Chapter 18 Sad memories

After chatting in the car for a while, I suddenly remembered the classmates who were with Annuo just now. Those few obviously didn't look like good students.

What is their relationship with Annuo?

Why did they quit school together?

What were you quarreling again just now?

And their strange attitude towards Anno, I have too many questions in my mind~

By the way, are those people just now classmates in your class?What were you talking about just now?

Annuo, who was leaning in my arms, raised his head when he heard my question, looked at me and blinked his eyes, and buried his head in my arms again~

It’s my classmate Ah, just now... I just met him by chance, so I just said a few words~

Annuo obviously didn't tell the truth. Not to mention that I drove with them for a while, even if the few people skipped classes, it wouldn't be possible that they could meet them so by chance, unless they agreed together.

Looking at the status of a few people chatting. Although I don’t know the content of the chat, there should be a big difference, otherwise it would be impossible to argue~

I thought about the scene I just saw in my heart and fell silent.Seeing that I didn't say anything, Annuo looked up at me again~

Brother, what's wrong with you~

Seeing me silent, Annuo thought I was angry, so he shook my arm: Don't be angry, I promise I didn't do anything bad, I swear.After saying that, raise your right hand and guarantee it~

I looked at Annuo with a serious look, raised my hand and touched Annuo's little head, smiled and said: I know you didn't do anything bad, I just worry about you~

Since I met Annuo, in addition to the odd-tempered Annuo who had been slapping me at the beginning, to the initiative to sacrifice himself later, I have even been actively contacting me after knowing that we were related by blood. For so long, I seem to know very little about Annuo.

In addition, after my father and mother divorced, they chose to live with Annuo and his daughter, and they were much distant from me and Beibei. Sometimes they were a little embarrassed when they met each other.

Over time, the intersection between the two parties has become less and less. In this case, Annuo and I have become a little alienated. To be serious, I seem to know nothing about Annuo~

Although I don’t have a clear position on Annuo now, I have decided to be nicer to her and can’t ignore her like before. So, I want to know more about Annuo~

Annuo, I have no other meaning. I just met you for so long, and I have very little care for you. I feel very guilty. I...

Without Ah, I think you treat me very well, it is really very good.Annuo interrupted me and looked at me seriously.

After listening to me, we have been aware of each other for more than a year. We even have a common father, but we don’t know much about each other, and it can be said that there are very few.We met before, um, you know that I have poor self-control. Apart from, um, that's what, I care too little about other things about you. Now I think I feel very guilty, but I promise I will treat you well in the future.Holding Annuo's little hand, I said it seriously~

So, I want to know more about you, want to know what your daily life is like, whether anyone bullies you at school, what kind of learning situation is Ah, or whether there are boys chasing you, whether there are any love Ah, or something ~

Me, I don’t...I don’t have a relationship, I, I only have you... Annuo had always listened to me quietly, but when he heard me ask her if anyone was chasing her or dating, he was a little anxious and immediately denied it.

I held the girl's hand tightly and looked at her with a smile: I know, I understand, I just want to know how you usually look, I want to know a real Annuo, I want to know what kind of girl Annuo was in the past, isn't that what kind of girl you like like someone?

Do you like me?When Annuo heard this, he subconsciously clenched my hand and looked at me with some expectations~

I looked at Annuo seriously and nodded firmly: Like~

Hearing my affirmative answer, Annuo did not show a particularly happy expression, but instead lowered his head slowly and sighed softly.After a long silence, Annuo spoke again~

Brother, do you really want to know about me?

Maybe, you don't like me if you know it~

No, no matter what, I won’t dislike you, you have to believe me.I'll say it seriously again~

Annuo didn't say anything, let go of my hand, slowly sat back on the seat, leaned on the back, raised his head slightly, and looked at the roof of the car in a daze~

This is the first time I have seen Annuo's expression. I don't know what happened to Annuo, or Annuo has any unspeakable secrets. But at this moment, Annuo made me feel so sad and so distressed. Just as I was about to say that you didn't want to say it, Annuo's low voice had already sounded~

Brother, I hate our father and my mother~

The first sentence Annuo said was a bit beyond my expectations. I never expected that Annuo mentioned his father and her mother first~

Brother, I have a father named An Changsheng~

And a dad?I was stunned when I heard this, and then I realized who Annuo was talking about: The father of Annuo’s original family~

