Chapter 5: Exposure of Forgiveness

May 4, 2018

Hello, Teacher Chen, student Xu Che took the liberty to invite him to gather at the "Mingxin" cafe at Taiping Road intersection after class today. The matter is related to you. It is extremely urgent. Students are waiting for you and hope to come quickly!

During the afternoon break, I was looking down at the lesson plan on the podium when I saw a note secretly slid from a person's hand to the side of the lesson plan. I looked up in a hurry and saw Xu Che walking over as if nothing had happened, but my heart skipped a beat at the time. What is this?

Students make excuses to date teachers?

We only met a few times, so what important things do I have to let him know?

Or did he encounter something difficult?

My heart was in a mess, with a long-lost surprise, a bit of at a loss, and a bit of annoying ambiguity. All kinds of emotions were intertwined, making me feel dazed in the last class. Moreover, I didn't dare to look at Xu Che's seat in a class, as if I had done something wrong. I thought about it and found it ridiculous. There was no way, so I could only hope that the get out of class would end as soon as possible.

At that time, I didn't know that compared to the shock and impact brought by the incident mentioned on Xu Che's note, the various doubts and ambiguities at this time were simply nothing.

As soon as the bell rang, I saw Xu Che get up from his seat and rush out, running while secretly glance at me, which made me even more confused. I hurriedly packed up the lesson plan materials, quickly returned to the office, put down my things and picked up my bag, and hurried to the party location.

This cafe has been to my friend once before. The environment is elegant, and the seats are all small partitions. The independent small space looks very quiet and leisurely. As soon as I opened the door, the elegant and melodious piano music of "Windancer" started to sound, which finally made my anxious and irritable heart feel a little relieved. I took a deep breath, subconsciously sorted out my clothes and skirt, explained my purpose to the waiter, and was taken to the private room that Xu Che had already booked.

As soon as I sat down, my originally calm heart was nervous again. We could almost say that we looked at each other awkwardly, with stiff smiles hanging on the corners of our mouths. Such a party was really a bit abrupt, awkward, and inappropriate.

I never hate Xu Che, and I have even developed a special feeling different from the relationship between teachers and students. Moreover, I am confident that many places can attract or even tempt him, and his eyes can't deceive me. However, I have passed that grade and can already calmly face the hormonal and emotional impulse of these adolescent boys. I am afraid that this handsome and restrained boy will say or do something that makes everyone more embarrassed, so I feel more and more anxious as I think about it.

I ordered a cappuccino, but Xu Che ordered a cocktail in the blue sky and white clouds. Seeing that his expression was even more anxious and confused than me, sweat had already oozed out of his forehead, and he kept sucking the wine in small mouthfuls, becoming more and more like an introverted boy who had been dating for the first time.

I had no time to taste the coffee in front of me, so I eagerly said straight to the point: Xu Che, what urgent matters are there when you ask the teacher out?

After asking, I found that his face looked even more ugly, and his whole body seemed to be starting before a sprint. He jumped tightly, lowered his head, and his breathing became heavy. The veins on his hand holding the wine glass burst out. I felt like I was about to crush the cup. The cup seat made a harsh whirring sound at the table, making me more upset, and then asked anxiously: What's wrong? Talk!

After a few seconds, he finally made up his head and stared at me as if he was determined. His eyes were full of confusion, doubt, and a trace of unrestrained resentment. Then he asked in a calm and almost cold tone word by word: Teacher Chen, how did you and Xu Zhongjun meet?

When I heard the words Xu Zhongjun, I felt dizzy. My chest felt like I was punched hard. I could no longer calm down. My face suddenly became hot and anxious. I didn't care about my disrespect and my role model and asked stutterly: You... do you... know "Xu Zhongjun"? What else do you know?

Xu Che snorted coldly, and calmed down instead. He took a big sip of wine and stared at me and said: Teacher, it seems that I will ask you first, how did I know "Xu Zhongjun"? Because he is my father! What else do I know? Almost everything!

I lost my mouth and almost spilled half a cup of coffee. The waiter rushed over to help us clean the table. My tone trembled and said sorry in a mess. When the waiter walked away, I looked at Xu Che in horror, unable to believe his words. Xu Zhongjun turned out to be his father!

But even so, the lust between us is extremely hidden every time, and I remember Xu Che said that he had always depended on his mother for life, and it was impossible for him to know it!

At most, I have seen us talking together or something. Those most private scenes should not be exposed...

A series of questions gushed out, and Xu Che answered my two questions, but it made me more confused. I held a hint of luck and forced myself to smile, and stumbled and said: Xu Che, I... my father and I know each other. He is the leader of the Education Bureau. He has come to our school and had a meal once. Apart from this... there is no intersection. I just didn't expect that Director Xu would be your father today. Why... why did you suddenly ask about this?

Xu Che's eyes became more contemptuous and resentful, and he stared at me so much that he felt uncomfortable. He didn't answer the conversation. He took out his phone, operated it for a while, and then handed it to me. The interface showed a folder. I took the phone tremblingly and asked in confusion: What is this?

He turned his head toward the window and gritted his teeth and replied: It's all in the documents, and after reading it, he understands everything!

