The next day, my mother didn't go to the company and said she wanted to accompany me at home. After lunch at noon, I told my mother to go out to find a friend.
My mother immediately showed a surprised expression, as if she was worried, and kept asking who I was looking for?
In order to make her feel at ease, I took out my phone and showed her, telling her that during the period when I was quitting drugs, Xiaoyan called me dozens of calls and I didn't reply. She was also very worried about my safety. When I came back yesterday, I made an appointment with her to see her today.
Afterwards, my mother told me to come back early in the evening, she would wait for me to have dinner at home.
Say goodbye to my mother, I left the house
Since Uncle Zhang's affairs ended, Xiaoyan has returned to her hometown. Although she came back some time ago, I was not here. It has been nearly a month and a half since we met. When I came to the rental house where she lived and opened the door to see her, I had inexplicably felt a little strange. I didn't jump over and hug her in my arms like a couple who had been reunited for a long time.
After that, we went out shopping together, shopping malls, and were playing around.
Christmas will be there for two days. Although this is a festival in Western countries, for those of us Asians with dark eyes and yellow skin, a considerable number of people are no less enthusiastic about this festival than those of Westerners. Almost all shopping malls on the streets are placed in various advertising products that are promoted in the name of Christmas, and there are even activities to buy things and draw prizes, which is very lively.
At about 3 pm, Xiaoyan and I were about to go to the cinema to watch a movie. When I just walked to the entrance of the cinema, I saw Pan Wen and Gu Jiayi and the others walking out of the cinema.
Pan Wen, Gu Jiayi After seeing them, I took the initiative to call their names
Chen Lin? Pan Wen looked at me in surprise, then walked towards us with Gu Jiayi
Pan Wen, long time no see
Chen Lin, I was just about to ask you, why did I have not been able to contact you during this period? Why didn’t you answer the phone calls I called you several times?
Well, I went out for a long trip and just came back yesterday and lost my phone outside.
So that's the case, has your memory recovered?
Alas, no, I shook my head helplessly at him
Yes, why isn't it going to be better yet
I'm back now, why don't you tell me about the time tomorrow and I'll go to your medical center to find you?
I'm afraid it won't work tomorrow. I'll have to go on a business trip tomorrow and I won't be back in a week.
I'm dizzy, it's going to be a week... I calculated in my mind that tomorrow is Christmas Eve. This guy is going on a business trip this year (tomorrow) and probably won't come back until next year (New Year's Day). Then I continued to say to him: If that's the case, why don't we go to your place later? Let's tell you, I'm almost in a hurry now, I hope you can cure my amnesia soon
After a while? Pan Wen seemed a little reluctant, turned his head to look at Gu Jiayi beside him
Or you can accompany Chen Lin to your doctor. I'll go home now, and call me again in the evening. Gu Jiayi said to him
Oh well
Afterwards, we stopped a car on the side of the road and saw Gu Jiayi away, and then the three of us went to the Psychological Medical Center together.
After arriving there, I met Dr. Hao again. When he saw me, he asked me in confusion in the same tone as Pan Wen: Xiao Chen, why haven’t you been here for so long? I thought your memory had recovered.
I politely spoke to Dr. Hao, and then I asked her: Dr. Hao, have you understood the situation I had last time?
I have studied it carefully. I think your unusual actions and words and deeds should be what happened to you, but you don’t know the specific reason at all. Maybe it’s because of your amnesia that you forget these things. In the process of hypnosis, I stimulated this part of your subconscious mind and activated this part of your memory.
Yeah
Looking at Dr. Hao's expression of affirmation, I really don't know what to say. I'm sure that my memory has been around for about 3 months. I remember the other periods very clearly. Even the things that happened when I was a child more than ten years ago, I can tell you something. In the previous video, my abnormal expressions in the inside and the things I encountered in my dreams, I thought about it for a long time, but I really can't figure out what's going on.
Afterwards, I asked Xiaoyan to sit beside me and wait for me. According to the old method, Pan Wen sat next to me with a notebook to record. Dr. Hao hypnotized me again, and my eyes gradually became blurred...
Sure enough, I appeared on the beach again, sitting leisurely on the beach and looking at the sea in front of me. It seemed that there was a person beside me leaning tightly on my shoulder. Although I don’t know who it was, the feeling I felt was so friendly.
I lowered my head slightly and turned over. I saw a beautiful girl leaning against my shoulder. This girl has an angel-like beautiful face. Her beautiful face is not covered with pink but the color is like the morning glow reflecting snow. Her skin is white and delicate, just like many rose petals added to the milk, revealing beauty in the tenderness.
Looking at the girl in front of me, I seem to have an indescribable sweetness in my heart
No... I suddenly felt something was wrong there. I thought hard for a moment, and I seemed to remember who this girl was
I remember when I was in a dream, I dreamed of such a scene more than once. My young mother was lying in the arms of a man. Although I had never seen this man before, it gave me a sense of familiarity. The feeling was so close, as if I was feeling myself. Why is the young mother lying in my arms now? Why is that boy? Where is that boy now?
When I turned my face, my mother also raised her head and smiled slightly, with a small cherry mouth like a quiet crescent moon. She looked at me affectionately with her big watery eyes. It was a pair of extremely ambiguous eyes, and that look was like looking at her lover.
Why is this happening?
I immediately grabbed one of my mother's arms: Mom, Mom... I kept shouting at her, I wanted her to know who I am, but she seemed to be unable to hear my screams at all, and she was still looking at me affectionately
Suddenly, everything in front of me disappeared, and I appeared in a room in an instant. The room was not very big, and the furniture in the decoration looked relatively backward. Even the TV was the old-fashioned big-butt color TV, and the size was relatively small.
In front of me, my young mother appeared again. She stood in front of me and looked at me in a stare. The happy expression I just saw on the beach was gone. At this time, her tears had already gathered in her eyes and could flow out at any time.
I know you still love me, right?
Mom spoke first
Who is she telling?
I turned my head and looked around and confirmed that in this room, there were only my mother and I. Before I could figure out what was going on, my mother continued to say to me:
Do you know how much I love you in my heart? I can’t live without you now. You want to follow your family to develop abroad and have a better future. I support you. I will wait for you to come back. I will definitely wait for you to come back at home. No matter how long, 1 year, 2 years, or even 10 years, as long as you say a time, I will always wait for you at home, waiting for the day you come back from abroad to marry me.
I didn't say anything as my mother said these inconspicuous words to me, because I didn't know how to answer. I didn't understand what my mother meant, but I could see that my mother was so sad at this time.
You want me, today I will be your woman, I am willing to give you all my life
Then, my mother stretched out her hands and pulled down the straps on both sides of the shoulders of the dress. The long dress slid from her pure white jade body to the ground, and only the snow-white underwear that was covered at three points were left.
My mother suddenly rushed towards me and hugged my body tightly
But for some reason, my hands were completely out of control at this time. I pushed her away with force and pushed my mother to the ground.
After my mother sat on the ground, her tears instantly flowed out, and tears as big as beans flowed out from her desperate eyes like pearls with broken lines.
She sat there, crying heartbroken, heartbreaking, as if her whole world had collapsed
Seeing her like this, my heart was broken. I wanted to go over and help her up, but I didn't do that. It seemed like there was an evil spirit in my body, constantly manipulating my body, making it impossible for me to act according to my wishes.
Why, why do you treat me like this? I don’t believe you will be so heartless. You told me before that you will be with me for life. This is what you said to me in person. Why do you have to regret it now? Why...
My mother just finished speaking, I turned around uncontrollably and walked towards the door, then pushed open the door...
When I walked out of the room, just as the door was closed, I tried all my strength to stop myself. Sweat came out of my forehead, my efforts seemed to have worked, my body finally moved, I immediately turned around and wanted to open the door, I wanted to run into the room to help my mother up, but at this moment, everything in front of me disappeared again
Suddenly, I opened my eyes and found myself lying on the hospital bed. This is an old-fashioned backward ward with no TV or air conditioning inside.
There are 4 beds in the ward, but no patients are lying on it. At this time, I found that I was wearing a white hospital gown. Why am I here?
I asked myself
Seeing that there was no one in the house, I got out of the hospital bed, opened the door and walked out of the room, and saw that there were many patients, nurses and doctors coming and going in the corridor outside the ward.
This place made me feel very strange. I am sure I have never been to such a place before. As I walked, I slowly observed the situation here.
Cheng Jiannu
I heard a woman behind me shouting loudly, but I didn't turn around to look at her because she wasn't calling me
Clinic Cheng, why are you running out again? It was the woman's voice again. This time she seemed to come behind me and grabbed one of my arms with her hands.
Are you calling me? At this moment, I stopped myself, turned my head and asked her in confusion.
Who else can you call me if I don’t call you?
Sorry, sister, you have recognized the wrong person. My surname is not Cheng, my surname is... By the way, what is my surname? I thought carefully about why I suddenly couldn't remember my name, why is this happening, who am I?
Patient Cheng, your condition is now very serious. Do you know? I tell you, don’t run around anymore. Yesterday afternoon, you suddenly ran out of the ward and disappeared for several hours. In the end, the doctor from our hospital drove a car next to a hotel where the wedding banquet was held. You said what you want to do, do you still want to treat the disease? Do you don’t know what your situation is now? Come back with me quickly, I’m going to give you an infusion now.
Let go, I tell you, you have recognized the wrong person, I am not the person you mentioned at all, why did you give me an infusion? I am not sick, please let me go, I am leaving, I want to go home
Xiao Wang, Xiao Li, you two come here and help me pull this patient into the house
As soon as the female nurse finished speaking, she walked towards me from a distance. Two male staff members in white coats pulled one of my arms and pulled me into the ward where I just came out.
What are you going to do... I'm not sick... I'm not sick... Why do you catch me... You bastards... Let me go quickly
However, they ignored any of my shouts. After the two men pressed me on the bed, the female nurse held the needle on the infusion tube and stabbed it hard into my arm.
