postscript

Jen and I moved back to our loft apartment again

Things didn't return to normal immediately

We were both deeply hurt, we often held hands, kissed, took long walks, snuggled, and made love

It takes time, but we are healing

A few weeks after moving back together, we called each other with our original intimate name Baby

Using this as a measure of how well we heal, it might sound like a stupid thing, but when she calls me baby again, it means a lot to me, and I can hear her love in my heart from it (rather than anger and hurt)

When I called her back to baby, I think it might mean more to her

Shortly after we got back together, she surprised me to see her wedding and engagement ring

After I threw them out the window, she found them

She left crying and I was at a loss

It touched me deeply, and even though I hurt her so much, she still took the time to retrieve the ring

I fell to my knees and put them on her fingers

I know it's stupid, but that's what I did at the time

When I put them back on her hands, she cried, we both snuggled together, kissed and had sex all night long

We talked a lot, including everything, as part of our recovery, and we talked about our sexual fantasy, which is what we have to do

Now these sexual fantasies contain too much of us in it, we cannot ignore them, we have learned a lot from ourselves

Cherish the excitement of being a bad girl

She likes all kinds of men

She likes a lot of sex, she admits that she may have become a large-sized queen, attracted by handsome men with strong bodies and big penis, and the potential submissive traits open up her inner tendency to be with some alpha-like men.

She couldn't keep having sex with the same man and ended up not developing emotions

In addition, she may easily be lost in the arms of another man, at least until the obsession fades, and the intimate and romantic romance is part of her thrilling pleasure.

This is like the things that happened to her and Ricky. Although she finally got separated, it took a long time, and it was even longer than the love story in the movie "Love You for 9 and a half weeks"

My sexual fantasy is that she and other men, of course my sexual fantasy involves some humiliation

I like her comparing me and her lover, I like her flirting with other men in front of me

I like her lover who prefers her to ignore me

My strongest sexual fantasy is when she and her lover develop emotions

The danger of losing her makes me even more excited

And anxiety and jealousy make my excitement stronger

Obviously, we are a dangerous combination

Looking back, everything that happened with Ricky was a perfect sexual fantasy

However, it almost tore us apart

I don't know if we can play this kind of game again

I mean, where is the boundary?

Jen's weight is back, thankfully she's still slim, but again recovers health as for me, I've also started trying to go to the gym to lose weight

Sometimes we talk about Ricky I guess he loves her, and in his own way she may still love him a little bit, and you always have some lingering feelings about an old boyfriend or girlfriend

When she broke up with him, he was torn

He is a mess, which is why she feels that she owes him and wants to go to California to help him place it.

But she went to California (and came back) mainly to prove it to me, she had finished with him

She never slept with him since Cancun

I didn't feel sorry for Ricky, I shared my girl to him, what he rewarded me was trying to steal her from me

She told me that she no longer wears stockings for him in Cancun

He insisted that I bring them, but I couldn't wear them even if I brought them. It was too hot there

She stroked my cheek and said: I want to wear them for you

In fact, her stockings were brought home, it was still unopened in a mezzanine zipper pocket, I didn't open it to see

Stockings are not cheap, she said

I told her how she hurt my heart when she suggested that I go on a date with other girls

She told me that it was Ricky's idea

She said she became friends with Claire so she could monitor me

She said she was still very jealous of Claire, but she didn't think I would really like brown hair, at least not a blonde fool like me

That's why, when she came home from Cancun, she was so depressed to see Claire's blonde hair

When it comes to her birth control pills, she is always a little forgetful

Often she would forget to take it for one or two days, and after we got engaged, it became worse because she thought that if she got pregnant, there wouldn't be any big problem.

A few weeks before her trip to Cancun, she was late

She was afraid that she would get pregnant because during that period, she happened to have not taken birth control pills properly

If you are pregnant, it will almost certainly be Ricky's, because they often had sex all the time, and we rarely had sex

Thank God, her period is just late and she is not pregnant

But this is a reality that tests her. At this point, her obsession with Ricky's bubble burst, and she begins to think about breaking up with him

When Jen told me that I might be pregnant, my stomach was so sad that I was churning.

As a Catholic, I know she will leave her baby

If she was pregnant with his baby, could our marriage survive?

At the same time, when I thought that her belly was getting older and older with Ricky's child, I felt as firm as a rock.

