Chapter 35: Talking about hidden feelings

11days ago Rural fiction 8
After the car passed the dirt road and went onto the oil road, Fan Xia sighed and said: This person is such a monster. How to live and what to do in your life is really unexpected. It is hard to tell some people clearly. Haha, I just talk and do things so casually, but the way they take is so smooth. Some people don’t care if they fall into the oil world. They have to eat, have food, wear and wear

Do you believe in fate?

Haotian realized Fan Xia’s thoughts, so he asked

If you believe it, don’t believe it, don’t believe it. Just say Lanlan, it’s really hard. He found a man and was always a sick person. She actually didn’t want to do it at that time, but her parents insisted on asking for it. The disease is not a serious illness. But after finding it, the disease not only did not heal, but it was also worse day by day. It’s not surprising that even a child was not born and adopted the next one. Who knew that he did such a thing Lanlan was not a bad woman. He was afraid that others would suffer losses. Look at Liu Huahua, they were just so soup, but the whole family praised the children they gave birth to were smart. In this comparison, do you think it’s fate?

Fan Xia sighed again after saying that

Lanlan is an unintentional person, she has no vision and is too weak!

Haotian's view is different from Fan Xia

You said that Lanlan has no idea, is weak, and has no vision, but Liu Huahua has vision?

Fan Xia continued to talk about her own opinions through comparison

Liu Huahua is so healthy! If she has the vision, no one is afraid of anything anyway! But, as you say that, some things are just uncontrollable. But for example, Lanlan, who found a sick girl, must have never filed for divorce. If she divorced, would she still be as miserable as she is now? This is not uncontrollable! Haotian still insists on his opinion

She was kind-hearted. First, she hoped that the man would recover from illness, but later she had feelings for her and couldn't bear to part with her. Then, her mother's family didn't support her and she had some idea of ​​divorce. So she asked her parents to persuade her to go back. Lanlan told me that she could never make up her mind to divorce, mainly because the adults didn't ask her to divorce, and she admitted that she had no idea. She said that it was born and there was no way. She just thought to herself that if she couldn't do it, her parents would have to decide on it. But if she encountered such a parent, you think it was not fate?

Fan Xia once again found reasons to support her point of view

You said Lanlan was kind, but she got Hu Yi's virginity and later she got it. If she hadn't dumped it and Hu Yi returned to the village, maybe she could have found her. Wouldn't that be great?

Haotian continued to talk about his opinion

She dumped it because she couldn't stand Hu Yi's big stuff! It's strange to say that, how could she not stand it? Just say that she was small, Lanlan is the same as Hu Li. Not only can Hu Li be able to bear it, but she also loves her so much. Why is she afraid of it? If I were afraid of your big stuff, there would be no relationship today. I said this is fate.

Fan Xia's reasons seem to be getting more and more full

She can't compare with you. Just look at whether you have any ideas. You have a firm idea. She has no ideas. If you were like she had no ideas, I would have told you to dump it long ago.

Although Haotian thought Fan Xia's words made sense, he still found reasons to maintain his point of view.

Actually, I have no idea. If I had an idea, I would have divorced and found Liu Jin. If I had found Liu Jin back then, what would have happened later? How could I have developed such a relationship with you?

Fan Xia's reasons are always sufficient

Then you mean that your relationship with me is also destined?

Haotian took a step back

Can you say that it is not? People say that this is a coincidence all day long, that is a coincidence, what is a coincidence? Coincidence is something that seems to not happen. But when you think about it carefully, why is it a coincidence? Isn’t it destined to be destined?

Fan Xia's words seem to be impeccable

I can't tell you, it's just practicing my brain, you do have a quick response

Haotian praised Fan Xia again

You said me so well, but I was just praising me. I was actually not as good as you said? For big things, I am a woman after all, with long hair and short knowledge, which is far from men!

Fan Xia is always modest

That is to say, you can’t compare to Chang Yu’s father when doing big things?

Haotian grabbed an entrance

You really know how to find a gap. He looks like a man, but he is not qualified to be a man. This kind of man is not the only one. Take the people in our village for example. For example, Lu Zhongcheng and Miao Feng, they are all of the same type and they are not as good as men. I said I am not as good as men. It means that when encountering big things, they are much worse than men with masculine demeanor! Fan Xia sighed with emotion

I listen to you everywhere, isn't it enough for a man? Haotian asked deliberately

You are not that kind of person? If you were that kind of person, how could I treat you so infatuatedly? Don’t look at your young age. The masculine demeanor on you is too obvious. If you don’t have masculine demeanor, I will ignore you! Needless to say, now, when you are 18 years old, you can actually see something when you are 14 years old. Fan Xia said with relief.

Is my masculinity because I have grown up with a big and tough product?