Brother, I miss him very much~ Speaking of this, Annuo closed his eyes slightly, and crystal tears had already flowed out of the corners of his eyes. This was the first time I saw Annuo crying. I shook Annuo's hand, but I didn't know how to comfort her~

I almost didn't know anything about Annuo's past. I don't know how many things happened to her, but I could feel them. Annuo remembered that the past was not just painful memories~

I grew up in the countryside before I went to junior high school. It was a small mountain village with poor transportation and a backward economy. Since I can remember, my family has been very poor since I was a child.Annuo opened his eyes and looked at the roof of the car with a look of reminiscing about the past~

Although I am very poor, I am really happy because I have a father who loves me very much and a beautiful mother who other children envy.I don’t know if others will remember things from childhood like me, but I remember them all.

My father has a low level of education. After graduating from junior high school, my grandmother said that my father is actually very smart and has good academic performance. However, at that time, my family was poor and I had to marry my uncle. The family had no money to support my father to go to school. Later, my father took the initiative to drop out of school~

My father, who was not in school in his teens, started working in the fields. When there was no farm work in the fields, he would go to nearby villages or towns to work. When he was 19 years old, he met his mother when he was working in the town, and later brought her mother home~

In fact, at the beginning, my mother's family looked down on my father because my father's family was too poor, but my father did not give up. He went to my mother's house to do this and that every few days, and he never had time to have time. My mother's family was finally moved by her sincerity and married her to her father.

My dad in my memory is always very happy every day. Even though life is hard, I also asked my dad: Dad, Dad, why do you laugh every day?Dad picked me up, put me on his shoulder, and then ran on the path in the fields: Because Dad had no no Ah, of course he was happy.

Speaking of this, big tears fell from Annuo's face, but Annuo's face was a smile I had never seen before, warm, and remembrance...

Every day when I go to work in the fields, my father always asks me to ride on his shoulders and take me with me, because I will cry every time I don’t let me go.My father was working in the fields, so I ran around nearby, but I was very obedient and didn't run out of my dad's vision.After finishing the farm work, my mother had already prepared the meal and the whole family was having fun. This was the best memory of my childhood.

Perhaps because of Annuo's emotions, somehow it seemed that he felt warmth in his heart, and there was also an indescribable emotion.Annuo's words paused for a moment, and the sound rang again~

It would be great if I kept going like this, but things didn't go as expected. Destiny played a big joke with me, and all of this was broken.When I was five years old, I had a serious illness. My father took me to a nearby village to see a doctor. After taking the medicine, I didn’t get better. Later, I went to the clinic in the town, but it didn’t work and my condition became more and more serious.In the end, my father was cruel and sold all the things that could be sold at home. Then he borrowed money from his uncle and took me to the city for medical treatment with his mother~

When I came to a big city for a doctor for the first time, my father was at a loss and didn't know what to do for many things, but my father was not worried.Because my mother has seen more markets than my father, she worked in the city before they got married. Even after getting married, she would go to the city to work for several months every year to subsidize the family income, so my mother can handle many things in an orderly manner.Speaking of which, if my grandfather was not in good health and could not live without my father's care at that time, but my parents came out to work together, everything might have changed~

When Annuo said this, his mood was obviously depressed~

Something happened on the first day I arrived at the hospital~

I will always remember that my father took the blood test test form, like a soulless puppet, walked to my hospital bed step by step, looking at my mother calmly, with a scary look on his eyes.

Dad kept repeating a sentence: Why... Why...

Seeing tears flowing out of Annuo's eyes again, my heart felt like it was being held by something, and it hurt a lot~

Mom seemed to be frightened, and looked at dad with a pale face, feeling a little panicked.I didn't know what was going on at that time. The strange atmosphere made me a little scared, so I cried loudly.

Maybe my crying awakened my father. His first reaction was to throw myself down, hold my hand tightly, and comfort me constantly. I saw that my father's eyes were red, and he seemed to be crying.I stretched out my hand, and my father bent down and hugged me, gently patted my back, and kept saying: Nonouno, nonouno, don't be afraid, Dad is here~

In the next few days, my father and mother didn't talk anymore, but just sat silently on both sides of the hospital bed to guard me. During those days, my father was always in a daze. Sometimes the doctor came to call him several times but didn't respond.But whenever I cry because of discomfort or discomfort, my father is always the first to react, jumping to me quickly, and constantly comforting me~

Later, when my illness was about to recover, I woke up one morning and my mother disappeared.When I was crying for my mother, my father just hugged me and kept crying, crying and saying: Dad is still here, Dad is still here.I later learned that my mother left without saying goodbye.

