Chapter 12

The long dark night

On the other side of the slightly shaking curtains, the falling raindrops absorb the noise of the city

I heard that the storm is coming

But, for me, that's irrelevant.

Just sit on a chair, support your chin with your hands on the table... Since I came back, I did nothing and kept in this position

In the room where there was no light, I was alone

No, there is something special today

I'm alone at any time

(That is true, why...)

The passage of time will be so painful

The curtains hanging by the bed were rolled up high by the wind, and I finally stood up because I was going to close the window.

It's raining outside

What's going on with that guy now?...

Are you looking at the rainy scenery like me?

If so, what kind of mood would it be?

……

I never saw Rimi again after the riot in the swimming pool

I was taken to the duty room by physical education teacher Tanitabe. He just kept emphasizing that he had been waiting for this day for a long time, and finally said, "You should be ready to wait for the punishment, so he knocked me out of the school."

Although I can't remember it very clearly, it seems that I met Mr. Mako on the way out of the pantry and down the stairs. Maybe Rimi was taken to the health care room.

However, if it were Mr. Mako, she might be able to protect Sakimi well...

Satomi......

That guy was also alone, crying in the room?

If so, then what should I do?

In the past, when I was in middle school, I made Satomi cry... Since then, I swear that I will never let Satomi cry again, but... again, I made her cry

All of this is my fault

It was not Aihara who put Saimi in such a miserable situation...but me

(For a long time, Sai Mi has always thought about and admired me)

But I avoided her feelings... I just kept thinking about other girls

Riko, Chiharu, Ako, Kurumi and Misa... I love their hearts without any hypocrisy

Although I want to be sure of this, (why can't I treat Sakimi gently?)

Hypocritical love

The words that penetrated into the Aohara that could not be relieved in my heart made my chest hurt.

Is it true that as he said, I am just using sophistry words to deliberately play with the unparalleled good girls?

What is the situation with Lizi?

Taking advantage of her gentle welcome to me into the room, I evolved it into the result of having sex with Riko almost every night

But did I really take advantage of the emptiness of her lonely heart that was waiting for her husband to return home alone?

As a result, it seems that Liko intends to divorce her husband

For Lizi, who is about to start her own life, what can I do for her future?

I have not even confirmed my future goals yet. Is there a way to bear her life?

...Suppose that she has not had a relationship with me, I think that Lizi will wait for her master's return at home until today

But, is that really something bad?

Even Lizi, who is still lonely, will give birth to a child soon in the ongoing couple's life.

If so, from the person's personality, thoughts like loneliness will disappear

Of course, she will raise her children lovingly and protect her family well

It is impossible for a person to last forever in his life

Once her husband is willing to take care of his family, the day he will become a good couple with Liko...

If this is possible, I might not just change a woman's life, but also mess up the possibilities of happiness.

So what is Qianchun like?

I met her in a factory where I worked

Qianchun, one year older than me, officially started working after graduating from high school this spring.

But from the point where she said she had only worked for three months and resigned from that company, it can be imagined that it was a bad job that was too far away from her ideal.

Although Qianchun herself said to me in a slightly self-deprecating tone, now, I am a free person, but I know that she is not as casual and idle as she said.

In other words, Qianchun is just missing her ideal and lost her way forward

As a result, I seized the gap in Qianchun's heart and took the opportunity to break in, right?

I seized the opportunity of the kind Qianchun taking care of me like a sister and forcibly violated her, right?

Qianchun is a girl who often has dreams

It is a girl who will regard her love partner as her long-lasting partner for life

Will give everything to the man you love and give everything

...I used the passionate Qianchun love, and even destroyed her most important dream.

And what about Yazi?

She used to be very distressed

Because she was entrusted with the important task of inheriting the family business, she was very worried that she could not act like girls of the same age and live like

She was also upset about being in a different way from her dazzling sister

And I took advantage of the danger, right?

Indeed, Yazi said to me in person since I had liked you like this a long time ago

But, I can say that it is because of this reason that I did not do anything wrong when I transformed Ako from a girl to a woman?

Yazi's world is actually just a very small world

In my daily life, I am the only one of the opposite sex who talks seriously with her.

In other words, I am the only one in the men around her.

When one day Yazi's worries disappear and the day when he can fly freely comes... he should meet a better partner!

I could only pollute a girl’s beautiful memories of her first love that had already ended, based on my own wishes.

What is Kurumi like?

I thought it would be enough to help that exhausted girl just hug her

But maybe I didn't completely convince Kurumi. As a result, when she planned to entrust herself to the guy who looked very dangerous, I snatched her back. In fact, when I was hitting her in the park at night... Kurumi should have already understood everything.

There is no need to go to the last step with her

But, I hugged her

Is my original intention just to possess the long-lasting and long-lasting beauty?

Just as the pillar and reliance of Kurumi, until the end, I only existed as her brother.

But I betrayed Kurumi's trust and should have helped her protect her purity, but I took it away with myself, right?

Next, what about the occasion for Mesa?

I have loved my things since the first grade. The Misa who confessed to me like this is so cute and touching. I took her into my arms.

But in that case, wouldn’t it be better to start with a spiritual love?

I think that's the real love

Nowadays, Meisha has suffered a broken dream. She must be in pain and wants to shout loudly.

Didn’t I seize the opportunity of Mesa being confused about losing hope and taking advantage of the situation?

Am I just taking Misa's intense love affair as an opportunity to put her innocence under my feet?

I am the worst man...

Just as Aihara said

Although I don't know if that is my true intention, I easily declared love, which made many women sad

What exactly can I do?

I can't do anything well

And what can I do for them?

I can't do anything

It's just that by being pretentious, you can be able to be with the women's bodies

Sure, it's not just that

If you think about it seriously, I am a more despicable human being than Aihara

The guy who simply explicitly treats women as a tool for sex is more honest than me

Suddenly, the blow that hit Sakuragi on the cheek came to my mind

Of course it's going to be hated...haha...

I let out a dry laugh

Maybe if I go further, she will be defiled

Hurt the hearts of the people I cherish one by one

And in the end, hurt the most important person together.

To me, that's Rimi

Why did I never realize it until I fell into the current situation?

...No, I actually noticed it

Although I noticed it, I covered up my feelings

Why is this?

(I understand all the reasons for doing so!)

To me, Sakimi is all

He is both a mother, a sister, a friend... He is also a lover, and a woman with all kinds of

I have grown up alone without my parents and don’t understand what gentleness is

It is Limei who gave me gentleness and taught me this.

So, don't I want to lose her?

I'm scared to say the word like

If I confess my admiration, if I am rejected... I will lose everything I have

...It's not just love, it's also love

Losing Rimi is the most important existence to me

Because of this fear that I can't bear, I can't say it

Nothing happened I want to be loved forever from this girl Rimi

As me, all the ideal existence!

Therefore, I became unnecessary timid and deceived myself with a rare close friend or something.

There was no action in response to her feelings, nor did he speak out his feelings frankly...

In the end, the end is that I lost everything

Why, I can't honestly say that I like her?

I'm really unscrupulous, shit bastard

It's too late to realize this now

Already, everything is over

The sound of rain outside the window is annoying

There is no light in the long night

I don't understand what to do next

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