Chapter 61

Huang Xiaojuan saw Liu Yàn talking to Niu Ben with affectionate feelings, feeling sour and uncomfortable. She felt that it was not suitable for her to stay here, so she stood up and said: Niu Ben, I'm worried that you have a fever at night, so let Yàn stay with you so that you can take care of you.

Seeing that Huang Xiaojuan was about to leave, Niu Ben hurriedly said: Sister, sit for a while, I have something to tell you.

Huang Xiaojuan had no choice but to sit down and look at Niu Ben. Niu Ben stood up and took out a bulging file belt in the bedroom, and handed it to Huang Xiaojuan and said: Sister, it's just that all the money you gave me and Liu Yàn's passbook. We have to go out the day after tomorrow. It is not safe to put it here. You can take it back first. I need it and then borrow it from you.

Huang Xiaojuan looked at the bag Niu Ben gave her, and her heart was immediately full of suspicion. The money was given to him sincerely and was also her emotional investment. She wanted to have him for a long time. She fell in love with him deeply. Sometimes she thought that she could give up everything for him, so she wanted to think of everything she had. As long as he needed it, she would give it to him without hesitation, including all her money, and she knew that his finances were very tight and gave him all her private money.

When Lao Yang proposed to give Niu Ben some money, she wanted to tie Niu Ben tightly with her through money. One more person would have more paths. This is Yang Tao's philosophy of dealing with people and things. After hearing this, she wanted to give him money, but she was worried that he would be implicated because of this, so she hesitated, but she had no right to make decisions on major matters in front of Yang Tao, so she could only obey Lao Yang's arrangements.

The situation at that time was very unfavorable to them. After Lao Yang left, she could not contact Lao Yang for a while. She felt the pressure and fear of the building. In order to leave a way out for herself and her daughter Yang Yang, after careful consideration, she thought that Niu Ben was the only person she could trust and rely on, so she decided to save a passbook and hand it over to him. How much meaning is there? On the surface, it was said to be the dowry money for Liu Yàn. This is the main thing. She wanted to give her money to her.He, she had a deep affection for Liu Yàn, and her relationship with Niu Ben was also based on the above considerations. She planned that after Niu Ben and Liu Yàn got married, the meaning of giving Niu Ben and giving Liu Yàn was the same, which was justified. After returning from her purpose, she told Lao Yang about this. Of course, this was about giving Liu Yàn the money for her dowry. Lao Yang did not object. She knew that in that situation, she would leave a way out for her daughter, and Lao Yang would not object.

Now that thing has subsided and the crisis has become a thing of the past. She knew that Niu Ben would return the passbook to her. Based on her understanding of Niu Ben, Niu Ben is a gentleman who is very honest and trustworthy, so she feels very at ease with him.

Now he returned all the money, including the passbook. If it was just a passbook, she would take it away politely, but now he gave it all. What is the reason?

Is it the dignity of a man that makes him unable to accept these gifts from her, or is it that he has other hidden feelings? On the surface, the latter is not supposed to be. She went to find him in the afternoon. He was so passionate and was still very obsessed with her. She could feel his passionate emotions. This feeling made her unable to help but be fascinated by herself. She also liked and fell in love with this passion that made her ecstatic.

At this moment, her mood suddenly became very bad. She stared at him blankly. She was afraid of losing him. She had not yet imagined how she would deal with it after losing him. Now she felt that this crisis seemed to be approaching her. She felt panic and felt that the end of the world was coming. It made her breathing difficult. If there was no intention to come by, only her and Niu Ben, she would immediately throw herself into his arms and soften him with warmth, and at least she could test him.

But now she couldn't implement this approach now because Liu Yin was beside her, so she could only stare at him in a daze. Her eyes were filled with tears of grievance and doubt. She could no longer control this. She thought, Liu Yin could see it when she saw it. She also wanted to think about Liu Yin, and she could explain it to her in detail in the future.

Niu Ben was also mixed with emotions at this time. He liked Huang Xiaojuan very much. This was vividly expressed when he saw Huang Xiaojuan in the afternoon. Even he himself couldn't figure out this emotion for a moment. What was he obsessed with her?

Which one is human, sex, money, power, love, etc.?

He used separation to imagine that if she was just an ordinary woman, without a beautiful appearance, nor a charming expression, would he like her?

Imagine that he laughed himself. There are so many ordinary women on the street, how could he like any woman casually? On the other hand, there are many beauties around him, some of whom are more beautiful than Huang Xiaojuan, but even though he is pretty, he just feels very beautiful when he sees such a beauties. Sometimes he also looks back, but he does not have the same attachment to Huang Xiaojuan as he does.

Next, he used the same method to eliminate sex, because for him, the comfort of pure physical desires was not a big problem. He understood that as long as he needed it, some women would take the initiative to throw themselves into his arms. He had seen such women many times at work, and had also encountered such women's hot and provocative eyes, including many beautiful and sexy young women. He disdained these women. He seemed to be able to see through their lewd nature at a glance and see their dirty souls, so he would never want to have any entanglement with them.

Money is what Niu Ben needs very much at present. The foreign debt he owes forced him to live a poor and hard life. He also imagined getting rich overnight. He thought of lottery and stocks. He had bought welfare lottery several times. The extremely small probability of winning made his slim investment sink into the sea and lost all his money. His reason made him dare not indulge in such legal gambling games. As for stocks, he has also done some research. He believes that the risks are too great. He does not have the ability to resist this risk yet, so he does not dare to involve in this area that he is still unfamiliar with.

He needed money, but he never thought of asking for a woman's money, which had more or less the effect of his machismo.

For him, Niu Ben, he was not something he thought about in the future. In his opinion, Quan is actually a responsibility, and he also longed for power, but he knew that power was a double-edged sword, and he would trap himself if he didn't do it well. He knew that he had come out of the countryside and it was not easy for his parents to raise him. He had received some small favors in power, but he didn't want to put himself in a cage because of power, so he was even more unlikely to use a woman to get power.

Finally, love was left. This word deeply confused Niu Ben. It was difficult for him to explain the issue of love between him and Huang Xiaojuan at once. He could not accurately answer what kind of emotion there was between him and Huang Xiaojuan. This kind of emotion that was so connected was really a bit unbreakable and messy. It was a different feeling in his heart.

In the end, Niu Ben dissolved love into love, family, friendship and love. Love is sacred and great. Niu Ben felt some deviation when using love to explain the emotions between him and her. He thought that there was a love element between him and her, but not all. At this time, he comforted himself in his heart. Maybe he did not want to blaspheme sacred love, so he did not attribute all this emotion to love. As for family and friendship, it is obvious that the relationship between them has exceeded this level. The final love was fabricated by Niu Ben himself. He thought of the first word "love" as the love of a mistress and lover. He and she are in a lover's relationship. Are all the other lovers such obsessions?

Niu Ben didn't know, so he could only judge this emotion based on his own imagination. Finally, he concluded that he was obsessed with Huang Xiaojuan's beauty and feelings, and there was also a component of love between him and her. According to his analysis, love and love between them should each account for half.