Chapter 5: Sadness in your heart

I dare not look at the tears left at the corners of her eyes, and I dare not look at her disappointed expression

I dare not press on her anymore, but I can't bear to leave like this

When the words were delivered to the mouth, they were smashed into pieces and spliced ​​repeatedly, and then repeatedly shattered, and finally they could not form a complete expression.

You go, she turned her back to him and said in a calm and low voice

I……

Go out without anger, but the sorrow in her words made him tremble

……sorry

The crimson flowers blooming on the bed were dyed red like her heart's blood. The crazy man just now thought he had obtained the whole world's self, how ridiculous it was.

Walking in the twilight, the traffic in front of Xu Hang turned into a warm and bright picture.

She has always trusted him

In the third year of high school, even if the homework assigned by the teacher was put aside, he had to finish the questions he chose first; the activities organized in the class in college, trust games. One person fell backwards, and the other person held her behind her back, always restlessly and boldly falling backwards, never considering the possibility of his mistake; in college, he was also present when she was slightly drunk.

Even the small space of the family never sets a guard against him

Perhaps it was because of this trust that just now, when facing him who had lost his mind, she still did not resist in the most intense way.

Xu Hang finally remembered what is the beautiful little world of A Xu and Xiao Xiao?

And today, he completely destroyed this trust

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Zhao Ming started to enter the warehouse for treatment

Chu Xiao did not show too much strangeness, but he no longer was alone with Xu Hang, and even no longer looked at him alone, and only then did she feel a trace of unsolvable sorrow on her face.

In the eyes of outsiders, this may be just a concern about the treatment of a fiancé.

Only Xu Hang knows how bad her mood is

But he was helpless and helpless

Zhao Ming's parents did not feel at all sincere about him. They would often gather on him with a little nervous look, making him feel uncomfortable all over.

Jiang Tingting's timely arrival finally alleviated the suffocating embarrassment. Whether it was Xu Hang's tacit jokes or standing beside Chu Xiao's side and holding her hand tightly, they all played a key role.

Zhao Ming's parents obviously regarded her as Xu Hang's object, in fact, she never concealed her eager gaze when she looked at Xu Hang, which successfully distracted them.

The day after the mobilization dose was put, Xu Hang had slight discomfort on his knees and lower back. The nurse comforted him and said that this was a normal phenomenon.

In fact, Xu Hang had no worries, and would rather have a more severe adverse reaction, so that his guilt could be relaxed a little more.

On the fourth day, the number of stem cells in the blood has reached the requirement

Everything went smoothly until the doctor announced that the operation was perfectly successful

Zhao Ming’s parents’ gratitude did not improve Xu Hang’s mood at all.

He only hopes that Chu Xiao can say a few words to him alone, at least give him a chance to speak

But she did not hear the moment when the operation was successful. Chu Xiao's face briefly recovered a smile. But after the eyes of Xu Hang were intertwined, she closed her mood again.

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I heard that you are so brave that you took the lead in becoming a deserter?

Just when Xu Hang, who had been recuperating for two weeks and had a life of 2 years, didn't know where to go, he suddenly received a call from Mr. Chen.

Alas, look at what you said, you know me. Even if I feel unhappy with Lao Sang, I will not take the lead in getting along with him, right? Xu Hang explained, I really have something to do here

Oh, then you can tell me, what's more important than losing your job? Mr. Chen seemed to be interested

Xu Hang briefly described the donation of bone marrow stem cells

Damn, why didn’t you say it earlier? Mr. Chen laughed and scolded, Lao Sang thought you were deliberately taking the lead in rebellion

I think so, but I don't have this courage

However, this is good, the company can explain it. Mr. Chen said, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, come back to work quickly,

Ah? Going to work? Xu Hang said in surprise, and he was still following Lao Sang?

With me, are there any problems? Mr. Chen said angrily, you guys have nothing to do

OK, I will definitely come here to report tomorrow. Xu Hang agreed immediately

By the way, the Red Cross will issue a donation certificate, right? Remember to bring it here, so I can explain it to the company.

In this way, under the operation of Mr. Shen, Xu Hang's resignation procedures were interrupted, all treatment continued, and the company even established it as a model and model.

