Chapter 20

When I woke up the next day, it wasn't too late, it shouldn't be long before dawn

The first thing I woke up was to take out my phone. I wanted to turn on the screen, but I found that I had forgotten that I had turned off last night. After turning on the computer, there were a series of WeChat messages. But it was not just Zhiyu, but even my only friends in Changsha sent me messages, basically asking me where I am. Ruyu was almost looking for me to find me crazy

I'm worried that she will find my unit, and she will know about my leave when I'm going to ask for it.

That way, many things are hard to explain

I hurriedly called Zhiyu's number

Hello,……

Where are you! Are you doing? Where are you? Woo...

After I called the phone, she basically answered it in seconds. As soon as I blurted out one of my words, she had already said a series of questions and finally cried.

I'm fine. Yesterday, I drank too much with a friend I just met yesterday. There was a problem with my phone. I didn't hear the ringtone and just woke up.

You bastard! Do you know... you scared me to death, I thought something had happened to you... Zhiyu's voice was sobbing and complaining, but this complaint was indeed sweet

I have never answered her phone or replied to her message before. Even if I was driving, I just hung up her phone, so she would know that I was busy.

Yesterday I kept calling and knew my phone was automatically disconnected.

It's really okay, I'll pick you up after get off work

I didn’t even go to work! I didn’t sleep all night last night. Do you know how many people I called you?

It can be heard that she was angry, but she felt more relieved when she let go of her worries.

I'll go back later! Wait for me!

I hung up the phone. At this moment, I missed her. I really wanted to fly to her.

After getting up, I was about to go to wash up, but I paused

Take out your phone and reply to the message (just just now)

I know the answer, I love her!

Then I put my phone at the bedside to charge and go to the bathroom to take a shower

After I finished washing up, I returned to the room and picked up my phone and saw the message (just just now).

Just know the answer, but in fact, this matter is not that painful. In this era, it is not the past. As long as you confirm that your girlfriend still loves you and you love her before, you just think that she has found two inflatable dolls. Some things are divided into two aspects. Isn’t it much easier to think about it like this?

I was a little amused when I saw his reply

How could he understand the sourness when I thought of those pictures in my mind

But his words were like a curse, which made me feel much more relaxed

He replied to him with some dissatisfaction, "If your wife does this, do you think she has found an inflatable doll?"

Brother, don't put your affairs on my wife. I can only say that I encountered similar things when I was young! Yes, as far as you read the book of your secret girlfriend before, you summed up, beauty is the original sin of a woman, and some things are not blamed on women. Among some men, there are some people who like to take possession of beautiful women. They use any means to do anything about what happened to you, just think that you are the male protagonist once. You can just save yourself the secret of your girlfriend. You always say that the book is full of suspense. Is the heroine fucked by someone but never telling it.

To be honest, I didn't agree with what he said today, and even felt that he wanted to take what I suggested to another road.

I've read a lot of pornographic novels before, and even a lot of forums

But I don't think it's affected, at most it's a little more exciting

Especially the experience that Zhiyu brought to me this time was more painful and sour, so there was no feeling like the male protagonist written in the book.

I didn't reply to him. Now I just want to see Zhiyu quickly. As for yesterday, I warned He Zhongliang not to let him threaten Zhiyu with the video, I think as long as they don't come out to make trouble in the future, I should be able to go back to the past...

Maybe I was so worried that I came up with such a naive idea

After returning home, Zhiyu was sitting on the sofa in her nightgown. Although the TV was on, she was already asleep on the sofa.

Looking at her blue eyes, I couldn't help but feel distressed and walked up to hug her, ready to go to the bedroom, you're back!

There was no noise as I imagined. She opened her sleepy big eyes and looked at me, then tied her in my arms and continued to close her eyes.

I didn't sleep for a few hours last night, and the two of them were hugging each other in the bed and slept for the whole day

When we woke up, I told her that she had taken a few days off and didn't have to go to work until the National Day holiday.

She was a little surprised, and I said I wanted to make up for the regret of not accompanying her on a trip last time.

Speaking of that trip, we were both silent for a while

I could only change the topic by preparing to travel to Zhangjiajie, and the two of them continued to discuss how to live like this.

I want to use a trip to return to the original track, but unfortunately the trip can only temporarily leave the original track. After returning, what has changed and cannot be removed.

Time has slowly become colder, and it is almost the Chinese New Year

During this period, I also chatted with (just just now), but what I said was that everything was back to normal and I didn't mention anything else.

In fact, our days were not normal, I should say that I was very abnormal

I started to become weird, and I felt like I didn't know myself anymore

Everything else remains the same, but as long as Zhiyu comes home late, or calls me to accompany my colleagues out for dinner, I am also on the night shift at the unit

I can't help but think, is she really something wrong?

