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Chapter 5 My Despair

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Although I always think that I have a high IQ, objectively speaking, I am not too smart. At most, I can only say that I am not stupid.

When I was in junior high school, I studied very well and got into a key high school. Unfortunately, I didn’t perform well in the college entrance examination. Many classmates who were not as good as me entered famous brands, but I only went to a poor university.

Most of the students from bad universities come from the province, but my university is in a province with very low scores in the college entrance examination. The overall quality of the students in the university is not high. Their scores for this university are not even enough in my province.

I am not ruled out that I am self-righteous, but their quality is not very good. I passed the English CET-4 exam in my freshman year. Most of them can't even pass the provincial CET-3 exam until they graduate.

The quality of the school is poor, the quality of the students is low, so the quality of the teachers is naturally not much better, and the courses taught are of no practical use. I only found out that I was fooled in my freshman year, but it was too late to regret it, so I simply didn’t like to study at all.

The best way to pass away my bored college time in boredom is to indulge in online games. Naturally, I can't avoid this bad habit of burning youth. Although the Internet was just popular at that time, online games were just emerging.

In addition to online games, I also have a hobby, which is just not to exercise and strengthen my body to play football, but to stay up late and watch the football.

In my obsession with online games, I have consumed blockbuster youth in vain, and in my fanaticism with football, I have wasted my youthful vitality in vain

From Monday to Friday nights, I basically play games in the Internet cafe. On Saturday and Sunday nights, I watch football in front of the TV in the video hall. During the seven days a week, I basically sleep in the dormitory bed and on the classroom desk.

I don't like to pay attention to those students who go to the library to study with their schoolbags all day. I feel that I have no common language with these students who can't even get English for CET-4. They don't like me, a sophomore student who passed CET-6. I live a lonely life in college and it seems very different.

With the confusion of black and white, I welcomed my college graduation and caught up with the SARS that I couldn't even find a job.

The best excuse and excuse for not finding a job in college is to continue studying, but after I wasted two more years of my parents' money, my education level grew a little further, but I still couldn't find a decent job

In a daze, I spent two more years in this city where I studied for six years in college. I still couldn't realize my ideal life. I didn't save money or make any progress in my work. The only gain was to find a girlfriend.

My age is getting older and my wedding date with my girlfriend is on the agenda. Unfortunately, I cannot fulfill my promise to buy a house. My girlfriend is disappointed again and again in the lies that I don’t even believe in myself, and finally chose to break up with me.

During the three years I spent with my girlfriend, I spent all the money I earned in life for my daily life. Finally, when she left, I was almost alone, but I didn't hate her. After all, she also left the best three years of her life in the days I spent with me, but what I gave her was a disappointing ending.

Failures always come one after another. As soon as I broke up with my girlfriend, I messed up my job again, and in the end even life in the city became a problem.

But I don’t have the courage to choose to go home. My parents have been struggling for half of my life for the expectation of being able to leave the countryside. Once I go back, I can’t face their completely disappointed eyes. I lied and lie to them at work and gritted my teeth and stayed in the city.

Most people choose depression in failure, not to mention that I am a person who has no ability to withstand pressure, and even the money to pay rent is a problem. I can only rely on my shamelessness to live in a relative's house.

Smoking the cheapest cigarettes, eating the least expensive meal, buying a piece of clothing worth 180 yuan has become a luxury, and it has cut off contact with all classmates and friends.

I was dormant in this shabby old building, and the living creatures I accompanied were the cockroaches that came out in groups at night, so I didn't dare to turn on the lights when eating at night, so I wouldn't be disgusted by the disgusting little animals.

The decorations in the house are so simple that they can't be simple. The most valuable one is only a computer, which is also my only entertainment and support in the depression and dormant.

Once a person sinks, it is difficult to cheer up again. I slowly lose the confidence to find a job. In the end, I don’t even love to go down the building. I always seek to irritate myself in front of the display screen until I’m so sleepy that I go to bed, because once I wake up, I have nothing to do, I can only think about the things that make me suffer.

Playing online games and watching football are two of my two major hobbies for playing games in college, but now it is difficult for online games to indulge me in. Watching football has become the only thing that can make me feel spiritual comfort.

In order to avoid thinking about those troublesome things as much as possible, I focused all my energy on watching football. When there are games on weekends, I would watch many games in a row, and mid-weekly I would study the detailed information of each team.

If a person can't play the game well by putting all his energy into a certain game, then this person must be helpless, but I still seem to have some hope because I have put my game of watching football to a professional level

The past accumulation of football knowledge, coupled with the careful study over the past six months, has made my goal clear on the Premier League, Bundesliga, La Liga and Serie A, the four major European football leagues. The situation of each team in the 78 teams in the four leagues has been imprinted into my mind.

