Chapter 41 Psychological Trauma

When I set out to the hospital, it was already half past night

The car drove out of the underground parking lot and then stopped by the bridge

You can also see Yusuke falling down the window from the back of the car, and let the watch check the entry and exit permits

It was the one issued by Makiura

The Makiura, who was riding in a van with Takashi, is now wrapping herself in the back row with a blanket wrapped around her and hiding in the back row.

In this sentence, let down those who have always trusted themselves

Of course I am aware of this

Makiura left a note in the infirmary and said that he took him to the hospital for Takashi's surgery.

In this way, even if you come back late, it will not cause a commotion.

Even if this arbitrary action will damage Makuura's credit, it is not as good as a child's life.

If you can't come back...

Makiura doesn't want to continue thinking

On the grounds of a brief checking the situation, I wanted to pass the Takashi from the hands of the Shenyue who was taking care of her younger brother.

And the other party was not suspicious of this, just replied to yourself, so I'll ask you

But now, I am leading the child to death

(Is this really good? ·············)

A hint of confusion arose in my heart

But holding Yusuke's body with both hands, there was no sign of nervousness.

After entering the city, Makiura secretly held up and peeked out of the car through the window.

The scene in the town that once again caught Makiura's heart

This is the first time she has come out of the city government since the flood of zombies

Reflecting the faint moonlight, the van slowly advanced on the wide lane where trees were planted on both sides, shuttled through the ruined town

I don't know how many cars were abandoned along the way, and how many stores had glass shattered all over the floor

The pedestrian road is full of garbage, and the vending machine is embedded in the motorcycle. Now it is half dead.

The scene in front of you is simply impossible to connect with Japan

Outside the window, Maiura stared at the slowly passing scene, but suddenly, she held her breath

She saw a personal image on the second floor of a building

Look at the other person's movement, it seems that he is aiming here

Mr. Takemura...

She shouted slightly in her voice

Through the rearview mirror, you can see Yusuke's gaze moving towards the place where Makiura pointed, and then swayed back.

Don't worry if you are there, you won't rush over

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Who knows? No matter which side it is, it's not our business now

This sentence stuffed Makiura's words back

There was also a danger in other places, so Yusuke pulled the car up and passed quickly

Soon after, a familiar building appeared before my eyes

It is the gynecological hospital held by Makiura's father

Are there any places where it is difficult to find when looking from the surrounding area, and can be parked?

·········· I think the entrance of the ambulance vehicle is much safer than the main entrance, so I turn left and go in. After parking the car in the yard, Yusuke got out of the car with a gun and a flashlight in both hands.

I'll contact you every thirty minutes, don't go outside and call me immediately if there is anything

As he said that, he put down a small radio call

Even though I have learned how to use this machine and tried to communicate with each other, I still feel uneasy. Makiura still looks at the radio phone with some anxiety in her heart.

There was silence outside the car

The cold air of winter came up from the soles of the feet

Makiura tightened the collar of her coat and exhaled a breath of white breath

As a patient, Takashi took a small amount of painkiller

Due to the decline in physical strength, Takashi could only rest on a simple stretcher with a blanket wrapped in a rest

Makiura took Ritsuji's quilt and didn't dare to take a nap and wait like that

Time passes slowly

I almost felt that it was an hour before, and the first contact came

·········· It's okay to have Takemura here?

No problem... Just now

Suddenly, a dull sound came from behind Maiura reflexively turned around

This meets the man on the building side

Although the distance is quite far, the man still close to the window glass on the first floor and stares straight at this side

Goosebumps all over my body immediately stood up

I don't know if I could sense the movement here, the man began to harshly hit the window

A elbow hammered on the glass, and the sound of shattering came as a result

Makiura couldn't help but slip and remembered the radio phone, and then a call came from the other end.

What's wrong?

It crawled out of the window on the first floor............

What about the distance? From your side, is it on the left or right?

It's about fifty meters, on the left...it's probably the lounge

Don't move, don't run out

The call is interrupted here

Since the broken window is small, men have to struggle to get out there.

It couldn't get out, and the broken glass on the window frame kept adding scars to his body, and the flesh on his face was peeled off a lot of it

The flesh is turned on the hands, and the muscle fibers are even more exposed

The window frame also looks dirty due to the black blood it flows out.

The man seemed to feel no pain, with a ferocious face and kept trying to climb here.

Makiura took the gun on the car board in one hand and held it tightly in his hand

I also felt that I couldn't do this, but I still wanted to use something to rely on it.

