On rainy days, it's drizzling, on the platform of the train station. Woo~ Woo~ Woo~ Woo! The train sounded the whistle and slowly began to move.
With tears in my eyes, in the cold wind, I looked up at a girl in the carriage, concentrating all my energy to remember her last face
But she silently lowered her head and covered her long hair, deliberately avoiding the gaze I cast slowly as the train accelerated, she disappeared from my sight
Goodbye, my first love, I wish you happiness, everyone has their own ambitions
The train has been away for a long time, and I am the only one in the quiet platform. I turned around and walked out of the platform.
In the drizzle, the sweet past is recalling in my mind
Four years ago, she and I were in the same school and in the same class. We were high school classmates
It is very common for young boys and girls to fall in love early on campus.
But due to busy studies, I made a sprint for the college entrance examination
We all suppress our emotions and do not want to affect our studies and delay our future.
Some couples in the school are in a passionate relationship, and the whole school knows it
As a result, academic performance fell to the bottom. Not only did it not get into a good university, it delayed each other's future, but it also disappointed the school teachers and their parents.
There are examples of this every year, and there are stories like this, so I will take it as a warning
Therefore, even if the boys and girls have love in their hearts, they are brainwashed, strongly restraining their emotions and not affecting their studies. I am the same as her.
No one in the class seemed to know that we were a couple, because we were like underground workers, very careful and very restrained, almost using a spiritual tool, and contact each other.
Only during the holidays, she will come to my house. When there is no one in my house, we will hug and kiss together. This is the greatest limit.
We agreed that after we were admitted to university, we would have a good relationship together. This seemed like a engagement, because we were full of hope for the future.
And fate is always unhappy. I didn't get into a good university. I simply looked for a job after graduating from high school, but she was admitted to a prestigious university and wanted to go to another place to study
Fate has labeled us as parting ways, but we don't know when it will take effect
On the day her university starts, I accompanied her to her school. We wandered around and visited.
Although I didn't have the chance to go to college, I seemed to be satisfied when she was going to college because I felt like I was going to college.
I seem to feel that this is my destination, this is her school, and it is also my school. I should come here often in the future
But this must be a kind of separation in two places, long-distance relationship. I try to go there every month to see her and go shopping together. In order to save accommodation, I will come back that night.
In 1999, China's technology was not so developed. The contact information was not only in phone calls. We only had one or two phone calls a month at most, and the long-distance phone bill was still very expensive.
I am very busy at work, and I only have one idea in my mind, working hard every day to make money, fantasizing about the day she graduated, getting married with her, and starting a happy life together.
Maybe this is my unilateral and wishful thinking.
Until one day, she suddenly appeared in front of me. I thought it was an unexpected surprise, but she seemed unhappy when she looked at her. She said she came to me specifically and wanted to go with me and had something to say.
I wanted to invite her to a restaurant for a meal. I made money these days and never invited her to a meal. This will be a happy beginning.
But she said she had little time and wanted to rush to the train station to go back to school, so we both walked and chatted on the way to the train station.
We held hands and arrived at the train station without saying a word. I seemed to have a bad premonition. Something might have happened to her.
We came to the platform together, and she finally spoke before she got on the train
She didn't dare to look at me, and stood in front of her head down, and said to me hesitantly, "Me, let's break up, I have a boyfriend in college, I'm sorry."
After hearing this, I subconsciously grabbed her hand and didn't want to let her go
But she struggled, broke free from my hand, and ran onto the train
I stood beneath, my eyes were wet, and at that moment, I understood a lot of things
A beautiful agreement cannot overcome the cruelty of reality. Maybe from the day of graduation, we are destined to be two people.
Tears could no longer be kept in my eyes, and a big man was flowing down, just like such a miserable look, it was so embarrassing
My chest was so sore that I couldn't breathe, and my body was so painful that I was stiff. Is this the feeling of heartache?
After all, she is my first love. I looked up at her in the carriage and wanted to remember her last appearance, but she lowered her head and her long hair covered her face
Goodbye, my first love, my lover
After returning home, I felt weak all over. I lay on the bed with my back on the sky and seemed to have been really hit hard, mentally, not physically.
Suddenly, tears fell again. Why are you so fragile? Why are you so cowardly? Useless thing, slapped your face, without any pain, I was numb
Why did she leave me? The work I work hard every day is to have a bright future, just like our agreement, the future must be bright, why should I give up?!
I, who is thinking hard in tears, may never understand why, this is called fate
Fate is like a cage, imprisoning me here, imprisoning her there Fate is like a butcher knife, killing me here, killing her there
Is it really useful to make money hard every day for a better future? It is useful, but it is useful in the cage
I hate this cage, and what I want is freedom. This seems to be a great idea, but in this world, who is not in the cage of fate?
