Chapter 17

My brain buzzed, as if someone had stuffed a grenade inside, and every brain cell was blown to pieces. When I looked up, I felt dizzy. I couldn't feel the existence of my body or the existence of the world around me. Suffocation, pain, and anger. I seemed to fall into the bottomless abyss, unable to breathe, and unable to catch anything helpless

I sank into the bottomless abyss. It took me a long time to wake up slowly.

I used all my strength to control my body and struggled to continue reading. More and more explicit content, every word was like a steel needle piercing my heart, piercing my heart into a lotus holes.

When I was with me, I would wear condoms most of the time. To be honest, I don’t like to wear condoms, but I know to protect Xiaowen. Even if I don’t wear it once or twice, I’m ready to get pregnant. It’s just to get married early. Even so, Xiaowen will still buy medicine the next day, but when she is with this man, she even lets him ejaculate inside, and three times a night?

The chat time was the day when I picked Xiaoya up. That night, Xiaowen and I had sex with her and she had an orgasm. Now it seems that more than ten hours before her orgasm, a man stuffed his ugly penis into the lower body of the woman I have always loved, and then ejaculated in her three times. I just repeated the process of that man.

Thinking of this, I was extremely angry and disgusted

The chat records behind them are getting fewer and fewer. Obviously, after they had sex, either Xiaowen rarely chats with him on QQ at home, or...

Xiaowen is not at home at all, so she has no chat history. So where will she be if she is not at home?

I suppressed my anger and continued to watch

The final chat record was before Xiaowen was on a business trip. The manager asked Xiaowen if she had packed up her things. Xiaowen said she had packed up her, so don't come up, there is a surveillance monitor.

OK, I have already arranged your brother. I am very familiar with the factory. He stayed patiently for a few months and I would like to get him a reply with the team leader named Gao.

Where are you? Xiaowen asked

That bitch still refuses, and she will not be able to leave her when the court finishes tomorrow

Don't worry, I've done some lawyers, she can't get any money

I have to keep the money to buy a house for us

The surname Gao replied

Xiaowen sent a love heart, and then a kissing expression

After reading the chat records, there were cigarette butts all over the floor. My heart was broken into millions of pieces, and my chest was so painful that I couldn't breathe.

Without much effort, I can guess what most of the plots are, boss, work, office cheating, divorce, and then buying a house for her to marry her?

I am really good at joking. I don’t want my family’s money. I want to give Xiaowen a stable life with my own hands, but in the end I’m completely humiliated by someone with money.

Shouldn't it be that I should have listened to my mother, bought a house early, and then went to my sister's place to arrange a free time, or asked my father to go to the relationship and send gifts, and get a stable civil servant. In short, wouldn't the tragedy today happen if Xiaowen was married early?

If so, then what is my relationship with her for so many years? What is everything I have given for her? Do you don’t deserve love if you don’t have money? Besides, I’m not considered losing money yet

When I was a child, Damao was poisoned to death, and I cried sadly for several days. Now the woman who has been with me for so many years has left me so cruelly, just like my beloved toy was suddenly snatched away. I was sad, angry, and unwilling to accept it.

I picked up the phone and called Xiaowen's father. It took a long time before a sound came from the other end.

Uncle, Xiaowen... I was interrupted as soon as I started talking

Xiao Li Ah, you shouldn't have said anything about Xiao Wen. I advised her, but you have grown up, and you have to decide on your own.

I just spoke, and the other end already knew what I was going to say. Obviously Xiaowen had told him

This kind of thing depends on fate, don't be sad either

Is this fair to me? Can't she consider my feelings when doing this? My voice is full of anger

Xiao Li Ah, I know you are very sad, but I can't help with your affairs. Ah said

I hung up the phone. Such communication is meaningless. Obviously he is on Xiaowen's side. How can parents in the world be willing to blame their children? When I was a child, I did something wrong. Didn't my mother protect me like this?

I called Xiaowen again, but it was still shut down

Suppressing the anger in my heart, I sent her a text message: I have been with you for so many years, and I trust you so much. If you really want to leave, you can tell me frankly that I will not let you go, but your betrayal and deceitful to me is too hurtful to a person who has loved you for so many years.