Only then did he realize that he was better than building a seventh-level pagoda

Mr. Chen told him that there will be a chance to be promoted soon. If nothing unexpected happens, he will basically be him.

Everything went smoothly Xu Hang couldn't help but wonder if that incident made him unlucky to the lowest point, so he ushered in a change in his fortune.

But if he could choose, he would still choose the kind of life he had before going back, at least, Chu Xiao would not be so sad

Before leaving, he asked Tingting to take care of Chu Xiao more

Chu Xiao, who has always been in good health, fell ill. Of course, everyone thought she was too tired to take care of her fiancé. After the operation was successful, the tense string in her heart broke and she suddenly fell ill.

Xu Hang couldn't go, so he could only worry

Fortunately, the little traitor Tingting sent him the news that Chu Xiao's health was gradually improving, and he returned to the Demon City with peace of mind.

Working under Mr. Shen, he returned to his former passion for work

Focusing on work also made the shadow in his heart fade, at least he would not indulge in that matter anymore

However, the cruel facts told him that Chu Xiao, who trusted him and warmed him, would never come back again

Chu Xiao's blog stopped updating all the articles in it and completely cleared overnight

A cruel guess appeared in his head: Maybe she knew she was peeping for a long time, and the things she wrote were all content that she was willing to share with herself.

He made a more serious mistake than he thought

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In judicial practice, most sexual assaults occur between acquaintances or between strangers?

70% of sexual assault cases occur among acquaintances, 70% are generally people you are familiar with. Moreover, generally speaking, the violence of the man is not obvious, and the resistance of the woman is not obvious;

…………

Even if a woman arrives at your house like this, is she agreeing with the sexual behavior or a recognition of the dangers of sexual behavior?

She is just a dangerous recognition, without a consent to the outcome of the sexual behavior;

Therefore, in judicial practice, we believe that such cases should be directly treated as rape;

'It does not mean irregular'N means n, saying no means no

Xu Hang, who is used to watching Teacher Luo’s videos to make meals, was scolded by Teacher Luo’s words and blushed.

However, the only thing that can be confirmed is that Chu Xiao must have not called the police. Otherwise, he was already imprisoned and could not protect his chrysanthemums.

During this period, he has tried his best to sink himself into work and work overtime every day until late at night. But as long as he returns to his residence, he still can't help but think of her

Zhao Ming would occasionally contact him and describe the results of the reviews to him in a happy and grateful tone.

Intuition tells Xu Hang that Zhao Ming should have called in front of Chu Xiao

This guy still likes this

But things have developed to this day, which made him extremely uncomfortable. It was originally Xu Hang who extended a helping hand out of love for the house and the heart of Wu. Now? It seems to be a deal, or even a coercive transaction.

Xu Hang took advantage of the danger and took advantage of Chu Xiao's fiancé's critically ill and forcibly took away her virginity.

Whenever Xu Hang thinks of this, he can't help but slap himself hard.

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Brother Axu, what's going on with you and Sister Xiao Xiao? Tingting looked at Xu Hang and said in confusion

Ah?

Don't pretend in the past few months, every time I talk to me, I always ask Sister Xiao Xiao; when I mention you in front of her, she will find a way to stagger the topic

Tingting flattened her mouth and said, "You must have done something that you did to be sorry to Sister Tingting!"

You can see this... Xu Hang could only follow her perfunctorily, in short, if something is wrong with her, you must tell me, please!

It is impossible to confess. First of all, this matter makes it difficult for him to speak of; secondly, he does not want to affect his image in Tingting's heart.

Humph, okay, Tingting said angrily, I will accompany me to go shopping in the afternoon and swipe your card!

In the afternoon, Jiang Tingting held Xu Hang's credit card to join the shopping mall in Xu Hang's heart. The little girl seemed to be extorting him on the surface, but in fact, the things she bought were convenient for Chu Xiao.

At least, when the lipstick she bought was obviously not her dish when she tried the color, but was more suitable for Chu Xiao.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help but sigh that the old father had finally grown up.

Xu Hang, Chu Xiao, and Zhao Ming are neighbors on the same street and are still in the same class when they were in elementary school.