My parents divorced when I was in junior high school. I was very sad at that time. I don’t understand why the two people who love me the most in the world have to separate
Now I seem to understand that they are unwilling to continue to be imprisoned in the cage of fate
They just made an appointment as beautiful as me. Just like my first love, they could not escape the cage of fate. Everyone belongs to everyone.
Finally figured it out, I felt much more comfortable, maybe it was just an excuse for myself
I can forgive her. I forgive her for having another boyfriend in another place. She can't break the cage of fate. She is a girl. I forgive her.
But I can't forgive myself. I am a man. I should break my cage and run towards her.
I should go to her city to work or work
In this way, you can be with her every day, and fate will not be like this now
But I was greedily at the workplace where my mother found with her relationship. All this was blamed on me, I had no chance.
In tears, I don’t know how I fell asleep, but I got up a little late and had a job and a career, so I can’t be decadent. Get up immediately, wash, ride a bicycle, and set off.
This year, he was 20 years old, and had just been working in an internship for four months, and repaired a computer in a government planning and design institute.
Although it is a government unit, there are too many people like me who want to get involved. They are all related households. In terms of work strength, they are all garbage to me.
There are many computers in the unit, all of which are used for design and planning drawings. There is only one repairman like me and one of them. There are hundreds of computers. When I get busy, I really have to go day and night.
But he also became a well-known figure in the building. Who made their computer break? He came to me the first time?
Some engineers even beg me to help him repair it first and not delay his work
Many times, I even feel that I am their leader, holding their power of life and death, and can imprison them in the cage of fate at any time.
I don't have to be afraid of having the ability to work
Working in such a unit, as long as you do not violate the regulations or have any accidents, you can live a peaceful life and be perfect until you retire.
This is the government unit of the country. Although I am just a small gong, it should be fine to get through until I get old.
You can eat lunch and dinner in the unit’s cafeteria every day. The canteen of the government unit is different from those outside. There are many varieties of dishes and large quantities!
A large steak is twice as big as the outside. You can eat it until you die of a suffocation every day, but it only costs a few yuan, and it still uses the money from the unit meal card.
How many people want to come in with such a good unit?
However, in their eyes, I can only be regarded as a little kid in many cases
Maybe it's because of this, many people care about me very much
Care about my life, my work, my mood, whether I have a girlfriend
Now, Brother Xiong sat down beside me with his lunch box, eating lunch and muttering, What's wrong? His face is so serious today? Are you heartbroken?
Brother Xiong, 32 years old this year, is very capable and thin, and he usually exercises a lot. He is the salesperson in our floor, so he has many interpersonal relationships and is very good.
Because I love computers, I often care about me. Maybe I have a common topic.
Although he is 12 years older than me, he speaks to me like friends and friends, so sometimes I am very willing to tell him something and listen to his opinions
Well, I lowered my head and answered him simply and clearly, maybe with a little emotion, and my eyes began to wet.
Brother Xiong quickly swallowed the meal in his mouth, cleared his throat, and said softly, how many years have you talked about?
I'm trying hard to figure out how many years have I talked about?
I actually found that we didn't seem to have talked for long, and the time we spent together might only have a few days together.
I'm just thinking about the rest of the time.
It really woke me up from the dream. It turns out that I have been dreaming all the time, and first love is just my dream.
She left me because we only had one agreement to fall in love and we didn't have a relationship
She did the right thing, she bravely broke the cage of fate, she escaped
I had a random thought last night, she was right, she was very brave and brave enough to break the cage of fate. Not only did she escape, but she also released me
We will no longer make a promise for this meaningless love, continue to be imprisoned in a cage, wasting each other's time and youth
Thank you, my first love, I finally let it go
Don't be sad. There are so many good girls in the world. I will send you a few tomorrow. Brother Xiong patted my shoulder and said with a smile
Is there anyone who looks like Hong Kong star Zhou Huimin? I said seriously to Brother Xiong
A bite of rice almost spurted out from Brother Xiong's mouth. If you have it, I'll give you a look at the others first. Don't waste it.
Haha, we laughed together, and I was like the emperor, and I was waiting for me one by one
That afternoon, Brother Xiong came to me and gave me a phone number, saying that he sent me a girl named Wang, a local, and was the same age as me, and was intern at his friend's unit.
Ah?!Brother Xiong, you really want to send me a girl?! I was a little shocked and my face turned red
When did you joke? I have been talking about girls for several years at the age of 16, and that's the same as at the age of 18. You know, he smiled and went back to his office
Holding this note and looking at the TV number on it, I felt a little excited and nervous. Is a new life about to begin?
I don't dare to fight, I'm afraid
What am I afraid of?
