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Zhe, I really just go see him as a friend. Can you believe me once? I won’t interact with him anymore...

The wife hurriedly explained, her eyes full of panic

I know, actually I don’t care about what you are doing with the trend anymore. If you are not happy with me, you have the right to pursue your own happiness

It's not like that. The thing about me following the trend is just a mistake. I never thought of being with him. I just felt very sorry for you...

My wife slowly calmed down

Xue, do you remember the first time we met?

My tone was slow and low, and I was completely immersed in my memories of the past

At that time, you were wearing a white long dress, beautiful and pure, like an angel. I never thought I could be with you at that time. I was so ordinary, I could only hide on the side and secretly like you. When God put you by my side, I couldn't describe that kind of happiness in words. I secretly swear that I would use my life to protect you and love you forever

Hearing this, my wife's tears flowed down again. She grabbed my hand tightly with both hands. I gently patted the back of her hand and continued to talk.

I am a stupid person, I can't say anything sweet, and I don't know how to be romantic. I have been away on business for many years, allowing you to endure loneliness and loneliness. For so many years, I have caused you to be wronged.

Wife choked and shook her head

These days, after calming down, I thought a lot, and I can't blame you for this happening. I also have a great responsibility. If I could care more about you and stay at home for you, maybe the demon wouldn't take advantage of the situation. So I decided to forget these things and do my best to win back our love and save our home. At first I was full of confidence. I didn't believe that 7 years of love would lose to that evil and shameless playboy. It was not until the afternoon of the 24th that I realized that I was wrong.

Speaking of this, I looked at my wife's surprised eyes and asked: Do you know what I'm talking about?

You...get it?

My wife's face was flushed and she didn't dare to look at my eyes

I didn't want to tell you this, I don't want to embarrass you, but now I feel it is necessary to tell you that at least it will make you know his nature more clearly. He sent me a video

My wife's face turned pale, she bit her lips tightly, and tears kept falling down

When I saw this video, my whole body was about to collapse. Those pictures and conversations were like a knife, smashing my whole heart, making me realize for the first time what it means to be in pain.

Speaking of this, my heart hurts like a needle again, and tears burst out from my eyes.

Sorry...I'm sorry...

My wife cried and hugged me tightly

I calmed down for a moment and continued: I know what he meant to do this. He just wanted to anger me and let me divorce you so that he could dominate you for a long time. I can't let you fall into his trap, I can't let your life be ruined by him. I grabbed a knife and rushed out like crazy. I want to fight him to the death.

My wife seemed to be stunned and her crying stopped. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes. I smiled at her.

I was running around the street like a madman, but unfortunately I didn't find him until you called me that I gave up on finding him

I sighed. Actually, when I saw the video, I knew that I had completely lost you, and that your body and soul were almost completely captured by him.

The wife shook her head in tears and murmured: It's not like this...

But I was unwilling to give up. He ruined our lives for his temporary lust and ruined our home. I must not lose to Tangtang's life. As long as there is a slight chance, I will not give up. So I decided to change jobs and spend more time with you and protect our home. But what happened today really made me desperate. I thought about it for an afternoon and finally made up my mind. Let's get a divorce.

My wife sobbed for a long time, slowly stopped her tears, looked at me and said: Zhe, since everyone is open, I want to tell you what I think, okay?

I nodded and said: Of course, I have wanted to have a good talk with you, but I have never found a good opportunity. This time, let us say everything in our hearts.

Maybe you don't believe what I said now, but I still want to tell you that the person I love has always been you. I have never loved Feng. I don't deny my favor with Feng. He is humorous, gentle and considerate. Chatting with him can make me forget the emptiness and loneliness, and let me fully enjoy the sweetness of being cared for and loved by others. But I have never had the idea of ​​cheating for the first time. I don't know why. Maybe it was because of alcohol, maybe it was the ambiguous atmosphere that night, maybe it was the need of the body during menstruation. I agreed to Feng's invitation in a daze. Wait for me to wake up the next day, and I felt very scared.What I thought of is sorry for you. I hate myself. How could I do such a thing? During that period, I spent all the time in regret and pain and guilt. I dare not let you know, nor dare to see the wind again. But what happened on my birthday changed me. In almost crazy sex, not only was my body satisfied, but my extremely depressed mood was released. I was completely addicted to it. Although I blame myself and regret it after each time, I couldn't help being with him again and again, just like an addict seeing drugs. Even though I knew it was harmful, I couldn't resist its temptation.

