The night wind is biting, and the wind outside the window is loud.
The warm and yellow night light at the head of the bed was shining with a faint light. Xu Qiu sat at the head of the bed with her knees, while Xie Yong was guarding her side, holding a cup of warm water in her hand, and the heat rose from the mouth of the cup.
Half an hour ago, Xu Qiu calmly rejected Xie Yong's suggestion to see a doctor, and other than that, she did not speak again.
It seemed as if someone was scattered, she didn't cry or make a fuss, and was silent like a puppet.
The surroundings were so quiet that a needle could be heard, and the breathing and heartbeat of the two men became clearer and clearer.
Until someone's cell phone rang, and the vibrating sound broke the deadlock. Xie Yong put the warm water on the bedside table, went out, and looked at Xu Qiu again before closing the door.
Her condition is not good.
Xie Yong once knew in the psychology open class that such a mental state of separation of wood skull is probably a certain stress disorder.
The phone call was from Xu Xiao.
Before Xie Yong brought Xu Qiu back, he was stopped by Xu Xiao and the others. It seemed that she could not let anyone get close. She only had the last bit of trust in him and asked briefly. Xu Xiao and he left each other's contact information and address and agreed that he would take Xu Qiu away.
From Xu Xiao's mouth, he knew the fundamental reason why Xu Qiu suddenly became like this, and his understanding of her past became more complete.
Those past events have passed so long, but they are like sharp blades. Even if they pass through the long river of time, they can still make people feel riddled with holes.
When he arrived at the living room and was sure that he could not hear it in the bedroom, Xie Yong answered the phone.
...Hey, Xiao Xie, I am Aunt Xu.That... how is Xiaoqiu... The woman asked in a panic, her tone full of depression, which was very different from the person in charge of the handsome and capable pharmacy found out by Xie Yong.
She was fine for the time being, Xie Yong turned around and looked at the closed master bedroom door. She had calmed down now and was not crying.Auntie, let her be quiet first and relieve her emotions.I'll call you back tomorrow morning to see if the situation depends on whether she wants to take her to the hospital.
The woman on the other end of the phone agreed repeatedly and hung up the phone soon.
Xie Yong pushed the door and went in again, but Xu Qiu remained in that position.
He walked over slowly, looked carefully at her face, and looked very calm, and he turned his head calmly, and did not look at him. His eyes floated in the void in front of him, not knowing what he was thinking.
...Do you want to drink water?Xie Yong was cautious and his tone was gentle.
Xu Qi did not respond.
Or, you lie down first and have a good sleep.Don’t think about the past anymore, it’s all over.He touched her hand hanging from her feet, and it was a little cold.
No one responded, so Xie Yong slowly grabbed Xu Qiu's hand to help her warm up.
I don't know how long it took
...I want to be alone later.Xu Qiu finally spoke, his voice was already breathless.
Xie Yong pursed his thin lips and thought about it for a few seconds. He nodded, "Okay, I'll go out immediately, right in the room next door. Call me any time you have something to do."
Before leaving, Xie Yong looked around without a trace, took away the water cup, and confirmed that the window was locked and there were no sharp items such as glass.
The door slowly closed behind him.
………
In early summer, the roses in the Xu family's old house were in full bloom.
Xu Qi smelled the familiar fragrance of flowers, and she looked down the window, and the rose garden, which should have been beautiful, was gray and white.She took a step back and saw her tender and young body in the reflection of the glass.
In the blink of an eye, Xu Xiao stood in front of her. She couldn't control her body. She raised her hand to hug her, but was pushed away... Is it okay to stay away from me? I was annoyed when I saw your face!She heard her mother's sharp rebuke.
The next second, she sat on the ground again. Xu Xiao, not far away, was slamming everything she could in the house like crazy. Sometimes it hit her, but the other party seemed to be invisible.
She heard herself crying and calling her mother.
She suddenly came to a door again, and it seemed that someone was locked inside. The sound of slapping the door wildly in her ears, as if she was calling the butler or mother. The voice was aggrieved and crazy, ... Let me go out, let me go out!!
She heard the shrill scream inside, and when she turned around, she saw Xie Yong standing behind her, with a cold and disgust on her face, and spitting out two words, "Crazy."
Xu Qiu suddenly woke up. In the darkness, she could not see anything clearly, only her own rapid breathing sound.
She slowly hugged her head with her hands, then unconsciously tear her hair, pinching her nails into the flesh of her shoulders, as if she couldn't feel the pain, and she scratched the skin on her arms.
Not enough, or not enough.
She started biting her hands again and sat on the bed. She waved the quilt and pillow to the ground, murmured in a mess:
...Fake it...go to death...
When Xie Yong heard the noise and rushed into the room, the desk lamp in Xu Qiu's hand was barely smashed in front of him, right at his feet.He turned on the light, and as soon as he saw the scene in front of him, his pupils suddenly shrank
Xu Qi!