Ah... I suddenly woke up from the screams in pain. A thick layer of sweat oozed out of my forehead. When I opened my eyes, I saw Dr. Hao, Pan Wen, and Xiao Yan, all staring at me with strange eyes, as if I had just seen something very incredible, and Pan Wen and Xiao Yan and the others had already stood up, lying tightly beside me, pressing my arms separately
Chen Lin, are you awake? Xiaoyan called my name first
As soon as I opened my eyes, I suddenly felt that my head was so uncomfortable. The clips I just saw in my dream began to play repeatedly in my mind.
My head hurts so much, Dr. Hao, my head hurts so much
Xiao Chen, please calm down quickly and don’t think about anything
Listening to Dr. Hao's instructions, I wanted to force myself to calm down, but it was useless. The clips in the dream were like camera films. The clearly visible lenses inside were spinning rapidly in my mind, the speed was getting faster and faster, and my head was getting more and more painful.
Chen Lin…
I feel so uncomfortable, I feel so uncomfortable...
Chen Lin…
Don't touch me, don't touch me... My head hurts more and more, and it's still swollen. The blood vessels on both sides of my forehead also seem to feel like they are about to burst. I pushed them away hard, sat up suddenly from the sofa lying down, and then quickly rushed out of Dr. Hao's room
Chen Lin, stop... Xiaoyan shouted to me behind her
What's wrong with me? I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel that my whole body is so uncomfortable. The pain caused to me by my head. Even when I had a drug addiction attack before, I didn't feel that there would be such pain. Why is this happening? Just in Dr. Hao's room, after I hypnotized, what did she do to me? Why am I like this?
I was confused and followed the stairs on the second floor and ran out of the psychological medical center in one breath, then came to the roadside, and was drowsy and wanted to cross the road.
Chen Lin, be careful and dodge... Just after hearing Xiaoyan's reminder, I felt that my body was hit by a powerful thing, and I fell to the ground. My head was heavily hit on the hard ground paved by the asphalt road. After a little pain, my eyes turned dark and I no longer felt it...
When I woke up again, I opened my eyes and found myself leaning on Xiaoyan's shoulder, while we were sitting in a strange car, Pan Wen was sitting in the passenger seat, the driver's seat was a female driver I didn't know was driving.
Where are we going? I turned around and asked Xiaoyan
Oh, little brother, you are awake. You scared me to death just now. Why don’t you look at the road when you cross the road? The female driver sitting in the driver’s seat said
Chen Lin, you are awake, how are you in good health? Xiaoyan and Pan Wen asked me at the same time
How is my health?
Listening to their quizzes, I began to slowly recall what happened just now. At this moment, in my mind, I suddenly remembered a lot of things, a lot of things about the things between me and my mother:
When my mother and I were lying on the same bed, I hugged her tightly. The words I said to my mother in my heart, I will love her like a man in the future, protect her for the rest of my life, and prevent her from being wronged or hurt...
When I was in our hometown, I carried my mother in the small house in the field to shelter from the rain. At that time, my mother sprained her ankle, and I asked her to sit on a stone bench and press her feet gently. At that time, my hands slowly moved upwards, moved past my mother's knees, and my head also raised. Just a little, I kissed my mother...
When we were worshiping the gods at Uncle Zhang’s old temple fair together, I made a silent wish to the gods in the temple. I hope I can be with this woman around me for the rest of my life, and never be separated from pain or happiness...
On the bed where I was sick and hospitalized, that night, my mother and I lay together. Because of my condition, my mother was really sad. I saw with my own eyes that my mother shed tears in front of me.
Just the night before I had the surgery, on the hospital bed, my mother and I hugged each other and we kissed each other. We put our tongues into each other's mouths. I lifted my mother's bra and lay on her chest and kissed her breasts obsessively. All of this, everything that happened in those months, I remember all of this now.
Chen Lin, are you okay? Xiaoyan asked me again
Xiaoyan, where are we going?
You just got knocked out, we are going to the hospital
Go to the hospital? Why do you have to go to the hospital? I'm fine now, I want to go home
Even if you have nothing to do, go to the hospital for a check-up. If something goes wrong with your body in the future, and you will find trouble for me, what should you do if you ask me to do? The female driver also persuaded me
Don't worry, even if I suddenly die tomorrow, I will not be on your head. You can turn around quickly and drive me home. I'm going to go home now.
Chen Lin, look at your head, it was swollen with a big bag
I want to go home I shouted at them loudly, and the car suddenly became silent. They didn't react to my sudden anger for a moment.
Sorry, Xiaoyan, I shouldn't be angry at you. I'm really fine. I just kowtowed just now. Although it still hurts a little, my body is not seriously injured. I want to go home quickly now. I really have something important to go home now.
Brother, this is what you said. It’s not that I won’t take you to the hospital, it’s because you said you don’t need to go. If you feel uncomfortable in the future, can’t you come to cheat me Ah?
Well, don't worry, I keep my word and don't believe it. You can record my words as evidence. Just take me home now.
Then the female driver turned the head of the car
After the car drove to the entrance of the community, I quickly got out of the car and ran back to my house. After I took out the key and opened the door, I vaguely heard the sound of the washing machine coming from the laundry room next to the veranda. I immediately ran towards the laundry room, and my mother also heard the door ringing and walked out of the laundry room.
After seeing my mother, I immediately threw myself on her and hugged her tightly in my arms.
At this moment, I could no longer suppress the pain in my heart. Tears dripped down instantly, and I kept shouting in disobediently: Mom...Mom...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Mom gently patted my back with her hands twice
I didn't say anything, and continued to hug her tightly. Tears in my eyes continued to flow out, but I kept trying to hold back and didn't let myself cry...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Why do you do this? Tell your mother quickly that having your mother here will not let you suffer any grievances outside
Don't let me suffer any grievances outside...
When my mother said this, my heart was bleeding. This is how my mother was silently enduring the bullying of her by outsiders again and again, enduring my misunderstanding of her again and again, and my contemptuous eyes.
I clearly remember that during the time when I lost my memory, when I saw Zhao Huaiye coming to my house, I had a big quarrel with my mother and even almost raped her on the bed. I once swore to myself in my heart that I would protect my mother well in the future and not let her suffer any harm, but I forgot all this vow, and my heart was really painful...
Lin Lin, stop crying, look at the door, Mom took a photo of me twice again
At this time, I turned my head and saw Xiaoyan and Pan Wen standing at the door of my house, because when I ran in just now, I didn't close the door.
I immediately let go of my hands, wiped the tears from my eyes with my sleeves on my back, then turned around and invited them in, sat on the sofa in the living room, my mother poured them two drinks. Xiaoyan saw her mother washing clothes, took the initiative to go over and ask her to help her mother.
After my mother and Xiaoyan entered the laundry room, I told Pan Wen that all my memory has recovered now.
Pan Wen was overjoyed after hearing this and said that after my family came, I told them, "Don't tell them first, I will tell them slowly when the time comes. Pan Wen nodded at me."
Afterwards, I asked Pan Wen, how did you get together with Gu Jiayi?
Because I knew in my heart that Gu Jiayi was a homosexual. She was so crazy about her mother before. She even told me at school that she would be my girlfriend, so that she would be able to get close to my mother in the future.
Now, I have seen Pan Wen and Gu Jiayi go out and go out again and again, and it is obviously a couple
So, I'm very curious, what ability did Pan Wen use to get this beautiful woman into his pocket
Because I have recovered my memory now, I once told Pan Wen that one of my female classmates is gay. After Pan Wen came into contact with Gu Jiayi, he knew in his heart that the female classmates I was talking about was Gu Jiayi. So when he saw Gu Jiayi at the medical center that time, Pan Wen also told me that if I recovered my memory, I would know in my heart why Gu Jiayi appeared here.
So, Pan Wen no longer hides from me and slowly tells me the experience of his acquaintance with Gu Jiayi.
One night, my friend and I went to a bar and saw Jiayi sitting there alone and getting drunk. She sat there and drank a lot of wine. When my friend and I were about to leave, we saw two little hooligans walking to her and touching her. After seeing this, my friend and I drove the two little hooligans away. I was about to ask her if she had anything to do, but she grabbed the clothes and got drunk and said to me: Why don’t you like me? Why have you always avoided me recently? What’s wrong with me? Tell me, I will change, I will definitely change. As long as you are willing to pay attention to me, I am willing to do anything for you.
Listening to the drunken words she said, I realized at that time that she must have been heartbroken. She could sit here alone and drink so much wine. It seems that she loves each other so much.
Then, my friend urged me to let me go, but when she saw her drunken look, I was worried that after I left like this, a little hooligan came to bully her, so he found her cell phone from her bag. When he was taking her cell phone, he saw her student ID in her bag. After reading it, I realized that she and you were from the same school. Then I found his father's number in her cell phone and notified his parents. Then his parents came here and picked up Jiayi.
Actually, when I first met Jiayi in a bar, I fell in love with her. Jiayi is the most touching girl I have ever seen in these years. This may be the so-called love at first sight. When I called his father, I also paid attention to her mobile phone number. The next morning, I took the time to call her and greet her. I drank so much wine yesterday, did you feel uncomfortable today.
Then she asked me, who am I? I told her that I was the boy who called your father last night and asked him to pick you up. After hearing this, she expressed her gratitude to me. Although she almost didn't remember anything about what happened last night, his father told her that if it weren't for me, she would have been bullied by the hooligans in the bar last night.
Later, I kept calling her twice with shame. I felt that they were a little familiar with each other, so I told her about my profession. But I didn't expect that after she heard me say that I was a psychologist, she suddenly changed her temperament and scolded me in very vicious words, saying that the psychologist she hated the most in her life, and told me not to call her in the future. Then, she hung up the phone.
