After parting in the restaurant, I took a few online car-hailing cars to see off my friend, but I didn't rush to go home. I walked along Luoyuehua Lake for a long time. The cool breeze at night blew away the wine slightly. The conversation with Zhang Tao after drinking made me feel a little confused.
Can I really let go of my mom?It seems to be.It is not as difficult as imagined. Perhaps it is related to growth. The selfishness and paranoia in youth have passed with time.
I came to a stone bench to sit down, and I remembered in my mind that on that night many years ago, I sat on the same stone bench, looking at the quiet lake, and in a trance, the long-lost irritability lingered in my chest.
I have an understanding wife and will have a happy family in the future. I will spend my life safely and happily, so what am I still asking for?
When I got home, my mother lay on the sofa watching TV. Seeing that I was smelling alcohol, she couldn't help but frown and said: How much wine did she drink?Don’t rely on your youth to not cherish your body.
I'm happy today.I changed my shoes and sat down at my mother's feet, but there was no sign of happiness in my tone.
My mother turned over and took a cup of hot water, put it on the coffee table, and said: Let's go to Mingcheng Garden to see the house tomorrow and bring Wang Xinran with me.
Before I could come back from my alcohol, I asked foolishly: What house do you look at?
What house do you think you are looking for?Mom sat down and said: You are now legally recognized as a couple, but you are just a wedding. Before that, you have to get your wedding house done first.
I frowned and said: Isn’t the wedding scheduled for three months? Why are you so anxious?
I have to decorate the house after buying it, and the time is about the same.Mom suddenly laughed: The little brat has finally grown up, and I can also get rid of your burden, and I feel relaxed.
My mother's face dimmed as she smiled, and she finally remained silent.It's Ah, I'm growing up and about to start a family and start a career. The responsibility ends on my mother's shoulders and starts on my shoulders.
After a long time, I sincerely said: Mom, thank you for your hard work over the years.I have brought you a lot of pain in the past. I sincerely say sorry to you. From now on, I will fulfill the responsibility of a son and let you live your lower body happily.
My mother smiled and said: I can watch you grow up, get married and have children, which is my greatest happiness as a mother.As for the pain you are talking about, it actually does not exist, or in other words, pain is usually accompanied by happiness.
I was so dizzy that I couldn't understand what my mother said. I pondered for a long time and said: Three months later, I have a new family.What are your plans?
My mother was silent. I thought she didn't understand what I meant, and then added: Just like what you said, you have already got rid of the burden and were alone. What are your plans?
Mom turned her head and looked at me, and asked with a meaningful smile: What do you think?
I took a sip of hot water and looked down at the tip of my shoe.
What am I thinking?
No matter how I escape, I want my mother to be with me, but this is always selfish. My mother has been with me for more than 20 years, and her life is half over.
I struggled for a long time, looked up and looked at my mother, and said seriously: If... if... if you can find a man who truly loves you and you also feel it is appropriate, I think I will sincerely bless you and support you in remarriage.
My mother's eyes flashed and she said jokingly: She is nearly fifty years old. Even if I have this intention, who would like to marry a bad old woman?
For some reason, I felt a little relaxed when I heard my mother say this.
He couldn't help but smile and took the joke and said: Mom, just a beautiful woman like you, who can marry you is a blessing he has cultivated in his previous life.Mom gave me a blank look: You are just sweet-mouthed.
After a while, my mother suddenly said: When I was young, I had a place I wanted to go.
Where to go?I replied subconsciously.
Edinburgh.
The capital of Scotland?
Um.Mom nodded, with some memories in her eyes and said: In my college days, I didn’t have so much electronic entertainment like you now. I went to the library to read books in my spare time. By chance, I saw "Harry Potter" in the library. I saw one of the magical worlds it depicted at the beginning. JK Rowling, the author of the book, naturally became my idol at that time.
It is hard to imagine that the serious mother would like to read Western fantasy novels when she was young. She picked up the water cup I had just drank and took a sip, and continued: Rumor has it that Rowling wrote "Harry Potter" in a cafe in Edinburgh, so I began to understand that a heart that yearned for Edinburgh was Cute at that time, and even had the idea of settling in Edinburgh in the future.The idea gradually becomes ideal.So I began to fight for this ideal, and later, I passed the master's application from the University of Edinburgh.