The text message is like a rock sinking into the sea without any echoes

Put down my phone, I sat numbly, stood up numbly, and turned around in the room numbly. I was like a walking corpse, and my soul seemed to be no longer in my body.

Looking at everything that is familiar, looking at every corner of her existence, as if in the next moment, you will hear the sound of the key opening the door, and then float in the familiar words: Husband, I'm back

However, nothing happened. The sound of cars downstairs was still hustle and the room was silent as if it was dead.

There is beer and red wine in the refrigerator. In the past, every time I wanted to drink beer, Xiaowen would say not to drink so much beer. When the belly is bigger, people think our husband is pregnant.

Then he took out the red wine and put it in two beautiful goblets. While pursing his lips at me, he said let's live a petty bourgeois life.

Thinking of this, my tears were rolling. I opened the half bottle of red wine and took a big sip. It was sour, bitter, and my throat was like a knife cut.

When I was in college, Xiaowen once asked me, weren’t you a bad boy before, why did you become so hard later?

Because you Ah, because I want to be with you, I have to study hard to get into the same school as you. I didn’t avoid it anymore and answered her with a smile.

Actually, I didn't lie to her. If the relationship with Xiaoya is considered young and ignorant, then Xiaowen is the first time I have given my feelings seriously.

The reason why I worked so hard later was like a different person, besides the Hu Lili incident, the influence of my father, and the relationship between Li Yàn, another very important reason is her

When I was with Xiaowen, I had never done anything wrong to her except holding hands and kissing her. Occasionally, whenever she said she didn't like her, I would stop immediately because I like her, so I care about everything she felt.

Every morning I would run downstairs to her dormitory, buy her breakfast, and wait for her to go to class together. During the four years with Xiaowen, I hardly missed the class, just because she said she didn't like boys who skipped classes.

Their class played basketball games with the opposite college. I didn't have enough staff, so I ran to be a foreign player. I took a group of weak boys and almost served in three positions on the court. In the end, I lost, and I was almost exhausted.

At that time, there was a girl in her dormitory. Because of her family background, she often showed off her bags to them. How expensive her cosmetics were. Xiaowen didn't care about such people, but later Xiaowen used her computer and was scolded by the girl. What's so expensive this laptop? What if you don't understand what if the computer is broken? I looked at Xiaowen's grievance when she described those processes to me. From that day on, I gave her all her living expenses. I bought the same cosmetics and bought her beautiful clothes and shoes. Although Xiaowen repeatedly said that she didn't like wasting so much money, I told her that this is not a matter of money. You are my woman, and I will not let you be wronged.

At that time, Xiaowen and I didn't live together or had sex. The closest contact was kissing and hugging, but I already regarded her as my woman in my heart. Later, I felt that I was really like Xiaobei at that time. If I love someone, I am willing to give everything for her.

During the summer vacation that year, I went to my sister's company and asked her if she could let me do summer work on their construction site. My sister looked at me like a monster and said that if you want money, it was just that. The construction site was so tired. Is it a place for college students like you who have a tender skin?

I said you underestimate me too much. What's the hardship? There will be more hardships in the future, just treat it as a training

I want to make money with my own efforts, I don't want to embarrass our family

My family all opposed it, I insisted on doing it alone, but my dad didn't, otherwise I wouldn't be able to go

I strongly asked my sister to keep my identity secret, and then stayed at the construction site for nearly two months. Every day, like those migrant workers, they were doing the hardest physical work under the scorching sun. My mother came to see me once, and when she looked at me, she almost burst into tears. I smiled at her and said it's okay, your son is both educated and strong, and he will definitely not starve to death in the future, and will not embarrass our family.

My mother had a fight with my dad after she went back. This was what my sister told me later. I don’t know what the quarrel was, but since the end my mom didn’t show up and took me away. Obviously, what my dad said counts.

Back at school, I bought a notebook for Xiaowen. When I gave it to her, she looked at me with amazement and said a little bit of blame. I said that I earned it by working on my own and didn't ask the family for a penny.

