Remembrance of the girl who died in the 911 World Trade Center in the United States 100 girls I know: 30 Absolute privacy (eight)
Xiaorong left this world she loved, the man she loved, as the only beloved man in her life who had sex, couldn't help but remind me of her little things, her beauty and her tenderness
We have had several few conflicts and conflicts together, but in most cases it was resolved by Xiaorong's relocation.
She said more than once that she didn't expect that she would accommodate me more than her sister Xiaoxue. The quarrels were caused by other girlfriends.
I don't want to say more about the unhappiness of the two people a few times, but I hope to record more of our happy time. After all, we are the main part of our happy time together.
Xiaorong is not a crying girl. Even if she is saddest and saddest, she just cried silently, and it will pass soon
She is born to be a happy person
Maybe the ridicule of her chubby appearance when she was young made her unforgettable, so she cares most about whether her body is fat. Two years ago, when the two of them were lying on the bed for sex, I obviously felt that her body was much plump, her breasts were swollen, and her thighs became plump. To be honest, the labia below seemed to be thicker. I smiled and said why she became much plump. Lying on her body, she was so fleshy. Xiaorong screamed in fear, ran to the mirror and looked carefully at every part of her body. When she returned to the bed, she seemed uneasy. I smiled and comforted her. Xiaorong shook her head and said: Why do my sister never get fat, and her body shape is still so good after giving birth, I gain weight if I don't pay attention.
I stroked her body and said with a smile: You are not fat, don't mess with yourself, I like you very much now
real?
Xiaorong felt relieved and looked at me and asked
I nodded
Xiaorong then returned to the bed and lay beside me
However, since then, Xiao Rong went to the beauty salon more frequently and signed up for aerobics training classes.
This is Xiaorong
Xiaorong also has something she doesn't care much about
That's eating. Xiaorong said that eating is a nutritional supplement to her, and it doesn't matter what she eats.
So, every time she came to Hong Kong, she saw Xiaoxue asking the chef to make food for me in a different way. She always disagreed and thought it was a waste of time.
That being said, when I arrived in Paris, she would think of letting me eat different flavors. Of course, they all eat in the restaurant outside. I smiled and said that among the servants she hired, the most nothing she had done was the chef. Because Xiaorong likes to eat one thing, she doesn't like to change it for many days. In my heart, I think she wants to imitate Xiaoxue to take care of me, and she really tries like a wife. She should be said to be a relatively good wife, but she is more of a kind of tenderness and natural romance. She seems to live in a dream forever.
Xiaorong told me that her biggest wish in her life is to become my official wife one day
When she said this, she gently slapped herself in the mouth and said: I'm talking nonsense, nonsense
She felt that she was cursing Xiaoxue, so she hurriedly blamed herself for fear that she could make a mistake
I know she actually loves her sister Xiaoxue very much
When Xiaoxue gave birth, due to the doctor's negligence, it caused heavy bleeding after childbirth, which made everyone happy about natural birth and became very nervous.
Xiaoxue almost died in a villa where she had temporary labor due to excessive blood loss and was in shock.
Xiaorong and I were standing next to Xiaoxue at that time, looking at Xiaoxue who was so angry that she scolded the doctor. Fortunately, after timely rescue and blood transfusion, Xiaoxue's life was saved. At that moment, I felt that Xiaorong was really worried about Xiaoxue's life and death. She had no intention of hope that Xiaoxue would end her life, and she replaced her.
After a long time, Xiaorong said frankly: I had only one idea at that time. Even if I was suffering, I couldn't let my sister bear it, because it was me who should die more than her.
After a moment of silence, she said, "Actually, I haven't thought about it at all. Maybe one day if my sister really has an accident, but I think I'm shameful and dark."
After getting older, Xiaorong likes children very much. In Paris, whenever we go out for a walk or play, when we see the children playing, Xiaorong will squat beside us with great enthusiasm and maternal love for a long time. Every time I have to pull her away, she will leave reluctantly, and then she will say with regret: It's so happy to have a child
After Tingting was born, she often went to Hong Kong to see her children. Apart from her younger sister Jiaojiao, she was Xiaorong.
Xiaorong seems to have greater enthusiasm than Jiaojiao. After Tingting can speak, she calls Jiaojiao as Jiaojiao's mother. Xiaorong insists on Tingting calling her mother. Xiaoxue is afraid that Jiaojiao is unhappy, so she only allows Tingting to call Xiaorong as Rongrong's mother. But when Xiaoxue is not around, Xiaorong often induces Tingting to call her mother. If Tingting really calls her mother, I think Xiaorong is happier than anything else.
Seeing this situation, I always sigh and blame myself
Xiaorong has always had a bad relationship with Mase in the past. On the one hand, she felt that Mase had some intention of replacing her. She even felt that if Xiaoxue was really a little bit of a problem, Mase was the most likely candidate to replace Xiaoxue. After all, Mase is Xiaoxue's default wife, so it seems that it is natural to turn a regular one.
On the other hand, she also couldn't stand Mase's tender temperament and her natural considerate and thoughtful female gentleness. More factors are because she knew that I really like Mase.
However, since Ichiro was born, although Xiaorong was a little psychologically unfair, she liked children more, so she often went to Japan. Mase is much easier-going. Xiaorong asked Ichiro to call her mother, and Mase always smiled and said nothing, so Ichiro always thought she had three mothers, because Xiaoxue asked Ichiro to call her mother.
I heard from Mase that if Xiaorong goes to Japan, Ichiro will have nothing to do with Mase. Xiaorong is more patient than Mase to play with Ichiro. Taking Ichiro to Disney is the patent of Xiaorong and Ichiro. Almost every time I go to Japan, Xiaorong will take Ichiro to Disney to play.