I don't know, I'm just afraid
I am too cowardly, I still have nostalgia for the past, I dare not come out, or I don't want to come out
No, I dare
I picked up the phone next to me and pressed a series of numbers
With tears in my eyes, in the cold wind, I looked up at a girl in the carriage, concentrating all my energy to remember her last face
But she silently lowered her head and covered her long hair, deliberately avoiding the gaze I cast slowly as the train accelerated, she disappeared from my sight
Goodbye, my first love, I wish you happiness, everyone has their own ambitions
The train has been away for a long time, and I am the only one in the quiet platform. I turned around and walked out of the platform.
In the drizzle, the sweet past is recalling in my mind
Four years ago, she and I were in the same school and in the same class. We were high school classmates
It is very common for young boys and girls to fall in love early on campus.
But due to busy studies, I made a sprint for the college entrance examination
We all suppress our emotions and do not want to affect our studies and delay our future.
Some couples in the school are in a passionate relationship, and the whole school knows it
As a result, academic performance fell to the bottom. Not only did it not get into a good university, it delayed each other's future, but it also disappointed the school teachers and their parents.
There are examples of this every year, and there are stories like this, so I will take it as a warning
Therefore, even if the boys and girls have love in their hearts, they are brainwashed, strongly restraining their emotions and not affecting their studies. I am the same as her.
No one in the class seemed to know that we were a couple, because we were like underground workers, very careful and very restrained, almost using a spiritual tool, and contact each other.
Only during the holidays, she will come to my house. When there is no one in my house, we will hug and kiss together. This is the greatest limit.
We agreed that after we were admitted to university, we would have a good relationship together. This seemed like a engagement, because we were full of hope for the future.
And fate is always unhappy. I didn't get into a good university. I simply looked for a job after graduating from high school, but she was admitted to a prestigious university and wanted to go to another place to study
Fate has labeled us as parting ways, but we don't know when it will take effect
On the day her university starts, I accompanied her to her school. We wandered around and visited.
Although I didn't have the chance to go to college, I seemed to be satisfied when she was going to college because I felt like I was going to college.
I seem to feel that this is my destination, this is her school, and it is also my school. I should come here often in the future
But this must be a kind of separation in two places, long-distance relationship. I try to go there every month to see her and go shopping together. In order to save accommodation, I will come back that night.
In 1999, China's technology was not so developed. The contact information was not only in phone calls. We only had one or two phone calls a month at most, and the long-distance phone bill was still very expensive.
I am very busy at work, and I only have one idea in my mind, working hard every day to make money, fantasizing about the day she graduated, getting married with her, and starting a happy life together.
Maybe this is my unilateral and wishful thinking.
Until one day, she suddenly appeared in front of me. I thought it was an unexpected surprise, but she seemed unhappy when she looked at her. She said she came to me specifically and wanted to go with me and had something to say.
I wanted to invite her to a restaurant for a meal. I made money these days and never invited her to a meal. This will be a happy beginning.
But she said she had little time and wanted to rush to the train station to go back to school, so we both walked and chatted on the way to the train station.
We held hands and arrived at the train station without saying a word. I seemed to have a bad premonition. Something might have happened to her.
We came to the platform together, and she finally spoke before she got on the train
She didn't dare to look at me, and stood in front of her head down, and said to me hesitantly, "Me, let's break up, I have a boyfriend in college, I'm sorry."
After hearing this, I subconsciously grabbed her hand and didn't want to let her go
But she struggled, broke free from my hand, and ran onto the train
I stood beneath, my eyes were wet, and at that moment, I understood a lot of things
A beautiful agreement cannot overcome the cruelty of reality. Maybe from the day of graduation, we are destined to be two people.
Tears could no longer be kept in my eyes, and a big man was flowing down, just like such a miserable look, it was so embarrassing
My chest was so sore that I couldn't breathe, and my body was so painful that I was stiff. Is this the feeling of heartache?
After all, she is my first love. I looked up at her in the carriage and wanted to remember her last appearance, but she lowered her head and her long hair covered her face
Goodbye, my first love, my lover
After returning home, I felt weak all over. I lay on the bed with my back on the sky and seemed to have been really hit hard, mentally, not physically.
Suddenly, tears fell again. Why are you so fragile? Why are you so cowardly? Useless thing, slapped your face, without any pain, I was numb
Why did she leave me? The work I work hard every day is to have a bright future, just like our agreement, the future must be bright, why should I give up?!
I, who is thinking hard in tears, may never understand why, this is called fate
Fate is like a cage, imprisoning me here, imprisoning her there Fate is like a butcher knife, killing me here, killing her there
Is it really useful to make money hard every day for a better future? It is useful, but it is useful in the cage
I hate this cage, and what I want is freedom. This seems to be a great idea, but in this world, who is not in the cage of fate?