I swallowed twice and carefully clicked the folder like removing mines. There were three video files inside. The cover was so dark that there was no strangeness or strangeness. I clicked the first video in order. After seeing it for three seconds, my phone fell on the table from my hand. I was almost limp, my whole body was cold, staring at the screen. A tall and beautiful young woman was wearing a bright black skirt, and was completely picked up by a man wearing glasses from the front. Her big round and thick cock was clearly sprinting in her pussy. The splashed vaginal fluid was even sprayed on the window. The man hugged her and walked around in circles, as if she was dancing a social dance. Two middle-aged people stood next to her applauding, with a flattering face...

Then the phone automatically switched to the second video, and the picture was still erotic: the man in glasses opened the window wide, causing the beautiful young woman to stick out her big butt and stick her head out of the window. She turned around lewdly and teased the man, and actually shook her butt and fucked her back and forth, so happy!

The young woman covered her mouth hypocritically and was afraid that she would scream, but looking at her slutty buttocks and lewd eyes, I don’t know how to enjoy it. Finally, the young woman was driven from behind by a man with glasses by a man in glasses, and walked towards the sofa. She was slapped at the buttocks from time to time, and her buttocks were stirred up, making people dizzy...

Slowly, I felt that everything in front of me was confused. I couldn't see what the third video was. I just felt like I was jumping into a misty valley. The water was gurgling in the distance, and the birds were singing, which aroused my infinite desire, but my feet were full of skeleton poisonous insects. No matter how I hit left and right, I was still wandering in the smoke, and it seemed that I could never get out.

People always say: I don’t know the true face of Mount Lu because I am in this mountain

I really realized at this moment that four days ago, I was the master of this picture, and I was in the scene, and I didn’t feel so lewd. But four days later, I became an audience member who watched my own performance with my students. That feeling was really shocking, shame, despair and bitterness, mixed with all kinds of flavors, and burned into the inside. That night, how indulged in lust, how sad and helpless I was at this moment. Isn’t this the truth of heaven and the retribution is unhappy?

Teacher Chen, this is what you said, "no intersection"? I see that the "interaction" between you will almost be able to be made into a TV series!

Xu Che's sudden inquiry suddenly pulled me back from the illusion to reality. Tears kept spinning in my eyes, but they did not flow out. Maybe this is my last dignity and hope. I looked at Xu Che pitifully and helplessly. What else can I ask for at this moment?

I just hope that things will not go bad anymore. I can live a life of mercy and not hurt my parents and sons. As for the face of being a noble teacher?

I have given up. From the moment such videos exist on a male student I particularly like, there is no such statement as teacher dignity since the moment they exist in the mobile phone of a male student I particularly like.

Xu Che's eyes seemed to be much calmer, no longer so angry, and slowly turned back to the gentle and literary introverted boy before. Without waiting for me to defend and beg, he said first: Teacher Chen, I never thought of hurting you or stinging you. It's just that such video content can no one calm down...

He lamented, took another sip of wine, and continued: That day, I went to a good friend's house to play. He was a student in the physics department. He had a high-powered telescope at home. Usually, he liked to observe the night sky on the balcony when he was having food. When he was having sex, I stayed and watched the telescope everywhere. As a result, I saw the scene in the video. At first sight, I was very excited. When I saw who it was, I felt as if I was so sad. I gave me ten thousand chances. I couldn't guess that you and Xu Zhongjun would be in the same frame in such a scene. It's really: life is far more bloody than you imagined!

So, I have to record this "historic" scene. I don't mind that my scumbag father is a little bit scumbag, but I can't accept it. The perfect goddess-like teacher I always respected and admired in my heart was so lustful... so indecent! I just feel that the beauty that I didn't have in my heart was also eroded by those videos. Teacher Chen, why are you like this? I hope you can give me a sincere explanation. After that, I will delete the video. I will not use this to threaten and tempt you to do anything...

Finally, I felt that his voice was choked, and my tears finally couldn't help but rush out. I didn't want to defend my lust, but I just felt that I had let down the pure and flawless image in his heart, and even more let down the once energetic and enterprising self. I have been ups and downs for ten years, from fighting to compromise to enjoyment, and my sexual addiction has swallowed me little by little

In fact, Xu Che's appearance has aroused my rebellious consciousness to resist sexual desire again. In recent times of sexual addiction outbreaks, I would think of him unconsciously, but my desire was slightly reduced and I was not so hungry and thirsty. I can't say why. I just think Xu Che can give me a kind of quietness and peace, a kind of innocence without any impurities. Perhaps, this feeling is in line with my own soul ten years ago, and it is the projection of that self, on another boy, that is friendly and familiar, and it makes people feel comfortable.

But now, everything has been ruined by my own lewdness. The image of the elegant and noble beautiful teacher I once hoped to remain in his heart has disappeared.

I don't know how long it took, but the tears slowly dried up. I drank the rest of the coffee and my mood calmed down a lot. Just as Xu Che said, what I can do now is to sincerely tell him about his own experience without reservation, not ask for forgiveness, but only ask him not to be decadent because of this, don't be sad because of a slutty woman like me. He still has a bright future and future. I just need him to know clearly the ins and outskirts of things, and know that his lewd female teacher has both the despicable indulgence of being deeply involved in sexual addiction and the involuntary body being plotted against. A glass of peach and plum spring breeze, a ten-year light for the night rain in the rivers and lakes, and it really rained outside. The chandelier above my head suddenly lit up. The light was soft, with a hint of ambiguity and warmth. On such a night when the light rain in the rivers and lakes were lighted up, I told Xu Che about those days of peach and plum spring breeze back then...