Xiaorong doesn't care much about my occasional bias towards Mase, after all, she can't publicly express her dissatisfaction.
Xiaoxue seems very anxious about Xiaorong's marriage, but every time Xiaorong mentions this question, she smiles and says she is still young and hides it. Or occasionally tells Xiaoxue that she has a boyfriend in France. After a while, she says she has made friends, and tells Xiaoxue that she always criticizes her, telling Xiaorong not to be dazzled.
Xiaoxue's father died of illness in Australia, and regretted not seeing Xiaorong get married
Xiaoxue once asked me privately whether Xiaorong had lost love and was afraid of getting married or had psychological problems. I smiled and said no, but Xiaorong's mental state was not as good as her mental state.
Xiaoxue was a little suspicious and listed many things that Xiaorong violated the rules.
For example, I like children a bit too much. When I see a man cold and not enthusiastic, Xiaoxue said, it seems that I am not very disgusted when I see me Xiaorong.
I know she has no particular words and is not nervous
Xiaoxue also advised Xiaorong when she arrived in Paris, and also paid more attention to Xiaorong's relationship.
I agree
So sometimes even if Xiaorong and I are lying on the bed and Xiaoxue calls, I will tell her that Xiaorong is with me. Xiaoxue never thought that the meaning of Xiaorong and I are in bed is that
Beca seemed to have some feelings. Once after having sex, she said casually: Did you go to Miss Xiaorong’s place today?
I didn't care much, said yes
Beca stopped talking, I suddenly realized something and asked her what she meant. Beca looked at me with her thoroughly blue eyes and said: Every time you go to Miss Xiaorong's place, it's not good to have sex with me
I was shocked and pretended to be angry and blamed her for guessing randomly
Beca giggled and teased me, which made me angry. In fact, Beca was just a guess, and she thought it was impossible.
So after I went to Xiaorong for sex, when I returned to the villa, I always made excuses to avoid it if Beca wanted to have sex. Beca's sexual desire was very strong, and sometimes she had strong demands every day. Of course, she also knew how to tease me with her body. I made excuses. She knew that I didn't do it on purpose, and there was nothing she could do, so she didn't dare to say anything in the future.
Overall, my sex life with Xiaorong is relatively harmonious
Maybe she hasn't tried other men and she has no comparison. Whether it's my mental and physical condition or bad, as long as my body enters her body, Xiaorong immediately enters her body and reacts quickly. She is the kind of girl who is prone to orgasm when she is sexual. I rarely communicate with her more sexual matters, so what Xiaorong knows is what I teach her to do.
In the past, she could not communicate with married women in Beijing. After arriving in France, she could not communicate with others. What's more important is that she had no boyfriend in name, and she could not communicate with others.
I remember one time Xiaorong watched a video of sexual behavior. French videos are everywhere. When I went to her, she was impulsive. When I made love, I imitated the scenes and postures in the movie, which made me laugh. Xiaorong hit me shyly and couldn't be embarrassed to imitate again.
In the past, I was sneaky every time I had sex. The two of them ended mechanically in a hurry, without any overture or gentle ending.
After arriving in France, the two can have time to truly treat sex as a happy thing.
The first time I asked Xiaorong to suck my body with her mouth, Xiaorong refused to do anything, but just blushed and looked at my body beneath me.
I told her that every couple did it. I said Xiaoxue and Mase did it. She asked her to lie down, spread her legs apart, and licked her body with her tongue. Xiaorong felt a pleasure she had never had before, and realized that I was not teasing her. She let me lie down like an academic research, sucking her mouth clumsily. As my body trembled, she also felt an inexplicable impulse. She realized that there were actually many interesting things to do in making love. Of course, she only cared about feeling, but I ejaculated her face and mouth. Xiaorong was both ashamed and happy. I still remembered her joy and cute expression like a child discovering a new toy at that time, and she still felt sweet in her heart.
From now on, she was obedient without any discount and asked her to do whatever she wanted. She also understood that having sex, and I could be her professor.
She also called me professor this way, but every time she called me, how many girls did you have sex with, Ah, I will never let go
After Xiaorong arrived in Paris, she worked in our French company for a year. She was not very interested in pure commercial affairs.
So Beca introduced her to a friend's modeling company, mainly doing some planning and other work
Since Xiaorong has never done these jobs after all, it is very uncomfortable to start work, and she is depressed and silent all day long
When she was in Beijing, Xiaorong was considered a fashionable girl, but she was in Paris, especially the environment where she worked seemed a little more rustic
Not long after I started working in the modeling company, one night, Beca and I were lying on the bed and laughing. Beca said: Your wife's sister is too rustic. Can she change her life?
I glared at her, I didn't like to listen, but I thought that Xiaorong couldn't compete with Beka and her friends. I said: You help her, don't you know she just came?
Beca said unhappily: Temperament and feeling cannot be cultivated in one day
What temperament is Ah, aren't you just wearing clothing? I think it's almost the same if I take off my clothes.
Beca burst into laughter: Have you seen her take off naked? I helped her? Why? She is not your sister, but your wife's sister
I don't bother with her, but I have to admit in my heart that Beca's words make sense.
Beca stopped laughing, kissed me, and said: You can take a look after a while
I know that after Beca's girls repaired, they are more fashionable and more particular, and Xiaorong will look brand new.
Changes were unconscious. Occasionally, Xiaorong and I attended a Chinese party. The ladies and wives all looked at Xiaorong with praise. I carefully observed Xiaorong and found that she was already very outstanding compared to other girls.