After each round of the game, I can clearly tell the detailed rankings of the four major leagues, remember the score results of the entire 39 games, as for which player scored the most goals, which team performed the best, etc., it is even more unreasonable.

As for the 78 teams in the four major leagues, I also have a detailed understanding of them. Basically, they can tell the details of their main players. They can tell the recent injuries of their players, red and yellow card suspension without checking the information, etc.

It can be said that some professional football commentators nowadays may not be as profound as me. At the same time, such detailed understanding also makes me very accurate in predicting the outcome of the game. My life trajectory, which I had already chosen to degenerate, has also changed because I watched the game so seriously.

People who often watch football will inevitably go to some football consulting websites to see the starting lineup and instant scores. In a website that I often go to, I found that netizens are allowed and encouraged to contribute personal articles, and will reward good articles with cash.

It is undoubtedly a good thing for me to have such an opportunity. Not only can I satisfy my vanity because my manuscript is recommended to the homepage, I can also get some economical benefits. Of course, what I care more about is the few contribution rewards.

With my in-depth and detailed understanding of football, I only wrote a few articles and got the opportunity to be recommended to the homepage. Soon I got the first cash reward, so my enthusiasm for submission creation increased.

To be honest, these so-called cash rewards are very small, with a cumulative amount of more than 200 yuan per month, but this is not a big deal for me who is struggling to finance. Not only can I guarantee my monthly online fee, but I can also leave some money to buy cigarettes.

Submissions of such websites are naturally based on forward-looking prediction and analysis. In the process of writing such articles, I gradually found that I seem to have some talent in predicting scores.

The football I often watch and understand is only the four major European leagues. In these 78 teams' 39 matches per weekend, with my own careful analysis, I found that some game results can be predicted. Although not every game can be correct, the accuracy rate is still very high.

For example, a team will be injured by a certain player, and if the team has average substitute players in the absence of the player's corresponding position, then the team will inevitably have shortcomings in this position; for example, a team's players in a certain position are just incompatible with the players in the corresponding position of the opponent, then the team has an advantage in this position; for example, a certain strength of a team is the opponent's shortcomings in this aspect, then the team is likely to score goals in this advantage in the game...

Although goals in football matches seem to be accidental, they are actually the inevitable result of multiple countermeasures and reverse contrasts. When these factors are considered as sufficient as possible, they are superimposed together, and when combining the character and ability of the head coaches of both sides, the offensive and defensive players of the two teams are compared one by one...

Then once one side has obvious advantages, the game will be predicted very well. Those games that are relatively more dominant in the last two teams are matched, which are difficult to predict.

With such predictive and analysis skills, I have the idea of ​​suppressing some games and gambling, but for me, a down-and-out person who is even calculating about eating, betting on football is undoubtedly a thing that will make me lose.

But in the end, I couldn't help it. I put all the 200 yuan I earned from that month's submission to bet on the betting, and I didn't have the capital to afford to lose. I did so in detail that I couldn't analyze it in detail. Finally, I made a big final before I made a bet. Fortunately, I won in the end.

Slowly I found the knock on the Internet. Among the football lottery sold by the state, I can only buy thirteen or fourteen games at the same time. The chance of being guessed so many games at the same time is very small. For those who cannot spend tens of thousands of yuan to choose multiple scores, winning the lottery in this type of football lottery may be equivalent to a lottery ticket.

However, on the gambling football website, you can not only play a single game, but also choose a game at will. I chose the gambling method of playing three or five games together, because there are only so many games that can be predicted in each round.

The first success increased Boqiu's confidence, further attempts gradually increased more experience, and more ways to choose Boqiu's

The first choice is naturally to push predictable games. In order to relegate, you can choose to combine these games with fewer sets of groups. You will also use predictable games as a courage to gain some difficult-to-predictable but high odds. The multiples of these choices are determined by the confidence in the prediction.

The biggest attraction of gambling is that it can quickly accumulate wealth. Of course, the premise is that it can only win but not lose, or win or lose more. In this game of betting, I have experienced the surge in bank card numbers caused by the increase in the number of wins and losses.

In just over three months, I went from being in a state of being in a state of being able to go to star-rated hotels to watch football and surf the Internet.

Time to enjoy the joy of harvest always passes so quickly. The European League of the season soon ended. Although there are some national team cups in the summer, I only know the situation of the four major leagues in detail and did not dare to choose to play again in the cup. However, my life trajectory and destiny completely changed in those three months.

Writing these is just a memory of your own mental journey, and it is not inciting everyone to bet on football. The principle of losing nine out of ten bets is also applicable to bets on football. If you have not watched football as obsessed with more than ten years of obsessively as I do, if you can't tell me the details of a small club's unknown player, don't try this easily

That is, during the three months when I started gambling, I officially came into contact with SM and soon actually participated.