As the glass shattered again, the space left for the zombie became larger

And just as it climbed out of the window frame, suddenly, the man's movements were a little unbalanced

It was swaying its upper body as if it was caught and its feet were caught. The man opened his mouth wide and his expression on his face was also frozen.

And behind the man, Yusuke's figure appeared from a dark place

The left hand tightly pulls the man's head, and the right hand twists something near the back of its neck

The man's body, which was no longer moving, slid to the ground to the side, and Yusuke also pulled out the knife with gravity.

The bloody blade reflected the moonlight, and a flash of light flashed out

Yusuke glanced at this side and retreated into the darkness.

Then the radio phone heard a sound

The first floor has been cleaned up and I will go up now

It wasn't like waiting for a response here, the radio phone fell silent again

·········Ha ha·········

After breathing, Masaru Masaru gasped heavily

Then put down the gun in your hand

When I was trapped in the early days of the city government, I also experienced a battle with zombies that invaded the building.

At that time, everyone looked as if they were ready to die, roaring and yelling, rushing towards those opponents who were both humanoid.

However, no one who silently ended the zombie like this has ever seen

(I'm really unwilling to accept it...)

Makiura couldn't help but remember that she had thought that such a foolish action was just a talk.

(To be honest, what kind of person is he...)

Never heard of his life

He also looked indifferent to the surroundings.

However, now, he is the most trustworthy person

I don't know how many contacts I received, and time passed slowly

With the deep silence of this dead city

Sometimes Makiura would look at Takashi's situation, and then casually glance outside the car

Suddenly, a lot of cold sweat suddenly oozed out of my back

Heartbeats also

Rather than rationality, the body responds to what first

(What·······?)

I don't know when, in the middle of the open parking lot, there was a small block.

It's about the size of a cat. I don't know if I'm dazzled, but I actually saw that something was moving strangely

The heart's leaping accelerates again

Have you seen this thing?

The trembling finger touched the radio phone, and at this time Makiura sensed a sense of incongruity

The thing standing in the parking lot has no shadow

The blurry outline on the asphalt road is reflected under the moon, which is the phantom of a newborn baby

After realizing what it was, Makiura moved back from the radio call, which was constantly trembling.

(That...that's different)

That is something different from the zombies just now

As if he wanted to deny the thing that appeared in his sight, Makiura closed his eyes tightly

In the darkness, her heartbeat became more and more intense

Yusuke once told himself that this zombie cannot destroy the body of the car and cannot run into the car.

But that's...

(That kind of thing doesn't exist...)

Keep trying to divert your attention, or keep your head empty and stop thinking

This is not the first time this has happened

In the past, when walking alone in the dim city hallway, he would suddenly emerge from his sight.

I couldn't take my eyes off until someone else walked around me, and I kept standing there and didn't dare to do anything

However, as a doctor, I can still make a judgment on this.

It is the hallucination caused by extreme insomnia and fatigue

This didn't make me feel relaxed

Instead, it's getting worse

This is more terrible than anything else

I slowly opened my eyes and realized that the thing was closer than before

Alas·········

I couldn't help but feel a faint sadness in my mouth

This is the first time I've come to this thing

So far, I've been squatting in the dark and staring at me.

Makiura couldn't help but want to open the car door and just flee to the distance

However, there was a patient around her who was still a child, which made her suppress this idea.

Suddenly, the radio phone sounded again with a murmur.

····················Ah, it's time to get off here.

Woo...

Makiura pressed the call button and wanted to say something, but in the next moment, he found that the squirming object in his field of vision disappeared.

The unmanned parking lot looks very wide

The moonlight spreads in it, and the asphalt pavement only reflects hazy light

Looking around, nothing

The strange situation disappeared immediately

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Slide fingers off button

The feeling of emptiness makes my heart feel uncomfortable

He reached into his pocket and flipped out his medicine box with his shaking hands

Pour the pills in it into the palm of your hand and was about to swallow them directly if you didn't accept the water, Makiura suddenly came to his senses

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Then stared at the medicine in your hand

Slowly grasp the flat hand into a fist, and hold the pills tightly on the palm of your hand

Next, there will be surgery

How can you dull your mind

After breathing a little, Murasu put the pills back into the medicine box

There is no fuel in the generator used in the electromechanical chamber

Probably, I have switched to my own power generation since the massive power outage, and then it has been in operation until now.

At this moment, it made people feel that the road was over. Fortunately, I found the reserved light oil, and the generator was finally able to replenish it.

Makiura followed the emergency operation guide to start the substation box again

Depending on the amount of electricity used, this should last twelve hours

Cooling water may be a problem

If the water in the water tank is gone, it will not be able to take away the heat. This box-type transformer should immediately strike due to abnormal conditions.

