February 11th?
It is past 4 pm, and the receipt has a lot of things. In addition to a lot of food, there are also daily necessities such as bed sheets, quilt covers, and shampoo.
I didn't have the heart to continue looking at the other small receipts. There are several similar long strips. I roughly found a few tickets issued by supermarkets I didn't know and took a look. They were basically the same, but I paid attention to the number of condoms they bought. From the end of February to now, on May 10, I had already bought the fourth box the day before yesterday.
Today is May 12th, two and a half months, and at least 3 boxes of nearly 50 were used. Apart from Na's menstrual period, the two of them were not idle.
We may have had sex about a dozen times during this period. Although there was a layer of rubber film blocking it, I still couldn't help feeling nausea.
I figured it out, and the timeline gradually overlapped together, which may be inaccurate, but several important time points appeared: first, before Christmas, around November, she might have started to have some thoughts about Xie Fei and started buying things for him; at Christmas, maybe the two of them had clarified their relationship with each other under the festive atmosphere, of course I am not sure about this; January 27th, also the day of their school holidays, they stayed at that secret place for the first time until very late, this place must be not far from Zhongguancun Carrefour, or very convenient, and Sikuo Education Headquarters is where Na works, diagonally opposite Hailong Building, Zhongguancun 1st Street. It is easy to explain that it is impossible to see Na’s problem from the oil ticket. Maybe it was the first time they had sex on that day; then Xie Fei might go back to Changchun for the New Year, and there was a Spring Festival holiday.The emotional fluctuations during the period also have a more reasonable explanation; their school starts on February 14, but the teachers work on the eighth day of the 11th, and Xie Fei returned to Beijing early that day. She must have gone to pick up Xie Fei, and helped him arrange his life like his wife cared for her. This time she was prepared in her heart. When she went to the supermarket to buy things, she knew clearly what to use. On the 11th, I forgot what time she came back, but I was busy for those days and it was very late to go home, so I might not pay attention to it. The things that followed were taken for granted. Until now, except for evening classes, she basically stayed with Xie Fei in that secret place. On May Day holiday, Na was so bold that she took Xie Fei home to spend the night, and she accidentally heard and saw their scandal.
And I, this idiot-like husband, since then, every time I kissed the lips that other men had just kissed, and every time I entered, there was a place where other men had just poured dirty body fluids into them.
Things gradually became clear. I seemed to have had a serious illness. I let out a long breath and collapsed on the ground.
Tears poured into my face without any effort, my heart was as painful as a knife, and my chest was like a huge rock weighing thousands of pounds. It was so difficult to breathe.
The timeline has been figured out, and the rest is substantial evidence.
Maybe I should also think about how to continue my future life after leaving Na. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel depressed in my chest, roaring with my teeth and twisting my body on the ground in various strange and distorted positions.
Maybe it was the lack of oxygen caused by the roaring hard, or it could be the fatigue of not sleeping all night. I was tired of crying and actually lying on the ground and slept to death.
Maybe it would be a good thing for me to die like this, at least, I don’t have to suffer so much.
I was sleeping this time and didn't know the situation. Finally, I woke up with a hurry ringtone of my cell phone. I suddenly got up and saw that it was already dark.
No!
I was shocked and Xiao Meng hadn't answered yet!
As soon as I answered the phone, Xiao Meng's teacher called me. On the other end of the phone, I scolded me angrily. I didn't bother with her, so I grabbed my clothes and ran to the kindergarten to pick up Xiao Meng, who was so beautiful. The little guy cried like a tear doll.
I just entered the house with Xiaomeng in my arms, and Na came back later.
As he entered the door, he asked anxiously: What's wrong with Xiaomeng?Why did you answer her so late? You didn’t answer any number of calls you!What did you go?
Na's questioning was pouring into her ears like beans. I heard the sounds harsh. Somehow, I found that I had heard her voice and felt very disgusting and dirty.
I lowered my head and coaxed Xiaomeng on my own, without saying a word.
I looked at my phone and it was already 8 o'clock in the evening, and dozens of them were not answered. Since 5 o'clock, one of her numbers and the teacher's numbers came in almost every 5 minutes, but I was actually asleep and didn't hear any of them.