It is very difficult to wait for the results of the game you are suppressing, especially those games that are not broadcast on TV. You can only watch the live score web page and hope that you will hit the goal quickly. If you want to make these two people less nervous during the hour, the best way is to find a female netizen to talk about some exciting topics.

With this mentality, I added a female M. The way I chatted with her was to conduct online reviews on her. Because I had never had a full contact with SM before, my fantasy of her online reviews was completely imagined by myself and I was not affected by those routine methods at all.

So I discovered another person's talent, which may be because of his natural alternative personality. In addition, the unsuccessful years have accumulated enough psychological darkness. I have the desire to humiliate and abuse M, and can inspire continuous training creativity under this desire.

For the first time I met on the Internet, she and I have always been text-trained. She never agreed to video and voice with me. Now she is basically sure that she should be a man pretending to be a female M. But no matter what, it is indeed the one who led me on the SM road. The summer offseason M has passed, and the four major leagues I know have started again. I have devoted myself to my own football betting business, but my complacent success made me understand that betting will not be a safe win.

In a predictable game that I am confident of, I invested a lot of money in one go, but the result of that game surprised me. I carefully calculated that I lost half of the money I saved.

Learning from the pain, I understand that if I regard betting as the only way to make money, then one day I will return to the down-and-out situation of buying cheap cigarettes.

From then on, I always reminded myself to try my best to invest as much as possible in the ball game in the ball game. At the same time, I also began to consider using the money I earned from the ball game to do a stable business, but I have never done any business since I was so old, so I can only turn to others for help.

After having enough money to spend, I often go to a bar run by betting on football, and I also met some fellow people who like to play betting on football. Maybe my analysis makes some sense. I am quite popular among these people.

After years of failure and destruction, I gradually became smoother, and at the same time I was full of strong expectations for myself to have a legitimate business. I would never be able to talk and whisper among the crowd just because I got a few praises. I began to know how to use my mouth to say useful words to the right people.

I finally met two useful people among the people who often come to bars to bet and watch football. One is Li and the other is Qin. Li is a section-level cadre who can use public money to reimburse various consumptions, and Qin is a smart businessman who can get all kinds of scarce goods in the business world.

There is no free lunch in the world. When you treat others as a fool, you are the biggest fool. If you don’t give, there will be no reward...

Based on these experiences summarized in failure and destruction, I finally made myself a friend of Li and Qin

Of course, they can recognize me as friends because I can give them some useful advice on betting on football, and also spend a lot of money on them.

One day before the Spring Festival, I accidentally saw a farmer carrying a few pheasants on the street with a shoulder pole. By chance, I thought of an opportunity to make money, but to realize this idea, I could only ask Qin for help.

Promising to recommend more winning games for him, and promised to have him after earning money. Qin helped me contact a pheasant farm and helped me transport these things that might have been investigated to the city.

I don't think of selling these pheasants simply as wild game on the table, and I also imagine that they are packaged as Spring Festival gifts for sale. Pheasants are sold in pairs. Although the female chicken is ugly, it is ugly, but the male rooster is beautiful, especially the beautiful pheasant feathers on the tail are very festive.

I tied the pair of pheasants that were originally tied together again, tied Jiqing's red hemp rope to them all my legs, and combed the feathers again, especially the rooster's pheasant feathers straight and bright.

With these packaged pheasants, I set up a street stall in front of a relatively high-end community. The first person to buy my pheasant as a Spring Festival gift was a family of three who wanted to give gifts to the child's teacher. It might be that the effect of giving such a rare gift to the teacher was good. The next day, the child's father came over and bought ten pairs at the same time. He was about to give gifts to the leader of his unit and was about to open the door and celebrate.

That's it. Before the Spring Festival came, I sold out this car of pheasants, and then I brought in several cargoes from a suburb that specializes in raising pheasants. However, this time I wholesale the pheasants and creativity to those who also rely on setting up stalls to make more money during the Spring Festival.

Although I waited until the 30th day of the Spring Festival that year, I went home to celebrate the New Year with my parents and hurried back to do these businesses at the beginning, the short New Year's Eve reunion became the happiest time for my parents. They finally saw signs of success in their careers in this son who had not been successful for so many years. However, I was still lying when I told my parents how to earn the money.

After the Spring Festival, I started a few business under Qin's guidance, including reselling building materials and materials, and after the store was renovated, I bought it and sold it at a high price. Finally, in a few legitimate businesses, my bank card number increased a few times.

With enough digital support for bank cards and strong party principles, Li and I have a step closer to each other. They took a lot of money from my bank card righteously and found a formal job in a decent unit. The high education I received after studying for so many years finally realized my parents' expectations with the digital support of bank cards.

However, during this period of time when I was working in business and looking for a job, I officially embarked on the real world of SM. Recalling my hardships, and then writing a training log.