Chapter 1

After Xiaoya left, everything returned to her previous appearance, but it was different from before.

I devote all my energy to work, often working overtime until late at night before going back, and sometimes even spending the night in the company

I followed Lao He from business to design, and there were too many things to learn. Although Lao He smiled every day, he had extremely strict requirements for me at work, because I became a newcomer again. Newcomers always had to go through beats to grow faster

I can't bear to let him down with me, and I spend several times the time learning what others have learned every time

By the end of the year, I was able to master all the skills proficiently. Lao He patted my shoulder and said to me meaningfully, "Do it well, Xiao Li, your future is definitely no less than mine."

I nodded with disapproval. The future is no one to share. No matter how good the success is, it will be dim.

One day, I received the news that Xiaowen was getting married. She did not invite me to attend, but just sent me a text message to tell me that I was getting married, so I wish me blessings!

I saw her wedding photos in her space. She was still beautiful and charming, but her eyes seemed to have a hint of loneliness and emptyness. Her sweet smile was missing many things that I was familiar with. The man next to her was short and thin, and she was completely unworthy of Xiaowen's elegant beauty. I couldn't help but sigh, can money change a person's aesthetic view?

I sent Xiaoya the photo, Xiaoya said in surprise that the groom was not the manager named Gao. At that moment, I suddenly understood her loneliness

But what's the use? Everything is over. I looked at her wearing a white wedding dress, familiar but unfamiliar, so far away, so unreal.

To be honest, I don't blame her anymore, but I no longer feel too deeply touched in my heart. All that is left is regret and sorrow

I could only sincerely wish her a happy life, and then transferred a red envelope of 6,666 yuan to her bank card and transferred it not long after, my phone rang.

Hello, I'll pick up the phone

The other end was silent for a long time, and I could only hear a slight breathing. I had already guessed who it was.

Do you want to laugh at me? The other end finally spoke, the familiar voice was a little hoarse

You are wrong, I take a deep breath, have you not understood me for so many years? I have already figured out that some things are not blamed for you, maybe it is destined to be like this, the past is over, and there is no meaning for who is right or who is wrong. I just sincerely want to bless you, hope you can live a better life in the future, and I also want to say sorry to what I have done before.

Xiaowen was silent, and then she burst into tears.

I didn't coax her or comfort her, let her cry. I was with me. I never let her suffer grievances, let alone cry. But I controlled myself and didn't say a word, even though my heart was filled with sadness.

The first time I heard a woman crying on the phone for so long, until she stopped, and said in a trembling voice: Are you... okay?

Yes, okay, I said

That's good, you have always been so strong, I don't have to worry about it. Xiaowen said quietly.

I don't know if she wanted to mock me or mock myself. I really want to tell her loudly how many pieces my heart has been broken into, and life has been worse than death, but in the end I held it back

Well, you have to live a good life too. Just got married, don't have any emotions. I pretended to be relaxed and said

I will

I hung up the phone on the other end, and I felt mixed feelings and sighed a long time ago

If Xiaoya hadn't been, I really didn't know what would happen today. Instead of immersing in the sadness of the past, it would be better to let it drift away with the wind, because I have stood up again and will not be able to move in the sadness of the past.

After Xiaoya went back, I often chatted with her on QQ. Her tone was as innocent and enthusiastic as she could not see anything unusual. Only I could feel the intimacy contained in her words.

I don't want to affect her life, and I'm worried that her boyfriend will check her chat records, and there will be basically no sensitive things in the topic.

Xiaoya told me that she and her boyfriend lived well, except that no one accompanied her to go shopping, so that she could save money to buy a house for her family.

Xiaoya is a filial child. I know her wish, but I didn't expect that she would take action so quickly. I can only cheer for her and let her pay more attention to her health.

Xiaoya didn't reply to me on QQ. After a while, she sent a text message from her mobile phone: Brother, I know, I haven't taken that medicine for a long time.

This feeling of the same spirit, Xiaoya certainly understands what I mean, and I was relieved of her and was about to reply to her, but I received another text message: I miss the days when I went to eat, drink and have fun with you. Ah

A hint of warmth appeared in my heart and replied to her on QQ: Live a good life, love will also be there.

During the Chinese New Year, Xiaoya did not go home. She followed her boyfriend to Beijing. Because her boyfriend changed a better job, the two of them quit their jobs and went to Beijing to make a fuss. When Xiaoya told me, they had settled down again in Beijing. Xiaoya said that she was very busy finding a new job and was busy adapting to the living environment again. She chatted with me less and less often, and sometimes she was rarely met once a month.

Once I called her, but the phone rang for a long time before answering. She tried hard to lower her voice inside, saying it was inconvenient to answer, so she called me later

I heard the sound of noise and the man's breathing from inside, and hung up the phone very clearly

I felt a little sad, and even more sad that I was not qualified to be jealous. As I said, since she wanted to live with him, it was her right no matter what.

I remember Xiaoya's words, we have never been together and will never be separated

I know I can't give her some things, so I sincerely wish her happiness

My relationship with Xiaoya has become empty from the world. As the Buddha said, all conditioned dharmas are all in harmony. When arises, the cause and condition are gone, and the condition is gone.

When I went home during the Chinese New Year, my parents knew about Xiaowen and me. They respected my opinions and just advised me not to be too scrupulous early and to find another one when I met the right one. After all, they wanted me to live a stable life earlier, and my mother told me more than once that she wanted to hold a grandson. If she couldn't get married, could she have a grandson for her first?

I smiled without comment. This kind of thing is a matter of life, and it is not enough to just talk about it.

But my mother was obviously serious. She kept introducing various women to me for blind dates, so I had to go back to Shanghai early on under the name of work

This society is no longer something that my mother can understand. I don’t know how I revealed the information. Suddenly, a few women came to me in the name of blind dates, saying that it was my mother’s introduction, and came to Shanghai to find me. When they met, they took the initiative to throw themselves into their arms and opened a room. They had sex more erratic than the other. Before they even put their pants on, they thought they were the hostess. They discussed with me whether to buy a house in Shanghai or go back to their hometown to buy a house after marriage.

I hate such a naked woman who worships money. It doesn't matter if she worships money. At least she has to be a little sincere. Don't exchange her only physical capital for her, just like buying vegetables in the vegetable market.

I even think that if I could drink coffee together and go out to climb mountains and do exercises, it would make me feel better about her than having sex in a room.

They knew that they had no hope of becoming my daughter-in-law. They were very self-aware and stopped getting the benefits I gave after having sex.

I'm tired of this kind of life, and it seems that it's too easy to get bored with pure physiological venting, so I simply don't pay attention to them anymore

One day, I received a strange call with a familiar female voice inside, but I couldn't remember who it was

Are you doing well now? I heard you were on a blind date recently? He said quietly from the other end.

Who are you? I listened to the familiar voice, but I thought about it for a long time but couldn't remember who it was

Just forgot me Ah? The voice on the other end was a little ridiculous and disappointed, and then said, I thought you would remember the fox

It's Hu Lili

Hu Lili said she is in Shanghai now and asked me if I am free and come out to meet me.

After hanging up the phone, I was filled with mixed feelings. This woman who had opened the door to the world for me disappeared for so long, and she actually appeared again. I had an inexplicable impulse in my heart, wanting to see her