Listening to her criticism and complaints one by one, my nameless fire surged up and roared: Shut up!I'll fuck you!
The room immediately became quiet, and Xiao Meng was also stunned. She looked at me foolishly. I threw my phone in the direction of Na, and hit the door frame and turned into pieces that were large and small.
She shrank her head and turned sideways, standing at the door.
In fact, she can't hit her without hiding, and I didn't think she could really hit her.
Seeing Xiaomeng who was so scared that she wanted to cry but didn't dare to cry, I realized that she had lost her composure. No matter how big the hatred was, the child was right. Xiaomeng was innocent. I hugged Xiaomeng back to my bedroom and locked the door immediately.
Outside the door, Na cried and begged me to open the door, saying something in a vague way.
I couldn't listen at all, and I didn't care about what she said. It was nothing more than not getting so angry and discussing things.
How could there be any negotiation?
Do you really think I will never know?
I just want to see how long you want to act in front of me!
Moreover, to be honest, I really don’t dare to open the door, because I am afraid that if I open the door and see her face, I will destroy everything crazy.
She cried outside the door for a long time, but gradually she lost her voice.
Xiaomeng tried to break free from my arms and open the door for her mother several times, but I didn't let her go. Xiaomeng was so scared that she kept sobbing and didn't dare to cry loudly. Since she became sensible, this should be the most scary time she had ever seen her parents.
Na and I had quarrels before, but I never swear loudly, nor did I fall into anything.
Hearing Na's voice outside, Xiaomeng whispered for a long time: Dad, I'm so hungry. Alas, I'm completely dizzy by these messy things. It's almost 9 o'clock. Xiaomeng hasn't had supper yet, so I, the father, have ignored it.
I secretly scolded myself for being careless and hurriedly letting go of her. She immediately trotted out of the bedroom. When I went over and saw Na sitting on the sofa in the living room, her eyes were crying red. Xiao Meng had already entered her arms and didn't look at me again.
When she saw me coming out, she hugged Xiaomeng in fear and hurriedly stood up. Looking at my eyes that seemed to be spewing out of flames, she whispered: Haitao, if you have something to do, just say it. If it is because of mine, can we discuss it in another time?Xiao Meng is really scared.
I noticed that Xiao Meng in Na's arms was shaking all over and said angrily: The child hasn't eaten yet, go and make food for her, and I'll talk to you later.
After saying that, I walked past her, sat in the sofa, staring at the TV without pictures.
Have you got a meal yet?
She turned around and asked.Get out of your mom!Don’t pretend for me, go and cook for Xiaomeng!
I suddenly broke out again.
I really can't control my emotions. In the past ten years since I met Na, I have never been so hysterical in front of her and her children.
She stopped talking, turned around and secretly wiped her face, placed Xiaomeng on a chair next to the dining table, and went into the kitchen to work hard.
I didn't say anything anymore, and continued to stare blankly.
After getting ready for the meal, she settled Xiao Meng, walked to me with some timidity, and whispered in a low voice: Haitao, you eat something first. If you have anything, let's wait a moment before talking about it?
I stood up suddenly, frightened her and shrank my neck, as if I was afraid that I would hit her. In fact, I had never hit her before, and I had never touched her a finger.
I tried my best to calm myself down and said: You should get the child first, and I will ask you if I have something to do.
When I said these words, I stared at her face. I had long seen the panic and fear on her face, and she must have known what I was going to ask her.
Xiao Meng seemed to realize that something very serious happened between her parents. After dinner, she packed up the table, bowls and chopsticks by herself as if she had suddenly become sensible, and she didn't quarrel at watching the cartoon. Na asked her to go to bed, so she obediently followed Na into her room.
She has never really slept in that room by herself since she moved in. It was also the ones that Na and I had to trick her into doing something that was keen on between adults in order to accomplish some of the things that adults were passionate about. When she fell asleep, Na or I would sneak out.
As soon as she entered the room today, I heard her whisper to Na: Mom, I'll go to bed by myself today.
My eyes immediately became wet again.
I am a big man, but I just can't help it, as if the tears from more than 30 years ago will be poured out all at once today.