Haotian said with a smile

Don't think it's because of that. That must be said to be a reason, but the macho demeanor must not only refer to that one. Fan Xia said seriously

Then you are not willing to give up? Haotian took the opportunity to ask

What a heart-wrenching heart?

Fan Xia asked back, although she knew what Haotian was talking about

Stay with me for the rest of your life!

Haotian is very simple

It depends on whether I have that fate. Even if I am destined, I can't go around. When I don't have fate, I will turn into ashes when I am about to become!

Fan Xia's voice obviously contains anxiety and temptation

Do you don't believe me, or do you don't want it in your heart? Haotian asked wisely

This kind of vows are useless. From now on, I believe you, I think you believe me, but this is now, it cannot represent the future. Who can predict the future? I have a premonition today, and I think that after I meet your father and mother this time, it will cause a lot of psychological burden on me. I don’t want to come today, but I am actually a little afraid of seeing them because I saw them this time and the last time I was obviously different.

Fan Xia took out her true meaning and said

That's because you denied your behavior. You feel that doing such a thing is a bit disgusting. I just want to ask you, are you really happy when you are with me?

Haotian asks the bottom line

Of course I feel happy. If I hadn't felt happy, I wouldn't have treated you like this. Just like, did you say that you can pretend to behave? It's really too conflicted to say that I'm in trouble, it's really too troublesome. But if I take the initiative to leave you, I really can't bear to leave you. I really can't do it unless you hate me and abandon me. What I want is sincerity. If you force me a little bit, I will never be devoted to it.

Fan Xia is tempted while telling the truth

Can you give me a firmer idea? If you do this, I will be really angry. I won't let you hesitate so much. My idea has already been decided. You know this. Think about me, a young man, who put aside urban life and returned to the village to rent and contract land without a firm will and determination? If it weren't for you, would I do this? If you still hesitate so much, wouldn't you deceive me? I will tell you again that as long as you feel happy, I will be willing to go through fire and water.

Haotian's tone is very firm

Since you said that, I will recognize my heart. I know the best. You know the best about your heart. I am not afraid of being with you. Because I am happy, what I worry most is that you will change your mind. I am at ease now. In your words, I am "totally devoted" but I still have something to say. Since you really want to marry me, you have to understand me comprehensively. You may think you already know me very well, but in fact, you don't understand some of my things.

Fan Xia was about to tell Haotian her secret story completely, so she said so

Your husband is Chang Hongyun, and he has no love relationship with you. You have lived with him for so many years because you have a common son. Out of responsibility and compassion, you have to live a life. In order to live a better life, you have to accept Zhao Yun's pursuit. As for the matter with Liu Jin, I saw it with my own eyes. He has no trace now. Time has changed, and I don't care at all. Why don't I understand you? You've enough! It's time for you to find your happiness. Pursuing happiness is your right, and a son who has grown up should also understand you! But if you don't understand, you can't let him deprive you of your right to pursue happiness!

Haotian persuades Fan Xia with the most sincere and touching words

What you said is obvious. I told you everything I want to tell you. It's not these, it's something I've told anyone.

Fan Xia's face was clearly nervous when she said this, although she was fully prepared.

She had already made plans in her heart, one is that she had to tell Haotian about this; but if Haotian's attitude made a big turn for her, she would also bear it.

Because she wants to fully present her heart to him

Haotian is her favorite. She feels that only by presenting her sincere heart to him can she be worthy of the person she loves the most.

Otherwise, she would not be able to express her most sincere love for him

Tell me, why are you nervous? As long as you are not still deeply in love with others, but love me, I will accept anything you have done before, and what I want is your true heart

Haotian's tone is open-minded and generous

Then I'll say, Changyu is not the seed of Chang's fortune

After Fan Xia finished speaking, tears suddenly poured out

Ah! You're not kidding!

Haotian couldn't help but say this, but when he thought that if she was joking, she would never cry, and she cried so sadly, he had to believe it.

He suddenly remembered some things he had heard when he was a child, so he said: Whose species is that? Could it be Zhang Huan's really? I have heard that Chang Yu is not like his father at all. He is a little like Zhang Huanzheng and later he heard that it may not be related to what he looks like. There are many places where Chang Yu looks like his second uncle.

Fan Xia sobbed in a low voice, constantly wiping her tears, unable to speak, so Haotian stopped the car

Fan Xia wiped her tears with a wet wipe and waved her hand, which meant that Haotian would drive the bus and continue walking.

Haotian looked at Fan Xia and felt strange, but when he saw her crying, he felt very distressed, so he said in a gentle tone: There is a hotel in front of him, let’s go in for some food, rest and leave!

Fan Xia nodded, and Haotian started the car