At that time, I was completely confused by her sudden insult. I was thinking, what did I say to make her mess with? After thinking about it, I couldn't think of any reason. After that, I continued to call her and ask her what was going on? But she didn't answer my phone call at all.
I originally thought, let's forget it. Maybe they don't have any intention of me at all. I was so passionate about myself. But after thinking about it for a few nights, I still felt unwilling to give up. Even if I die, I should understand. So I went to your school in person. I was embarrassed to go in and find her, so I waited at your school gate. That day, I waited from morning until afternoon, and finally saw her. She and a classmate left the school gate. I walked over. Gu Jiayi told me that she was in a bad mood that day, so she told me not to mind. But she also said that she didn't want to make friends with me in the future, so she told me not to contact her again.
When I came back, I wondered why things suddenly turned out like this. It was all good. I just reported my career to her, but her temperament suddenly changed. At this time, I immediately remembered you. You seemed to tell me before, one of your female classmates was suffering from homosexuality. Is the girl you mentioned Gu Jiayi? If this is the case, then it is completely understandable why she would have such a big reaction when she heard about my career.
After thinking about it for a few days, I still couldn't forget her. I was unwilling to miss this opportunity. I plucked up the courage to come to your school to find her again. After I saw her at the school gate, I told her in the most direct way: I know you are a homosexual, and I also know that you are caused by a psychologist. But what I want to tell you is that not all psychologists are beasts. I hope you can give me a chance and I will do my best to help you.
She was very curious after hearing what I said, and almost got angry and irritated. She beat me at the school gate. Maybe because there were too many people, she held back. But when I said these words, my voice was very low. It shouldn't be heard by outsiders, she began to question me, why did I know these things? I didn't say it at first, but then she thought about it and actually connected me with the psychologist who had hurt her before and asked us what was our relationship? Hearing that she connected me with the kind of morally corrupt person, I really had no choice, so... So, I told you, saying that you told me through the Internet, don't blame me for this, if I don't say that, I will be even more hopeless.
I said: You are really good, take me out as a shield. Gu Jiayi doesn't know about her private affairs that I know. Forget it, just say it, it doesn't matter now.
Then Pan Wen continued: About a week later, Jiayi called me and said she was willing to come to me to try it. I started treating Jiayi. Just a month ago, Jiayi had already agreed to be my girlfriend and try to get along with me.
Is that true? Is Gu Jiayi's condition cured now?
I don't think it's completely better yet, but I won't give up. I will definitely correct her sexual orientation. I believe I will succeed.
Wish you success
Thanks!
After Xiaoyan finished washing her mother's clothes, they both walked out. Not long after, Pan Wen told me that she was leaving. Xiaoyan also said that she was leaving, so I accompanied them to the entrance of the community.
A taxi came soon, Pan Wen got into the car first, but Xiaoyan said it was not easy to get on.
After Pan Wen left, Xiaoyan grabbed my hand and asked me: Chen Lin, how are you doing now?
How about it? Tell you, my memory has been completely restored
Yes, really, that's great
Although Xiaoyan said this, I saw that there was no expression of joy for me on her face. Then I said: Xiaoyan, aren’t you happy for me?
Chen Lin, when you were in the psychiatric medical center just now, you looked so terrible after being hypnotized
It turned out that Xiaoyan was worried about this. When she said this, I remembered it. When I rushed out of the medical center just now, I forgot something. Pan Wen must have recorded the entire process of hypnosis for me in a video. When I have time tomorrow, I will go and see what I was like at that time, and what I encountered in my dreams before. Why do I often dream about things that have never happened to me before.
Chen Lin, are you okay?
Don't worry, I'm fine anymore. The hypnosis that Dr. Hao did for me before. You don't understand. It's like that after hypnosis. I just had some nightmares in my dream.
Is that true? Chen Lin, but I looked at you and I was worried that you would do something extreme. If you do that, not only will I be sad, but your mother will be even more sad when she knows
I understand, I won't do stupid things, Xiaoyan, during my memory loss, I have done a lot of things that I'm sorry for you, I hope you don't blame me.
I have never blamed you, because in my heart, you are not only my boyfriend, but also a kind-hearted person
Xiaoyan and I hugged each other again. After a long time, I sent her away.
I turned around and went home after watching Xiaoyan disappearing in the taxi. After I got home, I saw my mother sitting on the sofa watching TV. My mother asked me, have you sent my friends away?
I nodded at her, then sat next to my mother and chatted with her
Not long after, I suddenly remembered the QQ that I had not logged in for a long time. It was a QQ number that was specially communicated with my mother in the name of a psychologist. In it, I almost became a friend who could talk to me with everything, and I would know everything my mother had.
I said to my mother, I was a little sleepy and wanted to go back to the house for a while, so I immediately returned to the room, turned on the computer, just logged in to this QQ named after Teacher Wu, and saw my mother's QQ number calling me, but the avatar was black. When I clicked on the avatar, I found that it was all messages from different dates and time periods. The content of the messages was relatively short. I took a look at it casually. These messages started before and after I fainted at school and was hospitalized.
Sister Wu, are you here? Date, August 25th
Sister Wu, why haven’t you seen you online recently? Date, August 27
Sister Wu, something happened to my son. I feel very painful. I really want to talk to you. My son has a brain tumor. He is still so young now, but he has to suffer such a crime. It’s all my fault that I am a mother.
Date August 30
(Sister Wu, today the doctor performed my child's surgery. The operation was very successful. The doctor said that there will be no sequelae in the future. Seeing that Lin Lin is fine, the stone in my heart finally fell down, but after the operation, some small problems occurred. My child lost his memory. He forgot everything that happened in the recent period. In fact, the doctor had told me before the operation that the tumor had been pressing on his brain nerves. After the tumor was removed, the child might have short-term indirect amnesia, but the lost memories will slowly recover over time.
Sister Wu, you guessed it right before. The things I told you about my colleague and her son actually happened to me, and just last night, I almost had a relationship with my child.
At that time, he had reached into my clothes, and I stopped him with my hands in time. If he had been more determined at that time, I would like to...
I might compromise with him
I know that when I told you this, you will definitely think that I am a shameless woman, and I am not worthy of being a mother, but my heart is really painful. I don’t know when he started to have this idea about me. In fact, I have vaguely felt it before. He looked at me in the eyes recently, and he took the initiative to come over to kiss me several times. He also secretly masturbated in my underwear in the bathroom. But I just acted as if nothing had happened, so as not to hurt his self-esteem
But this is not the only thing. I suddenly realized that from when I started, I also had some emotions towards him that were beyond maternal love. I knew it was ridiculous to have such thoughts. But every time he wanted to get close to me, looking at Lin Lin's face and his eyes looking at me, I could not refuse him at all. I love my children, I can give everything for him. I know that I am not a qualified mother. I seduced my son. A woman like me should go to hell, but my heart is really painful. I really want to talk to you about it.)
Date, September 5
This time my mother said a lot and talked a lot to me, the so-called Sister Wu. I believe that all the words my mother said were sincere.
It turns out that in her heart, she had already had the same thoughts as I had about her.
In our hearts, in addition to our intimate mother-son relationship that no one can replace, we also have a very special and wonderful feeling. Is this feeling considered a kind of love? We didn't take the initiative to think about it, didn't take the initiative to face this emotion, or even deliberately escaped it.
Because my mother thinks that the feelings that we have between us are immoral, and this kind of feelings will be despised and cannot be allowed by the world
Mom, no matter how this relationship between us will develop in the future, we will always be the closest mother and son in the world, and this will never change. I love my mother, and my mother loves me. We all regard each other as the most important person around us. As long as we have this, I think this is enough. There is no need to do it so clearly.
Now that my memories have all been restored, I still remember that night deeply, clearly remembering those things, as if they had just happened yesterday
That night, my mother and I were lying on the bed. I had already reached my hand into my mother's underwear. At that critical moment, I was only one step away. Just give me a few more seconds. When I pulled off the underwear that my mother was wearing, I could have a physical intimate contact with my mother and let her truly become my woman.
Unfortunately, in the end, we did not break through this wall that was about to collapse. My mother just helped me vent it with her hands.
Thinking about it now, I really feel a little regretful. At that time, I could really be more decisive.
After that, the messages on QQ disappeared because my mother saw me not online for a long time and stopped leaving me messages?
At this time, I seemed to remember that I told my mother that if she had anything to talk to me and I happened to be online, she could send it to my email address
Then, I clicked on the email address named after this QQ number and saw an email from my mother. I opened the email and looked carefully:
(Sister Wu, I haven't seen you for a long time. Calculate that it's been about 1 or 2 months. I don't know why you don't go online now. Maybe it's because you're busy with work and have no time recently. Maybe some other reason is that you're not going online.
Sister Wu, you are a friend who can really see through my mind. When I was chatting with you in the past, as long as I said it at the beginning, you will immediately understand what I want to say to you later, and even what I was thinking in my heart. You are very clear about it.
You are a friend who understands me so much. I really miss you now. I want to tell you a lot of pain in my heart. I hope you can help me
During this period, I really lived a life worse than death. I spent every day hard in pain. If it weren't for my child, I'd probably have chosen to commit suicide long ago.
Sister Wu, do you still remember the person I told you some time ago who came to our company to advertise. His name is Pang Biao. It turns out that since we first met, he has never been kind to you.
Once, he suddenly called me to find him. I was not familiar with him, so I didn't agree. But he told me on the phone that there were some things on his hands about my Linlin, and he also said that I must be interested in reading it. If I can't get over, I will definitely regret it. He is waiting for me in the garage next to the company for 5 minutes.
When I heard him say it was something related to Linlin, I suddenly felt very worried, so I quickly went downstairs
When I arrived at the garage and saw him, he handed me some photos. I saw that there were photos of Lin Lin and other women undressing each other. When I saw these photos, I was stunned. I could hardly believe that the boy in the photo would be my child. Then he told me that the women in the photo were all prostitutes. My son ran to his dance hall to summon prostitutes at night...