Xie Yong almost ran away, stepped on the fragments of the table lamp. He suddenly took the person into his arms, pulled Xu Qiu's hand away from her mouth, and then held it firmly in his hand.
Xu Qiu resisted fiercely at this time. She pushed and hit Xie Yong hard, and the cursed murmur in her mouth suddenly rose with the sound of mental collapse... You are all fake, fake!I wish I could die, do you hate me, do you hate me... You are also fake, you are too...
For the first time, Xie Yong held Xu Qiu's body with his arms so hard. He had a sad expression and a bitter look, but he still hugged the person in his arms tightly. It's okay, I'm here, you open your eyes and look at me, I'm real...
He had guessed that Xu Qiu had a nightmare, and Xie Yong's comforting voice was urgent but gentle until Xu Qiu had no strength to tear him. The movement of hitting his body slowed down little by little, and his eyes gradually returned to clear.
She finally woke up from that nightmare.
It's a dream, don't be afraid. Xie Yong patted Xu Qiu's back lightly, and his breathing was barely calm. It's past, it's all over...
Since they met, Xu Qiu had never cried in front of him because of sadness.
At this moment, he was choking, and a helpless whimpering sound like a sleepy beast in his throat. He grabbed Xie Yong's clothes tightly and finally cried.
Xie Yong lowered his eyes and saw the shocking bloodstains of Xu Qiu's arms and fingertips.
After a long time, Xu Qiu's crying stopped little by little, and she collapsed in Xie Yong's arms.When he spoke again, the voice of Huji Ping Jing mentioned her past to him for the first time, as if he was telling a distant story:
...When I was four years old, my mother's postpartum depression had not yet recovered.She hates me very much.Everyone around me said that my dad and I look so similar, but I was so cruel that I had to die and came to this world with his life....She believed it.‘If you die, just exchange your dad for it’, she said.
Xie Yong frowned, and listened to her word by word, his heart hurt so much.
...That day was my dad's day, and my mom was wearing a black dress and standing at the corner of the stairs.I carried the bouquet of worship and went up the stairs and threw myself on her lap. She was angry just because she smiled at her young and ignorant, and I was pushed away by her.Rolling down the stairs, falling to the point of blood. At the last moment before my eyes, I saw her standing in place with a cold expression, motionless, and full of hatred in her eyes.
Xu Qiu in Xie Yong's arms trembled slightly
...It hurts so much, Xie Yong, I feel so painful.
Her voice was so soft that it was almost impossible to hear it. Tears in her eyes fell, and it hit Xie Yong gently on his wrist, as if a hole was dripping through his heart.
I always felt that it was natural for me to hate her.All her pain was not caused by me, but for the dead man.But all my pain arose because of her, and I can't treat her as a mother anymore.Over the years, she has been trying to make up for me. I watched her regret and watch her be cautious in front of me. I was both happy and resentful. With these hatreds, I barely escaped from my previous nightmare.Twenty years, twenty years, I have never let go of even one day.
This pain is not achieved overnight, but Lingchi, like a dull knife, cut slowly. The longer the time, the more painful it is to cut it.
But now, they say that the person who donated my liver and saved my life is the person I hate the most; that I was crazy and mentally ill, she tried her best to find someone to cure me; that I told me that I have hated the wrong person for so many years.
... Xie Yong gritted his teeth, and he closed his eyes, trying to say anything, but he couldn't even say a word.
Am I wrong?But Xie Yong, my life has been ruined.Throughout my life, I will never be able to restore to a normal person with a complete personality. Those pains will always exist and I will lose the qualification to be loved as a normal person.
Even his company and love are the products of her extremely despicable personality.She had nightmares, she was afraid that one day, even Xie Yong would hate her.
How would he pull her out of the abyss?I have been in the dark for too long, and the sun has hurt her so much.
Xie Yong took a deep breath, his eyes turned red. He lowered his head, his cheeks and Xu Qiu's forehead, and tears fell from the end of his eyes.
It seems like I remembered that when he had a smile on his lips and then spoke, his speech was very slow, but he was very firm:
...Do you know, when I first met you, I was thinking in my heart, how could there be such a weird girl?But later, I fell in love with you so quickly, even I thought it was incredible.
...I never regretted it after falling in love with you.I confess to you, and you reject me with such ugly words. That posture and expression seemed to tell the whole world that you don’t need other people’s love and you don’t care.But Xu Qiu, I was stubbornly thinking in my heart that there are so many people in this world who are loved, why can't that person be you?
I want to love you.
He is not afraid of hardship, not afraid of difficulties, not afraid of being rejected by her.So what if he went through a lot of hardships, he just wanted to go to her.
Even if all of them are fake, I will always be true.You don't have to return to normal people, at least with me, you will always be eligible to be loved.
