Chapter 3

It should be said that the sudden arrival of my mother made me fall from heaven and back to the world. It reminded me that no matter how successful I was, the shame on my back could not be washed away, and all this was caused by my mother.

In the Daqing Mountains more than 100 kilometers south of the city, there is a place called Danyang

Although the mountains and rivers are beautiful, the transportation is extremely inconvenient, so it is very poor.

I was born there, and spent seventeen years that I couldn't look back on.

Because I was too poor, people from my hometown went to work in this big city one after another

We are the most humble, the heaviest, and the most unwilling job in this city, you can see the figures of us Danyang people in the journey that no one wants to do.

Not only that, even many thieves, prostitutes, and addicts wandering on the streets are all my fellow countrymen

Because of this, the residents of this city look down on Danyang people very much, even though they can't live without us for a moment.

Living in this city, I always feel inferior. I am afraid that people will know that I am from there and are looked down upon by my classmates.

But what shames me the most is because of my mother

I have no father since I was born. This is because I am a wild breeder born to my mother after being raped. My mother was only fifteen years old that year.

My mother's name is Li Yulan. Before that day, she was an ordinary rural girl. Although she was very poor, she still lived happily.

But on the way home from school that day, she was blocked by a pair of fierce big hands, dragged into the woods, and roughly stripped her thin clothes, and then... In that closed and backward countryside, a woman's chastity is even more important than life

It is conceivable how big the blow this will be to my grandmother’s family. The elderly grandfather and grandmother passed away shortly after they could not bear such a blow, and only my uncle was left to take care of my grandmother.

From then on, no one was willing to ask a woman like my mother to be a wife. My mother had to pull me alone and spend the hardships under the eyes of the villagers.

Since I became sensible, I have been under the pressure of the world and have never experienced the happiness I deserve in my childhood

No child is willing to play with me, but I am always ridiculed and humiliated by them, as well as the fingers behind the adults

In this harsh environment, I have also developed a cold, withdrawn and never admit defeat.

I hate almost everyone, even my grandma

I hate my mother why she gave birth to me, so that I have to endure such hardships when I am born

At home, I rarely smile at my mother, and even talk very little. Everything she did for me was considered to be a matter of course.

I swear that when I grow up, I must leave this place, make a name for myself, and be honest.

When I was seventeen years old, I finally fulfilled my first vow. In the college entrance examination, I was admitted to the famous university I am now studying with excellent results, and left Danyang, which made me full of nightmares.

My mother was proud of this. She could stand in front of the villagers for the first time

Of course, her burden was even heavier, and my high tuition fee made her breathless

But my mother didn't say a word of bitterness in front of me

This is because no matter how hard or tiring, as long as I have a bright future, her heart will be sweet.

I am the biggest and only pride of my mother, and the whole of her life

But at that time I didn't realize this. I still enjoyed my mother's hard work with peace of mind. It seemed that all this was what I deserved, and my mother was paying off her debts.

In this city, I started a new life, and I tried hard to make myself forget the humiliating past

But my shameful origin is like a ghost, and it will jump out at any time, making me feel very painful

Just as I was standing there and thinking about it, a crisp and delicate voice sounded in my ears: Zhongyi, why are you standing here stupidly?

I looked back and saw a beautiful girl with bright eyes and white teeth standing behind me. It turned out to be Mina

I was a little at a loss and whispered casually in panic: It's nothing, I... Who is that woman, your relative?

Mina looked at her mother's figure, with a clear look of contempt on her face

My face turned red, afraid that Mina would see it, so she quickly lied:

She-How could she be my relative? She is our nanny. She will come to the city to sell things and come and see me.

But after all, I am not good at lying and my expression is unnatural. I had previously told Mina that I live in Danyang County and that my parents run several factories

Because Mina looks down on the country people the most, I am afraid that Mina will ignore me after knowing my family, so I have to deceive her against my will.

I don't know how long I can hide it, but vanity drives me to hold on even if I have to hold on

Mina, let's stop talking about her, how could you come here? I'll go to the department to do something, just pass by here, I'm going to leave, I won't tell you anymore, remember, at 7 o'clock in the evening, wisteria round, see you

I nodded excitedly. For the sake of a wonderful date tonight, I decided to forget all my worries for the time being and taste the hard-earned success.