I don’t believe what he said. I know my child. I don’t believe that Linlin of my family would be such a person. Then I asked him if these things were arranged deliberately by him, why did he harm my child?
He did not answer my question, but then said many dirty words to me, saying that as long as he could hold me and kiss me a few times, he would return these photos and negatives to me.
I disagree. I told him that I could give him money. He said he didn't need it and threatened me that if he didn't agree to his request, he would find someone to spread these photos to Linlin's school.
I told him that if he dared to do this, I would call the police, but after hearing this, he didn't care at all, saying that the public security bureau was full of his friends
Seeing that I didn't agree, he asked me to get out of the car and drive away. At that time, I really had no choice. I couldn't let him leave here with these photos. He was a hooligan who could do anything.
For my child, I can only endure this once
After he left, although he handed me all the photos and negatives in his hand, I was still very worried, worried that this man would lie to my son behind his back again
After Lin Lin came back tonight, I didn't tell him directly, but told him from the side that he would not go to dance halls, KTVs and other places in the future.
But I was just about to persuade him, Lin Lin's temper suddenly became very strange, and he got angry at me. This was the first time Lin Lin got angry at me. I don't know why he suddenly became like this. Even if Lin Lin was angry at me, he would only pretend to ignore me and never got angry with me, my mother.
Later, as I was worried, Pang Biao did not give up. He once again threatened me on the phone and called me to his dance hall. Then he took out some photos for me to show. The photos I showed me this time were photos of Lin Lin taking drugs. When I saw Lin Lin taking drugs, my whole heart was broken.
Lin Lin, my family, has never even smoked cigarettes, but now she is addicted to drugs. It must be him, he, the bastard, instigated my child to do this. I really didn't expect that he would be so cruel as to how cruel he was.
This time he admitted it very simply and told me clearly that these things were done by him.
Then, I was about to take out the phone and prepare to call the police. As soon as I reached into my bag, he handed me his phone and said to me, "Do I need to call the police?" Tell the police that your child is taking drugs from me, and you told them that I instigated him. Do you have any evidence?"
Don't you know what I do? Let me tell you, I have many acquaintances in the Public Security Bureau. If you don't have any evidence, you want to blame me for no reason. Who will listen to you
Then, he actually called 110 with his cell phone, and then placed the cell phone next to my ear. At that time, I heard a woman's voice speaking on the other end of the phone
At that moment, I was stunned and couldn't say anything, because I didn't know what to say. I was afraid that once I said the wrong thing, I would harm my child
It was not until half a minute later that he hung up the phone
Then he continued to threaten me and told me that my child had only come to him to take meth once, and he was not addicted yet. Only I promised to sleep with him. He promised not to harass my child again in the future. If I don't agree, he will come to torture my child endlessly in the future, and he will also send these photos to my child's school to let my child go to jail at that time.
Then I beg him, beg him not to do this, I can give him as much money as he wants, beg him to let us go
But he told me that he didn't care about money at all, and the only condition to exchange with him was: I wanted me to sleep with him
The condition he proposed was so shameless, I wouldn't agree even if I die
After that, he did not force me, but turned around and left. Before leaving, he told me that he would go out and ask his subordinates to spread these photos to my son's school.
I couldn't let him do this anyway, so I pulled him tightly, continued to beg him, and told him that I promised him everything except this, and kept begging him, and I almost knelt down for him, hoping that he would not make things difficult for us anymore
But he said he didn't want anything else, he just wanted my body, as long as I could give him once, he promised not to harass us again
My whole body was broken at that time. I had no strength to answer his question, but grabbed him tightly and refused to let him go.
Not long after, he threw me away again and wanted to leave here. When he walked to the door, I ran over and grabbed him tightly. I really had no other way. I couldn't let him walk out of this door, otherwise how could my Linlin live in the future? He was still so young and had to face other people's fingers in the future. I really had no choice. For my child, I could only be forced to surrender to this man.
Afterwards, in this room, he forced me to have sex with him
After I left here, I saw Lin Lin coming back in the evening. He admitted that he was taking drugs, but told me that he was not addicted and promised not to suck again in the future.
However, I don't believe what he said. I'm afraid that this child is lying to me. How can it be so easy to quit if he gets addicted to drugs?
I didn't let Lin Lin go to school for several days. I kept watching him at home for about a week. He was acting very normal. At night, I secretly lay on his door and didn't hear any abnormal movement inside. He really didn't seem to be addicted to drugs. Now I felt relieved. Later, after Lin Lin went to school, I drove at Lin Lin's school and monitored him for a few days. I also saw him and his classmates leaving the school gate to play outside and buying food outside, but I didn't see Lin Lin going to the dance hall.
Once the man succeeds in the magic trick, he will only be more and more arrogant. It is not easy to let us go like this. Everyone understands this principle. Although he said that he only had this time with me, he would never let me go like this.
Afterwards, I remembered a colleague from my company. Her boyfriend worked in the police station. I asked them out for dinner and asked him from the side to see if the words Pang Biao said to me before were deliberately scaring me.
I asked him, did you know that someone else was talking about prostitution in the dance hall on XX Road, and there were people taking drugs inside. Don’t you know about it?
He told me that the boss of the dance hall has a very background. They had checked it once before, but the leader above handed it to not go to the dance hall. So, even if they knew that the dance hall was a dirty place, and there were many people who reported it, no one went to the police to check them.
Hearing him say this, it turns out to be so calm. No wonder Pang Biao was so calm when he threatened me.
After two days, Pang Biao came to me again. This time he was even more shameless than the last request. This time he came not only to let me have sex with him, but to be his lover.
I am not afraid of him. If it were just me, I would not surrender to him, a bastard, even if I died, but this man saw my weakness. He threatened me again and again with my son's safety and forced me to have sex with him. He told me that if I dare not listen to him, he could just move his fingers and let my child corpse on the street
Later, I didn't give up and wrote several anonymous letters to the leaders of the municipal bureau, but none of them turned out to be successful. Once I saw the police car from the Public Security Bureau coming to him to check, but in less than 24 hours, his dance hall was open again.
Later I found a lawyer again to see if he could help me with some advice, but Pang Biao seemed to have sent someone to follow me behind and asked someone to beat the lawyer. The lawyer would no longer dare to care about my affairs.
Anyway, I thought about it and I had no choice but to do anything to him. Is this really a society without a king?
Why can evil people be so domineering
When I think of my poor child, I am really afraid that Pang Biao will cause trouble for him again. I can no longer let him get hurt. For him, I can give everything I have.
As long as my child lives well, I can grit my teeth and endure this man
Later, when he threatened me again, I told the man that I could agree to his request, but I also had a condition, that is, he must promise me that he would not harass my children again in the future, let my children step into his dance hall, and not lure my children to get drugs again
He agreed to all these things and sweared to me in front of me. What else can I do now? I can only hope that this bastard can keep his word this time
So I surrendered to him and could only endure his hellish torture in bed again and again. Once, I couldn't stand it and wanted to commit suicide with a glass piece of wrist cutting. After seeing it, he hit me and even made a harsh word to me. If I couldn't think about it, he would throw my child into the river to feed the fish, and let us mother and son meet in the underworld.
For my child, I can only endure it silently)
Date: October 20
Looking at my mother's email, my tears kept flowing down. This email was written before my mother knew that I had not quit drug addiction.
During the period when I lost my memory, I always thought in my heart that it was because my mother's own disgraceful scandal was discovered by Pang Biao, and then Pang Biao threatened her with these things, forcing her to have sex with her again and again (it seems that the photos Pang Biao asked me to see at that time had a big problem)
It turns out that in the end, the culprit of the whole thing was myself, and I used my own hands to push the woman I loved the most in my life into the hands of others.
During that period, my mother had been enduring the endless humiliation and torture of that man so hard. This was a torture that was a hundred times more painful than death. She thought that if she did this, Pang Biao would really stop harassing me. She was just giving everything she had done for me, a waste who was worse than a pig, who was silently accused of giving everything she had done.
After watching it, I burst into tears again, crying heart-wrenchingly. As tears burst out like a flood, the regret, anger, despair, and hatred in my heart were constantly released.
I think this is the first time since I grew up, I feel so painful. The first time I feel that a person can be so sad. The first time I start to hate myself from the bottom of my heart. The woman I love the most suffered such a great humiliation for me, but I didn't understand her at all. Even during that period, I spoke badly to her, quarreled with her at home, and even attacked her. And I have scolded her more than once in my heart as a shameless woman, a shameless slut, and I feel ashamed of having a mother like her in my heart.
Now thinking about it, how ridiculous, how ignorant I am, how foolish I am
I sat here and cried for a long time. As tears and emotions were constantly released, but the grief in my heart did not fade, but became stronger and stronger. I even started when it started. My body trembled instinctively, and my whole body trembled violently as if it was uncontrollably. My chest slowly felt a burst of pain, getting worse and worse. The pain made me bent down and kneel on the ground next to me.
At this time, my mother seemed to hear the crying in my room outside. She slapped my door outside and called my name: Linlin, what's wrong with you in the room?
Seeing that I didn't respond, my mother pushed open the door hard, saw my uncomfortable look, quickly walked to me, helped me up, and said to me nervously: Linlin, what's wrong with you?
Mom...I'm in pain...I'm in pain...
Lin Lin…
Mom, I'm not a human, I'm not a human...
Linlin, what did you say?
Mom, I'm not a human, I'm not a human
I held my mother's arm, looked at her sadly, and called her over and over again with a hoarse voice. At this time, I felt very uncomfortable in my chest, as if a huge stone was blocking my chest, slamming my heart heavily, making me feel very difficult to breathe. I couldn't help but lower my head again, and began to retching continuously. I vomited several times, vomiting one after another, and vomited pieces of things like saliva or stomach acid, but in these transparent liquids, there was a lot of blood mixed with...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Don't scare your mother, Lin Lin Lin... Lin Lin Lin... Don't scare your mother Ah...
