Chapter 1 Melancholy Eyes

I was born in an ordinary family. When I was in the fifth grade of elementary school, my family became less peaceful. My parents went from endless quarrels to fighting. My once warm home became cold. I slowly learned from the arguments between my parents and classmates that my beloved mother had an affair and was caught by my father in bed. From then on, my mother's bad reputation spread in the village. When I was young, I became lonely and indifferent.

In anger, my father went south to Guangzhou to work. Less than three days after my father went out, my mother took other men home. I was angry and cried, but in return my mother's scolding and scolding.

I have been hiding in the corner and crying sadly. I hope my father will go home soon. My father will be back at the end of the year. He did not bring me surprises, but brought another woman.

Naturally, my parents divorced, but I became their burden, and I pushed each other, and no one wanted me. After the court, I was awarded to my mother and my father gave me five hundred support every year.

Since then, I am very much. To be honest, I have seen my mother have sex with others. I began to despise sex. I hate my parents' ruthlessness. In this environment, my academic performance has dropped a lot. My studies were the best. The teacher ran home a lot for this and persuaded my mother with great sincerity. Otherwise, I would not let me continue to study after graduating from junior high school. I will not forget my teacher now. I am really grateful to him.

Later I got into college. From the day I went to college, I never went home in the whole university. I used all my time to work and earn money to support myself. In school, I became an alternative and had almost no friends. Of course, many boys have pursued me, but I rejected them. I don’t want to fall in love. I am really afraid.

After graduation, my grades were the best in the class. I did not take the postgraduate entrance examination and continued my studies. Instead, I chose the current city, a prefecture-level city. I was admitted to the civil servant with excellent grades and was assigned to work as an ordinary employee in the Archives Bureau. Because I was too rigid and did not understand the leadership style, I was finally transferred to my current unit, the historical archives office, which is a clear yamen. But I don’t regret it. What I have to do is work hard and look at historical archives and materials when I am free. I feel very happy.

I went home once at the age of 28. My mother was already married. My father took the woman to work in Guangzhou. I never came back and had no contact. My peers in the village had all gone to school. Everyone couldn't help but talk, saying that I couldn't get married and wait. At that time, I felt that I should have a boyfriend, so after I came back, a colleague introduced me to my current husband, his name was Li Hao, who worked in the city's Agricultural Research Institute, two years older than me, and his parents were ordinary workers in the provincial capital.

Li Hao is 1.7 meters tall, a little taller than me, and is gentle and gentle. The first impression I gave me is that he is honest and reliable, and he can't tell any advantages or disadvantages. He is just an ordinary intellectual

I met several times and felt that he was very reliable. He got married in a hurry. Now I think about it, it’s a bit ridiculous, but more of happiness. This is true. The days after marriage are dull but full of warmth. I gave birth to our daughter the next year and I became more mature. My husband was also promoted to graduate director. I started to go to remote rural areas to work in experimental fields and cultivate excellent seeds. When I got home, I was busy writing papers. My mother-in-law came to help take care of the children. When I was fine, I helped my husband organize the information. Life was fulfilling and warm.

When the child was six years old, my mother-in-law and father-in-law insisted on taking the child to study in the provincial capital. Although we were reluctant to leave, we really didn’t have so much time to take care of the child. We reluctantly agreed. During the initial period, I couldn’t sleep every day and missed my daughter, and my husband was often away. I got the bad habit of smoking.

The only disharmonious thing we have after marriage is sex. It’s not my husband’s fault. It’s because I have a shadow on sex. We are in the dark when having sex, and I always have my eyes closed. You may not believe it. I have hardly seen what my husband’s dick looks like, let alone orgasm. I urge my husband to hurry up every time. Even if there is a certain pleasure, I will try my best to suppress it.

Actually, my husband was very dissatisfied, but he just didn't express it. Of course, this is what I will know later.

Xiaofeng was transferred from the army to our unit a year ago. He was average in nature, but he was quite energetic. He was full of energy every day and was exhausted from work. He didn't pay much attention to him at first. Moreover, his left leg was a little lame, not very serious, and he was a little footed when walking. I heard that it was injured in the army to save people.

Didn't care at that time

I was used to working alone, but Xiaofeng was arranged in my office. At first I annoyed him a little, disliked him for being clumsy and took a long time to find a file. For this reason, I also said that he would blush every time he did not do well.

Unexpectedly, after a month, Xiaofeng became familiar with the location of each file. Every time he searched, he would find it carefully. After using it, he put it back to his original location, and it was clean and neat, which made me feel a little bit good for him.

Since I am at home, I don’t eat much breakfast every morning, I usually drink a cup of milk when I go to work. I don’t know when, but when I go to the office every day, there will be a cup of hot milk on the table. Xiaofeng put it on my table every day. At first, I didn’t want to accept it, but this person was very stubborn and gradually got used to it.

Three months later, I felt that Xiaofeng often looked at me secretly, which made me a little nervous. One day when I was about to get off work, I also looked up and found that Xiaofeng was staring at me, with a faint sadness in his eyes. His eyes were so deep and so full of indescribable emotions. At that moment, my heart suddenly beated so fast, and my face was hot.

After Xiaofeng reacted, his face turned red, like a shy girl

That day, I went home from work, ate something casually and sat on the sofa. For some reason, I always thought of Xiaofeng's faint sad eyes in my mind. I clearly felt the rich feelings in that look.

Light a cigarette, and for the first time I feel some kind of loneliness and loneliness

What's wrong? Xiaofeng, Xiaofeng, was full of Xiaofeng. Suddenly, I had the idea of ​​knowing this person. I was shocked. What's wrong? How could I have these strange thoughts?