Xiaorong is also very excited, as if she has found confidence from the praise of others, and her work seems to have entered a state.
One day Beca said to me: Miss Xiaorong has a talent for design, and the clothes she designed are highly praised by the masters
At that time, I realized that Xiaorong had become a part of Paris
Once, Xiaorong came to Hong Kong. I saw her feeling like she had changed. Xiaoxue was even more stunned and exclaimed: Is this my sister Xiaorong so beautiful? I can't even recognize her.
I only have the only way to appreciate and praise her
At first, Xiaorong actually didn't like going to the United States. I think if she was still like she did in the first place, she wouldn't have lost her virginity at the World Trade Center this time.
She thinks I have too many girlfriends in the United States, and American girls are not like Beca, but they are sometimes polite, at least they won’t embarrass you on the surface. In the United States, girls’ likes and dislikes of you are often directly expressed, and she cannot show her identity and fight them against them.
Feel very hot
Daisy
Dorn knows that Xiaorong is Xiaoxue's sister, so he is quite polite, but he definitely can't like it.
Maybe American girls are dressed casually. Even Hollywood actors like Daisy, they don’t pursue them too deliberately when they meet with friends, let alone when they stay alone with me at home. Xiaorong looks particularly fashionable every time she appears. It can be said that her clothes and decorations are the world’s fashion trends, which put a lot of pressure on the American girls around me, especially Xiaorong’s elegant manners and generous manners make them feel out of place.
Ava didn't like Xiaorong the first time she saw her, and she instinctively refused. She knew that Xiaorong was the kind of girl I like
Of course, Xiaorong doesn't like Ava even more. She knows that her fame is not as good as Ava, and Ava is a so-called famous beauty in the tennis world. Maybe it was because she was ridiculed too much when she was a child. Xiaorong hated beauty in nature. In fact, she had long forgotten that she had become dazzling from an ugly duckling.
What she was even more worried about was my preference for Ava
It was not until she met La Danni from Thailand and Zhang Hongyu and Yuan Yuan from Beijing that she felt that she had found people with common languages. Gradually, she began to go to the United States more. She actually liked the American lifestyle, but she just didn't like the American girlfriends around me.
What really made her nostalgic for the United States was her relationship with Zhang Qiong
Xiaorong met Zhang Qiong when she was a child. Xiaoxue first worked in Zhang Qiong's company in Beijing. I also met Xiaoxue in Zhang Qiong's company. However, Xiaorong was still young at that time, and she didn't have the chance and couldn't date everyone.
There was nothing special about Zhang Qiong staying in New York except for a group of friends. Xiaorong's appearance made Zhang Qiong seem to have seen Xiaoxue in the past, and she seemed to have become younger, so she gave Xiaorong more love, making Xiaorong treat Zhang Qiong as an elder sister and her mother.
A few days ago, Zhang Qiong called me and said with tears in his eyes that she killed Xiaorong. I comforted Zhang Qiong and asked her to mourn her and take care of herself.
In fact, I understand in my heart that in a sense, it can be said that Zhang Qiong and I killed Xiaorong
Zhang Qiong lives in New York and has several hobbies. One of them is to go to the World Trade Center for French breakfast every morning. Zhang Qiong has taken me there more than once. If I stayed at her at night, I would definitely take me to the World Trade Center for dinner the next morning.
Thinking about Zhang Qiong's monotonous life, so I usually never hate her kindness
After Xiaorong went to New York, she basically lived with Zhang Qiong. Naturally, she went to the World Trade Center to have dinner every day in the morning. Maybe it was God's will. Xiaorong actually liked Zhang Qiong's favorite French breakfast.
Zhang Qiong was so happy that she wanted Xiaorong to settle in New York
According to La Danni, who studied at New Schl University (NY) New College, Xiaorong arrived in the United States last month. Because I was in Hong Kong, maybe Xiaorong felt that she was staying in the United States or Paris, so she was waiting for me in the United States. I told her that we met in New York.
The night before the accident, she had sex with La Danni. The two of them had a PARTY with La Danni's friends. It was a late fuss, and Xiaorong didn't have Zhang Qiong's residence. That tragic morning, Xiaorong got up early and said she had made an appointment with Zhang Qiong to see a friend. She didn't call Zhang Qiong, probably because she wanted to give Zhang Qiong a surprise, so she went straight to the restaurant of the World Trade Center.
As a result, Zhang Qiong happened to have something to go that day. While Xiaorong was waiting, the plane hit and took Xiaorong's young life.
A young life who is passionate about life and has just found the joy of life
Xiaorong hopes to introduce me to others with justification. I can't do it before she died. Even if she has entered heaven now, I still can't do it. After all, I have to be responsible for other people.
I can only express my grief in words and express my love for her
I know Xiaorong longs for our child, but she never says that, she knows what that means, so she put all her maternal love on Xiaoxue and Mase's children. I thought to myself, that's actually her child.
I promised her to take her to Africa for a trip, just like taking Mase to travel. She said happily, then we can introduce us to others as husband and wife, and we can freely hold hands, hug, kiss and have sex.
She has always longed for the arrival of that moment, and I can only say, Xiaorong, I am really very sorry, I have not allowed you to enjoy this happiest moment in your short life
You are born a kind girl, I think you will forgive me for this mistake in the spirit of heaven.
But I swear to the sky, if one day my soul can meet you in the sky, I will definitely take you to wander around the vast universe and gallop freely, without any restrictions, no requirements, only you and me
Xiaorong is always happy in front of me. Actually, I know that she is always secretly sad when she is herself, for her own destiny and for our love.