She looked at me as dark and thin as she threw herself into my arms

That night, Xiaowen gave herself to me

When she took off all her clothes and presented her slender and white body naked in front of me, I was extremely gentle, as if I had obtained the most precious treasure

Despite this, when I went in, Xiaowen still grabbed my arm tightly in pain, and her nails were deeply trapped in my flesh.

After the end, Xiaowen looked at the red blood stain on the tissue and said, "I finally know why God has to hand over such a painful thing to a man to complete, because God wants me to know how important he is in my heart, so I am willing to endure that pain."

Xiaowen's words are still vivid in her ears, as if they were yesterday

God let me complete the most painful thing, proving my position in her heart, and today, she returned this pain to me, which is a huge mockery.

I felt a cramp in my heart and dried up the wine glass.

Later, Xiaowen moved out and lived with me. I rented a single room outside the school, which became our happy two-person world.

Except for Xiaowen's best friend, no one has ever been here. I have never brought my brother with the best relationship. Although I don't care that our relationship can be announced to the whole world, I am afraid that Xiaowen will feel pressured. After all, we had not graduated at that time, and girls still care about these things very much.

Xiaowen's best friend has been here several times. When she saw our warm two-person world, she said in surprise and envy, "You are such a peerless man, Ah, you are so nice to her. Do you still have brothers? Why don't you introduce one to me?"

Now that I think about it, my kindness to Xiaowen is definitely no less than that of Xiaobei and Guo Haizao.

The water is too cold in winter, and I don’t want her to wash clothes, so I bought a washing machine. When I sleep, I always go to warm the quilt first. Sometimes, I will hold her to keep warm.

On my birthday, Xiaowen gave me a pair of couple bracelets and it was already very touching. However, I would give her all kinds of gifts regardless of her birthday or not. I wear it very simple, but I bought her the best down jacket. Xiaowen many times said that she is not such a vain girl. I said that people live in society and saying that there is no vanity is hypocrisy. As long as you can make you happy, those are nothing. I just want to let your dormitory look at the March 8th. Even if you don’t have money, at least you have a man who loves you.

Xiaowen once said that meeting me is the happiest thing in her life, and she doesn't know how to repay me

I said with a smile that in the future, marrying me and accompanying me for the rest of my life will be the best reward.

Later, after graduation, Xiaowen followed me to Shanghai. I bought her the ring for the first month of my work salary. I put it on and said that my husband has no money now, so I can only pay a deposit to book you first, and wait until I have money, and then buy a big diamond ring to marry you back.

Xiaowen hugged me tightly, with crystal tears in her eyes

Now that I think about it, what a irony thing was that the woman who once said to accompany me all her life, stabbed me hard in my heart, hurt me with something that a man was most difficult to accept, and then left me without looking back

I drank half of the red wine like boiling water. I quickly finished drinking it. I opened a can of beer and didn't know what it tasted.

I rarely get drunk. Every time I go to socializing, I always control myself well no matter how much I drink. I have never been drunk. I really don’t know what it would be like when I get drunk. The ancients always said that alcohol can relieve sorrows. Can I really relieve sorrows when I get drunk?

I don't know how many cans I drink, but I started to become drowsy, my hands and feet were heavy and unable to move, but there was still a trace of awakeness in my consciousness. All Xiaowen's videos kept broadcasting in my mind. Xiaowen smiled at me and called me sweetly. I smiled and waved at her, but suddenly a man rushed over and hugged her, teared off her clothes, and invaded her

I struggled angrily, but I was weak all over. I could only watch her twisting her body under the man. She moaned, and the look she looked at me seemed extremely distant

My chest hurts sharply

The phone rang, Xiaowen? Could it be Xiaowen? I struggled desperately to pick it up as if I had been given a heart attack

Brother, how are your sister-in-law? Xiaoya's voice came, and her originally anticipated heart sank again

She is dead! I wanted to yell loudly, but only made a hoarse voice

Ah! What's wrong with you? Xiaoya was obviously scared

I'm dying too... I used all my strength and said that I already felt that I had difficulty breathing, and my consciousness was gradually blurred

I threw my phone out with all my strength. The phone hit the wall and fell down, shattering into several pieces. Xiaoya's voice disappeared instantly and became quiet.

The sunset sun shines in from the window, feeling so dazzling, but it cannot awaken my increasingly blurred consciousness