After curing the disease, my father took me back home. Since that day, I have never seen my father laugh again.Grandma asked why her mother didn't come back, and dad was just silent. Grandma had no choice. Mom's house was in another town, and it was too far away. It was all mountain roads. She couldn't come to the door to ask the couple what had happened~

On the day I came back, my father, who never touched smoking and drinking, smoked cigarettes. He drank so much at night. Looking at my father who was drunk in the yard, I could only sit next to my father and cry helplessly. The neighbors passing by heard my crying and called my uncle and grandma. They carried my father to the bed~

Since that day, my father has been drinking almost every day. After drinking, he sits in the yard in a daze. When he drinks too much, he staggers on the bed and goes to bed to sleep.There is one person missing at home, but my father takes good care of me. Even if he drinks too much, he will think about preparing food for me first, washing clothes for me, and tying his hair. However, my father never put me on his shoulder and took me through the path in the fields again~

Speaking of this, Annuo couldn't control his emotions, covered his mouth and started crying~

I hugged Annuo's shoulder with some pain, carried her into my arms, gently patted her on the back, and couldn't help but feel more respect for Annuo's father.

When a man suddenly realizes that the daughter he has always loved is not his own flesh and blood, how many people can bear this blow.

Especially when he knew that his daughter was not his own and his wife left the child and left without saying goodbye, he not only did not use the child to vent his anger, but took care of him meticulously as usual. What a heavy fatherly love this is~

Annuo in his arms cried for a while, his mood stabilized a little, and a choked voice rang again~

Later, my father got drunk again and cried loudly in the woods behind the village. When he heard the news, his uncle and grandmother knew the truth of the matter through the intermittent words of the drunk father~

The next day, my father's two sisters, as well as my uncle, beat her to her mother's house with her aunt and aunt.But they didn't see their mother because they had long been disconnected from their family and they didn't know where the person was.The angry crowd smashed the mother's house and asked her to pay a sum of money before leaving~

After these people returned home that day, they happened to see me standing at the door. My uncle came over and slapped me in the face, scolding me for being a bastard.Lying on the ground, I didn't cry at that time because I was completely confused. I don't know why my uncle beat me. He even said that I was a bastard, what a bastard was, I was still thinking in my heart.

Hearing the noise, my father rushed out of the room, pushed my uncle away, picked me up from the ground, and shouted at them: What's the matter with the child!You all go, go out, go out!!Dad drove them away and carried me into the room. He carefully wiped the dirt on my face with a wet towel. Looking at Dad in front of me, I just grabbed Dad's clothes tightly, for fear that Dad would suddenly disappear~

Since then, my father quit drinking, but he didn't quit smoking, and my father has become the diligent father before, but my father will never smile again.

Because of the previous serious illness, my body was always very weak. Later, my father ran dozens of miles of mountain road to find an old Chinese doctor and asked me for a prescription for nourishing my body.But there are several medicines that are very expensive, especially wild ginseng, which cannot be afforded. So my father went into the mountains to dig herbs by himself and then came back to cook for me.Until one day, it was completely dark and my father hadn't come back. I sat at the gate, looking at the path my father walked every day, looking forward to the familiar footsteps.But what I waited for was the arrival of a group of people, and there was grandma's crying in the crowd. Then I saw my father lying on a door panel, carried by several people, covered in mud, and his entire upper body was stained with blood.I walked to my father blankly and called him dad, but there was no response. I saw that my father was still holding a handful of herbs tightly in his hand...

Annuo was a little sobbing when he said this, and lay in my arms and sobbed constantly.

When I heard this, my eyes felt a little sore. I had never heard Annuo mention her father before. Based on my few understandings, I could vaguely feel that the person should be gone, but I didn't expect this would be the case. I couldn't help but sigh deeply in my heart~

Brother, do you know that my father was because of my death~ Annuo grabbed my clothes and cried loudly.