You believe me.
The warm and yellow night light at the head of the bed was shining with a faint light. Xu Qiu sat at the head of the bed with her knees, while Xie Yong was guarding her side, holding a cup of warm water in her hand, and the heat rose from the mouth of the cup.
Half an hour ago, Xu Qiu calmly rejected Xie Yong's suggestion to see a doctor, and other than that, she did not speak again.
It seemed as if someone was scattered, she didn't cry or make a fuss, and was silent like a puppet.
The surroundings were so quiet that a needle could be heard, and the breathing and heartbeat of the two men became clearer and clearer.
Until someone's cell phone rang, and the vibrating sound broke the deadlock. Xie Yong put the warm water on the bedside table, went out, and looked at Xu Qiu again before closing the door.
Her condition is not good.
Xie Yong once knew in the psychology open class that such a mental state of separation of wood skull is probably a certain stress disorder.
The phone call was from Xu Xiao.
Before Xie Yong brought Xu Qiu back, he was stopped by Xu Xiao and the others. It seemed that she could not let anyone get close. She only had the last bit of trust in him and asked briefly. Xu Xiao and he left each other's contact information and address and agreed that he would take Xu Qiu away.
From Xu Xiao's mouth, he knew the fundamental reason why Xu Qiu suddenly became like this, and his understanding of her past became more complete.
Those past events have passed so long, but they are like sharp blades. Even if they pass through the long river of time, they can still make people feel riddled with holes.
When he arrived at the living room and was sure that he could not hear it in the bedroom, Xie Yong answered the phone.
...Hey, Xiao Xie, I am Aunt Xu.That... how is Xiaoqiu... The woman asked in a panic, her tone full of depression, which was very different from the person in charge of the handsome and capable pharmacy found out by Xie Yong.
She was fine for the time being, Xie Yong turned around and looked at the closed master bedroom door. She had calmed down now and was not crying.Auntie, let her be quiet first and relieve her emotions.I'll call you back tomorrow morning to see if the situation depends on whether she wants to take her to the hospital.
The woman on the other end of the phone agreed repeatedly and hung up the phone soon.
Xie Yong pushed the door and went in again, but Xu Qiu remained in that position.
He walked over slowly, looked carefully at her face, and looked very calm, and he turned his head calmly, and did not look at him. His eyes floated in the void in front of him, not knowing what he was thinking.
...Do you want to drink water?Xie Yong was cautious and his tone was gentle.
Xu Qi did not respond.
Or, you lie down first and have a good sleep.Don’t think about the past anymore, it’s all over.He touched her hand hanging from her feet, and it was a little cold.
No one responded, so Xie Yong slowly grabbed Xu Qiu's hand to help her warm up.
I don't know how long it took
...I want to be alone later.Xu Qiu finally spoke, his voice was already breathless.
Xie Yong pursed his thin lips and thought about it for a few seconds. He nodded, "Okay, I'll go out immediately, right in the room next door. Call me any time you have something to do."
Before leaving, Xie Yong looked around without a trace, took away the water cup, and confirmed that the window was locked and there were no sharp items such as glass.
The door slowly closed behind him.
………
In early summer, the roses in the Xu family's old house were in full bloom.
Xu Qi smelled the familiar fragrance of flowers, and she looked down the window, and the rose garden, which should have been beautiful, was gray and white.She took a step back and saw her tender and young body in the reflection of the glass.
In the blink of an eye, Xu Xiao stood in front of her. She couldn't control her body. She raised her hand to hug her, but was pushed away... Is it okay to stay away from me? I was annoyed when I saw your face!She heard her mother's sharp rebuke.
The next second, she sat on the ground again. Xu Xiao, not far away, was slamming everything she could in the house like crazy. Sometimes it hit her, but the other party seemed to be invisible.
She heard herself crying and calling her mother.
She suddenly came to a door again, and it seemed that someone was locked inside. The sound of slapping the door wildly in her ears, as if she was calling the butler or mother. The voice was aggrieved and crazy, ... Let me go out, let me go out!!
She heard the shrill scream inside, and when she turned around, she saw Xie Yong standing behind her, with a cold and disgust on her face, and spitting out two words, "Crazy."
Xu Qiu suddenly woke up. In the darkness, she could not see anything clearly, only her own rapid breathing sound.
She slowly hugged her head with her hands, then unconsciously tear her hair, pinching her nails into the flesh of her shoulders, as if she couldn't feel the pain, and she scratched the skin on her arms.
Not enough, or not enough.
She started biting her hands again and sat on the bed. She waved the quilt and pillow to the ground, murmured in a mess:
...Fake it...go to death...
When Xie Yong heard the noise and rushed into the room, the desk lamp in Xu Qiu's hand was barely smashed in front of him, right at his feet.He turned on the light, and as soon as he saw the scene in front of him, his pupils suddenly shrank
Xu Qi!