The only time she almost went crazy to me was because I said, I hope she would look for a new love and find a lover who would be more suitable for her. She almost fought with me. She felt that I had defiled her feelings and insulted her love.
Don't I think Xiaorong is a part of my life, but I really can't bear to see her like that. Happiness is secretly happy
I even wonder if she has ever had real happiness
Maybe she doesn't care much about our sex at all, but about the emotional connection
I am not thinking about it secretly, at least here, even now, I can’t call out your real name, and I have to make up some details that may not exist at all, so that the words will not harm more people
I don't think it's weakness, maybe it's helplessness, but also a responsibility
I always remember a simple and touching sentence from Sai Caishu: A person's spiritual feelings are limited, and if there are too many, it will depreciate.
Maybe I used Sakashu's words as a negative application, so that the mind can be broader, the endurance can be stronger, and the emotions can be broader, but every effort is sincere and may not last long, but at that moment it must be shining, and the value is a highly concentrated essence.
Destiny is impermanent, perhaps the most important thing is every moment
Xiaorong is a girl with clear love and hate, and at the same time, she is a girl with no principles.
She has a clear distinction between love and hate, and she has no principles to me. Perhaps as she said, she is more accommodating to me and blindly obeys me than Xiaoxue
Whether in Japan, Paris, the United States, or Hong Kong, every time I see beggars on the street with her, she will give them some money no matter what. Even if she sees them in the car, as long as she is not in a hurry, she will ask the driver to park the car and give some money. I once joked with her and heard that there are many beggars under the New York subway. Can she give them?
She glared at me: You have never sat there before, how do you know?
But immediately she said that she was mainly for children and the elderly
Especially she couldn't stand the miserable begging for the child. Sometimes she couldn't bear to know that it might be the adults who deliberately instructed the child to beg.
Once in Tokyo, she saw a Japanese man scolding a girl who seemed to be coming from other countries. She rushed up and debated and reasoned. It turned out that the couple quarreled. The scolded woman glared at Xiaorong, and then took the man's hand and left the stunned Xiaorong.
One summer, we watched Tchaikvsky's "Swan Lake" in Berlin and Xiaorong was very moved after watching it. I told her a love story about Tchaikvsky and Mrs. Mek. Xiaorong burst into tears and kept pestering me to finish the talk. Then she asked: Why didn't they go together?
I said: Maybe it’s because of music that the bridge of spirit is built. If you really want to live together, you may not have that deep feelings or romance.
Like us?
She looked at me and asked
I smiled: We are lucky than them, after all, we can have each other, and we also have emotional communication
Yes, I feel very happy
Xiaorong hugged me and whispered enthusiastically
It is undeniable that I am a little self-centered, and sometimes I inevitably ignore the other person's feelings.
Every time there are different opinions or practices from Xiaorong because of something, Xiaorong is very angry at that time, or sometimes deals with it in her own way, but soon she will actively communicate with me, show kindness, and do it according to my opinion, although it is sometimes against my will.
Xiaorong said to me more than once: You can't listen to me, or coax me, make me happy once?
I always smile and say: Actually, I am willing to listen to you. As long as you persist for another two days, I will do it according to your opinion
But you know I can't hold on for a moment anymore, I'm really afraid you'll be unhappy
But the happy time we were together made us forget some of the occasional unpleasantness
Xiaorong has never had a chance to see Beijing again since she left Beijing
She told me a few times in private and wanted to go back to Beijing to see
I said I made an appointment with her in Beijing in the past two years.
It seems that this is another regret for her
Xiaorong never told me how many dreams she had. Maybe she felt that she still had time to realize it slowly while they were getting along, so she never rushes to try to realize some of her dreams or do what she wanted to do.
I just hope that at the moment when the building collapsed, she quickly lost her life without realizing it, without pain or feeling. It was so uncomfortable to think of this.
I went back to Hong Kong to comfort Xiaoxue. Xiaoxue calmed down a little from the grief of first hearing the bad news. I think Xiaorong's departure will have a huge impact on her and my psychology.
Of course, we haven't told their favorite Rongrong's mother to leave them yet.
I am not a false saint, and I don’t want to deny that Xiaorong is not the favorite girl I have dated, but her emotions and special relationships are the most unforgettable.
Maybe people know that they are precious only after they are lost
When she left me, I remembered many of her beautiful things and every bit of them.
Xiaorong is different from Han Xiaohan, a girl I met in the past. After all, our life is too short, and Xiaorong has almost dissolved into my life for a long time and has indeed become a part of my life.
So it will make you feel more painful if you lose her
These days I often think that maybe a person's life has disappeared, and all relationships with her past, no matter how ruthless it is, will be forgiven by the parties involved. I think Xiaoxue will forgive us if she really understands my relationship with Xiaorong, but I still don't want to tell her that since it is the secret between me and Xiaorong, without her recognition, I have no right to tell any related person. I know that she can no longer express any opinions, so our relationship may be gradually ignored as people forget her, and only I will stay in my memory forever. I don't know whether it is a gift or a torture to me.
Writing these, no matter how many people understand them, is also a kind of confidant
Xiaorong is gone, but other girls I know are still there. I think the girls I have hesitated to write about in the past should be recorded, which is a record of emotional communication.
In fact, sex is not all about me and them.
People who are destined to know each other should cherish every opportunity
May there be no such artificial factor in the world to capture the life of a girl or anyone else
In order to remember Xiao Rong, a girl who died in the 911 World Trade Center in the United States, I hurriedly remembered these things and was too lazy to polish them. I just want to write whatever I want.