My mother immediately showed a surprised expression, as if she was worried, and kept asking who I was looking for?
In order to make her feel at ease, I took out my phone and showed her, telling her that during the period when I was quitting drugs, Xiaoyan called me dozens of calls and I didn't reply. She was also very worried about my safety. When I came back yesterday, I made an appointment with her to see her today.
Afterwards, my mother told me to come back early in the evening, she would wait for me to have dinner at home.
Say goodbye to my mother, I left the house
Since Uncle Zhang's affairs ended, Xiaoyan has returned to her hometown. Although she came back some time ago, I was not here. It has been nearly a month and a half since we met. When I came to the rental house where she lived and opened the door to see her, I had inexplicably felt a little strange. I didn't jump over and hug her in my arms like a couple who had been reunited for a long time.
After that, we went out shopping together, shopping malls, and were playing around.
Christmas will be there for two days. Although this is a festival in Western countries, for those of us Asians with dark eyes and yellow skin, a considerable number of people are no less enthusiastic about this festival than those of Westerners. Almost all shopping malls on the streets are placed in various advertising products that are promoted in the name of Christmas, and there are even activities to buy things and draw prizes, which is very lively.
At about 3 pm, Xiaoyan and I were about to go to the cinema to watch a movie. When I just walked to the entrance of the cinema, I saw Pan Wen and Gu Jiayi and the others walking out of the cinema.
Pan Wen, Gu Jiayi After seeing them, I took the initiative to call their names
Chen Lin? Pan Wen looked at me in surprise, then walked towards us with Gu Jiayi
Pan Wen, long time no see
Chen Lin, I was just about to ask you, why did I have not been able to contact you during this period? Why didn’t you answer the phone calls I called you several times?
Well, I went out for a long trip and just came back yesterday and lost my phone outside.
So that's the case, has your memory recovered?
Alas, no, I shook my head helplessly at him
Yes, why isn't it going to be better yet
I'm back now, why don't you tell me about the time tomorrow and I'll go to your medical center to find you?
I'm afraid it won't work tomorrow. I'll have to go on a business trip tomorrow and I won't be back in a week.
I'm dizzy, it's going to be a week... I calculated in my mind that tomorrow is Christmas Eve. This guy is going on a business trip this year (tomorrow) and probably won't come back until next year (New Year's Day). Then I continued to say to him: If that's the case, why don't we go to your place later? Let's tell you, I'm almost in a hurry now, I hope you can cure my amnesia soon
After a while? Pan Wen seemed a little reluctant, turned his head to look at Gu Jiayi beside him
Or you can accompany Chen Lin to your doctor. I'll go home now, and call me again in the evening. Gu Jiayi said to him
Oh well
Afterwards, we stopped a car on the side of the road and saw Gu Jiayi away, and then the three of us went to the Psychological Medical Center together.
After arriving there, I met Dr. Hao again. When he saw me, he asked me in confusion in the same tone as Pan Wen: Xiao Chen, why haven’t you been here for so long? I thought your memory had recovered.
I politely spoke to Dr. Hao, and then I asked her: Dr. Hao, have you understood the situation I had last time?
I have studied it carefully. I think your unusual actions and words and deeds should be what happened to you, but you don’t know the specific reason at all. Maybe it’s because of your amnesia that you forget these things. In the process of hypnosis, I stimulated this part of your subconscious mind and activated this part of your memory.
Yeah
Looking at Dr. Hao's expression of affirmation, I really don't know what to say. I'm sure that my memory has been around for about 3 months. I remember the other periods very clearly. Even the things that happened when I was a child more than ten years ago, I can tell you something. In the previous video, my abnormal expressions in the inside and the things I encountered in my dreams, I thought about it for a long time, but I really can't figure out what's going on.
Afterwards, I asked Xiaoyan to sit beside me and wait for me. According to the old method, Pan Wen sat next to me with a notebook to record. Dr. Hao hypnotized me again, and my eyes gradually became blurred...
Sure enough, I appeared on the beach again, sitting leisurely on the beach and looking at the sea in front of me. It seemed that there was a person beside me leaning tightly on my shoulder. Although I don’t know who it was, the feeling I felt was so friendly.
I lowered my head slightly and turned over. I saw a beautiful girl leaning against my shoulder. This girl has an angel-like beautiful face. Her beautiful face is not covered with pink but the color is like the morning glow reflecting snow. Her skin is white and delicate, just like many rose petals added to the milk, revealing beauty in the tenderness.
Looking at the girl in front of me, I seem to have an indescribable sweetness in my heart
No... I suddenly felt something was wrong there. I thought hard for a moment, and I seemed to remember who this girl was
I remember when I was in a dream, I dreamed of such a scene more than once. My young mother was lying in the arms of a man. Although I had never seen this man before, it gave me a sense of familiarity. The feeling was so close, as if I was feeling myself. Why is the young mother lying in my arms now? Why is that boy? Where is that boy now?
When I turned my face, my mother also raised her head and smiled slightly, with a small cherry mouth like a quiet crescent moon. She looked at me affectionately with her big watery eyes. It was a pair of extremely ambiguous eyes, and that look was like looking at her lover.
Why is this happening?
I immediately grabbed one of my mother's arms: Mom, Mom... I kept shouting at her, I wanted her to know who I am, but she seemed to be unable to hear my screams at all, and she was still looking at me affectionately
Suddenly, everything in front of me disappeared, and I appeared in a room in an instant. The room was not very big, and the furniture in the decoration looked relatively backward. Even the TV was the old-fashioned big-butt color TV, and the size was relatively small.
In front of me, my young mother appeared again. She stood in front of me and looked at me in a stare. The happy expression I just saw on the beach was gone. At this time, her tears had already gathered in her eyes and could flow out at any time.
I know you still love me, right?
Mom spoke first
Who is she telling?
I turned my head and looked around and confirmed that in this room, there were only my mother and I. Before I could figure out what was going on, my mother continued to say to me:
Do you know how much I love you in my heart? I can’t live without you now. You want to follow your family to develop abroad and have a better future. I support you. I will wait for you to come back. I will definitely wait for you to come back at home. No matter how long, 1 year, 2 years, or even 10 years, as long as you say a time, I will always wait for you at home, waiting for the day you come back from abroad to marry me.
I didn't say anything as my mother said these inconspicuous words to me, because I didn't know how to answer. I didn't understand what my mother meant, but I could see that my mother was so sad at this time.
You want me, today I will be your woman, I am willing to give you all my life
Then, my mother stretched out her hands and pulled down the straps on both sides of the shoulders of the dress. The long dress slid from her pure white jade body to the ground, and only the snow-white underwear that was covered at three points were left.
My mother suddenly rushed towards me and hugged my body tightly
But for some reason, my hands were completely out of control at this time. I pushed her away with force and pushed my mother to the ground.
After my mother sat on the ground, her tears instantly flowed out, and tears as big as beans flowed out from her desperate eyes like pearls with broken lines.
She sat there, crying heartbroken, heartbreaking, as if her whole world had collapsed
Seeing her like this, my heart was broken. I wanted to go over and help her up, but I didn't do that. It seemed like there was an evil spirit in my body, constantly manipulating my body, making it impossible for me to act according to my wishes.
Why, why do you treat me like this? I don’t believe you will be so heartless. You told me before that you will be with me for life. This is what you said to me in person. Why do you have to regret it now? Why...
My mother just finished speaking, I turned around uncontrollably and walked towards the door, then pushed open the door...
When I walked out of the room, just as the door was closed, I tried all my strength to stop myself. Sweat came out of my forehead, my efforts seemed to have worked, my body finally moved, I immediately turned around and wanted to open the door, I wanted to run into the room to help my mother up, but at this moment, everything in front of me disappeared again
Suddenly, I opened my eyes and found myself lying on the hospital bed. This is an old-fashioned backward ward with no TV or air conditioning inside.
There are 4 beds in the ward, but no patients are lying on it. At this time, I found that I was wearing a white hospital gown. Why am I here?
I asked myself
Seeing that there was no one in the house, I got out of the hospital bed, opened the door and walked out of the room, and saw that there were many patients, nurses and doctors coming and going in the corridor outside the ward.
This place made me feel very strange. I am sure I have never been to such a place before. As I walked, I slowly observed the situation here.
Cheng Jiannu
I heard a woman behind me shouting loudly, but I didn't turn around to look at her because she wasn't calling me
Clinic Cheng, why are you running out again? It was the woman's voice again. This time she seemed to come behind me and grabbed one of my arms with her hands.
Are you calling me? At this moment, I stopped myself, turned my head and asked her in confusion.
Who else can you call me if I don’t call you?
Sorry, sister, you have recognized the wrong person. My surname is not Cheng, my surname is... By the way, what is my surname? I thought carefully about why I suddenly couldn't remember my name, why is this happening, who am I?
Patient Cheng, your condition is now very serious. Do you know? I tell you, don’t run around anymore. Yesterday afternoon, you suddenly ran out of the ward and disappeared for several hours. In the end, the doctor from our hospital drove a car next to a hotel where the wedding banquet was held. You said what you want to do, do you still want to treat the disease? Do you don’t know what your situation is now? Come back with me quickly, I’m going to give you an infusion now.
Let go, I tell you, you have recognized the wrong person, I am not the person you mentioned at all, why did you give me an infusion? I am not sick, please let me go, I am leaving, I want to go home
Xiao Wang, Xiao Li, you two come here and help me pull this patient into the house
As soon as the female nurse finished speaking, she walked towards me from a distance. Two male staff members in white coats pulled one of my arms and pulled me into the ward where I just came out.
What are you going to do... I'm not sick... I'm not sick... Why do you catch me... You bastards... Let me go quickly
However, they ignored any of my shouts. After the two men pressed me on the bed, the female nurse held the needle on the infusion tube and stabbed it hard into my arm.