As the generator sounded the low vibration, the yard became brighter and brighter.

Makiura was relieved because of this

Fortunately, I once participated in a training session led by the exclusive engineer of the hospital and the Disaster Response Committee.

Even if you encounter a fault, you won't be helpless

But then again, emergency power can only output about half of the store on weekdays.

So the supply becomes very tight

Usually, the supply of Ah laboratory departments in the operating room, Ah and respiratory devices in the neonatal room, and machines that are necessary to maintain life.

In contrast, the less important corridors are dark everywhere

After coming up from the ground, the first thing to do is to check on the first floor

After ultrasound and abdominal X-ray examination, this is a typical appendix hypertrophy. Then the next diagnosis and treatment is to cut it with surgery.

Yusuke pressed the only moving elevator door with his hand, and asked Makiura to push the medical bed inside.

Makiura saw his very tired face through the mirror on the front

And Takashi, who was lying on the medical bed, wandered around in anxiety and looked around.

Press the button on the third floor where the operating room is located, and the elevator begins to rise slowly

Makiura looked at the floor indicator screen that began to change and spoke

No one above, isn't there? ································ I mean the survivors

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Seeing Yusuke who was silent with a dark face, Makiura continued in panic

This is next door to my father's residence, maybe he is still there.

············Ah, it is possible

These words made Makiura's face so irritated.

It's like a disobedient child, completely ignoring reality

There is no one around here

Since I got here, I have understood a little bit in my heart.

I'll go to your father's house to see you later, but can I put my heart on Longsi first?

·············· OK Sorry

Makiura responded with her head down

These three operating rooms have been built to form an operation department independent of this building

Since the obstetrics department has its own delivery room, except for caesarean section, it is mainly used by gynecology.

After passing through the big door, you can feel the air flowing slightly

Entering the locker room, Makiura took off her coat and changed into the prepared white clothes

Yusuke,

Ah········· I just entered without changing my clothes, okay?

The positive pressure air supply is still in operation. As long as the equipment is not touched.................. After I prepare for the operation, I will disinfect the surroundings again and change into the surgical gown.

Since the air pressure inside the operating room is usually slightly larger than that outside, the air outside cannot be blown in.

It is a means to prevent viruses, bacteria and some small dust from invading into the operating room

What can I do to help with the preparation work?

No... Just, you have to act as an assistant in the operation and after completely disinfecting it, since I can't touch the area outside the operating room, I won't have enough hands

I understand, then I'll go and make sure it's around here

Make sure?

Originally, I planned to get those locked rooms later, but now I will do it first if I have time. Otherwise, it will be distracting to cause trouble during the operation. So do you, don't go into some strange places.

·······OK

For Yusuke, who was so relaxed and asked to do it, Makiura had nothing to say, so he nodded.

While collecting necessary items in the equipment room, Maiura felt that her emotions became more and more stable.

Since Takashi is still a child, general anesthesia is required

For children, it is difficult to perform surgery while maintaining consciousness.

It will cause tragedy when making noise during the art

However, in the process of general anesthesia causing breathing to stop, an anesthesiologist must be accompanied and managed with vital signs. However, at present, only one person can do two things.

Under general anesthesia, all functions of the body will decrease

In addition to breathing, the patient must be controlled by the changes in blood pressure and heartbeat.

When I thought of the open surgery of a child who was responsible for general anesthesia alone, cold sweat came out

(Even so, I can only go...)

There are also methods of using local anesthesia in the lower abdomen and sedatives that allow patients to enter sleep to make breathing non-stop. However, this method requires a high level of management ability.

Excessive sedation dose will stop breathing, and less will make the body move, which will ruin this operation

Special target is children

If the patient can retain the patient's independent breathing and make him lose consciousness, and maintain the necessary anesthesia depth for the surgery, it will save Muraura a lot of effort if it is laborious.

But if you fail alone, it will be difficult to recover, and you will be in a desperate situation if you make a breakthrough.

Makiura sighed loudly

There are risks on both sides and vertical

Since I've come here, I won't say bad things anymore

The conditions here are much better than those in the municipal government

(Besides...)

Makiura lowers her beautiful eyes

He bears the responsibility of a doctor on his shoulders, but Yusuke is not

He has done this for other people's children, so how can he not repay his efforts?

Makiura thought so

Yusuke, who completed the suppression on the third floor, was called back to the operating room to listen to the screen and instructions of various machines.

Heartbeat, blood pressure, body temperature, number of breaths, and carbon dioxide concentration are all labeled with stickers for easy observation.