For nothing else, just to express your condolences
Xiaorong left this world she loved, the man she loved, as the only beloved man in her life who had sex, couldn't help but remind me of her little things, her beauty and her tenderness
We have had several few conflicts and conflicts together, but in most cases it was resolved by Xiaorong's relocation.
She said more than once that she didn't expect that she would accommodate me more than her sister Xiaoxue. The quarrels were caused by other girlfriends.
I don't want to say more about the unhappiness of the two people a few times, but I hope to record more of our happy time. After all, we are the main part of our happy time together.
Xiaorong is not a crying girl. Even if she is saddest and saddest, she just cried silently, and it will pass soon
She is born to be a happy person
Maybe the ridicule of her chubby appearance when she was young made her unforgettable, so she cares most about whether her body is fat. Two years ago, when the two of them were lying on the bed for sex, I obviously felt that her body was much plump, her breasts were swollen, and her thighs became plump. To be honest, the labia below seemed to be thicker. I smiled and said why she became much plump. Lying on her body, she was so fleshy. Xiaorong screamed in fear, ran to the mirror and looked carefully at every part of her body. When she returned to the bed, she seemed uneasy. I smiled and comforted her. Xiaorong shook her head and said: Why do my sister never get fat, and her body shape is still so good after giving birth, I gain weight if I don't pay attention.
I stroked her body and said with a smile: You are not fat, don't mess with yourself, I like you very much now
real?
Xiaorong felt relieved and looked at me and asked
I nodded
Xiaorong then returned to the bed and lay beside me
However, since then, Xiao Rong went to the beauty salon more frequently and signed up for aerobics training classes.
This is Xiaorong
Xiaorong also has something she doesn't care much about
That's eating. Xiaorong said that eating is a nutritional supplement to her, and it doesn't matter what she eats.
So, every time she came to Hong Kong, she saw Xiaoxue asking the chef to make food for me in a different way. She always disagreed and thought it was a waste of time.
That being said, when I arrived in Paris, she would think of letting me eat different flavors. Of course, they all eat in the restaurant outside. I smiled and said that among the servants she hired, the most nothing she had done was the chef. Because Xiaorong likes to eat one thing, she doesn't like to change it for many days. In my heart, I think she wants to imitate Xiaoxue to take care of me, and she really tries like a wife. She should be said to be a relatively good wife, but she is more of a kind of tenderness and natural romance. She seems to live in a dream forever.
Xiaorong told me that her biggest wish in her life is to become my official wife one day
When she said this, she gently slapped herself in the mouth and said: I'm talking nonsense, nonsense
She felt that she was cursing Xiaoxue, so she hurriedly blamed herself for fear that she could make a mistake
I know she actually loves her sister Xiaoxue very much
When Xiaoxue gave birth, due to the doctor's negligence, it caused heavy bleeding after childbirth, which made everyone happy about natural birth and became very nervous.
Xiaoxue almost died in a villa where she had temporary labor due to excessive blood loss and was in shock.
Xiaorong and I were standing next to Xiaoxue at that time, looking at Xiaoxue who was so angry that she scolded the doctor. Fortunately, after timely rescue and blood transfusion, Xiaoxue's life was saved. At that moment, I felt that Xiaorong was really worried about Xiaoxue's life and death. She had no intention of hope that Xiaoxue would end her life, and she replaced her.
After a long time, Xiaorong said frankly: I had only one idea at that time. Even if I was suffering, I couldn't let my sister bear it, because it was me who should die more than her.
After a moment of silence, she said, "Actually, I haven't thought about it at all. Maybe one day if my sister really has an accident, but I think I'm shameful and dark."
After getting older, Xiaorong likes children very much. In Paris, whenever we go out for a walk or play, when we see the children playing, Xiaorong will squat beside us with great enthusiasm and maternal love for a long time. Every time I have to pull her away, she will leave reluctantly, and then she will say with regret: It's so happy to have a child
After Tingting was born, she often went to Hong Kong to see her children. Apart from her younger sister Jiaojiao, she was Xiaorong.
Xiaorong seems to have greater enthusiasm than Jiaojiao. After Tingting can speak, she calls Jiaojiao as Jiaojiao's mother. Xiaorong insists on Tingting calling her mother. Xiaoxue is afraid that Jiaojiao is unhappy, so she only allows Tingting to call Xiaorong as Rongrong's mother. But when Xiaoxue is not around, Xiaorong often induces Tingting to call her mother. If Tingting really calls her mother, I think Xiaorong is happier than anything else.
Seeing this situation, I always sigh and blame myself
Xiaorong has always had a bad relationship with Mase in the past. On the one hand, she felt that Mase had some intention of replacing her. She even felt that if Xiaoxue was really a little bit of a problem, Mase was the most likely candidate to replace Xiaoxue. After all, Mase is Xiaoxue's default wife, so it seems that it is natural to turn a regular one.
On the other hand, she also couldn't stand Mase's tender temperament and her natural considerate and thoughtful female gentleness. More factors are because she knew that I really like Mase.
However, since Ichiro was born, although Xiaorong was a little psychologically unfair, she liked children more, so she often went to Japan. Mase is much easier-going. Xiaorong asked Ichiro to call her mother, and Mase always smiled and said nothing, so Ichiro always thought she had three mothers, because Xiaoxue asked Ichiro to call her mother.
I heard from Mase that if Xiaorong goes to Japan, Ichiro will have nothing to do with Mase. Xiaorong is more patient than Mase to play with Ichiro. Taking Ichiro to Disney is the patent of Xiaorong and Ichiro. Almost every time I go to Japan, Xiaorong will take Ichiro to Disney to play.