Really having dinner with colleagues?

I'm not at home, she's really alone at home?

Yes, I began to become suspicious. Once a person becomes like this, it is very tormenting, and I dare not ask Zhiyu.

That will directly lead to a crack in our relationship

After all, once there is distrust between couples, even if the relationship is about to come to an end, I still understand this truth.

If this is the only thing that tortures me, I might be able to overcome it

But another thing bothered me, but I didn't dare to ask others

During this period, I secretly posted on those forums and discussed my situation. After seeing a variety of comments, I think it would be better to tell (just just now). Although he sometimes likes to make jokes, he still knows how to behave properly. At least he won't talk nonsense to those netizens.

The problem that bothers me is actually the scene of her, He Zhongliang, Yu Hantao and others popping up in my mind when I was having sex with Zhiyu. At first, I thought it was just that I just knew about it, but I would slowly forget it later.

But with suspicion, that perverted idea is not serious about one plus one equals two.

Whenever I get suspicious, I will think of those scenes when I hold Zhiyu at night, and my body will be unconsciously excited.

It's like knowing that everything in your mind is thinking of something perverted, but you can't control your brain

When I told me (just right), it was December, and I had endured a long period of psychological torture at that time.

That night, Zhiyu said she would accompany her two colleagues to go shopping and might have to go home later.

I suddenly became anxious, but looking at the clock on the wall, it seemed to slow down several times. I thought it was because the battery was out of power, but I knew that it was all my illusion

I turned on my phone and sent a message to (just just now). I felt something was wrong with me recently...

He replied, "It's weird if it's right." I thought you would refresh my understanding of human nature and really think that I have a memory of a fish."

What do you mean?

I saw his reply and couldn't help asking

Hold on, this torture may take a long time, and it will not be able to save you if you don't have a year or two.

You are so sure, are you saying that what you have experienced before is similar to mine?

I saw the message he sent, it was like he knew my current state very well. I couldn't help but want to inquire about his experience, because I knew he was married now, had a child, and his life was pretty good.

I can't figure out what experience he has before I know how I feel

Don't ask about me, now we are talking about yours. If I want to say one day, I will tell you some of my experiences. Now I don't want to say it yet... Seeing him sending such a message, I think he might have encountered something similar, so I couldn't help but tell him some of my status.

I feel very uncomfortable now. Every time she leaves this house, or comes back later in the evening, I can't help but think about some pictures of the scriptures, even having sex with her, I think about my posture with her. Has anyone else used it like that, I am so almost a pervert now!

This is normal for you. Don’t say that such things have happened to you. Even if some people have never happened, they still think that you have only read the book of your secret girlfriend before? Do you think the author is sick and likes to write about his girlfriend’s suspected cheating? He has been writing a book for so many years, but he still has only a few words. Basically, the things he encountered are similar to yours, but he didn’t dare to write it out.

What should I do? I just endure it so much every day? I am afraid that one day I can't control my temper. When she comes back after she goes out, my first words are not about caring, but about asking her where she went and who she is with, what she eats and drinks! I can't stand it anymore!

I couldn't help but tell me the worry that I now thought I would be out of control

Do you want to avoid being tortured by such pain, or you will soon?

nonsense!

It's very simple, just break up and you're not upset

Apart from this method, can you only break up with her?

In fact, your psychological balance has been broken, or you can find a way to get back to balance

When I saw his words, I couldn't help asking, can you say half of your words? What's the balance?

You care too much about her now, so you say this again. If you think she still doesn't love you so much, you think the possibility will appear as before. This is also the reason why you are suspicious. As for how to find a balance, there are many ways, such as if you played the girlfriend of the two guys who bullied your girlfriend, wouldn't it be balanced? Or I just told you before, just think he is a masturbation stick. Your girlfriend is just using it and will not fall in love with them. Nowadays, many people are playing swapping partners, and some people who change their wives. They don't both look for excitement or have many ways to find balance. It depends on how you want to do it yourself.

I've read this passage several times

To be honest, I don't know which one of his suggestions is interested in

Although I think the analysis makes sense, if you do that, isn’t it just betrayal? If that happens, I still love her? I can’t help but think like this in my heart.

Would it be unfair to my girlfriend?

Is fair or not? I will only know when you can accept the test of time that what happened before she is fair to you? If it weren't for her overwhelming the seeds between you, why would you be so entangled? I won't chat, there is something else. If you have something, you can leave me a message directly. I will reply to you if I have time.

Seeing him say this, I had to put down my phone. His words were to let me choose how to make up for my pain.

I don't know what my future will be like, but I really made a choice tonight, just like going into the abyss. When I started, it was difficult to stop falling.