So they always act together

Later, Chu Xiao accidentally discovered that this little girl who was one year lower than them was always alone, so he stretched out his caring hand.

Then there was a small follower behind the three musketeers

After that incident, Chu Xiao transferred to school like lightning

Jiang Tingting became Xu Hang's follower

Later, Chu Xiao transferred to school and their relationship became closer

When three people are together, Xu Hang will have a subtle illusion of a family of three

So, does this look like a quarrel between parents and daughters, and their daughters are mediating in the center?

Xu Hang shook his wry smile and stopped his fantasy thoughts. If Zhao Ming had not existed, that kind of beautiful situation might have happened.

Two days later, a tip came from Tingting and was returned by Chu Xiao.

Brother Axu, can you be... Tingting said her bold idea and peeked at Sister Xiao Xiao for a bath?

How could it be?!

Xu Hang denied

I didn't really take a peek at the shower, I just did everything I shouldn't do

Although he had lost his mind that night, now when he closed his eyes, he could still recall every detail of Chu Xiao's moving body

Alas, what should I do now? Sister Xiao Xiao won’t hate me, right? Tingting sighed, it’s all your fault!

Probably not, Xiao Xiao is a reasoning person. Xu Hang doesn't know if Xiao Xiao can still reason after experiencing these.

Humph, what about these things? If you haven’t opened, can you still return the goods if you send them back?

Don't hang it directly on your X-fish

Xu Hang doesn't want to see these things that were returned. You marked 90% of the original price and said it was "given by a dog licking". You don't have to give me the money that is easy to sell, just treat it as your mental loss.

I didn't plan to return it to you, hum

The next day, Xu Hang received a text message and glanced at it and only noticed the word Chu Xiao. He quickly picked up the phone and unlocked it.

Your RMB current account with the last number XXXX will transfer 6,267 yuan. The transferor: Chu Xiao...

At this time, Jiang Tingting's message phone number came late: Brother Axu, Sister Xiao Xiao heard that I wanted to hang the things on X-fish, so she accepted them and said, how should I thank me?

RMB 6267, all the gifts purchased that day seem to be the price

He lay on his back on the office chair, pressing Jingming's hole with his right hand vigorously

It's a headache

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Remember when I said that I might give you a surprise?

On that day, Xu Hang was suddenly called to the office by Mr. Shen.

Ah?Ah, remembered. Xu Hang tentatively said with anticipation, are you going to have a salary increase again?

Is this what you pursue? Mr. Chen laughed and scolded

Ah?Is there any greater surprise than a salary increase?

Of course

Put away the hippie smile, Xu Hang said more surprises to Mr. Chen

Do you still remember the question I asked you in your second round of interview? Mr. Chen said, I asked you, do you have any plans to take root here?

I said no, Xu Hang said

Perhaps it was because of the concern in his heart? At that time, he subconsciously said the answer, and he realized that the answer was very deductible in the interview.

Fortunately, Mr. Chen immediately asked how long he wanted to develop here. Xu Hang was very eager to survive.

Mr. Chen smiled and said: Now, you may not have to wait until five years.

Ah?

The company plans to build a branch in the central region to consider all aspects of the conditions. If nothing unexpected happens, it should be located in your hometown.

Damn, when?

I will be responsible for the branch about half a year to a year. If you don’t do anything in the past six months, you will definitely take you back. Mr. Chen said, remember to give me more effort at that time.

Although he was happy, he couldn't reach the level of surprise. Xu Hang thought that if he heard this news a year ago, his excitement might be ten times that of now.

Brother Axu, I originally wanted to come this week, but there is an interview next week, I want to prepare well

Seeing Tingting's WeChat message, Xu Hang suddenly felt a little disappointed

Only then did he realize that he had become accustomed to the little girl's companionship once every two weeks

The small salary she earns now at work is probably not even enough to travel to Shanghai

However, Xu Hang doesn't have to worry about her financial problems. Although her parents died in a car accident when she was a child, the inheritance and compensation from the car accident were enough to make her rich for the rest of her life

I originally wanted to give the little girl a surprise. Since that's the case, it's better to keep it confidential for the time being.

OK

Judging from your appearance, you don't seem to be disappointed at all

That was still a little disappointed. Xu Hang replied honestly, but the problem is not big. Will he come here next month?