Xiaorong doesn't care much about my occasional bias towards Mase, after all, she can't publicly express her dissatisfaction.
Xiaoxue seems very anxious about Xiaorong's marriage, but every time Xiaorong mentions this question, she smiles and says she is still young and hides it. Or occasionally tells Xiaoxue that she has a boyfriend in France. After a while, she says she has made friends, and tells Xiaoxue that she always criticizes her, telling Xiaorong not to be dazzled.
Xiaoxue's father died of illness in Australia, and regretted not seeing Xiaorong get married
Xiaoxue once asked me privately whether Xiaorong had lost love and was afraid of getting married or had psychological problems. I smiled and said no, but Xiaorong's mental state was not as good as her mental state.
Xiaoxue was a little suspicious and listed many things that Xiaorong violated the rules.
For example, I like children a bit too much. When I see a man cold and not enthusiastic, Xiaoxue said, it seems that I am not very disgusted when I see me Xiaorong.
I know she has no particular words and is not nervous
Xiaoxue also advised Xiaorong when she arrived in Paris, and also paid more attention to Xiaorong's relationship.
I agree
So sometimes even if Xiaorong and I are lying on the bed and Xiaoxue calls, I will tell her that Xiaorong is with me. Xiaoxue never thought that the meaning of Xiaorong and I are in bed is that
Beca seemed to have some feelings. Once after having sex, she said casually: Did you go to Miss Xiaorong’s place today?
I didn't care much, said yes
Beca stopped talking, I suddenly realized something and asked her what she meant. Beca looked at me with her thoroughly blue eyes and said: Every time you go to Miss Xiaorong's place, it's not good to have sex with me
I was shocked and pretended to be angry and blamed her for guessing randomly
Beca giggled and teased me, which made me angry. In fact, Beca was just a guess, and she thought it was impossible.
So after I went to Xiaorong for sex, when I returned to the villa, I always made excuses to avoid it if Beca wanted to have sex. Beca's sexual desire was very strong, and sometimes she had strong demands every day. Of course, she also knew how to tease me with her body. I made excuses. She knew that I didn't do it on purpose, and there was nothing she could do, so she didn't dare to say anything in the future.
Overall, my sex life with Xiaorong is relatively harmonious
Maybe she hasn't tried other men and she has no comparison. Whether it's my mental and physical condition or bad, as long as my body enters her body, Xiaorong immediately enters her body and reacts quickly. She is the kind of girl who is prone to orgasm when she is sexual. I rarely communicate with her more sexual matters, so what Xiaorong knows is what I teach her to do.
In the past, she could not communicate with married women in Beijing. After arriving in France, she could not communicate with others. What's more important is that she had no boyfriend in name, and she could not communicate with others.
I remember one time Xiaorong watched a video of sexual behavior. French videos are everywhere. When I went to her, she was impulsive. When I made love, I imitated the scenes and postures in the movie, which made me laugh. Xiaorong hit me shyly and couldn't be embarrassed to imitate again.
In the past, I was sneaky every time I had sex. The two of them ended mechanically in a hurry, without any overture or gentle ending.
After arriving in France, the two can have time to truly treat sex as a happy thing.
The first time I asked Xiaorong to suck my body with her mouth, Xiaorong refused to do anything, but just blushed and looked at my body beneath me.
I told her that every couple did it. I said Xiaoxue and Mase did it. She asked her to lie down, spread her legs apart, and licked her body with her tongue. Xiaorong felt a pleasure she had never had before, and realized that I was not teasing her. She let me lie down like an academic research, sucking her mouth clumsily. As my body trembled, she also felt an inexplicable impulse. She realized that there were actually many interesting things to do in making love. Of course, she only cared about feeling, but I ejaculated her face and mouth. Xiaorong was both ashamed and happy. I still remembered her joy and cute expression like a child discovering a new toy at that time, and she still felt sweet in her heart.
From now on, she was obedient without any discount and asked her to do whatever she wanted. She also understood that having sex, and I could be her professor.
She also called me professor this way, but every time she called me, how many girls did you have sex with, Ah, I will never let go
After Xiaorong arrived in Paris, she worked in our French company for a year. She was not very interested in pure commercial affairs.
So Beca introduced her to a friend's modeling company, mainly doing some planning and other work
Since Xiaorong has never done these jobs after all, it is very uncomfortable to start work, and she is depressed and silent all day long
When she was in Beijing, Xiaorong was considered a fashionable girl, but she was in Paris, especially the environment where she worked seemed a little more rustic
Not long after I started working in the modeling company, one night, Beca and I were lying on the bed and laughing. Beca said: Your wife's sister is too rustic. Can she change her life?
I glared at her, I didn't like to listen, but I thought that Xiaorong couldn't compete with Beka and her friends. I said: You help her, don't you know she just came?
Beca said unhappily: Temperament and feeling cannot be cultivated in one day
What temperament is Ah, aren't you just wearing clothing? I think it's almost the same if I take off my clothes.
Beca burst into laughter: Have you seen her take off naked? I helped her? Why? She is not your sister, but your wife's sister
I don't bother with her, but I have to admit in my heart that Beca's words make sense.
Beca stopped laughing, kissed me, and said: You can take a look after a while
I know that after Beca's girls repaired, they are more fashionable and more particular, and Xiaorong will look brand new.
Changes were unconscious. Occasionally, Xiaorong and I attended a Chinese party. The ladies and wives all looked at Xiaorong with praise. I carefully observed Xiaorong and found that she was already very outstanding compared to other girls.