At this time, I didn't know how to comfort her, so I could only hug Annuo tightly and gently caress her back, fearing that she would cry and let it go~

Annuo cried for a long time before slowly stopping crying. The shirt on my chest was already wet. I pulled the tissue next to me and wiped the tears on Annuo's face, waiting for Annuo to slowly calm down~

Annuo took the tissue and wiped it again, looked at my chest, and smiled apologetically at me~

Brother, I'm sorry, I was so excited just now. I haven't cried like this for a long time.I just reached out and touched Annuo's head without saying anything ~

Huh~ I feel much more comfortable... Annuo wiped away his tears, smiled, and sat back on the seat~

My father suddenly disappeared. At that time, I felt that the whole world had collapsed. I threw myself on my father and cried. Everyone came up to pull me, but I held my father's clothes tightly and didn't let go until I fainted from crying.When I woke up the next day, there was already a grave in the woods in the back mountain~

I became a child that no one cares about and no one wants. My grandmother used to love me very much, but I have never come to my house since I learned that I am not her biological granddaughter.Later, my father had an accident because of my relationship, and she added all the resentment to me, but I don’t blame her.Two days after my father passed away, I didn’t know what to do after eating some of the food left by my father. I was only five and a half years old and could not do anything. I was so hungry that I could only drink water to fill my hunger, but it had no effect at all.In the end, I couldn't hold on anymore. I was so hungry that I was shaking. I cried and wanted to ask for some food, but I fainted halfway. It was the village director who found me lying in the grass and took me home. When I woke up, I let me have a full meal.After dinner, the director took me to my uncle's house first and explained his purpose: the child is so young, no matter what, someone must take care of him.But before he could finish speaking, the uncle closed the door vigorously.In desperation, the director took me to my grandma's house again, but my grandma knew it was me and she didn't even open the door.

At that time, I couldn't figure out why my uncle and grandma didn't want me anymore. I just cried, why my father was gone, I missed him very much, and my mother, why didn't my mother come to see me after so long? My father said that my mother went to work and would come to see my Ah after a while.

Annuo, immersed in the memories, seemed to have become the little girl of the past again, with confusion and confusion in her eyes~

In the end, the village director took me home and stayed for one night, and took me to my mother's house the next day.But when I arrived at my mother's house, the door was closed and I asked the neighbors next to me that all my mother's family had moved out.Because my father's family came to the house some time ago, the matter about my mother has been rumored to be very popular in the local area. My mother's family felt that she was embarrassed in the local area and moved away soon, but they didn't think about taking me away when they moved away.Annuo smiled self-deprecatingly~

The village director had no choice but to take me back to the village and knocked on the door of grandma's house again.The village director left me in my grandma's yard, threw a word and left: After all, the child was left by Changsheng, so you can't ignore it.

I stood in the yard until it was dark, and my grandma opened the door, but she didn't let me in. She gave me some food and put it on the ground. She didn't care about me anymore, but she didn't drive me out. From that day on, I slept in the small house where firewood was placed.The small house had no beds and the doors were not closed tightly. I still remember that winter was so cold that I only had a broken quilt. Later, I couldn't stand it anymore, so I got into my grandma's sheep pen, squeezed among a few sheep, and slept in the grass nest. Brother, do you know, sleeping in the sheep pen in winter is one of the few times that makes me feel warm~

When I heard Annuo's words, I felt my heart hurt so much. I really couldn't imagine how a little girl, aged five or six, could survive these things~

Later, the village set up a very poor household for me and gave me some money every month, which was given to my grandma.When I was almost 7 years old, the village cadres found my grandmother and said that I wanted me to go to school, saying that this was the country's compulsory education and every child had to go.A few days later, the village cadres came to my grandma's house again and brought me an old schoolbag and some clothes. They were all from their children before, but they were already extremely precious to me.Since that day, I have walked five or six miles of mountain road every day to the school closest to our village to start school.After school, I carried a basket similar to my height to mow the grass for my grandma's pigs, sheep, and every time I tried to cut as much as possible, because every time I cut too much, my grandma would give me more food.Speaking of this, Annuo smiled, his face no longer had a sad expression~