Speaking of this wife, I held back the discomfort in my heart, nodded, and asked her to continue talking.

After you found out the truth, I felt relaxed all of a sudden. Finally, I no longer have to bear the heavy pressure and pain. The harm I caused to you is irreparable. I have no hope that you can forgive me. I will accept any decision you make unconditionally. I filed for divorce at that time. I wanted you to completely get rid of the shame and harm I brought to you. It was not to be with Feng. I know who Feng is, and I also know that he is just coveting my body. Although he is indeed very powerful in bed, I am tired of his endless request for my body. I had already decided that I would never see him again in the future.

Then what happened in Lijiang?

I interrupted my wife

He kept calling me and sending text messages for those days. I also told him my decision not to look for me in the future. Your generous and tolerant made me full of gratitude and guilt. I could not do anything to be sorry for you anymore. He refused me again and again. He flew directly to Lijiang that day on the 24th and called me to see him. After I refused, he said that I would not go and came to me directly. I was frightened. I was afraid that there would be a conflict when you met, so I went there while you took a nap. I just wanted to tell him clearly and told him not to bother me again in the future. Who knows...

Speaking of this, my wife looked at me

In the video, I saw your obedience and obsession with him. I have never seen many actions I have lived with you for 7 years. Can you say that you don’t love him at all?

After thinking about it, I decided to ask clearly

My wife's face turned red, Feng was very good at dealing with women. He even knew their weaknesses and needs more than women themselves. When desires were provoked by him, I felt like I was in a state of confusion, just like in a dream, I would involuntarily make various actions according to his requirements, and I felt even more ashamed after I woke up. I knew very well that I didn't love him, but my physical desires were beyond my control. Can you understand what I mean?

I nodded, and my wife continued

His doing so will only make me feel more guilty towards you and more tired of him. I told him very seriously afterwards that I will never see him again in the future and told him not to disturb us again. If my family really breaks down, I will die in front of him. He finally agreed to my request.

I looked at my wife in surprise. I didn't finish watching the video, so I couldn't be sure if there was this passage: Did he really agree?

My wife nodded: I have been back from Lijiang for a few days and I have been calling a lot less. I have never met him. Today I heard that something happened to him and I ran to the hospital in panic. As for lying to you, I am afraid that you will miss you more when you know... Can you forgive me?

After saying that, my wife looked at me carefully

I held my wife in my arms and said softly: I just can't be sure whether we can be as happy as before. This has left a shadow in both of us. If you are in a feeling of guilt and self-blame for a long time, I am afraid that it will eventually turn into resentment towards me. Once the seeds of doubt and distrust take root in our hearts, it will also cause us to hurt and torture each other in the long run. I am afraid that our relationship will gradually deteriorate and become enemies. If that happens, how much harm will Tangtang cause to me? I am really afraid.

My wife was silent for a while and said quietly: I understand your feelings. I have considered these things. But I think as long as we love each other, as long as we open our hearts and communicate more, if there is anything we say happily, there is no problem that cannot be solved. Do you think so? Zhe, I love you, I love Tangtang, I love this family, I hope you will give me another chance, okay?

I love you too, so let’s forget about this and start over!

We hugged each other tightly, wishing we could rub each other into our bodies

I suddenly remembered a clip in the video and asked by a scammer: Xue, can you help me with your mouth in the future?

My wife's face suddenly turned red, she gave me a coquettish look and said in a low voice: I hate it, as long as you like it, you can do anywhere...

Regarding the case of Feng being beaten, my wife and I were asked once by the police, but then there was no further information.

A month later, I heard about him from Xiaojie, including comminuted fractures of limb joints, fractures of nose bridge, nearly half of the teeth, severe blows in the lower body, and complete loss of sexual function. He was taken back to his hometown in Northeast China by his family. His wife divorced him. He probably spent the rest of his life in bed.

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