Then what?I seemed to see the gorgeous appearance of a beautiful and independent young woman working hard for her ideals.
My mother smiled as if she was ridiculed and said: My family was not in good condition at that time, and studying abroad was a very big expense.Due to the pressure brought by reality, I had to give up my studies and ideals, and instead devote myself to my career, wanting to make enough money through my own efforts, and then look back to fulfill my dream when I was young.
Then what?I feel sorry for my mother's regret when she was young, and I want to know what she would develop later.
Then?My mother glanced at me and said: Later, I met your dad, and then with you, these things were left to nothing.There is also a new ideal.
Although my mother didn't understand what she said, I also knew that because of my birth, she focused on me. Even if she made enough money, she would not have the opportunity to realize this seemingly simple dream but had to abandon everything.
Then, in your heart, you will definitely still think about realizing it, right?
Mom smiled and said: My ideal has now come true.
The ideals of adulthood are naturally not equivalent to those of youth.I pondered for a moment and said: If you have the chance in the future, I will definitely accompany you to see it.
My mother shook her head without comment and changed the topic: I will have to go on a business trip in two days, and it may take a month or two to come back.
One or two months?Why did you have such a long business trip?I asked with a frown.
The company arranged it, go to Xinjiang to discuss a business.
My mother bought a new house for me. Before going on a business trip, she reminded me: I have gotten rid of the decoration matter, a friend of mine will contact you at that time. During this period, you should check it out more when you have nothing to do. If you are not satisfied with it or what you want to modify, it will be as you wish. Also, you should start working immediately. As soon as you first entered the unit, you should give the leader and colleague a good impression and go around with your uncle more. This is related to your future development.
My mother's words had a long-lost warm feeling. I smiled and joked: Mom, why are you still nagging like this?I am in my twenties and I know all these things.
My mother did not pretend to be angry and beat me or scold me like she usually did, staring at me and saying earnestly: Just because you are all in your twenties, you need to face this society independently.Before doing anything, you must consider the consequences of it. In the future, there may be many unfair things that you have to compromise on. I believe that you have enough courage to face them. You will be a qualified pillar of the family and I will be proud of you.
Speaking of this, my mother paused and opened her hands to signal me to hug her.While embracing each other, my mother patted me on the back. I felt inexplicably sad, and I don’t know why.
Bon Voyage.
Can I really let go of my mom?It seems to be.It is not as difficult as imagined. Perhaps it is related to growth. The selfishness and paranoia in youth have passed with time.
I came to a stone bench to sit down, and I remembered in my mind that on that night many years ago, I sat on the same stone bench, looking at the quiet lake, and in a trance, the long-lost irritability lingered in my chest.
I have an understanding wife and will have a happy family in the future. I will spend my life safely and happily, so what am I still asking for?
When I got home, my mother lay on the sofa watching TV. Seeing that I was smelling alcohol, she couldn't help but frown and said: How much wine did she drink?Don’t rely on your youth to not cherish your body.
I'm happy today.I changed my shoes and sat down at my mother's feet, but there was no sign of happiness in my tone.
My mother turned over and took a cup of hot water, put it on the coffee table, and said: Let's go to Mingcheng Garden to see the house tomorrow and bring Wang Xinran with me.
Before I could come back from my alcohol, I asked foolishly: What house do you look at?
What house do you think you are looking for?Mom sat down and said: You are now legally recognized as a couple, but you are just a wedding. Before that, you have to get your wedding house done first.
I frowned and said: Isn’t the wedding scheduled for three months? Why are you so anxious?
I have to decorate the house after buying it, and the time is about the same.Mom suddenly laughed: The little brat has finally grown up, and I can also get rid of your burden, and I feel relaxed.
My mother's face dimmed as she smiled, and she finally remained silent.It's Ah, I'm growing up and about to start a family and start a career. The responsibility ends on my mother's shoulders and starts on my shoulders.
After a long time, I sincerely said: Mom, thank you for your hard work over the years.I have brought you a lot of pain in the past. I sincerely say sorry to you. From now on, I will fulfill the responsibility of a son and let you live your lower body happily.
My mother smiled and said: I can watch you grow up, get married and have children, which is my greatest happiness as a mother.As for the pain you are talking about, it actually does not exist, or in other words, pain is usually accompanied by happiness.