Ah... I suddenly woke up from the screams in pain. A thick layer of sweat oozed out of my forehead. When I opened my eyes, I saw Dr. Hao, Pan Wen, and Xiao Yan, all staring at me with strange eyes, as if I had just seen something very incredible, and Pan Wen and Xiao Yan and the others had already stood up, lying tightly beside me, pressing my arms separately
Chen Lin, are you awake? Xiaoyan called my name first
As soon as I opened my eyes, I suddenly felt that my head was so uncomfortable. The clips I just saw in my dream began to play repeatedly in my mind.
My head hurts so much, Dr. Hao, my head hurts so much
Xiao Chen, please calm down quickly and don’t think about anything
Listening to Dr. Hao's instructions, I wanted to force myself to calm down, but it was useless. The clips in the dream were like camera films. The clearly visible lenses inside were spinning rapidly in my mind, the speed was getting faster and faster, and my head was getting more and more painful.
Chen Lin…
I feel so uncomfortable, I feel so uncomfortable...
Chen Lin…
Don't touch me, don't touch me... My head hurts more and more, and it's still swollen. The blood vessels on both sides of my forehead also seem to feel like they are about to burst. I pushed them away hard, sat up suddenly from the sofa lying down, and then quickly rushed out of Dr. Hao's room
Chen Lin, stop... Xiaoyan shouted to me behind her
What's wrong with me? I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel that my whole body is so uncomfortable. The pain caused to me by my head. Even when I had a drug addiction attack before, I didn't feel that there would be such pain. Why is this happening? Just in Dr. Hao's room, after I hypnotized, what did she do to me? Why am I like this?
I was confused and followed the stairs on the second floor and ran out of the psychological medical center in one breath, then came to the roadside, and was drowsy and wanted to cross the road.
Chen Lin, be careful and dodge... Just after hearing Xiaoyan's reminder, I felt that my body was hit by a powerful thing, and I fell to the ground. My head was heavily hit on the hard ground paved by the asphalt road. After a little pain, my eyes turned dark and I no longer felt it...
When I woke up again, I opened my eyes and found myself leaning on Xiaoyan's shoulder, while we were sitting in a strange car, Pan Wen was sitting in the passenger seat, the driver's seat was a female driver I didn't know was driving.
Where are we going? I turned around and asked Xiaoyan
Oh, little brother, you are awake. You scared me to death just now. Why don’t you look at the road when you cross the road? The female driver sitting in the driver’s seat said
Chen Lin, you are awake, how are you in good health? Xiaoyan and Pan Wen asked me at the same time
How is my health?
Listening to their quizzes, I began to slowly recall what happened just now. At this moment, in my mind, I suddenly remembered a lot of things, a lot of things about the things between me and my mother:
When my mother and I were lying on the same bed, I hugged her tightly. The words I said to my mother in my heart, I will love her like a man in the future, protect her for the rest of my life, and prevent her from being wronged or hurt...
When I was in our hometown, I carried my mother in the small house in the field to shelter from the rain. At that time, my mother sprained her ankle, and I asked her to sit on a stone bench and press her feet gently. At that time, my hands slowly moved upwards, moved past my mother's knees, and my head also raised. Just a little, I kissed my mother...
When we were worshiping the gods at Uncle Zhang’s old temple fair together, I made a silent wish to the gods in the temple. I hope I can be with this woman around me for the rest of my life, and never be separated from pain or happiness...
On the bed where I was sick and hospitalized, that night, my mother and I lay together. Because of my condition, my mother was really sad. I saw with my own eyes that my mother shed tears in front of me.
Just the night before I had the surgery, on the hospital bed, my mother and I hugged each other and we kissed each other. We put our tongues into each other's mouths. I lifted my mother's bra and lay on her chest and kissed her breasts obsessively. All of this, everything that happened in those months, I remember all of this now.
Chen Lin, are you okay? Xiaoyan asked me again
Xiaoyan, where are we going?
You just got knocked out, we are going to the hospital
Go to the hospital? Why do you have to go to the hospital? I'm fine now, I want to go home
Even if you have nothing to do, go to the hospital for a check-up. If something goes wrong with your body in the future, and you will find trouble for me, what should you do if you ask me to do? The female driver also persuaded me
Don't worry, even if I suddenly die tomorrow, I will not be on your head. You can turn around quickly and drive me home. I'm going to go home now.
Chen Lin, look at your head, it was swollen with a big bag
I want to go home I shouted at them loudly, and the car suddenly became silent. They didn't react to my sudden anger for a moment.
Sorry, Xiaoyan, I shouldn't be angry at you. I'm really fine. I just kowtowed just now. Although it still hurts a little, my body is not seriously injured. I want to go home quickly now. I really have something important to go home now.
Brother, this is what you said. It’s not that I won’t take you to the hospital, it’s because you said you don’t need to go. If you feel uncomfortable in the future, can’t you come to cheat me Ah?
Well, don't worry, I keep my word and don't believe it. You can record my words as evidence. Just take me home now.
Then the female driver turned the head of the car
After the car drove to the entrance of the community, I quickly got out of the car and ran back to my house. After I took out the key and opened the door, I vaguely heard the sound of the washing machine coming from the laundry room next to the veranda. I immediately ran towards the laundry room, and my mother also heard the door ringing and walked out of the laundry room.
After seeing my mother, I immediately threw myself on her and hugged her tightly in my arms.
At this moment, I could no longer suppress the pain in my heart. Tears dripped down instantly, and I kept shouting in disobediently: Mom...Mom...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Mom gently patted my back with her hands twice
I didn't say anything, and continued to hug her tightly. Tears in my eyes continued to flow out, but I kept trying to hold back and didn't let myself cry...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Why do you do this? Tell your mother quickly that having your mother here will not let you suffer any grievances outside
Don't let me suffer any grievances outside...
When my mother said this, my heart was bleeding. This is how my mother was silently enduring the bullying of her by outsiders again and again, enduring my misunderstanding of her again and again, and my contemptuous eyes.
I clearly remember that during the time when I lost my memory, when I saw Zhao Huaiye coming to my house, I had a big quarrel with my mother and even almost raped her on the bed. I once swore to myself in my heart that I would protect my mother well in the future and not let her suffer any harm, but I forgot all this vow, and my heart was really painful...
Lin Lin, stop crying, look at the door, Mom took a photo of me twice again
At this time, I turned my head and saw Xiaoyan and Pan Wen standing at the door of my house, because when I ran in just now, I didn't close the door.
I immediately let go of my hands, wiped the tears from my eyes with my sleeves on my back, then turned around and invited them in, sat on the sofa in the living room, my mother poured them two drinks. Xiaoyan saw her mother washing clothes, took the initiative to go over and ask her to help her mother.
After my mother and Xiaoyan entered the laundry room, I told Pan Wen that all my memory has recovered now.
Pan Wen was overjoyed after hearing this and said that after my family came, I told them, "Don't tell them first, I will tell them slowly when the time comes. Pan Wen nodded at me."
Afterwards, I asked Pan Wen, how did you get together with Gu Jiayi?
Because I knew in my heart that Gu Jiayi was a homosexual. She was so crazy about her mother before. She even told me at school that she would be my girlfriend, so that she would be able to get close to my mother in the future.
Now, I have seen Pan Wen and Gu Jiayi go out and go out again and again, and it is obviously a couple
So, I'm very curious, what ability did Pan Wen use to get this beautiful woman into his pocket
Because I have recovered my memory now, I once told Pan Wen that one of my female classmates is gay. After Pan Wen came into contact with Gu Jiayi, he knew in his heart that the female classmates I was talking about was Gu Jiayi. So when he saw Gu Jiayi at the medical center that time, Pan Wen also told me that if I recovered my memory, I would know in my heart why Gu Jiayi appeared here.
So, Pan Wen no longer hides from me and slowly tells me the experience of his acquaintance with Gu Jiayi.
One night, my friend and I went to a bar and saw Jiayi sitting there alone and getting drunk. She sat there and drank a lot of wine. When my friend and I were about to leave, we saw two little hooligans walking to her and touching her. After seeing this, my friend and I drove the two little hooligans away. I was about to ask her if she had anything to do, but she grabbed the clothes and got drunk and said to me: Why don’t you like me? Why have you always avoided me recently? What’s wrong with me? Tell me, I will change, I will definitely change. As long as you are willing to pay attention to me, I am willing to do anything for you.
Listening to the drunken words she said, I realized at that time that she must have been heartbroken. She could sit here alone and drink so much wine. It seems that she loves each other so much.
Then, my friend urged me to let me go, but when she saw her drunken look, I was worried that after I left like this, a little hooligan came to bully her, so he found her cell phone from her bag. When he was taking her cell phone, he saw her student ID in her bag. After reading it, I realized that she and you were from the same school. Then I found his father's number in her cell phone and notified his parents. Then his parents came here and picked up Jiayi.
Actually, when I first met Jiayi in a bar, I fell in love with her. Jiayi is the most touching girl I have ever seen in these years. This may be the so-called love at first sight. When I called his father, I also paid attention to her mobile phone number. The next morning, I took the time to call her and greet her. I drank so much wine yesterday, did you feel uncomfortable today.
Then she asked me, who am I? I told her that I was the boy who called your father last night and asked him to pick you up. After hearing this, she expressed her gratitude to me. Although she almost didn't remember anything about what happened last night, his father told her that if it weren't for me, she would have been bullied by the hooligans in the bar last night.
Later, I kept calling her twice with shame. I felt that they were a little familiar with each other, so I told her about my profession. But I didn't expect that after she heard me say that I was a psychologist, she suddenly changed her temperament and scolded me in very vicious words, saying that the psychologist she hated the most in her life, and told me not to call her in the future. Then, she hung up the phone.
At that time, I was completely confused by her sudden insult. I was thinking, what did I say to make her mess with? After thinking about it, I couldn't think of any reason. After that, I continued to call her and ask her what was going on? But she didn't answer my phone call at all.