It is past 4 pm, and the receipt has a lot of things. In addition to a lot of food, there are also daily necessities such as bed sheets, quilt covers, and shampoo.
I didn't have the heart to continue looking at the other small receipts. There are several similar long strips. I roughly found a few tickets issued by supermarkets I didn't know and took a look. They were basically the same, but I paid attention to the number of condoms they bought. From the end of February to now, on May 10, I had already bought the fourth box the day before yesterday.
Today is May 12th, two and a half months, and at least 3 boxes of nearly 50 were used. Apart from Na's menstrual period, the two of them were not idle.
We may have had sex about a dozen times during this period. Although there was a layer of rubber film blocking it, I still couldn't help feeling nausea.
I figured it out, and the timeline gradually overlapped together, which may be inaccurate, but several important time points appeared: first, before Christmas, around November, she might have started to have some thoughts about Xie Fei and started buying things for him; at Christmas, maybe the two of them had clarified their relationship with each other under the festive atmosphere, of course I am not sure about this; January 27th, also the day of their school holidays, they stayed at that secret place for the first time until very late, this place must be not far from Zhongguancun Carrefour, or very convenient, and Sikuo Education Headquarters is where Na works, diagonally opposite Hailong Building, Zhongguancun 1st Street. It is easy to explain that it is impossible to see Na’s problem from the oil ticket. Maybe it was the first time they had sex on that day; then Xie Fei might go back to Changchun for the New Year, and there was a Spring Festival holiday.The emotional fluctuations during the period also have a more reasonable explanation; their school starts on February 14, but the teachers work on the eighth day of the 11th, and Xie Fei returned to Beijing early that day. She must have gone to pick up Xie Fei, and helped him arrange his life like his wife cared for her. This time she was prepared in her heart. When she went to the supermarket to buy things, she knew clearly what to use. On the 11th, I forgot what time she came back, but I was busy for those days and it was very late to go home, so I might not pay attention to it. The things that followed were taken for granted. Until now, except for evening classes, she basically stayed with Xie Fei in that secret place. On May Day holiday, Na was so bold that she took Xie Fei home to spend the night, and she accidentally heard and saw their scandal.
And I, this idiot-like husband, since then, every time I kissed the lips that other men had just kissed, and every time I entered, there was a place where other men had just poured dirty body fluids into them.
Things gradually became clear. I seemed to have had a serious illness. I let out a long breath and collapsed on the ground.
Tears poured into my face without any effort, my heart was as painful as a knife, and my chest was like a huge rock weighing thousands of pounds. It was so difficult to breathe.
The timeline has been figured out, and the rest is substantial evidence.
Maybe I should also think about how to continue my future life after leaving Na. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel depressed in my chest, roaring with my teeth and twisting my body on the ground in various strange and distorted positions.
Maybe it was the lack of oxygen caused by the roaring hard, or it could be the fatigue of not sleeping all night. I was tired of crying and actually lying on the ground and slept to death.
Maybe it would be a good thing for me to die like this, at least, I don’t have to suffer so much.
I was sleeping this time and didn't know the situation. Finally, I woke up with a hurry ringtone of my cell phone. I suddenly got up and saw that it was already dark.
No!
I was shocked and Xiao Meng hadn't answered yet!
As soon as I answered the phone, Xiao Meng's teacher called me. On the other end of the phone, I scolded me angrily. I didn't bother with her, so I grabbed my clothes and ran to the kindergarten to pick up Xiao Meng, who was so beautiful. The little guy cried like a tear doll.
I just entered the house with Xiaomeng in my arms, and Na came back later.
As he entered the door, he asked anxiously: What's wrong with Xiaomeng?Why did you answer her so late? You didn’t answer any number of calls you!What did you go?
Na's questioning was pouring into her ears like beans. I heard the sounds harsh. Somehow, I found that I had heard her voice and felt very disgusting and dirty.
I lowered my head and coaxed Xiaomeng on my own, without saying a word.
I looked at my phone and it was already 8 o'clock in the evening, and dozens of them were not answered. Since 5 o'clock, one of her numbers and the teacher's numbers came in almost every 5 minutes, but I was actually asleep and didn't hear any of them.