I was so dizzy that I couldn't understand what my mother said. I pondered for a long time and said: Three months later, I have a new family.What are your plans?
My mother was silent. I thought she didn't understand what I meant, and then added: Just like what you said, you have already got rid of the burden and were alone. What are your plans?
Mom turned her head and looked at me, and asked with a meaningful smile: What do you think?
I took a sip of hot water and looked down at the tip of my shoe.
What am I thinking?
No matter how I escape, I want my mother to be with me, but this is always selfish. My mother has been with me for more than 20 years, and her life is half over.
I struggled for a long time, looked up and looked at my mother, and said seriously: If... if... if you can find a man who truly loves you and you also feel it is appropriate, I think I will sincerely bless you and support you in remarriage.
My mother's eyes flashed and she said jokingly: She is nearly fifty years old. Even if I have this intention, who would like to marry a bad old woman?
For some reason, I felt a little relaxed when I heard my mother say this.
He couldn't help but smile and took the joke and said: Mom, just a beautiful woman like you, who can marry you is a blessing he has cultivated in his previous life.Mom gave me a blank look: You are just sweet-mouthed.
After a while, my mother suddenly said: When I was young, I had a place I wanted to go.
Where to go?I replied subconsciously.
Edinburgh.
The capital of Scotland?
Um.Mom nodded, with some memories in her eyes and said: In my college days, I didn’t have so much electronic entertainment like you now. I went to the library to read books in my spare time. By chance, I saw "Harry Potter" in the library. I saw one of the magical worlds it depicted at the beginning. JK Rowling, the author of the book, naturally became my idol at that time.
It is hard to imagine that the serious mother would like to read Western fantasy novels when she was young. She picked up the water cup I had just drank and took a sip, and continued: Rumor has it that Rowling wrote "Harry Potter" in a cafe in Edinburgh, so I began to understand that a heart that yearned for Edinburgh was Cute at that time, and even had the idea of settling in Edinburgh in the future.The idea gradually becomes ideal.So I began to fight for this ideal, and later, I passed the master's application from the University of Edinburgh.
Then what?I seemed to see the gorgeous appearance of a beautiful and independent young woman working hard for her ideals.
My mother smiled as if she was ridiculed and said: My family was not in good condition at that time, and studying abroad was a very big expense.Due to the pressure brought by reality, I had to give up my studies and ideals, and instead devote myself to my career, wanting to make enough money through my own efforts, and then look back to fulfill my dream when I was young.
Then what?I feel sorry for my mother's regret when she was young, and I want to know what she would develop later.
Then?My mother glanced at me and said: Later, I met your dad, and then with you, these things were left to nothing.There is also a new ideal.
Although my mother didn't understand what she said, I also knew that because of my birth, she focused on me. Even if she made enough money, she would not have the opportunity to realize this seemingly simple dream but had to abandon everything.
Then, in your heart, you will definitely still think about realizing it, right?
Mom smiled and said: My ideal has now come true.
The ideals of adulthood are naturally not equivalent to those of youth.I pondered for a moment and said: If you have the chance in the future, I will definitely accompany you to see it.
My mother shook her head without comment and changed the topic: I will have to go on a business trip in two days, and it may take a month or two to come back.
One or two months?Why did you have such a long business trip?I asked with a frown.
The company arranged it, go to Xinjiang to discuss a business.
My mother bought a new house for me. Before going on a business trip, she reminded me: I have gotten rid of the decoration matter, a friend of mine will contact you at that time. During this period, you should check it out more when you have nothing to do. If you are not satisfied with it or what you want to modify, it will be as you wish. Also, you should start working immediately. As soon as you first entered the unit, you should give the leader and colleague a good impression and go around with your uncle more. This is related to your future development.
My mother's words had a long-lost warm feeling. I smiled and joked: Mom, why are you still nagging like this?I am in my twenties and I know all these things.
My mother did not pretend to be angry and beat me or scold me like she usually did, staring at me and saying earnestly: Just because you are all in your twenties, you need to face this society independently.Before doing anything, you must consider the consequences of it. In the future, there may be many unfair things that you have to compromise on. I believe that you have enough courage to face them. You will be a qualified pillar of the family and I will be proud of you.
Speaking of this, my mother paused and opened her hands to signal me to hug her.While embracing each other, my mother patted me on the back. I felt inexplicably sad, and I don’t know why.
Bon Voyage.
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