Yusuke's task is to monitor these data

The syringes for the medicines that are prepared here are posted with their respective names and listed in the trolley.

Place the syringe with anesthetics sealed into the continuous injection of the analgesic pump, and then connect the tube

Then check that carbon dioxide and nitrous oxide are supplied from the pipes of the medical gas, and then confirm whether the anesthesia atomizer is working normally.

Since all the blood preparations in the hospital have been refrigerated, they have to bring them from the blood bags stored in the municipal government’s refrigerator.

Of course, these blood bags have been checked for matching.

Although the amount is a little small, the types of infusions are relatively abundant, because these are all planned to be used for use.

After all, I still want to use blood transfusion as a last resort

After confirming the machine, Yusuke took the nurses in the operating room to use the operating guide as reference materials.

At first, I was flipping with interest, but my brows frowned after a while.

Don't understand at all...

I'll be responsible for the basics. You just need to understand the procedure.

Since the knife doctor cannot turn his eyes away from the field of surgery, he usually calls out the name of the need to hand it to the nurse, but this time he can't ask for this

With the preparation of the operating room, Muraura remembered that all kinds of items such as carbon dioxide concentration meter, anesthesia circuit, suitable masks, etc. must be replaced by children.

It’s just that children around five years old don’t have many items on the third floor, so they have to go to the underground warehouse to collect them.

The two of them stayed behind the scenes of Takashi who was entering a shallow sleep because they were taking medicine before the surgery. They locked the door and hurried out of the surgical department.

Judging by Yusuke, there will definitely be a lot of unrelated things, so Matsuura has to go there in person.

When Yu Yusuke and the other two took the elevator together, Makiura was immersed in worry.

I have been to anesthesia department when I was an intern, but this is the first time I have anesthesia in pediatrics.

The anxiety in my heart is getting worse

(If you don’t have intubation, just rely on your own breathing, and cover it with a mask to maintain anesthesia...)

This saves a lot of complex technologies

Can't help but become confused again

If you only wear a mask, it will become very scary if you vomit.

Usually, when a foreign object enters the trachea, the body will subconsciously react and vomit it out, but this reaction will disappear during anesthesia.

Once vomit mixed with stomach acid reaches the lungs, it will cause pharyngeal pneumonia, which will kill you.

For this reason, if anesthesia is required, a hunger strike is required beforehand...

(Although eating solids has been a long time ago, if peritonitis, digestion will appear very slow...)

If such a young child is breathing, it will be very dangerous once he stops breathing.

And this time, I am the only one who does it alone, and no matter how you are, you should be fully prepared.

Going downstairs, Yusuke took out the key and opened the warehouse

After going in alone to ensure safety, Makiura also came in

Stack the necessary stuff from the rack into the cart in the warehouse

Just in case, a lot of things, including reserves, have been collected, and the trolley will not have enough space.

There is a trolley in the corridor, I'll get it

Walk out of the warehouse and then walk toward a trolley placed in the corridor.

I originally wanted to throw away a wrinkled white coat there, but when I glanced at the nameplate above, I found that there was a familiar crown-free avatar on the nameplate.

This is my father's white coat

Makiura couldn't help but stop

(·········)

She held it in her hand tremblingly

Then, open your hands

There was a slight tea color on the hem of the clothes

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That's my father's

During those chaotic days, my father must have been running around to help the injured.

He shouldn't be so calm that he can worry about his own safety

After Makiura looked at the white clothes for a while, she folded them carefully

Taking this thought into his heart, Makiura stopped when he pushed the cart to return to the warehouse.

I feel like someone is shouting

Listen with your ears

(sound········?)

From the depths of the grey corridor

················· Who is it?

What comes into your ears is a very faint sound like the sound of the wind

(Are you hallucinating?·································································)

As if tempted, Makiura pushed the cart and took steps towards the depths of the darkness

As I stay away from the light, the sound that became dull due to the echo has gradually become clearer.

(who···········?)

Suddenly, someone in front of me stopped me

--------Yexiang, is it Shayxiang?!

A familiar voice passed through the door and reached my ears

Makiura stopped in surprise and widened her eyes

Then he came back to his senses and rushed over in panic

The door cannot be opened

Makiura put his hands on the door and shouted loudly

Dad!?Are you okay?!

Ah,AhAh························································································································

Well, I...is great...really...

A sense of peace of mind that could make the whole body fall down was coming to the whole body

Everything will improve next

As long as you are with your father, the surgery will definitely be fine

Now you can save your life

I'll open now!