At that time, I was happy to go to school, and the knowledge in books every day made me curious about the world.Even my classmates laughed at me and bullied me. They said I was a wild child without a father or a mother, and a wild breeder. I just tried not to provoke them because I knew that no one would help me.Until the year I graduated from elementary school, my uncle earned some money from working outside, sold his house and father's house, and gritted his teeth and bought a small yard in a very remote suburb of the city, and took my grandmother and me away.Later I found out that my uncle had no intention of taking me away at the beginning, and my grandmother insisted on it.To be honest, when I left my hometown, I was still reluctant to leave the small woodshed that I had lived in for 6 years~

Later, when my uncle was running his child for school, he also did it for me, because I was a very poor student and it was easier than his son. In this way, I started to study in the city since junior high school.The first time I came, my parents took me to see a doctor, but I didn’t expect that the second time I came here to go to school, the difference is that my parents are gone.

When I came to the city to go to school, I thought it would be better than in my hometown. After all, the classmates who bullied me and laughed at me in the past were gone, but I thought it was too naive.The same goes for children in the city. Bullying is just a change of place.They said I was a country bun, and they despise my old clothes and torn shoes. They would throw the rice balls I brought from my house onto the ground, saying that it was something that even dogs would not eat.Actually, I have become accustomed to these things. Compared with the past when I went to school in the village, this is nothing.

Because in general, life here is much better than when I was in the countryside.Although my grandmother almost never talks to me, my uncle treats me coldly and even beats me when I feel bad. My uncle's two children will throw my things out from time to time, but at least I can have enough food. At that time, I was still very grateful to my grandmother and uncle.So, I have always been very diligent at home, washing dishes, sweeping the floor, and washing clothes. I do it all.

Later one day, my grandmother took a bus back to her hometown to burn paper at the grave. My aunt and I also returned to her parents' home with her two children. Only my uncle and I were left at home.After dinner, I cleaned up and went back to my small room to do my homework. My uncle, who had drunk wine in the evening, pushed open the door and walked straight in, pressing me to the small bed next to me.I looked at my uncle in horror. I thought I had made a mistake and made him unhappy. He wanted to beat me. It was not until he started to tear my clothes that I realized something was wrong.

Hearing this, I suddenly clenched Annuo's hand, my eyes were already a little red~

Annuo smiled back to me and shook his head gently ~

When my uncle took off my pants, I realized what he was going to do. I screamed loudly and struggled hard, but it was useless. The place we lived was too biased, and there was no one nearby, so no one would come to save me.In despair, I touched a knife next to me that I used to sharpen a pencil and stabbed it into my uncle's arm with all my strength.In fact, the knife was very small, but it was the only weapon I could use to protect myself at that time.My uncle slapped me hard, let go of me and looked at my arm, and it was already bleeding.He wanted to pounce on me again, so I hurried in the corner, holding the knife, looking at him desperately but fiercely. In fact, at that moment, I thought that I might be dying. Apart from being afraid, I just wanted to try my best to cause some harm to him before I die.My uncle was stunned when he looked at me, cursed the wild man, and turned around and walked away. At that moment, I seemed to see a trace of fear in my uncle's eyes.I ran out of bed and inserted it into the door, ran back to the corner of the bed, and spent the night in horror.It was from that time that I realized that only by resisting can there be a way out.

Later in school, I learned to scold anyone who scolded me, and I beat me back. The advantage of doing so much work in the countryside before was reflected. Don’t be too thin, I am stronger than ordinary boys, and ordinary people can’t beat me.Later, they hit me two or three together, but I couldn't beat me, so I could only fight to the death. Until one time, three or four children hit me together, I bit one of the children's fingers and didn't let go no matter how they hit me. At that time, the blood of the child was bleeding in my mouth, and they were really scared and started crying and begging for mercy.This incident later came to the principal. After understanding the causes and consequences, I was not punished because they bullied first.Since then, there has been no one in the class who dares to bully me again~

I stroked Annuo's face with some pain. Annuo just smiled slightly, as if what he said just now was someone else's business~

Maybe it was because I was famous for that fight. In addition, there were always a few thorns in every school, so people kept asking me for provocation. Later, they were blocked on the way home. However, after a few fights, fewer people came to me, because there were more and more people afraid that I would be.When I reached the third year of junior high school, no one in the school dared to cause trouble for me anymore. I wouldn't brag, I have a certain reputation in several nearby middle schools, hehe~

Looking at Annuo with a relaxed smile on his face, I couldn't laugh. How much bullying and grievances have she suffered over the years~