Xiaorong is also very excited, as if she has found confidence from the praise of others, and her work seems to have entered a state.
One day Beca said to me: Miss Xiaorong has a talent for design, and the clothes she designed are highly praised by the masters
At that time, I realized that Xiaorong had become a part of Paris
Once, Xiaorong came to Hong Kong. I saw her feeling like she had changed. Xiaoxue was even more stunned and exclaimed: Is this my sister Xiaorong so beautiful? I can't even recognize her.
I only have the only way to appreciate and praise her
At first, Xiaorong actually didn't like going to the United States. I think if she was still like she did in the first place, she wouldn't have lost her virginity at the World Trade Center this time.
She thinks I have too many girlfriends in the United States, and American girls are not like Beca, but they are sometimes polite, at least they won’t embarrass you on the surface. In the United States, girls’ likes and dislikes of you are often directly expressed, and she cannot show her identity and fight them against them.
Feel very hot
Daisy
Dorn knows that Xiaorong is Xiaoxue's sister, so he is quite polite, but he definitely can't like it.
Maybe American girls are dressed casually. Even Hollywood actors like Daisy, they don’t pursue them too deliberately when they meet with friends, let alone when they stay alone with me at home. Xiaorong looks particularly fashionable every time she appears. It can be said that her clothes and decorations are the world’s fashion trends, which put a lot of pressure on the American girls around me, especially Xiaorong’s elegant manners and generous manners make them feel out of place.
Ava didn't like Xiaorong the first time she saw her, and she instinctively refused. She knew that Xiaorong was the kind of girl I like
Of course, Xiaorong doesn't like Ava even more. She knows that her fame is not as good as Ava, and Ava is a so-called famous beauty in the tennis world. Maybe it was because she was ridiculed too much when she was a child. Xiaorong hated beauty in nature. In fact, she had long forgotten that she had become dazzling from an ugly duckling.
What she was even more worried about was my preference for Ava
It was not until she met La Danni from Thailand and Zhang Hongyu and Yuan Yuan from Beijing that she felt that she had found people with common languages. Gradually, she began to go to the United States more. She actually liked the American lifestyle, but she just didn't like the American girlfriends around me.
What really made her nostalgic for the United States was her relationship with Zhang Qiong
Xiaorong met Zhang Qiong when she was a child. Xiaoxue first worked in Zhang Qiong's company in Beijing. I also met Xiaoxue in Zhang Qiong's company. However, Xiaorong was still young at that time, and she didn't have the chance and couldn't date everyone.
There was nothing special about Zhang Qiong staying in New York except for a group of friends. Xiaorong's appearance made Zhang Qiong seem to have seen Xiaoxue in the past, and she seemed to have become younger, so she gave Xiaorong more love, making Xiaorong treat Zhang Qiong as an elder sister and her mother.
A few days ago, Zhang Qiong called me and said with tears in his eyes that she killed Xiaorong. I comforted Zhang Qiong and asked her to mourn her and take care of herself.
In fact, I understand in my heart that in a sense, it can be said that Zhang Qiong and I killed Xiaorong
Zhang Qiong lives in New York and has several hobbies. One of them is to go to the World Trade Center for French breakfast every morning. Zhang Qiong has taken me there more than once. If I stayed at her at night, I would definitely take me to the World Trade Center for dinner the next morning.
Thinking about Zhang Qiong's monotonous life, so I usually never hate her kindness
After Xiaorong went to New York, she basically lived with Zhang Qiong. Naturally, she went to the World Trade Center to have dinner every day in the morning. Maybe it was God's will. Xiaorong actually liked Zhang Qiong's favorite French breakfast.
Zhang Qiong was so happy that she wanted Xiaorong to settle in New York
According to La Danni, who studied at New Schl University (NY) New College, Xiaorong arrived in the United States last month. Because I was in Hong Kong, maybe Xiaorong felt that she was staying in the United States or Paris, so she was waiting for me in the United States. I told her that we met in New York.
The night before the accident, she had sex with La Danni. The two of them had a PARTY with La Danni's friends. It was a late fuss, and Xiaorong didn't have Zhang Qiong's residence. That tragic morning, Xiaorong got up early and said she had made an appointment with Zhang Qiong to see a friend. She didn't call Zhang Qiong, probably because she wanted to give Zhang Qiong a surprise, so she went straight to the restaurant of the World Trade Center.
As a result, Zhang Qiong happened to have something to go that day. While Xiaorong was waiting, the plane hit and took Xiaorong's young life.
A young life who is passionate about life and has just found the joy of life
Xiaorong hopes to introduce me to others with justification. I can't do it before she died. Even if she has entered heaven now, I still can't do it. After all, I have to be responsible for other people.
I can only express my grief in words and express my love for her
I know Xiaorong longs for our child, but she never says that, she knows what that means, so she put all her maternal love on Xiaoxue and Mase's children. I thought to myself, that's actually her child.
I promised her to take her to Africa for a trip, just like taking Mase to travel. She said happily, then we can introduce us to others as husband and wife, and we can freely hold hands, hug, kiss and have sex.
She has always longed for the arrival of that moment, and I can only say, Xiaorong, I am really very sorry, I have not allowed you to enjoy this happiest moment in your short life
You are born a kind girl, I think you will forgive me for this mistake in the spirit of heaven.
But I swear to the sky, if one day my soul can meet you in the sky, I will definitely take you to wander around the vast universe and gallop freely, without any restrictions, no requirements, only you and me
Xiaorong is always happy in front of me. Actually, I know that she is always secretly sad when she is herself, for her own destiny and for our love.