Next month? Have you forgotten? Zheng Hong’s wedding on the 6th next month, didn’t she send you an invitation?

Xu Hang then remembered that Zheng Hong was also a classmate who was close to them, and sent him an electronic invitation last month, but he forgot about it.

Ah, I almost forgot

Brother Axu isn’t coming back?

Xu Hang estimated the project progress and should be able to take time to go there

If nothing unexpected happens, you should come back

That's a good wave

After chatting for a while, Jiang Tingting suddenly said: By the way, recently Zhao Ming took Sister Xiao Xiao to parties, travel, show her love, and I hate it so much

Xu Hang felt a little sad and replied: This is normal. They have been engaged for so long and he has been like that. Xiao Xiao still has to leave her. She must compensate her for the party outside. It is good to travel.

However, I think Sister Xiao Xiao is not happy at all. Tingting's reply instantly shattered his pretending

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Jiang Tingting appeared in the bridesmaid group, but Chu Xiao did not appear

The little girl told Xu Hang her plan with her fingers: According to the principle that things can't be three, she can be a bridesmaid twice in total; once today, Sister Xiao Xiao's wedding once; and then she should be able to get married smoothly

According to Chu Xiao, Zhao Ming did not appear because he was on a business trip. This was something Xu Hang heard behind his back.

Seeing that Chu Xiao in the crowd had recovered his former spirit, he even lost the courage to talk.

He was unable to integrate into the sweet and happy atmosphere of the wedding scene and the sensational scene of the wedding company did not touch Xu Hang's yearning for home, but instead made him a little disgusted.

When taking over the bouquet, Jiang Tingting turned around and blinked at him, but he did not take the initiative to cooperate. The people around him jumped up and got the bouquet of the bridesmaids flying in direction.

Seeing the little girl's angry expression, he shrugged and said sorry.

Chu Xiao responded to the greetings and toastings by the people around her. The question she was asked the most was when to get married.

Indeed, she and Zhao Ming had already talked about marriage. If Zhao Ming hadn't suffered from that sudden illness, he would probably have been married now.

She always responded with a smile, and there is no date yet, and she will notify the invitation in the future

After bone marrow transplantation, it is a high incidence of rejection reactions within one to two years. Therefore, it is not advisable to hold a wedding within at least one year.

When Xu Hang learned this, he felt relieved in his heart. He was still holding that false thought.

Jiang Tingting, who ended her mission to bridesmaids, sat beside him without hesitation. The actions of the friends at the same table gave him ambiguous look.

Just as Xu Hang wanted to go out to relax with the reason to go to the bathroom, the little girl suddenly whispered in his ear: Sister Xiao Xiao seems to have gone to the sightseeing building opposite. She had some drinks before. Go and have a look.

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The wedding scene is a four-star resort hotel. There is a sightseeing building next to the wedding banquet hall. You can take the sightseeing elevator to reach the roof.

She is on the roof, looking out from the railing

Xu Hang did not say anything to break the silence, he even let his footsteps lighter

But Chu Xiao still felt the person behind him

Is the silence at this moment considered a proof of tacit understanding? Xu Hang wants

He walked to three meters away from Chu Xiao and looked at the river and clouds in the distance with her.

This distance shouldn't make her feel uncomfortable, right?

The silence lasted for a full 20 minutes

Is it a very fulfilling thing to change a person? Chu Xiao said

I……

If so, congratulations. Chu Xiao's voice was filled with unspeakable sadness.

Sorry, he really couldn't think of what to say, even though he had simulated this scene countless times in his head, and when he really met her again, he realized how weak his words were.

It doesn't matter. I don't hate you. She turned around and looked at him who was once regarded as a close friend by her, saying, "But, can you ask for something."

……

Don't show up again, okay?

Before she spoke, Xu Hang understood what she wanted to say

When she walked away and said the last sentence, although she deliberately controlled her tone, her tone still shook fluctuatingly.

From childhood to adulthood, Xu Hang only saw Chu Xiao crying twice because of him

Only then did he feel the deep guilt in Lu Xun's "Kite"

The ever-heavy heart, the endless fall has only the beginning, no end