But I never mentioned this on our pillows because it scared me

I'm really good at having her orgasm

I licked and nipped her clitoris, and as she approached the tipping point, I inserted a finger to find her G-spot (it wasn't too difficult after I first discovered it)

I licked her clitoris and tried my best to stroke her G-spot, which never failed and gave her an exciting orgasm

I always pay a lot of attention to her breasts and nipples, and I touched her other sexy areas like her ankles, behind her knees, under her ears, neck under her ears

I also went to new places, like licking and wiggling her anus around with my tongue

Maybe I don't have a muscular body and big cock like Ricky, but I want to give her as much pleasure, and she always surprises me. After I let her reach orgasm, seeing the satisfied look on her face is the reward I want the most

When we were out, the man was still pestering her

I mean, it never stopped, she was strikingly gorgeous

At first we were too fragile, but in the end we had to get back our sexual magic

I caught her staring at a handsome guy. When he teases her, she will blush.

If this guy was bold enough to bother her, she would have a relationship with him for a while

And give me a sly smile

After that, we always have great sex

Our sexual fantasies are too strong to be suppressed forever

About six months after we got back together, I watched her have sex with another man

We have no plans

We went to a party, a place you were invited to but most of you didn't know

When I came back from getting our drinks, I saw someone talking to her

From her body language, I can tell that she is interested in him

I immediately hesitated and watched them flirt with each other

She saw me hesitating

She smiled at me secretly and continued to flirt with him

They danced slow dances, gave him a chance to touch her strong ass, and gave her a chance to feel his strong body and cling to her big cock

Do you want to fuck him? When he went to the bathroom, I asked her and I knew she wanted to have a flushing face.

Do you want me to do it?

It's Ah, baby, I want to see him fuck you

We drove to a hotel room (I didn't want to take him back to our apartment because I didn't want him to know where we live), and we took turns kissing her in the taxi

When the three of us started to be in bed, I gave in and watched

When he entered her body and started fucking her, she reached out and held my hand

He has a big dick and knows how to use it

She moaned under him and kept squirming like, she was like Ricky

I know she likes having sex with me, but that's for love, not for pleasure

It's all about pleasure with this guy

The expression on her face when she orgasm is indescribable

Knowing that I can't satisfy her like others is a little hurtful to me, but it also excites me too much

We asked him to wear a condom

She was taking birth control pills, but we didn't know him

Over the next few weeks we did more seductions and it made me excited to watch her dress and tease and be seduced as they were strangers, we always let them put on condoms.

Seduction is always exciting, but it is also lacking in something

We maintained these relationships in one-night stands, and even if they asked, I never let a person have Jen more than once, and without a second relationship there was definitely no date, we were both afraid of going on that road again

But our game seems to have lost something

For me, there is a lack of impatience and danger

For Jen, there was a lack of stimulation and romance (and, I felt that she began to feel lewd about all these meaningless one-night stands)

Jen's work mentor is Gary, an old guy in his early forties

When Jen first started working, he was in charge of training her and they became friends

Sometimes they go for lunch together

Jen was feeling down until we got back together, but Gary supported her, saving her from being fired (of course he didn't know anything about Ricky, he only knew there was something wrong with her and me)

Although he was fifteen years older, Jen always thought he was charming

He got married when he was young, but his wife unfortunately left in a car accident a few years before Jen met him

In the office circle, he has a big guy and a great reputation for bed kung fu (after his wife passed away, he dated some girls in the office)

Jen admits she slept with Gary before we got back together

There has always been sexual attraction between them

Gary had never pestered her before, but at that time, he thought Jen was single and had a chance.

Jen told me that she would go to his apartment, and she felt lonely and sad because she was separated from me.

She said that sex with him was incredibly good as Ricky's, but she never went to Gary's house again because she felt guilty and was looking forward to me back

Do you want to fuck him again? I asked, we have been playing our game again for several months now.

No…I mean good, but I don’t want to mislead him, I feel he’s looking for a long-term relationship

When she said long-term relationships, I kept thinking, I held my breath and looked for the ingredients that our game lacked

Maybe you should have asked him out for a date, I said hesitantly

She slowly turned her head and looked at me. Really?

What do you think? Are we ready?

She bent her legs, pushed to her chest, and placed her chin on her knees I'm not sure

Let me ask you, I said if we didn't get back together, would you have an appointment with him?

I don't know, I've never thought about this problem, maybe

But you like him

It's Ah, but...Mike...

I pinched her hand I knew it was dangerous

The real danger she said, squeezed back my hand

Do you think he will have a date with a married girl? You can ask him

She shuddered at the idea, but I think it was because of my excitement. I don't know Mike, what if the same thing happened again?

We've experienced it once and we've known more now. In consideration, I added: Let's discuss it a little more

She nodded. There were a lot of

Do you want to think about it again? I asked her

And you?

It's Ah, I pondered for a moment and said that I think so

She paused for a moment. OK, she said hesitantly: Then, I'm the same.

Therefore, we were thinking about this issue and talked a lot, and then we thought about it, and we talked a lot.

Then……