her mother for a moment.
The resentful tone made me stunned, but my mother stared at me and stretched out her hand. I had to walk back and reach out to pull my mother's hand and pull her up. Seeing that my mother got up, I wanted to let go, but my mother didn't seem to want to let go, and she didn't look at me. She held my hand and walked upwards.
I had to continue to pull her up. There were very few people on the mountain road, and the mountains were very quiet. There were only a few birds singing and occasional rustling sounds of wind blowing through the woods and bamboo forests. My mother and I didn't say anything, holding hands and burying our heads towards the top of the mountain
When I reached the top of the mountain, I don’t know if it was hot or tired, my mother and I were already sweating.
My mother's slender fingers and delicate skin made my heart pound. I felt something was wrong. I quickly let go of my mother's hand and sat under a tree and kept drinking water. My mother looked at me silently for a while, and found a stone to sit down. Her eyes looked at the foot of the mountain and became stunned.
There was a little cool breeze on the top of the mountain, and I remembered what happened just now and the feeling of holding my mother's hand, and sweat was still coming out on my head.
My mother and I sat under the tree and the other on the stone. No one spoke. After a while, more than a dozen people on the top of the mountain went down the mountain one after another, leaving only me and my mother. My mother walked to the observation deck on the top of the mountain and held the guardrail and watched for a while, and told me to go over as well.
Mom said: Have you seen the Titanic?
After seeing Ah, what's wrong?
Do you still remember the classic posture of the male and female protagonists on the bow of the boat? I always thought that one day I could stand on the bow of the boat and learn, but unfortunately I didn’t have the opportunity to take the boat. Do you think this place looks like the bow of the boat? It’s all about bamboo seas below, how beautiful Ah, can you help your mother fulfill this wish? As I said that, I felt that my mother’s face was a little red and looked at me, then stood by the guardrail and stretched out her arms
After hearing my mother's words, my heart began to pound again. I was thinking about my mother's words. What does mother mean?
Did you just ask me to help her fulfill her wish to imitate the movie?
Just as I was thinking nervously, my mother turned her head and said: What's wrong, Xiaofan, don't you want to help me?
I quickly calmed down and said: No Ah
Then come Ah, stand behind me and hold my waist
I remember that I was very nervous at that time, and my hands were trembling a little, but I finally held my mother's waist. The soft feeling made me almost impulsive, but I didn't dare to think too much, and the sweat on my head kept flowing down.
Mom stood for a while and said: Close your eyes and listen to the sound of the wind in your ears
I subconsciously pressed my mother's words and closed my eyes, but I only felt the heat from my mother's body coming from my hands. I couldn't hear any wind, which made my hands tremble even more violently
Just as I tried my best to suppress my feelings, my mother said again: How beautiful, if there is a camera to take it down now, it can be saved forever. I really want to be like this forever
My mother's words made my mind feel like a flash of lightning. What does my mother's words mean? This is definitely not a simple sigh caused by the beautiful scenery. The meaning of this words...
Just as I was thinking in panic, my mother turned her head and looked at me, smiled and said: What are you thinking, little fool, let's go down the mountain
I quickly regained my senses, forced a smile and said Ah, let go of the hand holding my mother's waist. My mother smiled and said nothing, and walked down the mountain. I quickly chased and followed her and followed her
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