The sliding door is tied tightly with a rope to the handrail of one wall

Mupu couldn't untie it even when he was slidding it. Then he took scissors from the plate in the trolley and forced the rope to be cut open.

After all released, the door was opened suddenly

Through the faint light coming from behind, you can see the face of my father there.

Although he was a little thin and his face turned a little blue, he still had the same face as his father in the past.

dad············

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The two of them were silently planning to carry a piece, but they were attacked by their side on the way.

For a moment, I couldn't understand what was going on

The vision was turning, and then it fell to the ground

Pain, it hurts...

Muraura, who rubbed the hit place and supported her body, saw Yusuke who was folded together with his father.

Only then did she realize that Yusuke just knocked herself away

how···············

Maiura, who was still planning to ask questions, was immediately dumbfounded

The knife stabbed it from under his father's jaw

The blood gushed out with the spasm of the body dyed Yusuke's hands so sticky

You can tell it was a fatal injury at a glance

Yes, Yes……………………

Speechless

Yusuke let go of his hand holding the knife

The remaining body slid down to the ground like a broken doll

Makiura crawled up with her waist that couldn't lift, staring at her father's face desperately

Ah, haha, ah ······

The knife that penetrated deep under the chin reached the brain

Father's eyes lost focus and looked at the ceiling in vain

Makiura hugged his father's head on his lap and waved his head towards Yusuke

You, are you crazy... Why, so... too much...

Countless tears gushed out of beautiful eyes

It must be because he killed too many zombies, so he would not hesitate to kill people at all.

No, he had already killed someone in the supermarket...

Yusuke frowned and stared at him

What is that in your eyes

Alas...?

Yusuke brought up the light

The surroundings that were originally hidden in the darkness are now bathed in the light

Dried blood and shriveled meat splashes everywhere, and they are everywhere

And the one on Matsuura's knee is even more of a lost head

The left half of this face was dug out like a shattered cheek bone.

Half of the mouth was exposed, and it was penetrated by a silver blade.

The left eye beads were about to fall out of the eye socket, and the collarbone on the shoulder was inserted out of the body, half exposed

It was just like a knife stabbed, so it was originally a corpse

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Reflectively push it away, then rub against the ground and then fall backwards

The heartbeats so fast that the heart feels pain

This corpse was moving just now

Zombies

It's a zombie

But, but, just now it was still talking...!

·········· You are the only one who speaks

No... Because, just...

Makiura seemed to be seeking proof of what he wanted to see, wandering away from his sight

In front of me, a sign with the morgue was caught in the eye.

(········)

Father's voice sounded

From this room

Locked

For a long time

The door tied tightly

I just covered the remaining father's figure in my heart and his gentle smile through the scene hidden deep in my heart.

When the door is opened, the

Actually it is

Ah············

Consciousness is drawn from the brain

There was suddenly darkness in front of me

I don't know how long it took, but there was only a white wall in front of me

It's in the lounge on the third floor

Lying on a medical bed covered with a quilt

Although I had already recovered my consciousness a long time ago, the upper body of my vision was just now

Slowly hold up, flip your pockets

But I couldn't find what I wanted, so I remembered that I had changed into white clothes

That thing is in the coat

Stand up and walk to the locker room

Take out the medicine box from the coat of the cabinet and pour the contents into the palm of your hand

Just as I was about to swallow it all, I was pulled by a hand that reached out to my right.

Pills scattered from the palm of your hand all over the floor

·············· Don't you think it's too much?

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Makiru looked up at the face of the man staring at him expressionlessly

I sympathize with you very much, and at the same time I feel that I am too stupid. I know you are a little strange, so I shouldn't look away from you. But, are we time limitless? Do you want to take medicine or something? Can you do it later?

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Makiura fell down his sight and remained silent

As soon as Yusuke released his hand, she slowly leaned against the wall, and then sat on the ground with a loss of strength.

Yusuke looked down at his gaze speechlessly as if he was evaluating the price of something

But I don't care much about this

After a silence, the sound fell down again

················· Can't it be done?

This sentence made Maiura's mouth laugh a little

Are you asking a crazy doctor? The child you are interested in will die because of this. I have no way to trust myself anymore.

Yusuke remained silent

Then, he spoke

No one else

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We are not far away... Is that true?

If you have Takashi's surgery, I will agree to you any request, whatever you want. This is the exchange condition

Then, please help me

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Help me complete this operation

Yusuke stood there without saying anything, and soon he turned around and left without saying a word

Muraura didn't move for a while, then she forced herself to hold back the sob that surged from the bottom of her heart and buried her face between her arms.