I originally thought, let's forget it. Maybe they don't have any intention of me at all. I was so passionate about myself. But after thinking about it for a few nights, I still felt unwilling to give up. Even if I die, I should understand. So I went to your school in person. I was embarrassed to go in and find her, so I waited at your school gate. That day, I waited from morning until afternoon, and finally saw her. She and a classmate left the school gate. I walked over. Gu Jiayi told me that she was in a bad mood that day, so she told me not to mind. But she also said that she didn't want to make friends with me in the future, so she told me not to contact her again.
When I came back, I wondered why things suddenly turned out like this. It was all good. I just reported my career to her, but her temperament suddenly changed. At this time, I immediately remembered you. You seemed to tell me before, one of your female classmates was suffering from homosexuality. Is the girl you mentioned Gu Jiayi? If this is the case, then it is completely understandable why she would have such a big reaction when she heard about my career.
After thinking about it for a few days, I still couldn't forget her. I was unwilling to miss this opportunity. I plucked up the courage to come to your school to find her again. After I saw her at the school gate, I told her in the most direct way: I know you are a homosexual, and I also know that you are caused by a psychologist. But what I want to tell you is that not all psychologists are beasts. I hope you can give me a chance and I will do my best to help you.
She was very curious after hearing what I said, and almost got angry and irritated. She beat me at the school gate. Maybe because there were too many people, she held back. But when I said these words, my voice was very low. It shouldn't be heard by outsiders, she began to question me, why did I know these things? I didn't say it at first, but then she thought about it and actually connected me with the psychologist who had hurt her before and asked us what was our relationship? Hearing that she connected me with the kind of morally corrupt person, I really had no choice, so... So, I told you, saying that you told me through the Internet, don't blame me for this, if I don't say that, I will be even more hopeless.
I said: You are really good, take me out as a shield. Gu Jiayi doesn't know about her private affairs that I know. Forget it, just say it, it doesn't matter now.
Then Pan Wen continued: About a week later, Jiayi called me and said she was willing to come to me to try it. I started treating Jiayi. Just a month ago, Jiayi had already agreed to be my girlfriend and try to get along with me.
Is that true? Is Gu Jiayi's condition cured now?
I don't think it's completely better yet, but I won't give up. I will definitely correct her sexual orientation. I believe I will succeed.
Wish you success
Thanks!
After Xiaoyan finished washing her mother's clothes, they both walked out. Not long after, Pan Wen told me that she was leaving. Xiaoyan also said that she was leaving, so I accompanied them to the entrance of the community.
A taxi came soon, Pan Wen got into the car first, but Xiaoyan said it was not easy to get on.
After Pan Wen left, Xiaoyan grabbed my hand and asked me: Chen Lin, how are you doing now?
How about it? Tell you, my memory has been completely restored
Yes, really, that's great
Although Xiaoyan said this, I saw that there was no expression of joy for me on her face. Then I said: Xiaoyan, aren’t you happy for me?
Chen Lin, when you were in the psychiatric medical center just now, you looked so terrible after being hypnotized
It turned out that Xiaoyan was worried about this. When she said this, I remembered it. When I rushed out of the medical center just now, I forgot something. Pan Wen must have recorded the entire process of hypnosis for me in a video. When I have time tomorrow, I will go and see what I was like at that time, and what I encountered in my dreams before. Why do I often dream about things that have never happened to me before.
Chen Lin, are you okay?
Don't worry, I'm fine anymore. The hypnosis that Dr. Hao did for me before. You don't understand. It's like that after hypnosis. I just had some nightmares in my dream.
Is that true? Chen Lin, but I looked at you and I was worried that you would do something extreme. If you do that, not only will I be sad, but your mother will be even more sad when she knows
I understand, I won't do stupid things, Xiaoyan, during my memory loss, I have done a lot of things that I'm sorry for you, I hope you don't blame me.
I have never blamed you, because in my heart, you are not only my boyfriend, but also a kind-hearted person
Xiaoyan and I hugged each other again. After a long time, I sent her away.
I turned around and went home after watching Xiaoyan disappearing in the taxi. After I got home, I saw my mother sitting on the sofa watching TV. My mother asked me, have you sent my friends away?
I nodded at her, then sat next to my mother and chatted with her
Not long after, I suddenly remembered the QQ that I had not logged in for a long time. It was a QQ number that was specially communicated with my mother in the name of a psychologist. In it, I almost became a friend who could talk to me with everything, and I would know everything my mother had.
I said to my mother, I was a little sleepy and wanted to go back to the house for a while, so I immediately returned to the room, turned on the computer, just logged in to this QQ named after Teacher Wu, and saw my mother's QQ number calling me, but the avatar was black. When I clicked on the avatar, I found that it was all messages from different dates and time periods. The content of the messages was relatively short. I took a look at it casually. These messages started before and after I fainted at school and was hospitalized.
Sister Wu, are you here? Date, August 25th
Sister Wu, why haven’t you seen you online recently? Date, August 27
Sister Wu, something happened to my son. I feel very painful. I really want to talk to you. My son has a brain tumor. He is still so young now, but he has to suffer such a crime. It’s all my fault that I am a mother.
Date August 30
(Sister Wu, today the doctor performed my child's surgery. The operation was very successful. The doctor said that there will be no sequelae in the future. Seeing that Lin Lin is fine, the stone in my heart finally fell down, but after the operation, some small problems occurred. My child lost his memory. He forgot everything that happened in the recent period. In fact, the doctor had told me before the operation that the tumor had been pressing on his brain nerves. After the tumor was removed, the child might have short-term indirect amnesia, but the lost memories will slowly recover over time.
Sister Wu, you guessed it right before. The things I told you about my colleague and her son actually happened to me, and just last night, I almost had a relationship with my child.
At that time, he had reached into my clothes, and I stopped him with my hands in time. If he had been more determined at that time, I would like to...
I might compromise with him
I know that when I told you this, you will definitely think that I am a shameless woman, and I am not worthy of being a mother, but my heart is really painful. I don’t know when he started to have this idea about me. In fact, I have vaguely felt it before. He looked at me in the eyes recently, and he took the initiative to come over to kiss me several times. He also secretly masturbated in my underwear in the bathroom. But I just acted as if nothing had happened, so as not to hurt his self-esteem
But this is not the only thing. I suddenly realized that from when I started, I also had some emotions towards him that were beyond maternal love. I knew it was ridiculous to have such thoughts. But every time he wanted to get close to me, looking at Lin Lin's face and his eyes looking at me, I could not refuse him at all. I love my children, I can give everything for him. I know that I am not a qualified mother. I seduced my son. A woman like me should go to hell, but my heart is really painful. I really want to talk to you about it.)
Date, September 5
This time my mother said a lot and talked a lot to me, the so-called Sister Wu. I believe that all the words my mother said were sincere.
It turns out that in her heart, she had already had the same thoughts as I had about her.
In our hearts, in addition to our intimate mother-son relationship that no one can replace, we also have a very special and wonderful feeling. Is this feeling considered a kind of love? We didn't take the initiative to think about it, didn't take the initiative to face this emotion, or even deliberately escaped it.
Because my mother thinks that the feelings that we have between us are immoral, and this kind of feelings will be despised and cannot be allowed by the world
Mom, no matter how this relationship between us will develop in the future, we will always be the closest mother and son in the world, and this will never change. I love my mother, and my mother loves me. We all regard each other as the most important person around us. As long as we have this, I think this is enough. There is no need to do it so clearly.
Now that my memories have all been restored, I still remember that night deeply, clearly remembering those things, as if they had just happened yesterday
That night, my mother and I were lying on the bed. I had already reached my hand into my mother's underwear. At that critical moment, I was only one step away. Just give me a few more seconds. When I pulled off the underwear that my mother was wearing, I could have a physical intimate contact with my mother and let her truly become my woman.
Unfortunately, in the end, we did not break through this wall that was about to collapse. My mother just helped me vent it with her hands.
Thinking about it now, I really feel a little regretful. At that time, I could really be more decisive.
After that, the messages on QQ disappeared because my mother saw me not online for a long time and stopped leaving me messages?
At this time, I seemed to remember that I told my mother that if she had anything to talk to me and I happened to be online, she could send it to my email address
Then, I clicked on the email address named after this QQ number and saw an email from my mother. I opened the email and looked carefully:
(Sister Wu, I haven't seen you for a long time. Calculate that it's been about 1 or 2 months. I don't know why you don't go online now. Maybe it's because you're busy with work and have no time recently. Maybe some other reason is that you're not going online.
Sister Wu, you are a friend who can really see through my mind. When I was chatting with you in the past, as long as I said it at the beginning, you will immediately understand what I want to say to you later, and even what I was thinking in my heart. You are very clear about it.
You are a friend who understands me so much. I really miss you now. I want to tell you a lot of pain in my heart. I hope you can help me
During this period, I really lived a life worse than death. I spent every day hard in pain. If it weren't for my child, I'd probably have chosen to commit suicide long ago.
Sister Wu, do you still remember the person I told you some time ago who came to our company to advertise. His name is Pang Biao. It turns out that since we first met, he has never been kind to you.
Once, he suddenly called me to find him. I was not familiar with him, so I didn't agree. But he told me on the phone that there were some things on his hands about my Linlin, and he also said that I must be interested in reading it. If I can't get over, I will definitely regret it. He is waiting for me in the garage next to the company for 5 minutes.
When I heard him say it was something related to Linlin, I suddenly felt very worried, so I quickly went downstairs
When I arrived at the garage and saw him, he handed me some photos. I saw that there were photos of Lin Lin and other women undressing each other. When I saw these photos, I was stunned. I could hardly believe that the boy in the photo would be my child. Then he told me that the women in the photo were all prostitutes. My son ran to his dance hall to summon prostitutes at night...