Xie Yong almost ran away, stepped on the fragments of the table lamp. He suddenly took the person into his arms, pulled Xu Qiu's hand away from her mouth, and then held it firmly in his hand.
Xu Qiu resisted fiercely at this time. She pushed and hit Xie Yong hard, and the cursed murmur in her mouth suddenly rose with the sound of mental collapse... You are all fake, fake!I wish I could die, do you hate me, do you hate me... You are also fake, you are too...
For the first time, Xie Yong held Xu Qiu's body with his arms so hard. He had a sad expression and a bitter look, but he still hugged the person in his arms tightly. It's okay, I'm here, you open your eyes and look at me, I'm real...
He had guessed that Xu Qiu had a nightmare, and Xie Yong's comforting voice was urgent but gentle until Xu Qiu had no strength to tear him. The movement of hitting his body slowed down little by little, and his eyes gradually returned to clear.
She finally woke up from that nightmare.
It's a dream, don't be afraid. Xie Yong patted Xu Qiu's back lightly, and his breathing was barely calm. It's past, it's all over...
Since they met, Xu Qiu had never cried in front of him because of sadness.
At this moment, he was choking, and a helpless whimpering sound like a sleepy beast in his throat. He grabbed Xie Yong's clothes tightly and finally cried.
Xie Yong lowered his eyes and saw the shocking bloodstains of Xu Qiu's arms and fingertips.
After a long time, Xu Qiu's crying stopped little by little, and she collapsed in Xie Yong's arms.When he spoke again, the voice of Huji Ping Jing mentioned her past to him for the first time, as if he was telling a distant story:
...When I was four years old, my mother's postpartum depression had not yet recovered.She hates me very much.Everyone around me said that my dad and I look so similar, but I was so cruel that I had to die and came to this world with his life....She believed it.‘If you die, just exchange your dad for it’, she said.
Xie Yong frowned, and listened to her word by word, his heart hurt so much.
...That day was my dad's day, and my mom was wearing a black dress and standing at the corner of the stairs.I carried the bouquet of worship and went up the stairs and threw myself on her lap. She was angry just because she smiled at her young and ignorant, and I was pushed away by her.Rolling down the stairs, falling to the point of blood. At the last moment before my eyes, I saw her standing in place with a cold expression, motionless, and full of hatred in her eyes.
Xu Qiu in Xie Yong's arms trembled slightly
...It hurts so much, Xie Yong, I feel so painful.
Her voice was so soft that it was almost impossible to hear it. Tears in her eyes fell, and it hit Xie Yong gently on his wrist, as if a hole was dripping through his heart.
I always felt that it was natural for me to hate her.All her pain was not caused by me, but for the dead man.But all my pain arose because of her, and I can't treat her as a mother anymore.Over the years, she has been trying to make up for me. I watched her regret and watch her be cautious in front of me. I was both happy and resentful. With these hatreds, I barely escaped from my previous nightmare.Twenty years, twenty years, I have never let go of even one day.
This pain is not achieved overnight, but Lingchi, like a dull knife, cut slowly. The longer the time, the more painful it is to cut it.
But now, they say that the person who donated my liver and saved my life is the person I hate the most; that I was crazy and mentally ill, she tried her best to find someone to cure me; that I told me that I have hated the wrong person for so many years.
... Xie Yong gritted his teeth, and he closed his eyes, trying to say anything, but he couldn't even say a word.
Am I wrong?But Xie Yong, my life has been ruined.Throughout my life, I will never be able to restore to a normal person with a complete personality. Those pains will always exist and I will lose the qualification to be loved as a normal person.
Even his company and love are the products of her extremely despicable personality.She had nightmares, she was afraid that one day, even Xie Yong would hate her.
How would he pull her out of the abyss?I have been in the dark for too long, and the sun has hurt her so much.
Xie Yong took a deep breath, his eyes turned red. He lowered his head, his cheeks and Xu Qiu's forehead, and tears fell from the end of his eyes.
It seems like I remembered that when he had a smile on his lips and then spoke, his speech was very slow, but he was very firm:
...Do you know, when I first met you, I was thinking in my heart, how could there be such a weird girl?But later, I fell in love with you so quickly, even I thought it was incredible.
...I never regretted it after falling in love with you.I confess to you, and you reject me with such ugly words. That posture and expression seemed to tell the whole world that you don’t need other people’s love and you don’t care.But Xu Qiu, I was stubbornly thinking in my heart that there are so many people in this world who are loved, why can't that person be you?
I want to love you.
He is not afraid of hardship, not afraid of difficulties, not afraid of being rejected by her.So what if he went through a lot of hardships, he just wanted to go to her.
Even if all of them are fake, I will always be true.You don't have to return to normal people, at least with me, you will always be eligible to be loved.
You believe me.
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