My parents divorced when I was in junior high school. I was very sad at that time. I don’t understand why the two people who love me the most in the world have to separate
Now I seem to understand that they are unwilling to continue to be imprisoned in the cage of fate
They just made an appointment as beautiful as me. Just like my first love, they could not escape the cage of fate. Everyone belongs to everyone.
Finally figured it out, I felt much more comfortable, maybe it was just an excuse for myself
I can forgive her. I forgive her for having another boyfriend in another place. She can't break the cage of fate. She is a girl. I forgive her.
But I can't forgive myself. I am a man. I should break my cage and run towards her.
I should go to her city to work or work
In this way, you can be with her every day, and fate will not be like this now
But I was greedily at the workplace where my mother found with her relationship. All this was blamed on me, I had no chance.
In tears, I don’t know how I fell asleep, but I got up a little late and had a job and a career, so I can’t be decadent. Get up immediately, wash, ride a bicycle, and set off.
This year, he was 20 years old, and had just been working in an internship for four months, and repaired a computer in a government planning and design institute.
Although it is a government unit, there are too many people like me who want to get involved. They are all related households. In terms of work strength, they are all garbage to me.
There are many computers in the unit, all of which are used for design and planning drawings. There is only one repairman like me and one of them. There are hundreds of computers. When I get busy, I really have to go day and night.
But he also became a well-known figure in the building. Who made their computer break? He came to me the first time?
Some engineers even beg me to help him repair it first and not delay his work
Many times, I even feel that I am their leader, holding their power of life and death, and can imprison them in the cage of fate at any time.
I don't have to be afraid of having the ability to work
Working in such a unit, as long as you do not violate the regulations or have any accidents, you can live a peaceful life and be perfect until you retire.
This is the government unit of the country. Although I am just a small gong, it should be fine to get through until I get old.
You can eat lunch and dinner in the unit’s cafeteria every day. The canteen of the government unit is different from those outside. There are many varieties of dishes and large quantities!
A large steak is twice as big as the outside. You can eat it until you die of a suffocation every day, but it only costs a few yuan, and it still uses the money from the unit meal card.
How many people want to come in with such a good unit?
However, in their eyes, I can only be regarded as a little kid in many cases
Maybe it's because of this, many people care about me very much
Care about my life, my work, my mood, whether I have a girlfriend
Now, Brother Xiong sat down beside me with his lunch box, eating lunch and muttering, What's wrong? His face is so serious today? Are you heartbroken?
Brother Xiong, 32 years old this year, is very capable and thin, and he usually exercises a lot. He is the salesperson in our floor, so he has many interpersonal relationships and is very good.
Because I love computers, I often care about me. Maybe I have a common topic.
Although he is 12 years older than me, he speaks to me like friends and friends, so sometimes I am very willing to tell him something and listen to his opinions
Well, I lowered my head and answered him simply and clearly, maybe with a little emotion, and my eyes began to wet.
Brother Xiong quickly swallowed the meal in his mouth, cleared his throat, and said softly, how many years have you talked about?
I'm trying hard to figure out how many years have I talked about?
I actually found that we didn't seem to have talked for long, and the time we spent together might only have a few days together.
I'm just thinking about the rest of the time.
It really woke me up from the dream. It turns out that I have been dreaming all the time, and first love is just my dream.
She left me because we only had one agreement to fall in love and we didn't have a relationship
She did the right thing, she bravely broke the cage of fate, she escaped
I had a random thought last night, she was right, she was very brave and brave enough to break the cage of fate. Not only did she escape, but she also released me
We will no longer make a promise for this meaningless love, continue to be imprisoned in a cage, wasting each other's time and youth
Thank you, my first love, I finally let it go
Don't be sad. There are so many good girls in the world. I will send you a few tomorrow. Brother Xiong patted my shoulder and said with a smile
Is there anyone who looks like Hong Kong star Zhou Huimin? I said seriously to Brother Xiong
A bite of rice almost spurted out from Brother Xiong's mouth. If you have it, I'll give you a look at the others first. Don't waste it.
Haha, we laughed together, and I was like the emperor, and I was waiting for me one by one
That afternoon, Brother Xiong came to me and gave me a phone number, saying that he sent me a girl named Wang, a local, and was the same age as me, and was intern at his friend's unit.
Ah?!Brother Xiong, you really want to send me a girl?! I was a little shocked and my face turned red
When did you joke? I have been talking about girls for several years at the age of 16, and that's the same as at the age of 18. You know, he smiled and went back to his office
Holding this note and looking at the TV number on it, I felt a little excited and nervous. Is a new life about to begin?
I don't dare to fight, I'm afraid
What am I afraid of?
I don't know, I'm just afraid
I am too cowardly, I still have nostalgia for the past, I dare not come out, or I don't want to come out
No, I dare
I picked up the phone next to me and pressed a series of numbers
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