Chapter 7

Xiaoya's recent performance made me feel vaguely uneasy. I wanted her to calm down, so I asked her very seriously whether she would come to work in our company. I would arrange a relaxing job for her.

But Xiaoya refused

My dream is to travel the world

She laughed, and when I spent the money, I would definitely come back and pester you, so you have to work hard and make money, otherwise what if you can't afford to support me then?

I almost regarded her as my gentle wife, but when Xiaoya took out her diary for me, she was inevitably disappointed

Being with him is my happiest time. Happiness is like a dream. Everything can be realized. I am reluctant to leave and am extremely greedy for this beautiful dream. But I know that dreams will always wake up. Just as we once said, two lines can only go parallel to keep going. If they cross, they will be farther and farther away. I have also thought about whether they can entangle the two lines together, but they cannot do it, because there is always an irreversible wall in the middle, and that wall is called sister.

Xiaoya's diary said

I was extremely disappointed. In fact, when I was with her, we didn't deliberately talk about this topic, but Xiaoya still broke this tacit understanding more clearly than me.

I looked at her, and the beloved woman looked at me, her eyes were gentle and firm

I know that some things have changed. I don’t know when I wake up, maybe I will lose her.

Xiaoya seems to have nothing happened. She is like a gentle and virtuous wife. She cleans the house every day. Every day when I get home from get off work, she has prepared the meal and waits for me.

Like Lin Lan, she prepared the clothes I wore every day and dressed up my spirit.

Xiaoya has changed from a young woman to a big woman, just like Lin Lan

We played guitar together and sang KTV at home together. Xiaoya’s voice was gentle and sweet, as if she sang it to my heart.

We have sex almost every night, Xiaoya is crazy and boring, which makes me release myself intoxicatedly. I can't accumulate any semen in my body, as if I'm hollowed out

After the warm spring came, what I had been worried about still happened. One day, Xiaoya said she was leaving

This scene has been previewed countless times in my heart, but when it really came, I was still at a loss. I didn't know where she was going or how to deal with it.

Where to go? My voice was a little low, I knew I couldn't keep her

Go around the world Xiaoya smiled, you know that it has always been my dream

What about the future? Will you come back? I asked with anticipation

Yes, I will come back to support you when I have no money. Remember to make more money, but don't starve me to death. Xiaoya said lightly

I no longer objected to her request. I know that it is impossible to have Xiaoya for the rest of my life. As she said, if two lines intersect, if they go further and further, it is better to keep going parallel.

Therefore, I can only sincerely wish her sincerely. Only when Xiaoya lives a happy life can I have hope of continuing to dream, although that dream will never be realized.

Xiaoya said she left, but she really left. She didn't let me see me off, didn't tell me where to go, and just left like that

Looking at the empty room, endless sadness surged into my heart

Xiaoya left me like this, and she sent me a message along the way, telling me where she is and how she is feeling

She was like a beautiful dove, leaving the cage that imprisoned herself, flying higher and higher, and getting further and further away from me.

That night, Xiaoya sent me a lot of photos. She was a little haggard in front of the camera, but her smile was extremely bright, just like the white and beautiful moonlight on this summer night.

She was finally able to find herself and regain hope for life, which was also a great luck

When I was about to bless her, she sent another photo

In the picture, Xiaoya and a woman stood together, smiling warmly, behind them were the gray bay and the long bridge, and the looming Hong Kong

That woman is Lin Lan

I was extremely shocked that since I separated from Lin Lan, I saw her for the first time. She cut her hair short, her eyes were clean and neat, and she smiled lightly, but it seemed that she was hiding undetectable sadness.

I looked at the photos over and over again, sometimes it was Lin Lan, sometimes it was Xiaoya. These two women who were the most important in my heart were standing together in front of the camera, holding hands and standing together in front of the camera.

That day I said that I was with a man at night, and you almost believed it. Actually, I went to find her, she was in Shenzhen

Xiaoya sent a message, Brother, can you accept me, why can't you accept her? She is really a very good woman, I feel sorry for her

I knew that these must have been told by Li Yàn. I sighed. She once said she wanted to help me find Lin Lan. I never took it to heart. I didn't expect that Xiaoya had been thinking about it and actually went to find Lin Lan.

All the past has passed, I can't go back, I'll reply to her

Why?

Because I am a man, I can't pass those three thresholds and there is silence on the other end. Even if I can't answer such a question myself, how can she know the answer?