Chapter 49

Xue Xue was stunned

Su Xiangnan raised an arm to cover her face

Although he couldn't see his expression, Xue Xue could feel his emotions

That can't be summarized in two simple words: depression

Like a plant that has lost its sunshine and nutrients, Su Xiangnan is withering at a speed visible to the naked eye.

Xue Xue held his hand tightly, hoping to pass on his power to him, even if it was insignificant.

I knew there would be such a day, and I have been preparing myself mentally

The voice was vague, and the bloodless lips were trembling. Every word Su Xiangnan said seemed to squeeze out forcefully from the gap between the teeth.

But when this day really came, I found...

There is no time to be prepared

Su Xiangnan didn't say this sentence, but Xue Xue guessed it

Before birth, old age, sickness and death, humans appear small and powerless

My mom...she finally left me a letter

Letter? Xue Xue knows what this means

Su Lin is prepared to welcome his own death

She wants me to live a good life in the future and forget everything in the past. Don’t blame others, and don’t blame fate for being unfair. She will make such a decision to reconcile with herself and has nothing to do with others.

Su Xiangnan's speech speed was getting faster and faster, and his voice became lighter and lighter. Later, he didn't know whether he was talking to Xue Xue or murmured to himself.

Because I have become an adult who can stand alone, she can finally leave with confidence...

A low laughter told me how hurt and helpless the person left behind was

However, time cannot be reversed, and the ending written cannot be changed either

Su Xiangnan, aunt...your mother...this may be a relief for her

This is very hurtful. But seeing Su Xiangnan's depressed look, Xue Xue realized that perhaps speaking out is the best for him

Don’t think that she has left you behind. Think about it from another perspective, my aunt is just a different way to accompany you.

Is that so? The sharp tone made Xue Xue stunned. Actually, this is just an excuse, right? It's just an excuse to comfort me

After saying that, Su Xiangnan put down his arm and turned his head suddenly to look at Xue Xue

The dark pupils seep out a hint of chill

My mother always felt that she was dragging me down, but wasn’t it because I was dragging her down?

Su Xiangnan's tone was very stormy. Except for the beginning of acquaintance, the impression that Su Xiangnan left in Xue Xue's memory was already very faint.

You know, right? If it weren't for me, she might not have hoped for entering the Lin family. Later we were driven away... If it weren't for the fact that she still had a scoop, maybe she already had a new family and a new life now

It was because of me that he dragged her footsteps, leaving her trapped in Lin Youfeng's shadow for the rest of her life and unable to get out.

This seems to be the first time Su Xiangnan mentioned Lin Youfeng

His nominal biological father, a man who only gave him a brief fatherly love in his childhood but never refused to admit him

The appearance of this name made Xue Xue understand how much harm Su Lin's death brought to Su Xiangnan.

It's not like that. She spoke out and interrupted Su Xiangnan's self-loathing. Your parents' affairs are your parents' affairs, and that has nothing to do with you.

My aunt will give birth to you, that was her decision, a decision she made willingly without being forced

I realized that Su Xiangnan wanted to move, Xue Xue held him harder

You can't deny these things just because of what happened later, Su Xiangnan

Life is a dynamic development. A small change in the process may lead to completely different results, but what you experience and feel at the moment is real and indelible.

Didn’t my aunt keep telling you that she doesn’t regret giving birth to you?

Indeed, if she hadn't had you, she might have had another life, but would such a life be good?

Su Xiangnan's expression was dumbfounded and seemed absent-minded, but Xue Xue knew that he was listening to him.

You are Su Xiangnan and not Su Lin. You can have your own thoughts and feelings, but that doesn’t represent Su Lin. Do you understand?

Su Xiangnan did not answer

Xue Xue knew that he understood, it just took some time to accept reality.

Although I am not sure if I will be uncautious enough to mention this matter now, Xue Xue's thoughts have been shaken.

She felt that Su Xiangnan might have to divert her attention and at the same time, she used a more decisive way to break the shackles that her biological parents put on him.

I want to tell you something

Re-adjust Su Xiangnan's slightly tilted mask, Xue Xue's voice was gentle

I just discussed it with Sister Chen. Maybe now is not a good time... but I think I should give you more time to think about it

Facing Su Xiangnan's scattered gaze, Xue Xue smiled slightly

Now, just listen to me

As Xue Xue expected, Su Xiangnan did not agree with her and Chen Rong's approach.

At the same time, although the boy did not speak fiercely in protest, he looked at her with a very disappointed look, as if questioning how Xue Xue could have such an idea.

Human love

The two had no communication from the hospital to the way home with Su Xiangnan.

Su Xiangnan, I know you are feeling uncomfortable

As Su Xiangnan inserted the key into the door hole, held the handle and was about to turn it away, Xue Xue finally spoke.

She stared at the boy who hid her entire face under the brim of her hat and said to him in a very calm tone: However, when a person lives, no matter how uncomfortable he is, he must survive, in order not to let down the wishes and... last wishes of those who love him.

Hearing this, Su Xiangnan's body became stiff