The only time she almost went crazy to me was because I said, I hope she would look for a new love and find a lover who would be more suitable for her. She almost fought with me. She felt that I had defiled her feelings and insulted her love.
Don't I think Xiaorong is a part of my life, but I really can't bear to see her like that. Happiness is secretly happy
I even wonder if she has ever had real happiness
Maybe she doesn't care much about our sex at all, but about the emotional connection
I am not thinking about it secretly, at least here, even now, I can’t call out your real name, and I have to make up some details that may not exist at all, so that the words will not harm more people
I don't think it's weakness, maybe it's helplessness, but also a responsibility
I always remember a simple and touching sentence from Sai Caishu: A person's spiritual feelings are limited, and if there are too many, it will depreciate.
Maybe I used Sakashu's words as a negative application, so that the mind can be broader, the endurance can be stronger, and the emotions can be broader, but every effort is sincere and may not last long, but at that moment it must be shining, and the value is a highly concentrated essence.
Destiny is impermanent, perhaps the most important thing is every moment
Xiaorong is a girl with clear love and hate, and at the same time, she is a girl with no principles.
She has a clear distinction between love and hate, and she has no principles to me. Perhaps as she said, she is more accommodating to me and blindly obeys me than Xiaoxue
Whether in Japan, Paris, the United States, or Hong Kong, every time I see beggars on the street with her, she will give them some money no matter what. Even if she sees them in the car, as long as she is not in a hurry, she will ask the driver to park the car and give some money. I once joked with her and heard that there are many beggars under the New York subway. Can she give them?
She glared at me: You have never sat there before, how do you know?
But immediately she said that she was mainly for children and the elderly
Especially she couldn't stand the miserable begging for the child. Sometimes she couldn't bear to know that it might be the adults who deliberately instructed the child to beg.
Once in Tokyo, she saw a Japanese man scolding a girl who seemed to be coming from other countries. She rushed up and debated and reasoned. It turned out that the couple quarreled. The scolded woman glared at Xiaorong, and then took the man's hand and left the stunned Xiaorong.
One summer, we watched Tchaikvsky's "Swan Lake" in Berlin and Xiaorong was very moved after watching it. I told her a love story about Tchaikvsky and Mrs. Mek. Xiaorong burst into tears and kept pestering me to finish the talk. Then she asked: Why didn't they go together?
I said: Maybe it’s because of music that the bridge of spirit is built. If you really want to live together, you may not have that deep feelings or romance.
Like us?
She looked at me and asked
I smiled: We are lucky than them, after all, we can have each other, and we also have emotional communication
Yes, I feel very happy
Xiaorong hugged me and whispered enthusiastically
It is undeniable that I am a little self-centered, and sometimes I inevitably ignore the other person's feelings.
Every time there are different opinions or practices from Xiaorong because of something, Xiaorong is very angry at that time, or sometimes deals with it in her own way, but soon she will actively communicate with me, show kindness, and do it according to my opinion, although it is sometimes against my will.
Xiaorong said to me more than once: You can't listen to me, or coax me, make me happy once?
I always smile and say: Actually, I am willing to listen to you. As long as you persist for another two days, I will do it according to your opinion
But you know I can't hold on for a moment anymore, I'm really afraid you'll be unhappy
But the happy time we were together made us forget some of the occasional unpleasantness
Xiaorong has never had a chance to see Beijing again since she left Beijing
She told me a few times in private and wanted to go back to Beijing to see
I said I made an appointment with her in Beijing in the past two years.
It seems that this is another regret for her
Xiaorong never told me how many dreams she had. Maybe she felt that she still had time to realize it slowly while they were getting along, so she never rushes to try to realize some of her dreams or do what she wanted to do.
I just hope that at the moment when the building collapsed, she quickly lost her life without realizing it, without pain or feeling. It was so uncomfortable to think of this.
I went back to Hong Kong to comfort Xiaoxue. Xiaoxue calmed down a little from the grief of first hearing the bad news. I think Xiaorong's departure will have a huge impact on her and my psychology.
Of course, we haven't told their favorite Rongrong's mother to leave them yet.
I am not a false saint, and I don’t want to deny that Xiaorong is not the favorite girl I have dated, but her emotions and special relationships are the most unforgettable.
Maybe people know that they are precious only after they are lost
When she left me, I remembered many of her beautiful things and every bit of them.
Xiaorong is different from Han Xiaohan, a girl I met in the past. After all, our life is too short, and Xiaorong has almost dissolved into my life for a long time and has indeed become a part of my life.
So it will make you feel more painful if you lose her
These days I often think that maybe a person's life has disappeared, and all relationships with her past, no matter how ruthless it is, will be forgiven by the parties involved. I think Xiaoxue will forgive us if she really understands my relationship with Xiaorong, but I still don't want to tell her that since it is the secret between me and Xiaorong, without her recognition, I have no right to tell any related person. I know that she can no longer express any opinions, so our relationship may be gradually ignored as people forget her, and only I will stay in my memory forever. I don't know whether it is a gift or a torture to me.
Writing these, no matter how many people understand them, is also a kind of confidant
Xiaorong is gone, but other girls I know are still there. I think the girls I have hesitated to write about in the past should be recorded, which is a record of emotional communication.
In fact, sex is not all about me and them.
People who are destined to know each other should cherish every opportunity
May there be no such artificial factor in the world to capture the life of a girl or anyone else
In order to remember Xiao Rong, a girl who died in the 911 World Trade Center in the United States, I hurriedly remembered these things and was too lazy to polish them. I just want to write whatever I want.
For nothing else, just to express your condolences
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