Chapter 5

Our colleague had to take me to his birthday in the evening, but I had no choice but to take him there too.

At the business banquet, we played killing and playing various wine-making games, and drank warm rice wine. Everyone was very happy.

But he has always had a gloomy face. Maybe I don't know about this.

Drinking wine and eating meat in big mouthfuls, and so many male friends who can laugh together

He drank alone and poured himself straight, so he had to take him off the table early

In the car he kept asking me what you want me to do!

I said I'm not suitable for you, really

I'm no longer the simple self I used to be

I don't have the courage to get married yet

Marriage is a lifelong thing, I don't want to agree easily, it is irresponsible to you

He didn't know if he had listened to me, or he kept saying in a mournful tone how hard he worked abroad. In order to be able to support me, he kept trying very hard not to work and not let me suffer...

Later, I saw that I didn't reply when I drove, so he even came up to grab the steering wheel...

I thought it would be impossible to have a good chat with him today, so I took him back to the hotel

He was blown by the cold wind at the entrance of the hotel. After vomiting for a while, he finally woke up. I helped him in and fed him some water and planned to leave. He grabbed my hand and said in great pain and sadness, "Marry me, I will treat you well, no matter what kind of person you were before."

I wanted to break free, but I couldn't break free, my wrist was pinched red and purple

He put his face over and was drunk and wanted to kiss me. I dodged and burst into tears.

All guilty

He is really a good man, he didn't force me to just kiss me and I'm crying

He pulled me into his arms, but his whole body was shaking. I thought it was probably because the cold wind blew my head, and I was a little cold, so I didn't struggle anymore. I leaned against him, listened to his heartbeat, curled up outside his quilt, and finally waited for him to calm down and fell asleep, but his wrist was still tightly held.

If you have more feelings for him than friends, you will only be sympathetic to his hard work for so many years.

Maybe I am just a sustenance for him to work hard. Now that he succeeds, maybe he can clearly express his attitude.

I just lay outside the quilt for one night. Thinking about so many things that have happened in the past few months, I can't help but feel even more heartbroken.

Why can’t the people I love be together well, and the people I love are so difficult to accept?

He finally woke up at dawn, but he was more haggard than before going to bed

I asked him to rest well and said sorry, I have someone I like

He looked at me in disbelief

We sat opposite each other silently and didn't speak for more than an hour

But he suddenly said hesitantly, can you, and I...

once?

I want a more satisfactory ending...

It's really a question that makes me silent. If that can compensate him, it can relieve my guilt towards him.

Maybe some people may wonder, I have been in bed with so many men, what can I do if I have sex with this man who is deeply in love?

What can you lose?

But the end of a relationship should not be sex

My body may be compensation for him, but for myself?

So I refused. Maybe he felt that his request was too much, so he said sorry with a shy face...

I don't think he belongs to the men who have been sleeping with me, although we lay in the same bed all night

As for telling his story here, he made me suddenly decide to cherish myself and sort out the little things about that man I love most

It was my birthday soon; I politely declined my friends' plans to open a party and started to organize things alone at home.

The phone rings from time to time, and it's all blessing text messages or phone calls

He suddenly visited the door and the birthday gift was a silk cheongsam with exquisite workmanship.

That kind of contradictory feeling surged in my heart. Why did this person I love the most give me the deepest scar?

I think I can never let go of the pain of losing my baby because of him

But my reluctance to him made me want to get close to him

Under his gaze, he changed into a cheongsam, which was very fit and beautiful. I heard his breathing heavy.

As he slowly unbuttoned the buckle on his chest, he gently hugged me from behind.