I don’t believe what he said. I know my child. I don’t believe that Linlin of my family would be such a person. Then I asked him if these things were arranged deliberately by him, why did he harm my child?
He did not answer my question, but then said many dirty words to me, saying that as long as he could hold me and kiss me a few times, he would return these photos and negatives to me.
I disagree. I told him that I could give him money. He said he didn't need it and threatened me that if he didn't agree to his request, he would find someone to spread these photos to Linlin's school.
I told him that if he dared to do this, I would call the police, but after hearing this, he didn't care at all, saying that the public security bureau was full of his friends
Seeing that I didn't agree, he asked me to get out of the car and drive away. At that time, I really had no choice. I couldn't let him leave here with these photos. He was a hooligan who could do anything.
For my child, I can only endure this once
After he left, although he handed me all the photos and negatives in his hand, I was still very worried, worried that this man would lie to my son behind his back again
After Lin Lin came back tonight, I didn't tell him directly, but told him from the side that he would not go to dance halls, KTVs and other places in the future.
But I was just about to persuade him, Lin Lin's temper suddenly became very strange, and he got angry at me. This was the first time Lin Lin got angry at me. I don't know why he suddenly became like this. Even if Lin Lin was angry at me, he would only pretend to ignore me and never got angry with me, my mother.
Later, as I was worried, Pang Biao did not give up. He once again threatened me on the phone and called me to his dance hall. Then he took out some photos for me to show. The photos I showed me this time were photos of Lin Lin taking drugs. When I saw Lin Lin taking drugs, my whole heart was broken.
Lin Lin, my family, has never even smoked cigarettes, but now she is addicted to drugs. It must be him, he, the bastard, instigated my child to do this. I really didn't expect that he would be so cruel as to how cruel he was.
This time he admitted it very simply and told me clearly that these things were done by him.
Then, I was about to take out the phone and prepare to call the police. As soon as I reached into my bag, he handed me his phone and said to me, "Do I need to call the police?" Tell the police that your child is taking drugs from me, and you told them that I instigated him. Do you have any evidence?"
Don't you know what I do? Let me tell you, I have many acquaintances in the Public Security Bureau. If you don't have any evidence, you want to blame me for no reason. Who will listen to you
Then, he actually called 110 with his cell phone, and then placed the cell phone next to my ear. At that time, I heard a woman's voice speaking on the other end of the phone
At that moment, I was stunned and couldn't say anything, because I didn't know what to say. I was afraid that once I said the wrong thing, I would harm my child
It was not until half a minute later that he hung up the phone
Then he continued to threaten me and told me that my child had only come to him to take meth once, and he was not addicted yet. Only I promised to sleep with him. He promised not to harass my child again in the future. If I don't agree, he will come to torture my child endlessly in the future, and he will also send these photos to my child's school to let my child go to jail at that time.
Then I beg him, beg him not to do this, I can give him as much money as he wants, beg him to let us go
But he told me that he didn't care about money at all, and the only condition to exchange with him was: I wanted me to sleep with him
The condition he proposed was so shameless, I wouldn't agree even if I die
After that, he did not force me, but turned around and left. Before leaving, he told me that he would go out and ask his subordinates to spread these photos to my son's school.
I couldn't let him do this anyway, so I pulled him tightly, continued to beg him, and told him that I promised him everything except this, and kept begging him, and I almost knelt down for him, hoping that he would not make things difficult for us anymore
But he said he didn't want anything else, he just wanted my body, as long as I could give him once, he promised not to harass us again
My whole body was broken at that time. I had no strength to answer his question, but grabbed him tightly and refused to let him go.
Not long after, he threw me away again and wanted to leave here. When he walked to the door, I ran over and grabbed him tightly. I really had no other way. I couldn't let him walk out of this door, otherwise how could my Linlin live in the future? He was still so young and had to face other people's fingers in the future. I really had no choice. For my child, I could only be forced to surrender to this man.
Afterwards, in this room, he forced me to have sex with him
After I left here, I saw Lin Lin coming back in the evening. He admitted that he was taking drugs, but told me that he was not addicted and promised not to suck again in the future.
However, I don't believe what he said. I'm afraid that this child is lying to me. How can it be so easy to quit if he gets addicted to drugs?
I didn't let Lin Lin go to school for several days. I kept watching him at home for about a week. He was acting very normal. At night, I secretly lay on his door and didn't hear any abnormal movement inside. He really didn't seem to be addicted to drugs. Now I felt relieved. Later, after Lin Lin went to school, I drove at Lin Lin's school and monitored him for a few days. I also saw him and his classmates leaving the school gate to play outside and buying food outside, but I didn't see Lin Lin going to the dance hall.
Once the man succeeds in the magic trick, he will only be more and more arrogant. It is not easy to let us go like this. Everyone understands this principle. Although he said that he only had this time with me, he would never let me go like this.
Afterwards, I remembered a colleague from my company. Her boyfriend worked in the police station. I asked them out for dinner and asked him from the side to see if the words Pang Biao said to me before were deliberately scaring me.
I asked him, did you know that someone else was talking about prostitution in the dance hall on XX Road, and there were people taking drugs inside. Don’t you know about it?
He told me that the boss of the dance hall has a very background. They had checked it once before, but the leader above handed it to not go to the dance hall. So, even if they knew that the dance hall was a dirty place, and there were many people who reported it, no one went to the police to check them.
Hearing him say this, it turns out to be so calm. No wonder Pang Biao was so calm when he threatened me.
After two days, Pang Biao came to me again. This time he was even more shameless than the last request. This time he came not only to let me have sex with him, but to be his lover.
I am not afraid of him. If it were just me, I would not surrender to him, a bastard, even if I died, but this man saw my weakness. He threatened me again and again with my son's safety and forced me to have sex with him. He told me that if I dare not listen to him, he could just move his fingers and let my child corpse on the street
Later, I didn't give up and wrote several anonymous letters to the leaders of the municipal bureau, but none of them turned out to be successful. Once I saw the police car from the Public Security Bureau coming to him to check, but in less than 24 hours, his dance hall was open again.
Later I found a lawyer again to see if he could help me with some advice, but Pang Biao seemed to have sent someone to follow me behind and asked someone to beat the lawyer. The lawyer would no longer dare to care about my affairs.
Anyway, I thought about it and I had no choice but to do anything to him. Is this really a society without a king?
Why can evil people be so domineering
When I think of my poor child, I am really afraid that Pang Biao will cause trouble for him again. I can no longer let him get hurt. For him, I can give everything I have.
As long as my child lives well, I can grit my teeth and endure this man
Later, when he threatened me again, I told the man that I could agree to his request, but I also had a condition, that is, he must promise me that he would not harass my children again in the future, let my children step into his dance hall, and not lure my children to get drugs again
He agreed to all these things and sweared to me in front of me. What else can I do now? I can only hope that this bastard can keep his word this time
So I surrendered to him and could only endure his hellish torture in bed again and again. Once, I couldn't stand it and wanted to commit suicide with a glass piece of wrist cutting. After seeing it, he hit me and even made a harsh word to me. If I couldn't think about it, he would throw my child into the river to feed the fish, and let us mother and son meet in the underworld.
For my child, I can only endure it silently)
Date: October 20
Looking at my mother's email, my tears kept flowing down. This email was written before my mother knew that I had not quit drug addiction.
During the period when I lost my memory, I always thought in my heart that it was because my mother's own disgraceful scandal was discovered by Pang Biao, and then Pang Biao threatened her with these things, forcing her to have sex with her again and again (it seems that the photos Pang Biao asked me to see at that time had a big problem)
It turns out that in the end, the culprit of the whole thing was myself, and I used my own hands to push the woman I loved the most in my life into the hands of others.
During that period, my mother had been enduring the endless humiliation and torture of that man so hard. This was a torture that was a hundred times more painful than death. She thought that if she did this, Pang Biao would really stop harassing me. She was just giving everything she had done for me, a waste who was worse than a pig, who was silently accused of giving everything she had done.
After watching it, I burst into tears again, crying heart-wrenchingly. As tears burst out like a flood, the regret, anger, despair, and hatred in my heart were constantly released.
I think this is the first time since I grew up, I feel so painful. The first time I feel that a person can be so sad. The first time I start to hate myself from the bottom of my heart. The woman I love the most suffered such a great humiliation for me, but I didn't understand her at all. Even during that period, I spoke badly to her, quarreled with her at home, and even attacked her. And I have scolded her more than once in my heart as a shameless woman, a shameless slut, and I feel ashamed of having a mother like her in my heart.
Now thinking about it, how ridiculous, how ignorant I am, how foolish I am
I sat here and cried for a long time. As tears and emotions were constantly released, but the grief in my heart did not fade, but became stronger and stronger. I even started when it started. My body trembled instinctively, and my whole body trembled violently as if it was uncontrollably. My chest slowly felt a burst of pain, getting worse and worse. The pain made me bent down and kneel on the ground next to me.
At this time, my mother seemed to hear the crying in my room outside. She slapped my door outside and called my name: Linlin, what's wrong with you in the room?
Seeing that I didn't respond, my mother pushed open the door hard, saw my uncomfortable look, quickly walked to me, helped me up, and said to me nervously: Linlin, what's wrong with you?
Mom...I'm in pain...I'm in pain...
Lin Lin…
Mom, I'm not a human, I'm not a human...
Linlin, what did you say?
Mom, I'm not a human, I'm not a human
I held my mother's arm, looked at her sadly, and called her over and over again with a hoarse voice. At this time, I felt very uncomfortable in my chest, as if a huge stone was blocking my chest, slamming my heart heavily, making me feel very difficult to breathe. I couldn't help but lower my head again, and began to retching continuously. I vomited several times, vomiting one after another, and vomited pieces of things like saliva or stomach acid, but in these transparent liquids, there was a lot of blood mixed with...
Lin Lin, what's wrong with you? Don't scare your mother, Lin Lin Lin... Lin Lin Lin... Don't scare your mother Ah...
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