Listening to her criticism and complaints one by one, my nameless fire surged up and roared: Shut up!I'll fuck you!
The room immediately became quiet, and Xiao Meng was also stunned. She looked at me foolishly. I threw my phone in the direction of Na, and hit the door frame and turned into pieces that were large and small.
She shrank her head and turned sideways, standing at the door.
In fact, she can't hit her without hiding, and I didn't think she could really hit her.
Seeing Xiaomeng who was so scared that she wanted to cry but didn't dare to cry, I realized that she had lost her composure. No matter how big the hatred was, the child was right. Xiaomeng was innocent. I hugged Xiaomeng back to my bedroom and locked the door immediately.
Outside the door, Na cried and begged me to open the door, saying something in a vague way.
I couldn't listen at all, and I didn't care about what she said. It was nothing more than not getting so angry and discussing things.
How could there be any negotiation?
Do you really think I will never know?
I just want to see how long you want to act in front of me!
Moreover, to be honest, I really don’t dare to open the door, because I am afraid that if I open the door and see her face, I will destroy everything crazy.
She cried outside the door for a long time, but gradually she lost her voice.
Xiaomeng tried to break free from my arms and open the door for her mother several times, but I didn't let her go. Xiaomeng was so scared that she kept sobbing and didn't dare to cry loudly. Since she became sensible, this should be the most scary time she had ever seen her parents.
Na and I had quarrels before, but I never swear loudly, nor did I fall into anything.
Hearing Na's voice outside, Xiaomeng whispered for a long time: Dad, I'm so hungry. Alas, I'm completely dizzy by these messy things. It's almost 9 o'clock. Xiaomeng hasn't had supper yet, so I, the father, have ignored it.
I secretly scolded myself for being careless and hurriedly letting go of her. She immediately trotted out of the bedroom. When I went over and saw Na sitting on the sofa in the living room, her eyes were crying red. Xiao Meng had already entered her arms and didn't look at me again.
When she saw me coming out, she hugged Xiaomeng in fear and hurriedly stood up. Looking at my eyes that seemed to be spewing out of flames, she whispered: Haitao, if you have something to do, just say it. If it is because of mine, can we discuss it in another time?Xiao Meng is really scared.
I noticed that Xiao Meng in Na's arms was shaking all over and said angrily: The child hasn't eaten yet, go and make food for her, and I'll talk to you later.
After saying that, I walked past her, sat in the sofa, staring at the TV without pictures.
Have you got a meal yet?
She turned around and asked.Get out of your mom!Don’t pretend for me, go and cook for Xiaomeng!
I suddenly broke out again.
I really can't control my emotions. In the past ten years since I met Na, I have never been so hysterical in front of her and her children.
She stopped talking, turned around and secretly wiped her face, placed Xiaomeng on a chair next to the dining table, and went into the kitchen to work hard.
I didn't say anything anymore, and continued to stare blankly.
After getting ready for the meal, she settled Xiao Meng, walked to me with some timidity, and whispered in a low voice: Haitao, you eat something first. If you have anything, let's wait a moment before talking about it?
I stood up suddenly, frightened her and shrank my neck, as if I was afraid that I would hit her. In fact, I had never hit her before, and I had never touched her a finger.
I tried my best to calm myself down and said: You should get the child first, and I will ask you if I have something to do.
When I said these words, I stared at her face. I had long seen the panic and fear on her face, and she must have known what I was going to ask her.
Xiao Meng seemed to realize that something very serious happened between her parents. After dinner, she packed up the table, bowls and chopsticks by herself as if she had suddenly become sensible, and she didn't quarrel at watching the cartoon. Na asked her to go to bed, so she obediently followed Na into her room.
She has never really slept in that room by herself since she moved in. It was also the ones that Na and I had to trick her into doing something that was keen on between adults in order to accomplish some of the things that adults were passionate about. When she fell asleep, Na or I would sneak out.
As soon as she entered the room today, I heard her whisper to Na: Mom, I'll go to bed by myself today.
My eyes immediately became wet again.
I am a big man, but I just can't help it, as if the tears from more than 30 years ago will be poured out all at once today.